A/N Thanks for the brilliant reviews, your comments were great! Especially Kari and EVCLGSB again! You guys are all great! This is the part you've all been waiting for! The big R/M climax so please tell me what you think! I have taken your rain suggestions on board! Lol Enjoy and review!
A/N2: Lyrics are from Fix You by Coldplay
Ryan pulled his car up by the park gates and killed the engine before taking a glance out of his window. The rain was pouring down in torrents making that familiar drumming noise on the window. He sighed and looked around for his jacket…great he didn't have one. He jumped slightly as lightening rippled across the black angry sky and the rain pelted down harder. She better not say I don't do anything for her…he thought darkly as he put his keys in his pocket and opened the door and stepped out into the icy rain and the driving wind. He groaned, locked his cars and ran through the gates the rain spattering against his face, within seconds he was soaked through to the skin and shivering. It was times like these he missed Newport. He ran along the pathway looking around and folding his arms across his chest in a futile attempt to block out the biting wind and the driving rain. The park was empty and the darkness only made things harder…how the hell was he going to find her? He didn't even know if she was here! He felt rain water trickling down his back and groaned, either he was going to drown or catch pneumonia out here. He reached into his jeans pocket which were already stiff and wet with rain water and pulled out his phone, he flicked it open and watched as droplets spattered onto the screen and he wiped them away hastily. Scrolling through his phonebook he continued along the gravely pathway, deeper into the park. He found Marissa's number and dialled it quickly. He shivered and looked down at his soaked T-shirt. The call went straight through the voice mail.
"Hey, you've reached Marissa Cooper. Sorry I can't come to the phone right now but if you leave a message after the beep I'll get back to you. Thanks!"
Ryan smiled slightly at the sound of her voice and waited for the beep. He didn't know how she would hear this message over the howling wind behind him but it was worth a try. He sighed shakily as he shivered again. Just hearing her voice was making his heart beat faster.
"Um Marissa it's Ryan…I just need to know you're okay and that you haven't done anything…you know. Um…please call me back and tell me where you are and I'll pick you up. I…I'm so sorry about…everything and I just need to know that you're okay because if you're not I…I don't know what I'd do. Please just call me and tell me you're okay because…I…I love you." He stammered his heart pounding, he flicked his phone shut and sighed shoving it in his pocket wishing he hadn't said that last part. He continued along the path feeling more and more hopeless as minutes went by. The weather wasn't letting up and he was so cold he was sure he couldn't feel his fingers or toes. This was such a stupid idea, Central Park is huge! How was he going to find her even if she was here? He was going to let her down again, he didn't deserve her. Why had he left that message! He felt so stupid, she had a boyfriend! She wouldn't want to be with him! God he was such an idiot, but he was just so worried about her. He had to know she was okay…He looked up and did a double take. A few metres ahead of him there was a figure sat on a bench, head down…it looked like Marissa..it had to be her.
Kirsten watched Ellie as she gradually dropped off to sleep and smiled, she kissed her softly on the forehead and turned around to face Sandy who was sitting on the couch with his feet up on the coffee table. Kirsten frowned and sat next to him with a sigh.
"Do you think Ryan's okay?" She asked leaning her head against Sandy's shoulder. Sandy sighed deeply and wrapped his arm around Kirsten pulling her tighter to him.
"I hope so, he'll find Marissa and they'll work things out…we just have to leave them to it." He said softly. Kirsten nodded and chewed on her bottom lip anxiously.
"I just can't believe that Julie…I can't believe she did that!" She said angrily. Sandy shifted slightly.
"I know…I think that's it for Marissa and her."
Kirsten nodded.
"I think that's it for me and her as well…she ruined their lives because she's just so god damned selfish!" Kirsten said exasperatedly, she couldn't believe Julie had done that…she had ruined her daughter's and Ryan's lives and caused them so much pain and suffering and she didn't even care! Sure she knew Julie Cooper was pretty cold-hearted and selfish at times but this…this was too far.
Marissa closed her eyes against the pouring rain and the icy wind as she shivered slightly and drew her jacket tighter around herself with shaking hands. She pulled her hood lower over her eyes and breathed in deeply trying to stop the flowing tears that streaked down her rain flecked face. She wiped them away hurriedly but they were only to be replaced by more. She couldn't go back, not yet. She didn't think she could face the Cohen's…Ryan. What was he going to think of her now? Fair enough she hadn't slept with anyone but her mother had set the whole thing up and basically ruined their lives. This was so screwed up, why did this always happen to her? Just as she starts to be happy again something comes along and sts all over it. She felt someone's presence next to her and she looked up from the brim of her dripping hood.
