Title: My Sakura
By: Cherry Lea
Summary: Syaoran is forced into a marriage with Sakura. He is a cold hearted person. But a glance at Sakura makes his heart warm as if a fire lit up. He is finding a way to get out of the marriage but what if suddenly a baby is involved! And what will happen if his most precious possession is stolen by Sakura! Will he be furious! Read to find out. Please R&R.
Rating: R
Aging: Sakura & Tomoyo- 18……Syaoran & Eriol- 21
Pairing: SakuraXSyaoran, TomoyoXEriol
Genre: Romance/Drama
Previous Chapter:
"Nite Li," She said before she fully steps out.
"Its Syaoran Sakura, or have you forgotten my name?" Syaoran said bitterly. 'Never in my entire life Syaoran,' Sakura inhaled.
"No, but I didn't really know who Syaoran is," She closed the door car and walks up to the entrance. Syaoran smack his steering wheel in frustration.
Chapter 5: Struggling With Emotions
Syaoran…
Syaoran was frustrated with the outcome of the night. He was supposed to make up to Sakura for his sour behaviour the night before. He blew it again by not being patient. He cursed himself. He went for a long drive trying to calm down. When he arrived home, Eriol's car was in the driveway. He walked in and his cousin was lounging in a couch with a bottle of unopened brandy by his side including two glasses.
"About time you came home Xiao Lang, was a little worried back there," Eriol motion him to have a sit.
"How long have you been waiting?" Syaoran reach for the brandy and pour it into the glasses. He gave one to Eriol.
"Quite long, one and a half hour. Where have you been?"
"For a drive, got to clear my head," Syaoran sips his drink slowly staring at no particular thing.
"What did you say to her Xiao Lang? Anyone with eyes could see she was broken by the time she walks out the hall, two days straight of tears isn't good for a girl like her" Eriol was a little bitter. He care for both of them but the look in Sakura's face was really painful to see.
"Did you see her dress yesterday Eriol?" Syaoran asked Eriol without looking at him.
"No one who attends the function yesterday is blind Xiao Lang, Of course I saw it, and it looks perfect on her. I told her so, even your sisters thought so. What about it?" Eriol wants him to get to the point but Syaoran still lingers. He stood up and leans on the window frame.
"It wasn't supposed to be on her. Do you remember 5 years back, we accompanied mom to an auction bidding in China. I brought Shu Yin along," Syaoran stops.
"Hell! Don't tell me Syaoran. I've already knew what's on your mind," Eriol shouted cursing at him. He takes a few breaths. Syaoran is still silent.
"That dress was the one you wanted to buy for her but you lost it to a Japanese company. Huh…such coincidence. Never thought it'll end up on her is it Xiao Lang?" Syaoran just shake his head.
"She don't deserve the dress, Shu Yin did. Syu Yin is the only person that will look perfect wearing that dress," Syaoran tells Eriol.
"Stop being an ass. Wake up, and end this obsession Xiao Lang. It's in the pass. The dress was never hers from the first. Don't hurt Sakura just because you're still living with your memories of Shu Yin. Forget about her, move on with your life, She don't deserve this treatment from you just because of Shu Yin" Eriol just sighed. "What did you really tell her that makes her behave the way she did tonight?"
"I told her that I don't want her wearing that dress again and we Li always have our pride and dignity, so she should act like my fiancée, the biggest mistake I did was, I called her Kinomoto," Syaoran gulped down the remaining of his drink, loving the feel of it. He remembers last night very well, like it was bore into his mind.
Flash Back…
Sakura was trying to make a conversation with him but he just stood there silent and rigid. "It's a nice weather to be out isn't it?" She said and stood a little away beside him. He just nods.
"What do you think of my dress? It somehow feels right to wear this tonight,"
"Why?" His voice was rough. Sakura was taken aback.
"I don't know, maybe because it shows that I'm freely acclimatizing myself to your culture and you family," Sakura softly replied. Syaoran turns to her. His features hard and grim.
"Listen Kinomoto, you are who you are. You don't need to change for me or the family, I don't need or even want that," His voice was rough Sakura bit her lip. "One more thing, I don't want you ever to wear that thing again, you understand me?" He asked. Sakura just afford to nod weakly.
"Now, you're my fiancée. The Li always have their pride and dignity," With that he left standing there.
End Flash Back…
"You are crazy Xiao Lang, why the hell did you do that?" Eriol was furious hearing him said it.
"I don't know, I was too blind by my memories of Shu Yin, I cant look at her with that dress on. Knowing once Shu Yin was really cheerless not having it, somehow it feel like I betrayed her," Syaoran reach for the brandy again trying to drink his sorrow away.
"And then, tonight? What happened?" Eriol urge him to talk.
"I try to make up for yesterday, but she blew me entirely off my track when she told me the paper of our separation for another year will be ready in three weeks. What was I supposed to do? Say no?" Syaoran turn to Eriol.
"Then she threw it back to my face calling me Li all over again, saying she didn't really know Syaoran. What was that suppose to mean? Then, as usual I'm always the one who put the cherry on top of the cake by saying she needs to know her place and make our situation more complicated. What did I meant by that? Hell I'm in a mess right now. She's making my life miserable," Syaoran, for the first time after five years was outraged and showing a whole lot of emotion. He was mad but most of all confused. He was too caught up too realize it. Eriol smile a little. Syaoran is making progress.
