Author Note: Flashbacks are from her past all parts of it, so there not like on Lost were its one issue flashbacks. I wanted to make that clear cuz the flashbacks coming up are going to be a little out of order kind of. I hope her past isn't to far fetched, & it's not necessarily something I think happed or anything just a story. I hope this chapter isn't to bad, I feel I kind of rushed through it a little cuz I was going to add something but never got around to it so I hope it isn't to bad.

CHAPTER 2: OLD REASONS & MORE PAIN

Ana was sitting in a chair by the couch Jack was laying on. Ana has been watching him for six hours now and he still remained asleep. She was sitting there reading an old magazine she had found. She wasn't paying close attention to the magazine she was reading though, she was paying to much attention to Jack, who lied asleep on the couch next to her. She couldn't help but feel guilty. If she had just ignored the sounds earlier Jack wouldn't be hurt. She was determined to save his life. She was not going to watch someone else die. She wouldn't let it happen again.

The hatch shift had just changed and Charlie and Hurley came in the hatch, not knowing Jack was hurt. Kate said nothing which surprised Locke as he left the hatch. Kate was feeling too worried and envious. She had been walking through the jungle alone for the past six hours. A little after Ana had doctored up Jack she had told Locke what happened to him. Charlie and Hurley walked to where Ana was sitting and Jack was sleeping.

"What in bloody hell happened?" Charlie asked surprisingly.

She looked up from her magazine to see Charlie and Hurley looking at Jack. You could tell from her eyes she looked tired from working on Jack and she hadn't slept in over twenty-four hours. She wouldn't sleep though in fear that something would happen to Jack.

"He was attacked." Ana said looking back at her magazine. Charlie and Hurley looked at her.

"By. . .them?" Hurley asked. Ana nodded to Hurley's question.

"How is he?" A voice came from behind Charlie and Hurley. They turned to it and Ana lifted her head to see Kate standing in the door way.

"He's okay." Ana answered.

Charlie and Hurley went to the kitchen to get out of the way. They got out some cards and Hurley began to deal them out and the two began to play a game of twenty-one. Kate walked up to Jack and stood watching him sleep. Kate looked at Jack and wanted him to be awake, to see her, she wanted to speak to him, she was afraid he wasn't going to wake up. She didn't want Jack to die. Ana watched Kate as she looked at Jack and saw her sadness and began to feel the same way. Kate stood there for a while longer looking at him and then left once again.

A little bit later Ana dozed off. She began to go remember further back in her life.

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10 years ago

"What are you doing?" J.D asked Ana.

"Don't you want to feel like something?" Ana sighed "We both have no future in school so why not the army?"

"The army? You want to join the army?" J.D asked.

"Yeah, we won't feel like failures." She said.

"We're not failures, Ana." He said.

Ana sighed and looked up at J.D. "Where not." He said with a smile.

"The army?" She asked.

"The army." He said agreeing.

"You'll be there for me and I'll be there for you." He said. "Just like it always has been."

"And will be." She said.

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3 years ago

J.D.'s gun was empty and he was loading it in the jungle. Ana was trying to find him. "J.D!" Ana yelled repeatedly. Ana continued on and heard a gun fire. She stopped, she ran to the gun shot. She saw J.D on the ground with the enemy standing above him. Ana ran not caring what happened to her, she ran to J.D. Her eyes began to water as she sat beside J.D. She laid his head in her knees and began to cry.

He was always there for her and it was her turn to be there for him but she wasn't. She never loved anyone like she did J.D. He was her first and only best friend. He was her protector. He was her first kiss, her first time, her first everything. She and he were friends since they were nine. They have been friends for fifteen years. She loved him and he loved her. She and he were friends and then lovers and then friends again and then lovers and they were friends again. When he died in her arms she finally realized that she loved him as more then a friend. She couldn't help but feel guilty for his death. She cried for her lose, her broken heart, and her guilt. She had just lost the only person she loved, the only person that meant anything to her, the only person that kept her going.

Ana snapped out of her crying hurt for a minute and began to unbutton his shirt to try and get the bullet out and save him. J.D grabbed Ana. He handed her his dog tags. She grabbed his hand that they were in and held his hand. "J.D" Ana began to say tearing up even more.

"Ana I love you, I will always. Please don't be sad, it's my time." J.D said.

"no, no." She nodded her head. "J.D I love you." Ana said. "J.D?" She asked with more tears falling from her eyes. "J.D?" She said with concern, not getting an answer.

The enemy soldiers walked up and grabbed Ana's arm. She couldn't understand them. They were speaking in a different language. She had a hold of J.D.'s dog tags in one hand and clung onto them. She didn't know what was happening and she didn't care, her life was gone, she lost it.

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Ana jumped up a little as she awoken, giving herself a nightmare of her past. She never has told that story to anyone before and she promised herself she never would. She's tried to drown out the memories but never has been able to. She dozed off for a little over an hour. She looked to Jack who was still asleep. She noticed he was sweating a lot. She got up and walked to him and touched his head, he had a fever. She picked up a wash cloth and walked to the kitchen to wet it. She walked past Charlie and Hurly still playing a game of cards, determined to beat the other. She walked back to Jack and put the cold wet cloth to his forehead. Jack awoke after she did that. She raised the cloth as his eyes began to open. She hesitated to put it back on his forehead but she did.

"You're awake." She said with a serious smile looking at his forehead. A silent moment came.

"How did you know how to fix my wound, with out me really having to tell you how to do everything?" Jack asked, curious.