Ryan sat down next to Marissa and sighed looking up at the black angry sky, his heart was hammering and his mind racing as he tried to work out exactly what he was going to say to her. Why did he always get so nervous around her? What if she didn't even want to talk to him?
Marissa felt her heart skip a beat as she saw a soaking wet Ryan sitting next to her just staring up at the sky and shivering. She smiled slightly, blood rushing in her ears and her heart pounding as his gaze slowly lowered and met her tear-filled one. They sat there staring at each other, lost in each other's gazes for a while before Marissa looked down at her lap and swallowed the choking sob that threatened to surface.
"W…what are you doing here?" She stammered as the rain pelted harder down on them, the wind blew scattering dead leaves into the air.
When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
Ryan looked up at her, becoming breathless as he stared into her beautiful blue eyes. His hands trembling as he edged slightly closer along the bench, not taking his eyes from her.
"I came to see you, I had to check if you were okay. That you hadn't done something…"He trailed off awkwardly as Marissa smiled weakly, rain drops and tears rolling steadily down her cheeks.
"Stupid?" She offered. Ryan smiled and felt himself flush slightly but when he looked up Marissa was smiling too. She broke his gaze and looked off into the distance her whole body trembling.
"Ryan I…I'm so sorry…For everything. For my mom for…for her showing up and, everything she did and…I understand if you're upset with me and, if you want I'll find somewhere else to go it's just…I screwed up your life again and I just keep messing things up! I just wish everything could be simple for once, you know? I'm so sorry Ryan." She said her voice verging on a sob as more warm tears trickled from her eyes and glided down her cheeks. She looked down at her hands suppressing the sob that desperately tried to escape her lips. Ryan reached forward and gently tilted her face upwards and looked into her eyes, their faces inches apart.
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
"Marissa, don't apologise. None of this is your fault okay? I've been a complete a$ to you and you…you didn't even do anything. Don't even think about moving anywhere else because…I guess I kinda like having you around." He said softly with a smile. Marissa smiled back and wiped her eyes hurriedly, her breaths coming in ragged gasps as she desperately fought back sobs.
"I…The past few days you've been here I…I've actually been happy again. I mean yeah it was a bit awkward but I didn't really realise how much I missed having you around and…I was so scared that I'd lost you tonight and…I really want you to stay with me. Okay I'm babbling like Seth now but…I guess what I'm trying and failing to say is…I love you and nothing that you or your family can do will change that. I don't care what happened four years ago. I care about now…I care about you." He whispered staring deep into her eyes his heart racing. Marissa looked into his blazing blue eyes and felt her heart melt, he loved her. He said he loves her. Oh god he actually loved her, he felt the same. She stopped shivering and suddenly she felt a surge of relief and happiness. This was perfect. Him and her, alone in Central park in the pouring rain. She felt a smile light across her face and he smiled back his breath coming out in silvery, smoky plumes in front of him. Her blood was rushing in her ears
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I…
She leant slowly closer their noses inches apart, the atmosphere was electric as invisible sparks shot between them. His hand rested on her cheek drawing her closer and shivers leapt down her spine. Lightening filled the darkened sky, illuminating the whole park in white light. Their noses grazed gently and their lips met, fitting together perfectly. Marissa felt her heart swell and it seemed like fireworks were going off in her stomach as she slipped her arms around his neck. She pressed herself closer to his strong, wet body and the kiss deepened.
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I…
Ryan slipped his arms around Marissa and gently lifted her off the bench, she wrapped her legs around his waist and they broke apart both smiling, lost in each other's eyes.
"I love you too." She whispered before leaning in and kissing him hungrily wrapping her arms around his neck. Ryan smiled into her mouth before letting his tongue slide over hers. It felt so good just to be kissing her again. He didn't notice as the rain soaked them both and thunder boomed loudly as lightning illuminated the park again. They were too lost in each other.
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.