"Calm down Xiao Lang, what really happened to you? I never knew the great Li who is an expert in a loose relationship ever caught up like this. The truths now, tell me what you really want from her?" Eriol try to solve every mess.
"I've planned it all, we're going to separate after a year of marriage. During the year I'm not going to hold her from living her life, but she still needs to act a proper way of a wife to me. Not going around as if she is still available, and…and wearing those reviling cloths she wears," Syaoran stumbles upon his words.
"Lets see, first you said you agreed to a divorce after a year but when she told you tonight about it you got angry. Then, you don't want to held her from her life but at the same time trying to forbid her to wear what she likes in other way you're damn jealous when others looks at her. Thirdly you need her to act as your wife but when she do you always back away, I noticed it Xiao Lang don't try to deny it. So please explain your behaviour that is entirely opposed from your plan," Eriol hit it right in his face, Syaoran was tongue tied he don't know what to say. He just realizes it now that he acts that way. He slump on the sofa staring at his drinks.
"You're totally confused right now. As you can see your behaviour is hurting her. She is in love with you Xiao Lang and I'm telling you this for the second time. Why can't you make a decision right now? If you want her, she's yours to have soon. If you don't, tell her early on before things goes uglier for her. So tell me what do you really want?" Eriol wants him to see his feelings. He knows Syaoran is starting to like Sakura but he is hurting from what happened 5 years ago he didn't even know what he means with his own words to Sakura.
"I want my life back, that's what I really want, damn it all. Things are turning upside down. I just want it to be as it was before. She comes back with me to China we live together for a year attending to business matter here and there, and then she will be going back to Japan. That's all, but now every thing went all chaotic. We are not even married yet. I don't know how all this happen," Syaoran stated what he wants.
"One thing that you forgot to include in your plan Xiao Lang. One thing that is the reason all this went all messy," Syaoran raised his brow interested in what Eriol has to say. "You forget about your feelings, emotions,"
"What that has to do with anything. I've never let my feelings distract my decision and my life," Syaoran snaps.
"There is where you're wrong. Maybe all this years you try to put all emotion and feelings in you stored away safely somewhere but now, you're in big trouble my friend. Those feelings and emotion is coming back to you and is trying to catch up with 5 years without being used. Think wise now, better includes it in before anything gets worse and you'll regret it. I'm just voicing my opinion. It's up to you. One more thing Xiao Lang, I wanted to know," Eriol paused, when Syaoran turn and look at him then he continued. "Do you love or at the very least like her?"
"I…."it was a long paused, "I don't," Syaoran answered curtly.
"You DON'T or you WON'T?" Eriol asked again. Syaoran didn't know what to say.
"Think about it. Thank god I sent Tomoyo back to Sakura's place. At least she wont be crying alone again tonight," Eriol was about to leave.
"Is she with her last night?" Syaoran asked Eriol.
"No, we went for a drink and stroll at the beach till early morning. Sakura told her she doesn't need to stay over, means she needs the time for herself. But I don't think she's okay being alone tonight from the way she acts and what you've told me just now. Nite Xiao Lang. Have a nice sleep, I hope," Eriol went to his room. He was staying with them. 'I won't be having any good sleep from now on Eriol, not ever. Somehow I got the feeling,' Syaoran is thinking about Sakura and what Eriol just told him.
To confess the true feeling to himself is the most thing he afraid of. He recognised this feeling but he is trying as hard as he can to force it away. He's not taking another risk in his life. Once is enough. Shu Yin was his everything. He loved her. He was even wiling to argue with his dad to let him marry her instead of Sakura. He was afraid to let the memories go. He was strong, cold, and unemotional to other peoples' eyes. But inside he is holding his pain to himself, nobody know what he feels or what he went thru. He always wonders if live will be meaningful as it once was. He just wished someday someone would come and show him the way. If only he know who it'll be then life will be much easier.
Sakura…
Sakura maintained her composer until she reaches her room. She went to wash her face from any trace of make up and took off the dress carefully and hanged it in her closet. She was wearing her night gown she wore the night she made out with Syaoran in the garden. She switch on her night lamp and stares at herself in the mirror. She has done this a lot lately, staring at her self trying to see something in her that can make Syaoran at least like her.
'Am I that unattractive, that Syaoran didn't even feel something for me? Why is he playing with my heart? Making me feel all wonderful and a few second later ashamed and heart broken. What am I getting into? God help me, how am I going to get thru life loving a man that despises me?' with that she broke into tears. Life is taking on a wrong turn for her. She never before cried this hard or this often in her 18 years of life. Life has been treating her good and pleasant, and now she is tasting the bitterness of it, Sakura reach for a coat that was hang behind her blinds. It was always there for her to touch. She hugs it and inhaled Syaoran's scent. It was earthy and of sandal wood full of masculinity and sensual. Somehow it smells really nice and calming.
