A/N thanks for the reviews guys! I'm glad you liked it! Please tell me what you think of this part! The big confrontation! Duh duh duh…

Ryan stared up at Marissa as she stood in the doorway, she had changed into jeans and a tank top and she was looking at him with a desperate pleading expression. Just looking into those sapphire eyes was making his heart ache. How could she have the nerve to show up here after everything she had done? Did she really think he would want to speak to her ever again?

"Please." She whispered pathetically, her voice shaking with emotion as tears glided softly down her cheeks.

Seth clenched his fists and rose to his feet, glaring at Marissa with intense, furious eyes.

"I think you should leave." He spat trying to stay as calm as possible. He couldn't believe she actually expected Ryan to want to talk to her after what she had done. Marissa stared up at him with wide, tear filled eyes and looked at him pleadingly before tearing her eyes away from Seth and drawing them back to Ryan who was sitting perfectly still and staring down at the floor refusing to look at her.

"Wait Seth…I wanna hear what she has to say." He whispered desperately trying to keep his voice steady. He didn't want to give her the satisfaction of knowing she had hurt him so he simply shut down. The way he used to all those years ago in Chino when his mom's latest boyfriend was beating the crap out of him and yelling, when his mom was screaming at him to get out her house, when his dad got arrested and they had to move. All those years he had refused to give those people the satisfaction of knowing they had gotten to him so he just shut down and blocked everything out refusing to give them any sign of pain.

Seth spun around and stared at his brother as if he was insane. Why was he doing this? Why did he want to talk to her?...How could he just let her walk in here? Ryan's dull lifeless eyes met his brother's and Seth saw something he hadn't seen for a long time. Something he hadn't seen since Marissa had broken up with Ryan because of Oliver…emptiness. He let out a long sigh and he knew he should let Ryan 'talk' to Marissa. Marissa looked almost as surprised as Seth.

Marissa POV

I can't believe he actually wants to talk to me? I can't believe I actually came here after…after what happened. But most of all, I can't believe that I've thrown everything with Ryan away over some stupid drunken mistake. How could I have been so stupid? Looking at him now I realise exactly what I've done to him. I was one of the only people he truly trusted and I let him down, just like everyone else had done before. I had something special, something perfect with him and now I've just gone and screwed it up like I always do. That's one thing you can always rely on me for. I look into his dull, empty eyes and I realise how much I've hurt him and how much I love him. But why does he actually want to talk to me? Seth is obviously furious at me, he has a right to be. In fact I wish Ryan was furious, I wish he would shout and scream at me…at least do something to show how he feels but instead, he just sits there staring at the floor looking lost and alone. Disappointed. That's the worst thing, you know when you want your parents to be angry at you but instead they just say they're disappointed and it makes you feel so much worse? I don't think I could feel any worse right now…there's one thing I hate and that is guilt and I'm full of it right now. So I should be after what I've done…I don't think he'll ever forgive me for this.

Seth looked between his brother and Marissa nervously before shuffling over to the door.

"I'll um…I'll leave you to it." He mumbled catching one last look at his brother and shooting him a weak smile before leaving the pool house and closing the door with a sigh.

Marissa flinched slightly as the door closed with a snap and an uncomfortable silence fell upon the room and hung thickly in the air. She shifted awkwardly from foot to foot her hands stuffed into her jeans pockets to stop her from chewing her entire nail off. She watched him her heart aching with guilt as he stared down at the floor blankly his hands shaking slightly as he gripped the bed frame. The 5 second long silence seem to last for years as she stood there watching him, waiting for someone to speak. She knew he wasn't going to talk to her…why should he? So she might as well break it…

"Ryan I…I just want to explain to you…" She started shakily but she was cut off by Ryan snapping his head round to face her. His previously empty eyes were now burning with intensity and his whole muscular frame was shaking as he glared at her with such force she felt tears spring to her eyes. He hated her…

"I don't want to hear your explanations…nothing you say will change what you did. I loved…I love you and you just threw everything back in my face. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you and I thought you felt the same way…but I guess I was wrong huh? As fcking wrong as you can get." He said bitterly his fiery eyes sparkling as he stared at her. She flinched at his words and felt warm tears trickle softly down her face. She knew everything he was saying was true. She just wished she could take it back.

"Ryan…you don't know how sorry I am. I've spent the whole day just praying that I could take it all back, that I could be back in your arms again and none of this would have happened. It didn't mean anything…it was just a stupid mistake. It didn't mean anything…I love you Ryan and I would never cheat on you." She sobbed her whole frail frame shaking as sobs wracked her chest. Ryan glared up at her tears forming in his eyes as he cursed himself for showing any emotion…but he couldn't help it.

"Really? Looks like you just did…I would have preferred it if it did mean something, because then at least I would know my whole life was ruined for a reason, not just for some stupid fling that meant nothing." He found himself on his feet but he couldn't remember standing up. He looked into her tear-stained face and closed his eyes trying to squeeze back the bitter tears that threatened to escape.