Ryan's eyelids fluttered slowly open and he stared up at the cream ceiling above him, not recognising it as any ceiling in his house. He closed his eyes against the sun that was streaming through the windows and opened them again taking in his surroundings. His tired blue eyes travelled over the unfamiliar night stand where he saw his watch, the cream walls, the large mirror, the wide screen TV on the sideboard and the clothes that littered the floor. His clothes…Marissa's clothes. Then it all came rushing back to him in one glorious moment, Julie Cooper, Central Park, Marissa in the rain, kissing, him telling her he loved her, more kissing, hotel room…The Hotel! That's where he was. Finally having his bearings he rolled over to find a peacefully sleeping Marissa. Her golden, honey blonde hair was fanned out on the pillow as she slept on her side, her chest rising and falling softly. Her bare, tanned shoulder stuck out from the duvet and Ryan lay his head gently next to her and kissed the dip of her bare slender neck softly. He inhaled her sweet perfume and smiled softly to himself, kissing her soft skin again. Just lying here next to her made him feel light headed. She stirred slightly and smiled in her sleep before settling down again. Ryan gently wrapped a strong arm around her slender, delicate shoulders and closed his eyes. Not wanting to move from this spot ever. It was perfect.
Marissa stirred feeling soft lips plant a kiss on her neck. She smiled recognising Ryan's cologne and shifted slightly smiling to herself as she felt his strong toned arms wrap themselves around her. She relaxed into his warm embrace closing her eyes as her heart hammered, her skin tingling at his touch. She could stay here forever. Just him and her. She played last night's events over in her head, her smile growing wider each time.
"I guess what I'm trying and failing to say is…I love you and nothing that you or your family can do will change that. I don't care what happened four years ago. I care about now…I care about you."
Ryan's low soft voice echoed in her head and she felt goosebumps dance across her skin as she remembered kissing him last night. The rain pouring down around them, both soaked, lightening illuminating the night sky and the wind whipping around them both as they sank into each other's embrace. Finally together. She nestled closer into Ryan's arms and slipped her small delicate hand into his. Their fingers interweaved and she lifted his hand up to her lips before planting a gentle kiss on it.
"Morning Stranger." She whispered huskily, a sexy smile creeping across her face. Ryan grinned as his heart hammered. He caressed her arm gently and kissed her neck again.
"Morning…"He replied between kisses. Marissa giggled softly and turned to face Ryan, their faces inches apart on the pillows. She looked into his bright blue eyes and felt her heart swell with happiness, he loved her. She loved him. For once things were perfect. She looked down and then back up, meeting his eyes with a provocative smile.
"I'm having a shower…care to join me?" She whispered softly. Ryan grinned and kissed her lips softly before drawing back.
" I'd love to." He murmured into her ear as she sat up pulling the covers over her slender naked body. He watched her walk over to the bathroom with a smile on his face and she turned back shooting him a dazzling smile. He slid out of bed, ruffled his head and followed her towards the bathroom…
The Doctor frowned and looked up at Seth and Summer who were waiting nervously.
"Okay…well your follow up seems to be fine. The baby is in a good position and is a healthy size. Everything seems to be fine." He said with a smile as Seth and Summer let out a sigh of relief and smiled at each other.
"Do you want to know the sex of the baby?" The doctor asked seriously, looking between Seth and Summer who looked at each other. Summer looked uncertainly towards Seth, did she want to know? She had always thought she would want it to be a surprise but maybe she did want to know. Then she could have baby names, decorate the room and make everything perfect. She wanted to know…but would Seth?
Seth stared into Summer's large chocolate brown eyes trying to figure out what she was thinking. He knew he wanted to know but Summer…she probably wanted the surprise. In the end it all came down to her really, she was the one having the baby and he knew he didn't really have a say in much…
"Do you Cohen? Because I think I do…I mean we could think of names and decorate the nursery because Ryan said the house in nearly ready for decorating? What do you think?" She asked nervously, giving his hand a slight squeeze. Seth smiled and gripped Summer's small hand gently.
"I want to know…we want to know." He said turning to the doctor and smiling. The doctor nodded and looked down at his file as Seth and Summer waited anxiously. Summer was desperate for a little girl and Seth was desperate for a son..
"Your baby is…he's a boy." He said with a smile, taking off his glasses. Seth let out a whoop and Summer smiled, she thought she'd be disappointed but she wasn't. The point was she was having a baby and a little boy was just as good. She could paint the nursery baby blue and he could wear little dungarees and caps…She smiled and threw her arms around Seth who had stopped whooping
"We're having a boy Cohen!" She said happily, Seth hugged her tightly resting his head on her shoulder and grinning from ear to ear. He was having a son, he could read comic books with him and play ps2…this was great.
