A/N Again thanks for the great reviews! One thing I pride myself on is my quick updates and here is another one! Kari…don't jump out of your chair! Lol So, Sandy and Kirsten come to New York! How will Kirsten react to Marissa being there? You'll have to find out…please review, it's like oxygen to me! Help me to breathe! Lol I'm so weird…so enjoy and review!
Ryan shuffled along the hallway, his hands buried deep in his pockets and his mind buzzing with a thousand different thoughts. He sighed deeply as he stopped outside Marissa's door and looked down at the brass knob with trepidation. How was he going to do this? He had to apologise but he couldn't think of the words. He had never been the most articulate of people at the best of times but how was he supposed to apologise to her without everything becoming horribly awkward again. He had to do this before Ellie woke up otherwise she'd keep running in to show him her drawings and making things more complicated. For once she was actually staying in bed past 7. He stretched out his hand so it was now hovering uncertainly over the handle not sure whether to turn it or not…his other hand was balled into a fist ready to knock on the door. Why was this so hard?
'Come on Atwood, pull yourself together. It's not that hard, she's just Marissa…' He thought to himself but that was the problem…It was Marissa the one person who managed to make him feel most nervous, most insecure but at the same time gave him all the confidence in the world. He sighed, shook his head and knocked gently on the door.
Marissa jumped and almost dropped her hairbrush as she heard a soft knock on her door. Her heart started hammering faster as she heard Ryan's low voice from behind the door.
"Um…Marissa it's Ryan, can I come in?" He muttered nervously trying to keep his voice steady. Why was he doing this? He thought desperately as he struggled to formulate an acceptable, non-awkward apology. Who was he kidding? Non-awkward, that would never happen. Marissa tried to speak but couldn't find her voice as she looked up at the door her hands shaking as she set down her brush on the nightstand. What did he want? Was he going to kick her out? Was he going to ask about last night? She cleared her throat realising she had been silent for almost a whole minute.
"Um, yeah one second." She said her voice above it's normal pitch and sounding oddly squeaky. She swallowed and quickly smoothed the bed covers and checked her hair before walking shakily towards the door and pulling it open quickly applying a large dazzling smile. He stood in front of her his hands back in his pockets, his deep blue eyes cast downward as he shifted on the spot nervously. He drew his gaze up to her sparkling sapphire irises and felt his racing heart skip a beat…this was going to be hard.
Marissa surveyed him apprehensively as he looked into her eyes looking awkward and nervous. He cleared his throat looking her up and down totally breathless by her stunning yet casual appearance.
"I um…I…I guess I just…I…" He struggled, stammering and stuttering as he tried to get the words out. She couldn't help but smile as he fought to get out what he was trying to stay, he was so cute when he was nervous. 'Stop it…you're with Jake' She told herself defiantly but it was no use as she got lost in his eyes again, the eyes that had burned with hurt and anger last night…He was definitely going to ask her to leave, why had she been such an idiot last night? Why couldn't she have just let things be, then he wouldn't be mad with her and there wouldn't be this awkwardness…well there would always be awkwardness.
Ryan swallowed and looked back into her eyes taking a deep breath and taking a mental note to kick himself later for being such a retard…Better just get it over and done with, come right out with it.
" I just want to apologise for last night…you know for being a complete…a. I shouldn't have gone off at you like that, I guess it's…it's just been hard seeing you again because it just…reminds me…it reminds me of everything I don't have." He said quietly, looking down at his shoes and shifting from foot to foot. Marissa felt tears spark in her eyes and pushed them back, a smile crept across her face and as Ryan looked slowly up into her eyes he caught her breathtaking smile and felt a small half-smile curl up at the corner of his lips. He wasn't mad at her? He felt guilty…He missed her, he missed her! Oh god, what should she say? What should she say?
Ryan felt colour rise in his face as she smiled at him…his heart was thumping in his chest and his legs felt like jelly. He was such a prat…god that sounded stupid. She was probably going to laugh.
"Um Thanks…but I think I should be the one apologising, I shouldn't have bought it up in the first place. I shouldn't have…you know…either. It was stupid and I want to stay, you know, friends?" She offered embarrassedly, Ryan looked up and smiled.
"Friends." He said grinning, she smiled back…Friends was better than nothing, she thought faintly, lost in his eyes.
Friends…he could do that.
