Running. Have to run. It didn't happen. I didn't just see that. I don't have to think about that!
Tears streamed down Lily's face as she ran, making her way blindly through the narrow passages and trick corridors of Hogwarts. She saw stairs ahead of her and pelted up them, breath coming harder and harder now in her throat. It was the long flight of stairs to the astronomy tower and soon defeated her, her sobs coming full force as she slowed for breath.
How could that happen? It was disgusting! The two of them rutting like animals on the floor of the shower. Everyone had been looking for Sirius since he had left early at dinner and she guessed Remus had found him. But how? How could Remus do such a thing? His beautiful body, fabulous mind and genteel demeanour reduced to that. Lily gagged as sobs and imagery came together in her throat, but still made her way up the stairs.
Breaking out into the fresh air was a fleeting blessing as the unfairness of it all washed over her. Why Remus? She'd had a crush on him practically ever since James first introduced them. Remus's kind nature had only shone brighter next to the crass attitude of his friends, but it had been those same friends that had meant she had never had her chance. They were always together…and now she had seen with her own eyes that he was the worst of the lot.
As Lily moved over to the edge of the roof she felt a little of her composure return. Up high like this, it gave her a sense of control. She knew it was ridiculous, but everything seemed so small when you were up high, like it couldn't really matter that much…it was a false comfort but she would take whatever she could get.