Sakura tumbles into bed with Syaoran's coat, she sobbed with her face buried in it. She didn't return it to him since he didn't asked. Her life was going to be really tough after this. She didn't know how she fell hopelessly in love with Syaoran but she did. She can't help herself; he treats her well the time after he proposed to her. But things went ugly yesterday. What was wrong with her dress she wondered that makes him really mad at her for wearing it? It was just right for the occasion and it was modest for her. Syaoran has seen her in the club and at the mall, but he did comment on her attire once the first time and this time he was dead serious about it.
"Sakura," suddenly a familiar voice was heard. She felt Tomoyo lay besides her hugging her that was resting on her front burying herself in Syaoran's coat. Tomoyo rubbed her back trying to calm her down from crying.
"Its okay Sakura, cry if it makes you feel better," Tomoyo put her head right beside her.
"I feel awful Tomoyo, I love him but he feel extremely opposite from what I feel for him. I made the decision, but I don't know if it's the right one. I've asked the lawyer to draw up the paper for our separation next year," Sakura turn and hug Tomoyo. Tomoyo hugs her back tightly trying to take away some of her pain that she was feeling. She feels miserable seeing her cousins who she loves like a sister cry like this. She wants Sakura to be strong and go through with it and settle the mess that was her destiny to entangle it. She was chosen from the first by the elders.
"What did he say?" Tomoyo wants Sakura to speak out her problems.
"Yesterday at the engagement, he told me he didn't want to wear that dress again, I don't know why. Then he called me by my last name. It hurts so much. Then tonight, he act as if yesterday never happens. He came to the party, asked me to dance but I refused. I've made up my mind the night before that I'm agreeing to the separation. I've made a mistake by telling him then and there. He insists of sending me home," Sakura paused, a tear slipped down. It still hurts remembering those last few words he said to her.
"I was angry and we had a little quarrel, then he said I should act like a wife with dignity and pride just as the Li. He said about the pride and dignity the night before and implying it again tonight, he even said he wants me to know my place." Sakura can't stop her tears it flows freely. Her shoulder was jerking from all the crying. Tomoyo just stay silent and let her release all her feelings.
"I do know my place Tomoyo. I do. It's no where near his heart or by his side. I'm just a wife that he was forced to take," Sakura sobs again. Tomoyo didn't stop rubbing her back.
"Sakura, look at me," Tomoyo still hugs her. Sakura slowly pulls back and look at her. Tomoyo wiped away her tears and smile a little. Trying to tell her that eventually things will go well.
"Do you love him Sakura?"
"I do, I don't know why and how but I do with all my heart," She answered glumly.
"Sakura, the course of true love never runs smooth. Love is just like a battlefield you have to fight for your love and in the end the truth will come out. Then, you will know if you've won or it's just an illusion of feelings," Tomoyo explain.
"What should I do Tomoyo? I want him to be happy. If separation will make him happy, then so be it. I love him to much to cause him sorrow even though my heart breaks every time I think of letting him go. But I'm going to let myself be content being with him for a year," Sakura still sobs and hug the coat close to her heart. The one thing that always reminds her of his warmness and kindness towards her.
"I know, but don't give up yet, this not the Sakura I've known since childhood. The Sakura I know will never ever give up before doing something about it," Tomoyo gave some support to her.
"I know, I've changed a lot lately. I'll try Tomoyo. I wont let anything pulls me down except Syaoran himself tells me that he doesn't love me. Then will I stop trying, what's the point of forcing someone to love you," Sakura smile a little.
"I know you can do it Sakura, believe me it'll turn out right. You have to judge him from the way he treats you this past week. I know there's a part of him that he is hiding from everyone. Maybe you could bring him back,"
"What do you mean bring him back?" Sakura was puzzled.
"Eriol told me that Syaoran has gone thru something bad, haven't the girls told you?" Tomoyo asked.
"No they said it was not their secret to tell, but I think that's what they meant by wanting me to be strong and having faith in me. I was the only one who could bring him back to normal. They told me don't ever agree to anything that he will regret afterwards. It'll break him more. Sometimes Syaoran is thinking of others too much. He didn't think of him self. And now, they want me to think for him and take care of him," Sakura somewhat was in the dazed.
"Oh Tomoyo, I promised them I'll try but I broke it. I did agree to separate, and I'm not strong. I should have been patience. I knew he went thru something but I forgot all about it. How could I be so selfish?" Sakura sobbed.
"It was not your fault, you didn't understand. But now you have, you can still try Sakura," Tomoyo sooth her.
"Tomoyo I need you to help me," Sakura pleads.
"Anything I can Sakura,"
"From tonight I'll try as hard as I can, I'll be patient, strong and tough going through all this and I need you to remind me every time I'm having a break down and forget my promise. Please Tomoyo," Sakura looks at her.
"I will, and I won't stop helping in any matter I can. Believe me Sakura," they hugged each other. Sakura was determine, she'll try to do as she promised. This is the responsibility she was entitled to just as Syaoran's to marry her. She'll be a perfect wife for him. She falls asleep with Tomoyo soothing voice and the thoughts of being Syaoran's wife.
Dress Fitting…
Sakura once again was in her mother's studio. This time her aunt Sonomi and her mom is there busying themselves around her and her friends. The Li sister and Mei Lin are also there for their dress fitting. They are having a great time.
"Mom, do you think this looks perfect?" Sakura twirls around on the round platform and watching the effect of the full gown making around her at the big mirror. Her mother just laughs.
