Sex, Love, and Secrets
Queenofgoths- did I really say all goths were crazy? I know that's not true, I was goth is 7th grade. And usually you would be emo-goth if you were suicidal. I don't like emo's that much, they annoying me how they put their hair on one side of their face, slit here wrists, say they hate life and how they think vampires are real.
animelover6000- I'm sorry for not writing enough lemon! I'm ashamed of myself... I promise I'll put some for the next chapter, (yeah no lemon here )
MiguelsLover- yes, limbs are good, very tasty...I couldn't decide on the insult for this chapter so i came up with something stupid. (you'll see) Bad, but stupid, and do they use that word in Scotland?
crisismydaemon- yes, this story has definatly gone to the dark side to join Darth Vader and his minions of those dudes in funny white suits.
-These mistakes we've made-
Tala popped another pill. "fifteen." he counted. He loved Rei. Tala wished he'd break up with Kai, then their relationship could be more open, and he wouldnt have to hide his feelings any longer. Staring at the bottle, he wondered what he was doing. His mother said obsessive compultive disorder was common for kids his age. She said it was common for boys to obsess over the person they love, and all this medicine was supposed to do was make him not love Rei so much. But, he felt it was doing the opposite.
Rei this. Rei that. That was all he thought of. Even though his side relationship with Bryan was starting to become serious, Rei was still at the top of his head. Tala opened to bottle again. He felt addicited to the medicine, even though he wasnt addicted. It said plainly on the lable, WILL NOT CAUSE ADDICTION. Maybe this was all in his head. He wanted to be addicted to forget about Rei but he wanted to think about Rei, day and night. He sighed, closed the lid and threw the bottle across the room, his stomach was beginning to growl form hunger, and these pills wern't filling him up. He sat up, and an immeadiate jolt of pain rushed to his head. He wimpered with agony. It hurt bad, very bad. It had to be the worst headache he'd ever had. He layed back down, his head resting on his propped up pillows, and he began to feel a bit better, but his head still throbbed. Tala took deep breaths, focusing on each one, and he counted. "5...6...7...15...32...59..." His eyes fluttered. He began to feel sleep coming on, but he didnt want to sleep, it wasnt dark yet, and he was hungry, and you cant take pills on an empty stomach.
"Okay." He thought. "I'll just shut my eyes for a moment. Just a minute. Just to rest my head." His eyes shut and within a second and he was asleep.
Rei's annoying phone alarm went off, startling him from his sleep. He looked around his dimly lit room, unable to find his cell phone. It wasnt on his bedside table, and it wasn't next to him on his bed. He growled when he realized it had fallen off the bed, and landed next to the wall. He dug around, trying to reach it, but the damn bar was too close to the wall, and his arm couldn't fit through. Rei stood up and pulled the bed back, then went to retrieve the phone, turning it off with anger (A.N- this has happened to me at 3 in the morning). It was 7:30am, and it was time for him to get up and get ready for school.
Rei got dressed and was out the door within 5 minutes. He wanted to hurry and get to Tala's house, He knew Tala was always awake at this time, even after a night of partying with himself, downing two liters of soda and dancing to his techno. Rei chose not to be a part of these parties. They seemed to much like a satanic ritual. Atleast Tala would be calm now, almost normal. Upon aproching his house, he saw Tala was everything but normal. There was Tala, cell phone in hand (along with his stuffed lobster doll), dancing not-so-gracefully to the Waltz of the Flowers in his front yard, at 8 in the morning. And of course, even if it was impossible, he was singing along with the non-existing words. Rei backed up, hoping Tala wouldn't see him, but much to his bad luck, Tala's happened to spin and see him.
"Rei!" Tala shireked. "Dance with me!" Then before Rei could turn and run for his life, Tala had him by his hands and they were waltzing aross his lawn.
"No! Tala...stop...stop Tala...I don't want to dance...Tala! Stop! This isn't normal! Stop flinging me around like that, you're gonna make me puke up my breakfast!" Rei shouted, but Tala was too in-tune with his ringtone, that he acted like he didn't hear anything.
"WEEEEEEEE!" Tala shouted. Rei stomach began to lurch. "Tala! God dammit, STOP!" Rei forced Tala off of him and they both fell flat on the lawn. Rei ripped Tala's phone out of his hand and immeadiatly turned off the annoying ringtone. Tala wimpered.
"What the fuck is wrong with you Tala! Your outside at 8 in the morning, dancing to a god damn ringtone! Then you had to pull me into it! Why can't you ever be a normal 16 year old!"
Rei didn't notice but Tala's eyes began to fill with tears. "I-I dunno...I just woke up and felt like dancing this morning..I-I'm sorry Rei..."
Rei sighed and pulled Tala up.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you. It's just...are you going to walk to the busstop with me today?" Tala sat still for a moment. "Wasn't planning on it..." He replied. Rei growled.
"Come on Valkov! You are coming to school today! You've already missed too many days, they'll kick you out!"
Tala sighed and dropped to his knees. "But Reiiiiiiiiii" Rei pulled him back up. "Stop acting like fucking baby Tala, you are going to school." Tala humphed. "Fine..."