"I trusted you…I loved you. I guess in the end I can't depend on anyone but myself, because everyone just lets you down in the end. I thought you were gonna be different but…you're just the same as everyone else." He whispered resentfully tears burning in his eyes as they slid down his cheeks. His voice wavered as he spoke and his hands shook violently. He looked into her painfilled eyes and felt his broken heart ache.

"I think you better leave now…I can't stay here with you, it's too painful…Have a nice life Marissa Cooper." He whispered shakily watching her shake her head and the tears fall slowly from her beautiful eyes.

"I can't leave things like this Ry…I love you! I'll do anything just please…tell me what I can do to make it better! I love you Ryan and I'm not letting you go!" She sobbed gripping onto his shirt and looking up into his hurt face.

Ryan pulled at her hands and prized her off of him pushing her away gently tears pouring down his face…it was hurting him so much to do this. He couldn't bare letting her go but he had to…

"Don't do this Marissa…if you love me you'll go…please just don't do this, it hurts too much." He said now unable to control his emotions as she backed away from him her whole body shaking as she wailed in despair. She looked into his face as the tears flowed freely from his shining blue eyes and his whole expression broke her heart…it broke her heart to leave him but she knew she had to…she had blown it, she had ruined the one good thing in her life. And now she had to walk away. She took one last look at him, both looking into each other's pained eyes before she stumbled from the room sobbing and shutting the door behind her. She ran off into the night air sobbing uncontrollably before reaching her car and slamming the door. She folded her arms over the steering wheel and rested her head in them and she let all her emotion flow out. Tears poured endlessly from her eyes and sobs wracked her chest painfully as her whole body heaved with each desperate cry. She had lost him…

FlAsHbAcK

Marissa stumbled blindly up the pathway, guided by her mother and Summer on each side. She giggled slightly as she tripped on her heels

"Oh come on guys, just give me a clue…I can't see a thing!" She laughed gripping onto Summer's arm so she didn't stumble and fall. Summer giggled and Julie simply smiled slyly

"Oh honey, that would just spoil the surprise…there'll be lots of surprises tonight." She said smiling as she led her daughter up the driveway to the club ahead.

The music blared loudly around her and Marissa giggled as another barely dressed stripped danced around her. She could hear Summer's shrieks of laughter from somewhere across the room and other screams and wolf whistles mostly coming from Summer and Kirsten who were both legless. Marissa sighed as she looked down at her orange juice, it was a shame she couldn't have a drink but she knew if she had one she would want more and if she came home drunk she would have broken her promise. She wasn't going to drink, well not in excess anyway. Especially after what happened last time. She groaned inwardly as Julie sauntered over clutching a chardonnay and grinning like a Cheshire cat.

"Hello honey, how's the party so far?" She asked taking a sip of her wine and flicking her dark red hair over her shoulder. Marissa fixed a fake smile on her face, it was really rather disturbing that her mother was actually acting like a human being for once.

"It's great mom…thanks." She said looking around and smiling at the various strippers and drunk women. Julie smiled and eyes Marissa's glass

"Oh, you need another drink. Let me get you one…an orange juice right?" She asked taking the glass from Marissa's hand. Marissa forced another smile

"Yeah, thanks. I'm going to talk to Summer." She said finding any excuse to get away from her grinning mother…she could have sworn she was on Prozac or something. Julie nodded and headed off to the bar clutching Marissa's glass. A dark haired attractive bar man appeared at the bar and shot Julie a flirtatious smile.

"What can I get you?" He asked. Julie smiled and flicked her hair, glad that she still had it but she needed to concentrate tonight so no hooking up with cute barmen half her age.

"Can I get an orange juice please…orange and vodka." She asked slyly grinning as she watched Marissa giggling and smiling with Summer.

"Make it a double.."

Later

Marissa stumbled up the driveway giggling uncontrollably with Summer as they staggered up to the driveway followed by Julie and a rather tipsy Kirsten. Julie unlocked the door as Marissa let out a loud shriek of laughter and staggered through the open door. In the shadows stood a tall, muscular, dark-haired man. He grinned at Julie who smiled back.

"I'll be right back guys, I left something in the car!" She said knowing her words were falling on deaf ears as the other three women were giggling and staggering through the hallway looking for more booze. She shut the door behind her and crept across the drive to where the tall man stood. He smiled and lit a cigarette, the orange tip glowed in the darkness and silvery plumes of smoke spiralled into the air.

"Hey Jules…so what exactly do you want me to do?" He asked looking Julie up and down and smiling. Julie's expression was blank as she looked up at him.

"You do exactly as I say…Marissa is totally drunk, I'll get her more drink so she has to lie down, I'll take her upstairs and that's where you come in…" She whispered slowly

"You have to make her think you've slept together…trust me, it'll be worth your while." She said pulling out a wad of cash and smirking. The man smiled slightly and stubbed out his cigarette.

"I'll do it…"

Next Time: We find out exactly how Julie's plan takes place...does it work?