"Of course it is dear, after all Tomoyo design it for you," Her mom sips her tea on the sofa while aunt Sonomi is jotting down a few alterations for the girls' dress.
"Thank you Tomoyo, this dress is wonderful." Sakura beamed lightly. The dress was pure white and it's made of silk. Sakura love the silky feeling. It was a Cinderella wedding dress with the full gown and attached corset top. The veil was very long. Sakura was breathless.
"No biggie Sakura, after all we've promised each other," Tomoyo still busy taping them. Sakura just shook her head. The girls gathered around her mother and Aunt Sonomi. Prying their old stories about how they met their husband and how they opened up the studio. The pot and plates were never empty of tea and cakes. Sakura feel content with her life.
"Sakura, the cards are done. Here have a look," Feimel called for her. Sakura didn't realise a pageboy brought in a few box. All she knew was the girls was already awing at it. She laughs and picks one of it. It was lovely. It was rectangular and it is white. A few tints of red and pink at the inside of it. The one she picks was from the bride side. While the one from the groom was more formal. It's also rectangular but it's gold with a silver lining. At the front of both cards was a picture of them taken alone. Syaoran looks really handsome while Sakura looks perfectly beautiful. The girls are complimenting on how the look perfect for each other. Sakura smiles.
"Why did you pick white for the bride side, with a tint of red and pink I assume?" Sakura asked Sheifa.
"Oh, we decided that the theme for the wedding was 'Blushing Bride'," They laughs and Sakura blush a little.
"And it suits you perfectly Sakura," Chiharu teased her. The others laugh along and discussed a few things with each other. Her friends asked the sisters what they should do on her wedding and where they should be. They where in a heated discussion and some of them were writing down the names of the guest in each cards. Sakura changed into her normal outfit. A pair of jeans and a baby blue sweater. The weather was a little breezy. Sakura was staring out the window when she heard a boisterous interruption. The boys have come for a visit. Sakura tensed a little. This was her first time meeting Syaoran after last week.
"What took you so long Takashi?" Chiharu was pouting. Sakura grins watching her friends making their men restless. The guys are truly nice. Ren has also tamed down his clubbing nights and spend the time with Mei Lin. Eriol was trying to distract Tomoyo from her handy cam while Shan is praising Rika on something that make her smile brightly. Naoko wasn't left behind. Yuki was on the phone with her, updating their plan. She realizes that Syaoran was walking towards her. Sakura breathe in lightly and try to act normal and serene. She looks up at Syaoran smiling a little at him.
"Good Afternoon, where were you from?" Sakura didn't know what to call him.
"I came back from a meeting with you father and brother, then picked the guys. Ren was in shower when we arrived. He's why we're late," Syaoran smirks. Sakura grins and look at Ren who is being teased by Mei Lin.
"Have you seen the invitation card?" Sakura asked him while walking to the tables to pour him some tea. Syaoran followed. He took a seat beside Sakura and reach for a card.
"I like the bride side than mine," He simply said. Sakura raised her brow.
"But I like yours better," Sakura told him.
"Anyways it's both of your wedding and it doesn't matter, do help writing the guest name Xiao Lang," Fanran smirk at him. Sakura laugh. Xiao Lang she like that name. It was his name in Chinese. The girls never called him that here in Tomoeda, probably what his family used to call him.
"This card reminds me of someone," Syaoran is examining the cards a knowing smile on his face.
"Of course, we choose the theme of 'Blushing Bride' because we think it suits her perfectly," Fiemel explain and continue on with her writing. The girls are pushing the list names to their men for them to help read it aloud.
"Yeah it does," Syaoran turns to Sakura; he smirks a lot around her lately. He just stares at her as if he was undressing her with his eyes. Sakura was exasperated.
"Stop it…" She whispered without looking at him. Focusing on the list of guest name.
"Give me a reason why I should do that," he whispered back, this time closer to her ears. Sakura inhaled sharply. She was shivering to the core. His closeness makes her feels breathless. Syaoran decides he wants to tease her more and make her blush. Making the theme more suitable for her. She is prone to blushing and furiously at that.
"I see you're still cold with that sweater on, you won't need it after you marry me," Syaoran whispered in her ear again. Sakura blush crimson, she didn't realize the others were staring at them. Syaoran smile in victory while the others cheered and laugh. Her mother and aunt shake their heads smiling and leave them to their work.
"God Syaoran, the theme does go hand in hand with her. Cant have the bride audacious when the theme is opposite," Ren teased Sakura. Sakura glares at him playfully.
"You guys should focus, now continue…" Sakura laugh at her own bossiness. She wasn't fit to be bossy and never will.
"Here is the list of menu for the banquet, you two pick the course," Fuutie passed the sheets to Syaoran.