She began to have a quick glimpse of her past again, her army past, the medicine that you learn being in such a gruesome place.

"I just did." She answered forcing herself out of her memories once again.

Jack began to sit up. Ana easily pushed him back down, shaking her head. "You have a fever, you need to rest." She said. He reluctantly lied back down. "Thank you." He said appreciatively.

"For what?" She asked actually not realizing what for.

"Most people who aren't doctors wouldn't have been able to do this on there own." He answered.

She looked at him realizing. She felt she didn't deserve a thanks "No problem." She said back to Jack anyway. She got up and walked to the kitchen and got some more pain medicine for Jack. She returned with the medicine and gave it to him as he swallowed it down hard. Ana watched Jack go back to sleep, the pain had left him for a while with the medication which made her pleased. An hour passed and the button went off snapping Ana out of a daze she was in and woke up Jack in which it didn't the other times. Hurly got the button and he and Charlie left the hatch. Locke had taken over Kate's shift and walked into the hatch. Ana was still watching over Jack. Locke walked into the room she and Jack were in.

"How is he doing?" Locke asked with a low voice, not wanting to bother Jack as he rested.

Ana looked up and walked a little closer to Locke and said with a low voice not wanting to bother Jack either "He's okay" then she turned and looked at Jack. Locke began to walk away. "Hey, John!" She thought a minute. "If you want you don't have to stay here, I'm here and I won't be leaving."

Locke looked at her, both thoughtfully and suspiciously, Locke had been changing, he was not the man of faith he once was. Locke still stared at her analyzing her offer. He's mouth began to move finally after moments of silence. "I think I'll stay here, if you need" He stopped. "If Jack needs anything I'll be here." He said choosing to stay, but he really wanted to stay and keep an eye on Ana. He wanted to know why she was the woman she was, so tough, mysterious, it all caused him to be wary in away. Ana looked at him and turned back to the room Jack was in and excepting his answer. Locke turned as well and walked away from the room but he stopped. "If you want to leave, I can watch Jack." He said surprising her. From his voice she felt he was telling her to leave. She turned to him with a suspicious look on her face. "I can handle it." She said with the same suspicious look on her face with a little guilt and anger as she turned once again away from him to Jack.

Time passed and Jack was awake again. This time he wanted up and wasn't going to let Ana tell him other wise. Ana looked up walking over to Jack. He was rising from the couch and was sitting on it now with the blanket over him. She tried to stop him from getting up but felt his determination and let him get up, helping him a little.

Jack looked at her. He traced her up and down. He noticed her shirt was drenched with dried blood. "Why?" He asked out of the blue.

Ana looked up at him with a questioning look, not getting his question. She stared at him for a while.

"Why did you help me, why are you still down here?" He asked.

"Did you want me to leave?" She asked.

"No!" He answered quickly to her question.

"You should be resting." She said suggesting with a concerned, flirty voice all at once.

"You're not the doctor." He smiled knowing she was right but rejecting her suggestion. She smiled back. He looked around the room and saw a clean pair of his jeans and a t-shirt by the couch. Ana had found them in the hatch earlier. He toke them and began to stand up. He winced as he slowly stood up. Ana quickly rushed closer to him and grabbed his arms helping him up. He started to put on his jeans but was still having difficulty from the pain. Ana stopped him and began to help him. His jeans were on now and she had sat him back on the couch to put his shoes. She was bent down on the floor putting on his shoes. He watched her for a minute.

"You should really be resting." She said this time strongly suggesting, almost telling him. She looked up at his face and received a look from him that told her he wasn't going to. She excepted it even though she knew he should be. "I'm sorry." She said slipping on his last shoe. He looked at her with a curious look. "I should have ignored the sounds." She said explaining.

"Then someone else would have gotten hurt." He said trying to reinsure her it wasn't her fault.

She looked at him with a remorseful look. "He wanted you." Ana said receiving a look from him. "He shoved me out of the way to get to you." Ana explained.

"I want them dead. They know that, they know everything." He said trying to say his thoughts. Ana looked at him agreeing with a remorseful look.

They snapped out of there correlation when they heard the hatch door open. They heard several foot steps. Ana looked up to the doorway and saw Sawyer, Libby, Jin, Sun, Charlie, Hurly and Kate not trailing to far behind and Locke entered the room. Libby was there to see how Ana was, Sun was there to see how Jack was and to help him if needed be, Jin was there with Sun, Charlie and Hurly were there to show the others, Sawyer was there to be his cocky self and Kate was there to see about Jack. They were all curious of what Charlie and Hurly had just told them. Ana looked away from them getting Jack's shirt. She stood up now and slipped the shirt over Jack's head, finishing dressing him. Sawyer was the first to speak.

"What the hell happened?" Sawyer asked looking directly at Ana.

"Dude, the others attacked, I already told you." Hurly said.

"Or did Rambina attack?" Sawyer said with a smirk knowing it wasn't her but he still had it in the back of his mind.

Ana wanted to ignore him but she couldn't. "The psycho bitch attacked." She said with sarcasm. Sawyer gave her a slight chuckle at the name she just chose for herself. Ana looked away from him and looked at Jack who was giving her a look at the boldness she had, to except things. He got up and she helped him up and helped him walk.

"Shouldn't you be resting?" Sun quickly said concerned.

"I'm fine, really." Jack said with gratitude.

Everyone watched them walk out. Kate stood behind everyone with fury, irritation and concern in her eyes. As Ana and Jack passed by her fury grew.

TBC …