The warm water drummed down on Ryan's back as he felt it wash over him, he ran his hands down Marissa's side and she grinned and pressed her body close to his. Their lips met and they kissed passionately, water streaming down their faces and bodies. Marissa giggled and threw a handful of shower foam hitting Ryan in the face. He grinned and scooped it off with his hand and chucked some at Marissa hitting her in the chin making it look like she had a beard. They laughed loudly and Marissa kissed Ryan's shoulder softly, working slowly up to his cheek and across to his lips. He slid his arms around her waist and kissed the dip of her neck softly.
"I love you." She whispered over the sound of the rushing water. Ryan smiled.
"I love you too."
The sharp sound of the ringing phone cut through the sounds of water and Ryan looked up and groaned. He kissed Marissa swiftly.
"I better get it." He said reluctantly, she nodded and turned off the water as Ryan stepped out of the shower and pulled a white fluffy towel from the rack and tied it round his waist. Marissa's eyes travelled over his wet, shining, toned body and she smiled to herself. She missed just being with him, having moments like this…She never had this with Jake…oh god Jake! She had totally forgotten about him, she would have to break things off. Of course she would, she loved Ryan and being with him was the most important thing to her. She didn't even love Jake did she?...No, it wasn't love like she had with Ryan. Nothing was. Ryan picked up his cell from the sideboard.
"Hello?" Ryan said picking up the remote and turning on the TV.
"Hey honey it's Kirsten, I was just wondering when you were going to be back? Is Marissa okay?" She asked. Ryan had left her a message last night explaining that he couldn't drive back because the weather was too bad and he and Marissa were going to stay in a hotel. She didn't envy Ryan, she had spent all night up with Ellie after she had had another nightmare about the exorcist and was crying for her daddy. It had been a long time since she had stayed up the night with a toddler. Ryan smiled as Marissa shuffled out of the bathroom wearing an open robe and rubbing a towel through her hair.
"Um later on this morning probably, Marissa's fine, well not fine but dealing with things. I've got some work to do but I'll probably do it from home. How's Ellie?" He asked flicking through the channels and finally resting on the news.
"Oh she's fine, asking for her daddy though." Kirsten said with a smile. Marissa glanced over at the TV as the news anchor woman started to talk and a familiar face appeared on the screen.
"In other news, Exclusive pictures of Hollywood actor Jake Hayes have been released into the press this morning. The various pictures show Hayes with several other women outside his hotel in Paris where he is filming his new movie, Behind the curtains. Jake who was been dating supermodel Marissa Cooper for a year now denies rumours they have split and says the pictures are fake."
Marissa watched in mingled horror and fury as the pictures appeared on the screen showing Jake kissing a tall brunette woman, holding hands with a blonde and kissing with another brunette. Marissa felt angry tears sting in her eyes and she looked up at Ryan who had his back to her and was still talking to Kirsten oblivious of the new report playing in the background. It felt like her heart was beating at 100mph as she looked at the pictures tears welling in her angry eyes and her hands shaking. She couldn't believe this, she didn't know how to feel…how could he? After giving her a lecture about that picture of her and Ryan HUGGING when the whole time he had been seeing other women behind her back! What a pig! She thought angrily as burning tears slid down her cheeks. A strangled sob escaped her lips and she pulled her robe tight around herself before tearing her eyes away from the screen and fleeing the room, slamming the door behind her. She couldn't take this…she didn't know what to feel. She wasn't crying because of HIM, she was crying because he lied to her…because she had been stupid enough to believe him, because of him she hadn't been able to get back with Ryan sooner…
Ryan heard the bedroom door slam and he turned around bewildered to find Marissa gone, he quickly finished his conversation with Kirsten and glanced across at the TV to find pictures of…oh god it was Jake with another woman…Shh!t, he thought before running out the door regardless of the fact that he was in a towel. He had to find her…
A/N So...what did you think? I had to put in some nice R/M fluff before all the drama kicks off again! Lol please review and tell me what you think and I will update as soon as possible! Thanks guys!
Next Time: Ryan comforts Marissa and Marissa dumps Jake. Seth and Summer plan baby names and Jake comes back to New York to talk to Marissa only to find her with Ryan...