They spent the time deciding on the menu. Syaoran decide that the guys should settle their tuxedo the same day so they don't need to come back again since the wedding is in another 2 weeks. Sheifa called the hotel that was catering for their banquet to pick up the menu and send some catalogues for them to choose the silverware, sheets, plates and what's not. The decorator also sends a few sample of how the garden is to be set for the banquet including the flowers, and the girls excitedly pick the ones they think perfect with their theme they didn't even let Sakura see the their choice of set. Everything was done by 6 o'clock from their attire for the wedding, to menus, to the wedding date's rehearsal, booking for honeymoon tickets and lodging in Paris. The only thing left was the bachelor and the bachelorette party. Sakura wanted it to be the night before the wedding and so does the guys. By the end of the day everyone was exhausted. The cards have been ready to be sent to the guest the next day. The girls went their separate ways with their guys. The Li sisters went home. Syaoran wants to send Sakura home.
"Everything is in order, just two weeks left. I do hope things will turn out as it should," Syaoran speaks to Sakura while driving her home.
"Hai," Sakura agreed softly. She didn't know what to say. It's a little bit awkward after what happens last week.
"The jeweller that was supposed to design our wedding rings has contacted me yesterday saying that the ring is ready. Do you want to go and fetch it together or you prefer for me to get it for you Sakura?" Syaoran asked.
"It doesn't matter both ways, it's up to you," Sakura prefer him to make the choice for her. Syaoran sigh.
"About last week, I didn't……" Once again Sakura cut him short.
"Forget it," Sakura blurted out. She doesn't want him to remind her of that night. It'll make her sad.
"Let me say it Sakura," Syaoran calmly speaks out. "I didn't mean what I said, I was a little tensed with how things have been going on and I just didn't think before I said it. It means nothing to me,"
"But it did to me, those words make me see clearly Li, it makes me realize that I'm no longer a teenage girl who is going to run my life like others even if we separate another year. My life has change completely. I know you feel guilty of saying those words but thank you for it. I just think it should be clear to us that we're just two opposite person and we should just be friends. That way I'll understand you better. You don't have to treat me as your wife if you don't want to, I'll understand perfectly. If I continue on believing in something that is not real, I'm the one getting those consequences later, not you," Sakura turns to him, trying to make him absorb some of what she was saying.
"Fine Sakura, but one thing I want you to know is. I am Syaoran. The one who you have been spending time with. I know you thought that I often change my behaviour and moods, and that is me. I don't think you'll understand but I want you accept how I really am and stop calling me Li. I'm Syaoran to you," Syaoran calmly tells her what he needs to. Sakura sigh and slump back on the seat. 'This is not going to work, me with my ways and him changing character all the time' Sakura just kept quiet until she reaches home.
"Sakura," Syaoran holds on her shoulder stopping her from stepping out from his car. Sakura turns and he smirks the way he usually did. Then he touches his nose lightly to hers. Sakura was taken aback. Then she smile brightly and laugh.
"It is so like you Syaoran, reminding me that I've done that before," Sakura just smile and step out. 'Maybe…just maybe, it'll work out between us. We just need to tolerate each other and try to understand each other better' Sakura stand aside and wave goodbye when Syaoran drove off. She is hanging on this small hope for her to at least hang on and won't give up. 'I don't really know what you when through but I'll definitely try to win your heart' Sakura step in with a new courage in her, knowing things will be as it was written by fate. If her fate was to be Syaoran's wife then nothing will come between them.
The Bachelorette Party…
The party is going to be held in Tomoyo's mansion since the preparation for the banquet at the back of the garden is underway. That morning Sakura is suppose to have breakfast with her brother in his office while the girls prepare for tonight. Tomorrow is her wedding day. She was a little excited by it but trying as hard as she could to wound it up so people won't tease her. Three days before, Syaoran pick up their wedding band from the jeweller and past it to Eriol to give it to her since his sisters and her friends won't allow him to meet her. Sakura was amazed by it. The band was extremely beautiful it suits him perfectly. It was a heavy gold band with a very thin line of silver encircling it in the middle. Sakura adores it. She went back to the jeweller and asked them to inscribe a sentence at the inside of the ring. It was written 'My husband, I'm yours forever truly heart and soul'. She meant every word of it. She'll try to make him love her and break the contract. She'll give her heart and soul to him and only him. She was supposed to pick it up later that afternoon. She was on her way to her brother's office. He as usual was up early. Knowing Sakura he asked her to drive her car, she was relieved. No one knows about her sending the ring back. She decides she will stop for a drink at The Stash and meet Tori for a while. It has been long since they met.
"Ohayo Onii-chan," Sakura greeted him cheerfully. Touya was reading the papers and smirk at her.
"So, my kaiiju did arrive on time," Touya love to tease her.
"Sakura no kaiiju……"Sakura shouted. She stomps her way to her brother's table and takes her seat.
"Well Sakura lets eat, what do you want?" Touya give her the menu. His secretary was already by his side. The foods are provided by their Hotel that was joined in the same building.
"Let me have a glass of fresh milk with a set of egg sandwich and a pancake, not forgetting my favourite muffin. That's all for me Akari," Sakura smile brightly at Touya's secretary. She nods and smiles back. She was his secretary for two years now.
"I'll have the usual Akari," Touya nod at her and she left the room.
"I miss having breakfast with you onii-chan, you're very busy lately," Sakura puts her chin on her fist and stare up at her brother. Touya smile warmly.