Summer sat in the bleak looking waiting room flicking through an out of date magazine distractedly. Seth tapped his foot against the floor rapidly whilst tapping the sides of the chair with his finger tips in rhythm. Summer glanced over at him and sighed, she reached over and took his hand in hers and he stopped and looked around. She smiled slightly setting the magazine down in her lap and looking into his tired brown eyes.
"It'll be okay…he's just gonna tell us our chances. It'll be fine, I'm supposed to be nervous not you." She said with a smile. Seth nodded and sighed
"I know it's just…I can't stop thinking about last time what if…what if it happens again? I don't think I…we could handle it." He said his voice wavering slightly but his eyes fixed determinedly on Summer's. She gave his hand a gentle squeeze.
"Don't think like that, we got to stay positive ok? Anyway, any more what ifs and I'll go rage blackout on your hiney." She said warningly, Seth raised an eyebrow and gave her a questioning look
"Hiney? What happened to all the variation ofasses that you call me at least 20 times a day?" He asked curiously running through all of Summer's favourite insults in his head 99 of them involving the word ass
"I thought we should stop using words like that so the baby doesn't grow up using those kind of words…they can be influenced now you know." She said knowingly, Seth snorted slightly and Summer shot him a glare.
"Oh so I swear now... and the baby's first word will be ass or shit?" He said laughing slightly. He leant over close to Summer's stomach
" Hey there little guy, you're mom's a psycho…you hear that?" He whispered. Summer slapped Seth round the head with the magazine fighting back a laugh. The door opened and the doctor stood in the doorway glancing around the waiting room.
"Summer Roberts?" He asked looking around. Summer dropped the magazine and stood up followed by Seth who was smothering a grin. Summer linked hands with Seth and walked towards the office.
Marissa watched as Ellie played with her dolls chatting contentedly to herself and laughing and smiling. She watched with a faint smile on her face remembering all her dolls she had in her room back in Newport. The ring of her cell phone made her jump slightly and she reached into her pocket and pulled out her sleek silver phone and flicked it open…Jake cell. She sighed and reluctantly accepted the call.
"Hello?" She said in an overly bright tone, she could hear voices in the background.
"Hey Sweetie, just calling to check up on you! How're you doing?" He asked taking a sip of his orange juice and smiling across at the beautiful brunette who was sat in front of him wearing only a skimpy silk robe. Marissa paused debating whether or not to tell him where she was staying, not telling him was definitely the better option. She didn't want to go into the plumbing bill, his stuff, where she was staying.
"I'm good thanks, missing you. How are things going over in Paris?" She asked keeping an eye on Ellie as she continued playing with her Barbie and a teddy bear.
"Great thanks…the view from my apartment is great." He said smiling seductively at the barely dressed woman in front of him who was slowly unwrapping her robe.
"Well sweetie I'm sorry but I have to go, filming you know…love you." He said hurriedly as he moved closer towards the woman in front of him. Marissa almost let out a sigh of relief.
"Yeah bye…love you."
She hung up and smiled across at Ellie.
"Who was that?" She asked pointing to Marissa's cell.
"Oh…just a friend, so tell me about your teddy…what's his name?" She asked kneeling down next to her.
"His name is Mr Bigglesworth…Uncle Seth gave him to me." She said with her thumb in her mouth, Marissa smiled knowing that was a typical Seth name. Ryan paused in the doorway as he watched Marissa talk to his daughter and hand her the toys…this was how he had always wanted things to be. Him, Marissa and their kids…funny how things never turned out how you wanted. He smiled as he watched them play. It was weird how he actually wished she was staying longer when yesterday was adamant she would only be staying the night…
"So by the looks of this scan the baby is very healthy…of course due to your miscarriage with your previous pregnancy we will have to have more check-ups and appointments to make sure that the baby remains healthy." The doctor finished handing Summer the scan, tears started in her eyes and she felt Seth's hand hold hers tightly. She smiled across at Seth happily…maybe things would be okay. They'd have a child and have a real family, their own child.
"Thanks doctor."
Seth felt like the world had been lifted from his shoulders, things would be ok…they were having a baby. He returned Summer's smile and squeezed her hand.
They were having a baby…a mini Cohen. He thought proudly. He couldn't wait to tell Ryan and Mom and Dad.
Marissa jumped as her phone vibrated in her pocket, she dug her hands into her jeans and pulled out her cell and flicked it open.
"Hello?" She said keeping one eye on Ellie as she tottered across the room towards her toy box.
