Hmm. I'm not really pleased with this story, but I'm trying my best to make it better! I hope you like this chapter!
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I want to tell you how I feel. You have no idea how much I want you to know. But I'm not only a coward, I hate myself. How could I ever expect you to feel anything back for me, when I've never even learnt to love myself?
I hate myself.
I want to die.
But I can still love you.
Yuki slipped out of bed and got dressed. For some reason he felt sweaty that morning, and his clothes stuck to him unpleasantly. His head ached, and he could barely get a grip of his toothbrush.
A fever. Just what I need to impress Kyo.
"Yuki, we need to get going for school now!" Tohru called up the stairs. "Kyo isn't going in because he has a fever."
"So do I," Yuki said reluctantly. "I'll stay home as well."
"Oh no! Well I'll come home early to…"
"Miss Honda, please. It's fine." He sighed and got undressed again. "You get going to school."
Yuki got back into bed and found sleep came to him quicker than usual. He let his body completely relax and just noticed how soft the sheets were.
Yuki was at peace, until he made the mistake of sniffing the sheets.
Haru. It smells like Haru.
I can't sleep here when it smells like him!
He once more swung out of bed and rubbed his eyes which had gone red from lack of sleep. He took all the sheets off, even the pillow covers, and started to take them to the washer down the hall.
Till he walked past Kyo's room.
Without considering the risks for a moment, Yuki placed the sheets on the floor and entered Kyo's room; and to Yuki's delight, Kyo was asleep.
You look so cute there! Curled up into a tight little ball just like a real cat.
Yuki sat on the chair by the side of Kyo's bed and continued to watch him.
I'm so messed up…
I'm so tied…
Yuki rested his head in his arms on the edge of Kyo's bed, and ended up falling asleep.
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Kyo woke-up with a start. He'd had a bad dream again. That bad dream.
The dream in which Yuki was laughing with Haru at a park, and then, they weren't in the park anymore- but in bed….
Yuki…
Why the hell do I feel like this? Why the hell do I care?
Why do I suddenly feel so awkward around him?
Kyo opened his eyes and came face to face with a mop of purple hair.
"Yuki?" Kyo asked shifting away from him slowly. "What the fuck are you…"
Yuki pulled his head upright and looked at Kyo, who was at the opposite side of the bed by now.
He's not awake yet is he? He's still asleep like he always…
"Kyo." Yuki said softly. "Kyo." He slipped onto bed and went straight for Kyo. "Kyo." He wormed his hands around Kyo's chest and leaned into him. "Kyo."
Kyo was puzzled by Yuki's actions, but just thought they were due to Yuki still being half-asleep. He didn't ever consider that they were actually from the heart.
Kyo found that his own hands wrapped themselves around Yuki automatically.
Sleep followed quickly.
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Haru wasn't jealous when he walked in. Nor did he feel any sort of hate or anger towards Kyo.
Deep down, of course Haru knew Yuki didn't like him, let alone love him! And it hurt Haru that Yuki would still sleep with him anyway.
Of course he knew Yuki loved Kyo. He got called it often enough to take the hint!
"Kyo, you're awake aren't you." He said quietly. Kyo sighed and lifted up his head.
"Yeah." Something clicked in Kyo. "It's not what it looks like!"
"I'm quite sure I don't care." Haru said leaving the room.
"Hey wait! Don't just leave me!" Kyo called after him. "I need help to understand…"
"Go help yourself, prick!"
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Yuki tugged Kyo back down and slowly slid on top of him.
"Yo, Yuki. I don't think you should be doing that…" Kyo begged hopelessly.
"Kyo…" Yuki's hand slowly made it's way down Kyo. Passed his shoulders. Passed his chest. Past his hips. And stopped at his groin.
"Yuki!" Kyo yelled.
Yuki snapped awake, and stared at Kyo, stunned.
"Can you move your hand please?"
"I'm…I…sorry, I didn't…..What… I'm…. didn't mean to…." Yuki stumbled.
"Move!" Kyo kicked his legs up, which sent Yuki tumbling to the floor.
"I'm sorry." Yuki said running out of the room.
Kyo lay still in shock, and let a hand slip downwards.
He finished of what Yuki had started.
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