'Yeah, I noticed too. How's everything Sakura?" Touya is admiring his sister's beauty. He feels a little depress thinking of Sakura leaving him. He loves Sakura very much. He even was over protective towards her Yuki told him so, or else he wont even realize it. Sakura was his everything. His life was surrounded with her laughter and her kindness. Sakura was special; she is his one and only sister. He'll break Syaoran's neck if he hurts her. Touya didn't know Sakura agreed to the one year contract.
"Everything is doing fine onii-chan you don't have to worry. I'm glad you have sometime today. I miss spending time with you. Still trying to adapt myself with the idea that you be by my side every second after this. Do you think you will miss me onii-chan?" Sakura's eyes were kind of pleading. It makes Touya yearn to sooth her but he knows Sakura is going to be a married woman soon, and a wife. He has no rights on her anymore.
"Nah…probably not kaijuu. The house will be peaceful," Touya try to cover his feelings by teasing her.
"Mou……Onii-chan, you don't care if I leave do you?" Sakura nearly cried. She loves Touya very much. He was there every time she needs him since she was a baby. Touya was a very responsible brother. Their age gap made him more protective.
"Come on Sakura, you know better than that. Of course I'll miss you. How could I not? You're my kaijuu for the last 18 years and the day after tomorrow I'll wake up to the empty house and my kaijuu will be gone and no more sound of you stomping down the stairs to get to breakfast. I love you Sakura. I'll make sure we meet each other every month okay? If Li cant come to Tomoeda. I'll come to Hong Kong," Touya patted her hand lovingly, trying not to show too much love. He's a man he wasn't suppose to be emotional.
"Okay, thanks onii-chan. I love you too," Sakura squealed. The food arrives.
"Tadaimas……oishii…." Sakura squealed and close her eyes savouring the sweet taste of the pancake. Touya laugh whole heartedly. Sakura will always be his baby sister no matter who she is. He hopes that she'll be fine being married to Li. He wants Sakura to have loved as their parents.
Sakura have a great time with her brother. They were always close to each other. She really hopes that they wont fall apart just because she is married. Sakura drove to the jeweller and pick ups Syaoran's band. She then stop for a drink at The Stash.
"Hey Sakura, what are you doing her? Alone my I add in," Tori was surprised she was there.
"Cant I visit anymore?" Sakura pouts.
"Of course you can. I was just surprised that's all. Isn't your wedding tomorrow? And you're here alone without the girls," Tori pulls out the chair for her.
"I just came back from my brother's office; I thought it'll be nice to drop by. Will you be coming to my wedding tomorrow Tori?" Sakura asked.
"I won't miss it for the world, want your usual?" Sakura just nods and Tori left. He came back with her vanilla milk shake.
"How come you're still taking order?" Sakura gulp the sweet drink slowly. Tori laugh.
"I'm not, its just for you. Usually I help the guys back there in the kitchen. It's more fun," Tori answered.
"You should just sit in your office and manage the café not working in it," Sakura frown.
"I prefer this way because I'll be closer to my workers. They respect me for who I am,"
"You're really different Tori. I wont be spending more time here since I'll be living in china with my husband," Sakura sigh.
"Save a dance for me tomorrow okay," Tori request for a dance.
"Sure, no big deal," Sakura left for Tomoyo's house. The girls are all there. Hanging around in Tomoyo's room. They were gathered in front of her huge plasma TV.
"Hey girls what's up?" Sakura entered the room and saw they were excited by something.
"Oh, hi Sakura. Come sit with us. Tomoyo is playing the video of you since you're nine," Chiharu laugh at Sakura face.
"Howee…!Tomoyo please no, I thought it was only for your private collection," Sakura pleads to Tomoyo who is walking to the player.
"This is what private collection is for. Come on Sakura it'll be fun." Sakura comply. They were laughing along watching those tapes of Sakura and Tomoyo even their friends are in few of the tape. The Li sisters join them. The tapes were wonderful. They were of her cheerleading performances, birthday parties and many other occasions. Tomorrow after the banquet she and Syaoran are going to Paris. Her luggage has been packed. Marie helped her with it. After the movies were over they hang out around Tomoyo's veranda for tea and fill in each other with what has been going on with their life, relationship and what's not.
"So Mei Lin, we see you've already getting serious with Ren," Chiharu teased.
"We're just trying to get comfortable. Ren ditch his clubbing habits on his own, I didn't ask him to but he still hangs out once a while with the guys. He really is kind of sweet in his own way but people didn't notice because they're too busy judging him from his appearances," Mei Lin laugh a little and told the others about Ren.
"Yeah, we understand. But we're glad both of you are making an effort to make it work," Rika supported her and Mei Lin thanked her. Things have been going well for everyone. Rika, Chi and Naoko are well off with their guys. Shan took Rika out when he's free from school work and gone for a date with her alone and even when they hang out with all the others. Yuki was a bit busy like Touya since he works with him and Sakura's father. He calls Naoko regularly never let her feel out of place when her friends are with their guys. He took her out for dinner when he's free. Sakura was glad they hook up together. They suit each other well. Chi and Takashi are doing well. Takashi isn't half as busy as Syaoran. He helps his father with their company and club. Takashi is more gentlemanly than other known he is. He did dine in with Chi's family a few times. Hang around with them during weekends and what's not.