After Tala decided to take his sweet time getting ready, they were both on their way to school. Walking, that is. Tala had made them miss the bus.
"Quit slacking Tala! Acting like that isn't going to make me change my mind." Rei shouted back at Tala, who was walking about a mile an hour. "Ohhh...fuck off Rei, you sound like my mother..." Rei grinned. "Now that's the Tala I remember..." He thought.
Tala picked up his speed until both boys were walking side by side. Rei looked over at Tala. Tala's once exsquisetly icy blue eyes that were a marvel to look upon, now seemed a dull grey color. His flaming red hair seemed to had lost is softness and texture. Even Tala's skin that was always a beautiful porcelain white, seemed to be a sickly white color, almost grey. It looked as if all of Tala's happiness had faded away forever. He remembered Tala the night before. His mother had given him pills, and he said he took one right after another. Also, this 'other' he admitted to having, who was he? It was like a lightbulb lit up in his head. Who ever this other person Tala must be hanging around wasn't good for him, that's why he must look so ill, including the pills of course.
"Tala, you said there was someone else beside me, who is it?" Tala didn't reply and walked with his head down. "It's.." He spoke softly. "You wouldn't know him..." Rei chucked. "Oh wouldn't I? I know every boy in our grade Tala, and some even younger then me, what makes this boy is any different? Tell me, WHO IS IT?" Tala walked faster. "It's nobody Rei, and it's none of your buisness who i'm around." Rei's memory flickered back to Kai, maybe him and Tala wern't that different at all.
"It's okay Tala, I don't care who it is, I just want to know his name. Actually, you might be right, and I might not even know who you're talking about. Tala sighed.
"I-It's...Bryan Kuznetsov..." Rei gasped. Tala turned away with a flinch. "I told you you wouldn't like him!" Rei stopped walking and threw Tala against a nearby tree. "That explains everything Tala! That explains why you look so sick, that boy is hurting you! He is, isn't he!"
"No! He's not hurting me Rei! He helping me get better, unlike you!" Tala shoved Rei off him hard and countiued his way down the sidewalk. "I have been helping you Tala! I've helped you everyday I've known you!"
Tala countiued his fast walk, not turning back to look at Rei. "Fuck you Rei..." He shouted back and Tala ran. Rei didn't run after him, he let him go. He remained sitting on the sidewalk where Tala had thrown him, not caring to get up. He heard the school bell in the distance, he was only right down the street from it. He sighed. Now he'd done it, he went and pissed Tala off over a stupid boyfriend he had. Rei pushed himself off the ground and marched to school. He wasn't finished with Tala yet, he didn't get the last word. When he got to school, he knew exactly where he would find him.
Rei ended up having to sneak out of Science class during a class project, since a teacher didn't allow him to go to the bathroom when he arrvied at school late. He was able to just leave when the class was admiring the wonders of mixing baking soda with vineger. He planned what he would say to Tala when he arrived at the bathroom. First he'd tell Tala off for walking away, then he'd explain how Bryan was a good-for-nothing bondage freak, and how he needed to stay away from him before he got himself killed. He shoved open the door and almost fell over. There, not only was Tala, but that freak Bryan. And not only were they sitting up on the counter like they were fucking kings of the world, but they were making out like they were kings of the universe. Rei growled loudly and he watched Bryan discusting hand slink up Tala's shirt, and began playing with his nipple.
"Well well well, if it isn't Tala and that cunt face, Bryan." Rei said, hands on his hips, and the most threatining face he could muster. Bryan broke his and Tala's intimate kiss, and hopped off the counter slowly, his eyes glued to Rei's. He had a smug look on his face. Rei gulped. Everyone knew starting a fight with Bryan led to a broken jaw, or worse. Bryan gave a little grin, raised his eyebrow and approched Rei slowly. "Hmm...and well isn't it Rei, Tala's told me a lot about you." Bryan spoke, a hint of cheerful sarcasm in his voice. Rei looked over at Tala who was still sitting on the counter, his eyes avoiding Rei's glare. What nasty, untrue things did Tala tell Bryan?
Bryan began to let his eyes search Rei, with Rei found extreamly offensive. He didn't want his number one enemy checking him out. He went to say something, but nothing came to mind, Rei wasn't very good at comebacks, let alone insults. He had thought up his first insult on his way to school and apperantly it wasn't offencive enough, 'cause Bryan didn't seem to mind. A little smirk played across Bryan's face, and Rei regretted wearing his tight pants that day. Finally, after having enough of this awkward silence, Rei fianlly spoke his mind.
"You like my body Bryan? I bet you wanna fuck it, don't you?" Silence followed that, but it was a different silence. After a moment, Bryan just laughed. "Me? Want to fuck you? I'd rather fuck a dead monkey then feel the discustingness inside your ass."
"Oh really," Rei replied quickly, "I was thinking the same thing." Bryan looked as if he was about to kill, but Rei didn't feel a bit frightened. Tala finally spoke up and began to have a say in this argument, even if it was a useless one.