"Miss Cooper? Chris Kallend here, the plumber?" He said his voice rough and gravely. Marissa sighed remembering the slightly over-weight pervy man who had leered at her the whole time he had been trying to fix her plumbing system.
"Yes, is the apartment sorted?" She asked tiredly running a hand through her golden hair. As much as she loved being around Ryan again, no matter how awkward it was, she didn't want to impose on him any longer. She heard Chris sigh and knew it wasn't going to be good news…
"Well, the pipes have done a lot of damage, we managed to salvage most of your stuff but the whole system is going to have to be re-done. It's gonna take a good two months, maybe longer." He said. Marissa closed her eyes and sat down…great, just great. She couldn't stay at Ryan's for two months! Staying in a hotel for two months would be a disaster and she didn't really have anywhere else to stay…she could rent a place but what about the furniture? She couldn't by a whole new set of furniture just for two months…This was a complete disaster.
"Great thanks! What am I supposed to do huh?" She said angrily fighting back tears of frustration.
"I don't know I'm sorry…We'll try and get it done as soon as possible."
"Yeah thanks for nothing." She said flicking her phone shut hastily and sighing deeply. She closed her eyes and let a single warm tear streak slowly down her cheek. Why did Jake have to be away? She felt something tug on her skirt and she opened her eyes to find Ellie looking up at her with those big blue eyes…Ryan's eyes. She smiled slightly.
"Why you cwy?" She asked softly, Marissa smiled and wiped her eyes.
"Because my house is broken." She said tightening the hair band around her small blonde pig tails.
"Your house is broken huh?" A deep voice said from the doorway. Marissa looked up and smiled and felt the colour rise in her face. Ellie ran unsteadily over to Ryan and attached herself to his leg.
"Yeah, the plumber just called…it's gonna take two months to repair the damage!" She said watching with a small smile as Ryan picked Ellie up and walked over sitting down on the couch next to her.
"Two months huh?" He said hiding a smile. He looked across at her as she nodded and wiped her eyes with a delicate hand. He looked into her shining sapphire eyes and felt his heart beat a little faster. She's so beautiful, he thought breathlessly. He could…could he? Would that be too forward? Or…but she didn't have anywhere else to go. Would she say yes?
"So…you can't really stay at a hotel for two months without having to move around and there wouldn't really be enough room for your stuff…you need a real house, a house with a few extra rooms just for all your shoes." He said with a smile, she laughed slightly and shook her head.
"Yeah thanks for the info but where am I going to find a place like that?" She said oblivious to her surroundings, Ryan sighed slightly.
"I really don't know!" He said sarcastically, she looked across at him watching his face as a large grin spread across his face, she felt her heart melt as she looked into his smiling eyes. Was he really asking? Did he mean…did he want her to stay here?...He couldn't, why would he want her here for two months? She raised an eyebrow watching him curiously as he bounced Ellie on his knee grinning to himself. He fell silent and looked up at her, his grin replaced by a serious look.
" Stay here…It's free and I need a hand with Ellie when I'm at work and when Summer doesn't have afternoons off and…I'd like the company." He said flushing slightly. Marissa felt a grin work it's way slowly across her face and she felt her heart swell happily. He really wanted her stay. He was so cute when he was embarrassed! She thought as he flushed red and looked down at Ellie.
"But um…If you don't want to that's fine, I could find you a hotel or something it's just I…I thought it would make sense and it's been nice seeing you again really…But if you don't want to I understand if it's too um, weird for you or.." He stammered nervously, he was cut off by Marissa pressing a finger to his lips. He looked down at it before drawing his gaze up to her smiling one his heart pounding as she drew her finger away.
"Shutup…I'd love to stay here. Thanks so much!" She said leaning in and throwing her arms around Ryan who almost dropped Ellie in surprise. His heart pounded faster as he felt her body pressed close up to his, he could smell her sweet perfume and the fruity smell of her shiny hair. He had missed being so close to her…oh god stop thinking like this Atwood she doesn't want you, she's with some millionaire famous actor…But then why did she kiss me?...He shook himself out of it realising they were still hugging and crushing Ellie slightly. They pulled away embarrassedly and Ryan cleared his throat.
"It's um…no problem." He said nervously both looking at each other awkwardly. Marissa felt goose bumps on her arms and rubbed them away instinctively, every time she even brushed past him she felt that familiar tingle that rushed down her spine and danced across her skin…stop it, she thought to herself…he doesn't feel the same way, he's just asking you to stay over because he wants to be friends…nothing more…friends.