Tomoyo's relationship with Eriol is perfect; all of them admire Eriol's genteel. Every one loves the part when he brought Tomoyo for a walk at the beach in early morning. Hanging around and talking, trying to know each other better. He is compassionate towards Tomoyo's desire of designing, he even talk about it with her. Every one could see Tomoyo is happy. Sometimes her naughty and evil side came out when they hang out together and Eriol also have a side where make people gaps as if they didn't believe he is the one suggesting those things he said. It always makes them laugh.
They were ready to go out that night but to a different club since they are trying to avoid the guys and Sakura wasn't allowed to meet Syaoran. All the girls went home to change after they had fun spending time together. Sakura was taken aback when Sheifa gave her a velvet box. She was speechless, there laying on a satin bed was the most beautiful diamond set, there was a necklace, earrings and a bracelet. It was so beautiful it almost make her cry. Sheifa pat her shoulder and told her Syaoran wants her to wear it tomorrow. Sakura try to refused but the wont here any of it. Sakura didn't go home because Tomoyo have packed a few of her cloths the day before since they didn't want her to see the garden till tomorrow. Tonight, she and her friends are going to have a sleep over at Tomoyo's and wake up very early to go to Sakura's for the preparation. Sakura was grateful that it was ladies night at the club they went. No men are allowed in. She dance with the girls like she always do. That night, when everybody are asleep Sakura lay awake thinking of her life.
This past week has been really emotional for Sakura. From the way Syaoran treats her to the idea of leaving everything behind and looking forward to a new life with Syaoran in China. At first being with Syaoran was confusing and it still is a little, but she has already accept that she needs to be patient and win him over. His confusing attitude was cause by something or most probably someone. She needs him to tell her himself. Since that realisation and the promise Sakura has look at their relationship in a new point. She no longer the girl she was and she were a bit sad by it. She has been forced to grow up in matter of a month. It's for the best and she always console herself with the thoughts of making everything right and wonderful soon for everyone even herself. When she is with Syaoran, she braced herself. She doesn't want to be hurt but try to soften him in the process. When she's with the girls she became the Sakura they always knew and when she is spending time with her father, mother and Touya, she is their little Sakura-Hime, their one and only princess. She adapts herself, attitude and feelings to every each person in her life. That won't let people point their fingers on her and said she has changed.
Syaoran was a bit cold, first when she met him. Then things get lighten up by their first kiss. Then again he proposed adoringly to her just to satisfy her childhood fantasy. They went for a movie the next day. That is when his bitter side showed a little but was soften by the topic of the ring. She again felt his wrath the night of their engagement and the next day at the prompt. Sakura knows Syaoran can be very caring and adorable at times but cold and stern the other. Syaoran treat her like a little girl if she stays as she is the first time they met and it annoys her. She is eighteen years old and has feelings and desire of a woman. When she behaves a little mature, Sakura could see that he loosen up, calm and composed. She was missing him after days of not seeing his face and listening to his husky voice that always make her feel warm at heart. Sakura dozed off to sleep but was awake few hours later when her cell phone rings. She rubbed the sleepiness off her eyes and saw that it was 3.30am.
"Moshi… Moshi," Sakura yawned.
"Morning Sakura," she smiled and lay back on the bed.
"Its very very early in the morning Syaoran, why aren't you asleep?" Sakura is still smiling.
"I've just came back from Tak's club. You remember the bachelor party?"
"How could I when I had the same party a few hours ago but I'm already in bed. How come your party ended at this time? Li Syaoran, tell me where are you right now?" Sakura was agitated how could he came back so late? is he in some kind of trouble and that's why he call. Syaoran laugh.
"I'm at home in my room on my very…very comfy bed I assure you," He laughed again. Sakura was relieved.
"Why did you call? Miss me?" Sakura teased.
"Kind of, and it's sweet of you already acting as a frantic wife," Syaoran turns to tease her.
"Am not…," Sakura growled and Syaoran burst into another fit of laughter, Sakura giggled.
"Where are you?"
"Tomoyo's room, with all the girls. They won't let me go home last night because they don't want me to see the garden until tomorrow," Sakura whined.
"I've seen it this evening,"
"Mou…not fair!" Sakura whine again.
"Well, guys aren't sentimental like you women. Well the garden is very nice and I won't say anymore or else the girls will have my head," Syaoran loves to make Sakura whine she looks really cute.
"Syaoran, I think I want to go home. The girls are asleep; after all they're coming to my house later at 6.30 to prepare for the wedding. Since I'm up, I better just go or else I won't be waking up for our wedding," Sakura yawned again.
"Yeah, but make sure you wont even take a peek at the garden or else the girl will be furious, are you driving?" Syaoran agreed with her he knows how she feels.
"Yeah, hey Syaoran see you tomorrow," Sakura stood up while still on the phone and reach for her car keys. She is still in her pyjamas. She knows Tomoyo will bring her stuff to her place later that morning.
"That is so cliché; we will definitely see each other tomorrow. It's our wedding," Syaoran laugh Sakura did too.
"I know, just like to say it. Oh…it's so cold out here," Sakura didn't realise she said it out loud the latter part.
"Cold? Where are you?"
"Outside on my way to my car, I'm driving home," Sakura has already reached her car and start the ignition.