"You two, quit fighting. Rei, I didn't want you to come in here and start a big scene with Bryan, so just leave, okay? No hard feelings." Tala said, his voice was shaking.
"No." Rei replied, "I'm not leaving until you give me a good explanation why you've lowered yourself to his level."
"My level! What's that supposed to mean?" Bryan yelled, throwing himself at Rei, and if it wasn't for Tala holding him back, Rei would have been beaten to a bloody pulp on the bathroom floor.
"It's supposed to mean that your a slut that fucks for nothing but pleasure!" Rei replied.
"Oh, and you arn't?" Tala said, throwing Bryan back and out of the way. "I believe you made a mistake in calling him the slut. There is only one slut in this room, and that's you Rei." Rei didn't reply, he kept his face down. "You never knew Rei, you never even noticed..." Rei looked up at Tala and saw tears running down his cheeks.
"I loved you Rei, and you never noticed. I tried to share you with Kai, and I accepted him. But I can't do it anymore Rei! I love you, and you only think of me as a fuck buddy, nothing more. I don't want to be that person Rei! I made a mistake of ever loving you! Bryan's not the bad guy here, he never did anything to hurt anybody Rei. You're the bad one and I don't wanna stoop to YOUR level!" Tala sobbed, and rushed past Rei and out the door, followed by Bryan, another nasty grin plastered his face. He thought he'd won, and he was right, Tala was his. Rei heard the door slam behind him and he collapsed onto the ceramic tile floor. His sobs echoed across the room. He did it for sure now. It was over for him and Tala, and he couldn't bare the thought of it. He did love Tala, maybe not in the way Tala wanted him to, but he did love him, and he didn't have the right to say all the mean things he did. After a minute or so, he heard the door bang open. He hoped to god it wans't a teacher, or Bryan coming back for revenge.
"Rei? Is that you?" Rei turned around. And there was Lee, the boy who had a knack for turning up at the wrong place at the wrong time. Lee joined Rei on the floor, "What's wrong?" He asked. Rei didn't bother yelling at him to go away, he needed this comfort, as much as he denied it.
"Everything!" Rei replied. He threw himself on Lee's shoulder and sobbed. Lee 'shh-ed' him and rubbed his back, comforting him.
"It's okay Rei, everything will get better. It's alright, shhh, it's alright." It seemed like forever that Rei sat there, crying away his pain on Lee's shoulder. He felt so horrible. "What would Kai think of me if he saw me this way? This stupid man-whore, no, this stupid little ho-boy sobbing on my ex-boyfriends shoulder because everything in my life just fell apart, and it was all my fault. He would think of me as a weak child, that depended on his daily sexual activities to pull him through tough times."
"First I lied to Kai, then I accused Tala of picking bad men, then I put down Bryan saying he was the whore, when really I was the whore all along. I'm such a fucking hypocrite." Lee held me in his arms, much like he did when we younger. But because of me I had ruined our beautful relationship. I had forgotten how good it felt to be in his arms. I had forgotton how good it felt to be in anyones arms really. I wanted Kai badly, to appologise to him, and to tell him the truth. Nothing good came out of my relationship with Tala, it just made me more of a selfish bitch then I was."
"All these mistakes, there's too many. How can I make up for them all?"
ugghh...sorry for not updating for a long time, I didn't have any ideas for a long time. Then when I don't have good ideas and I try to write, my chapters turn out sucky. I think I did pretty well on this chap. I have about two whole weeks of Christmas vacation to work on this fic. Shall I write a Christmas one with all this time on my hands? Maybe I will if I get an insparation.
By the way, I had a lovely about-to-be lemony fic of Bryan and Tala writen down in my fanfic notebook I take to school. (Ya never know when you're gonna get an insparation...could be in the middle science, I actually had one once and i got in trouble for not taking notes ) BUT one day in fiber craft class, (yes i make baskets and rugs like old ladys,) I had the notebook out and open on my desk, (I wasn't writing in it currently, but i WAS writing in it,) and Miss. stupid Jones had to come up and ask me what is was, and I eventully had to give it to her. Then she wen tand read it! That evil woman! shoots her with a knife I just wanna kick her in her balls! Then, I asked for it back at the end of class and she said she'd be keeping it for a while because it wasn't aPpRoPrIaTe for school...gyahh...fuck her...then i tried to get it back the next day and she said she gave it to the discipline office. SO i went to the discipline office, (With my lovely beyblade yaoi fan lovers, including Frankie the boy who inspired me to make a TalaxRei fic cause heloves them together, ) to get it back and they said they didn't have any sort of notebook. Well I hope that old woman has a nice read...hehheh...damn I miss my fanfic...AH WELL! REVIEW! TELL ME IF LIKE THIS CHAPTER! and help me decide on a title for chapter 3! I dont have one...and i dont like the name of number 2...also, I actaully danced to my Waltz of the Flowers ringtone on my phone walking with my mom to the car on night around 11... I slept good that night...I also have a website but i cant post it here...email me if you want it. It's beyblade and Yugioh yaoi...
REVIEW! p.s. I'll try to put in more lemon, SORRY!