Another familiar awkward silence fell upon the room and hung thickly in the air as they both stole glances at each other before looking away embarrassedly. The silence was broken by the doorbell ringing and Ellie letting out a shriek and almost leaping off Ryan's lap, Ryan grinned and pulled her up and carried her over to the door leaving Marissa sitting on the couch smiling nervously. This was going to be awkward…how would Sandy and Kirsten react to her being here, she had an inkling how Kirsten would react…It wasn't going to be a fun weekend that's for sure.
Seth heard the doorbell ring and looked across at Summer nervously his stomach churning.
"They're here." He said watching as Summer sighed and composed herself. She smiled and took Seth's hand.
"Look everything's going to be fine, they're gonna be thrilled trust me…look how pleased they were when Ellie was born! Trust me Seth…" She said standing up and smoothing down her skirt. Seth smiled and nodded before looking her up and down.
"Is it wrong for me to find a pregnant woman so incredibly sexy…?"He asked standing up and slipping his arms around her waist. She grinned and tilted her face up to his.
"Not when it's me." She said huskily before leaning in and kissing him softly.
With Ellie in one arm and the doorhandle in the other Ryan pulled open the front door to reveal Sandy and Kirsten standing on the doorstep clutching a few bags and smiling.
"Hey Ryan sweetie." Kirsten said happily, leaning in and hugging Ryan before smiling at Ellie.
"Hello Ellie! Nana missed you." She said leaning and pressing on her nose gently causing Ellie to giggle and squirm in Ryan's arms. He grinned and handed Ellie over to Kirsten before hugging Sandy.
"It's been too long son…where's Seth?" He asked releasing Ryan and looking around. Ryan stood aside letting them in and looked around.
"Um…good question." He said absent-mindedly. Sandy struggled through the door with the bags whilst Kirsten walked right in, bouncing Ellie on her hip and smiling.
"How much stuff did you guys bring?" He asked incredulously looking at the two suitcases and two holdalls that Sandy was struggling under.
"Oh well you know Kirsten…'Always be prepared for all weather'." He mimicked whilst trying to lift the larger suitcase, Ryan grinned and picked it up for Sandy easily and slung it over his shoulder.
"Just dump them in the hall I'll sort them out later."
"Hey Dad!" Seth's voice carried through the hall from the stairs as he bounded down them happily with Summer following shortly after. Sandy dropped the bags and grinned pulling Seth into a hug
"Hey Seth, how are you?...Hey Summer you're looking fabulous as always." Sandy said with a grin, Summer smiled kissed him on both cheeks.
"Thanks Sandy how are you?" She asked brightly. Sandy smiled.
"I'm great thanks, how's the show going?" He asked as he dropped the remaining bags in a pile with the others.
"Oh it's great thanks." She said. Ryan walked over with a beer for Sandy and a glass of wine for Kirsten who took it with her spare hand.
"Thanks Ryan…oh I miss beer, Kirsten won't buy it for me and my secret stash has run out." Sandy said taking a long swig and sighing. They walked towards the kitchen as Summer and Seth exchanged nervous glances knowing Marissa was sitting in there…Kirsten stepped through the threshold still bouncing Ellie and sipping her wine when she stopped still…Marissa looked up and her heart froze as Kirsten stood there staring at her in surprise. Her look of surprise and confusion soon gave way to a glare. Ryan cleared his throat breaking the awkward silence and stood next to Marissa.
"What is SHE doing here?" Kirsten spat angrily looking at Marissa with disdain. Marissa swallowed, her heart hammering. She knew this was a bad idea…maybe she should just go.
"Um…she's staying here." Ryan said looking up at Kirsten and Sandy, Sandy was just standing there looking confused whilst Kirsten continued glaring at Marissa. Kirsten broke her gaze and looked towards Ryan in confusion. She didn't understand, why was she here? Why was he letting her stay here? After everything she had done she was sitting in his kitchen and he had let her in here…staying? Why was she staying? Were they together again? But wasn't she going out with that actor person…? All these questions raced around her mind as another long uncomfortable silence filled the room.
"So…champagne anyone?" Seth offered nervously
A/N Please review and tell me what you think!
Next Time: Kirsten tells Marissa exactly what she thinks of her being here and the press start rumours about Ryan and Marissa