"You didn't even change your cloths? I though after last time with me in the garden you wouldn't want to venture out in that night dress again," Syaoran teased.
"Mou… don't say that," Sakura moaned and drive her car carefully.
"Do tell me why," Syaoran still won't stop and Sakura still whine.
"Okay, I'll stop. After all you're driving. Wont want my bride to be injured tomorrow for her wedding," Sakura laugh heartily.
"I wont, and for your information I'm wearing a pyjama, not that skimpy night dress you saw me in the other night," Sakura just want to make it clear to him.
"Yeah, after what happen you wouldn't dare," Syaoran this time burst out by Sakura's screech.
"You said you'll stop, mou… wait till I get the chance. You'll be helpless," Syaoran said good bye and hang up. Sakura reach home safely and open the entrance door carefully as not to make any noise. She didn't even peak at the garden because she has promised. Sakura creep up to her room but stopped at the hallway. Touya's room is on the end of left side while her parents on the other end. Her room is in the middle. Sakura turn right and walk softly. She knocks and heard a reply. She then slowly opens the door and creep in.
"Sakura, what's wrong sweet heart?" Her mother asks in concern. She sat up in the big king size bed, her father awake too both curious too know her reason.
"Sorry mom, I just miss you guys so much," Sakura reach the bed and climb in and sat in the middle of the bed in front of them.
"Tomorrow is my wedding and here I am creeping up into your bed," Sakura laugh a little. "I feel that my time with my family was very short and now I'm going to be married. I still want to be here, pampered by you and creep in here if dad went for outstation. I'm going to miss you mom, dad. I know I need to do this and I want to it's just a short notice, and both of you and even Touya is too busy to spend time with me," by that time Sakura was crying. Her mom hugged her tight. Her father did too. He kissed her hair and stroked it. Feeling a little gloomy that she will be leaving them.
"Its okay Sakura, you can come home whenever you want to. I'll be here, your dad too. We love you so much. I feel the same way. Letting my one an only daughter at such young age to someone is really hard but we'll get over it soon. I'm sure Syaoran will be visiting us as often as he could," Sakura stop sobbing when her parents sooth her. She lay there with her parents and talks with them a little. She kissed them and left. She feels a little better than before. She went straight to the end to Touya's room. She didn't knock because she doesn't have to, Touya always seems to know when she is there; she always did that since she was three every time she had a nightmare. Touya always comfort her and put her to sleep then carry her back to her bed. When she entered Touya was not sleeping but staring up the ceiling.
"Nightmare Kaijuu?" Touya turn to her and chuckle he was awake when he heard the entrance door opens and knew it was her. Sakura just shake her head.
"Come here," Touya pat his bed by his side. Sakura walk over and snuggled up to him.
"Our last time together like this isn't it Sakura?" Touya asked. Sakura just nod.
"Don't cry so kaijuu, I'll always love you no matter what happen. Even if I'm married," Touya assure her. Sakura is still silent. Between her parent and her brother, it's harder saying good bye to Touya. He's always the one for her at every time. Fetching her from school, attending every function at school and support her. She didn't feel like talking just want to feel his comfort.
"You know what kaijuu, I was the happiest person eighteen years ago when you came into the family. Even more so than mom and dad. I've always wanted a baby sister to protect and care for. Life was much brighter when you're around. I know this day would come. I know it since it was first agreed by dad and the Li. Since then I will never let pass any chance to spend time with you. I know our time together is limited, but I certainly didn't know it's this early," Sakura's shoulder shakes with her sobs. Touya pat her shoulder.
"Listen Sakura," Touya shake her shoulder and Sakura sat up staring at him. Touya smirk and wipe away her tears. "If you ever had any problems after this. Don't bottle it up inside you, you'll suffer. Cry as much as you want because then it'll feel better. If not all then a little. If it didn't work, talk to someone or anyone. I'm here, you can tell me. You know I'll be there for you right?" Sakura just nod and smile a little by such question. Of course he will he has never not there for her.
"Its settle then," Touya nods. Sakura smile and still stare it him.
"What? Do you expect me to carry you to bed like I've always did years before?" Touya look at her derisively.
"Mou… of course not. I'm a big girl now, good night Touya. I love you always," Sakura kissed his cheek sweetly and went to her room it was 4.30, another 2 hours to sleep. Touya is right it feels a little better when she cry. As if some of it was released. Sakura entered her room. This was her since she was a baby and turn over a few times to suit her age. She lay in her bed and pulls the comforter over her body. She went to sleep immediately. Feeling the familiarity of her surrounding for the last time. She was asleep with a smile on her face. Tomorrow is her wedding and she is looking forward to it. She wonders how Syaoran is taking it all in. Is he as emotional as she is? She didn't have time to think, sleep has taken her over.
A/N: Syaoran's side of story will be up in next chapter, together with the wedding and Honeymoon. Thank you all for being patient. My exam will be over soon just another two papers and it's all done. Friday is my last paper and next Monday is my prompt. Yay! Can't wait to go, I'm so damn excited. Any criticism is welcome. Oh before I forget, does anyone want a one-shot of Sakura and Syaoran for Christmas? If anyone does do tell me so. I'll try to write one for all. Ja ne… Aisheteru… Please R&R.