A/N Sorry for the delay with updating but I've been so busy and I was writing my other fic Heart of Glass (btw that's a big hint to read and review) I hope you like this and please tell me what you think!

"Oh my God you guys! Congratulations! Let me see the ring!" Marissa shrieked as Seth and Summer grinned at her, both holding hands. Summer held her hand out to Marissa to took it and stared down at the ring in amazement.

"Wow It's beautiful." She whispered in awe…as she stared down at the gleaming ring she was suddenly reminded of the engagement ring Ryan gave her. She still had it…she wore it around her neck on the chain that Ryan bought her for their anniversary all those years ago. She sighed inwardly running through all the memories she had of Ryan. She knew she had blown her chances but maybe she still had one with him…

"Have you told your parents yet?" Marissa asked pulling herself out of her thoughts and bringing her attention back to Seth and Summer. They looked at each other.

"No, I was going to ring them after I told Ryan…where is he anyway?" Seth asked frowning slightly and looking around. Marissa smiled slightly.

"Oh he's working in the study."

Seth raised an eyebrow.

"I bet he's getting loads done with one arm, I better go and tell him the good news. You can talk about girly wedding plans…." Seth said kissing Summer swiftly on the cheek with a grin before disappearing up the stairs.

Ryan ran his good hand through his hair in frustration and sighed deeply as the phone stopped ringing. Thank God, maybe she had finally gotten the hint. How could she actually think he would want to talk to her after everything she did? He closed his eyes and leant back in his chair with a wide yawn, he should go check on Ellie and Marissa…then he could go to bed. He would finish off his mound of work tomorrow. As he prepared to lift himself from his chair the office door burst open and Seth bounded in happily, grinning like a maniac and bouncing up and down. Ryan stifled a groan and met Seth's gaze with a tired smile.

"Guess what bro…" Seth said still bouncing slightly as Ryan got to his feet unsteadily and looked his brother up and down.

"What…?" He said listlessly, he had gone through this process many times and nearly 99.9 of the time it lead to something about Summer. Seth watched his brother walk slowly forward and in the back of his mind he could tell something was up, he looked different. Being Seth he pushed it to the back of his mind as he met his brother's tired gaze unable to control his grinning.

"Well…basically…I PROPOSED TO SUMMER AND SHE SAID YES!" Seth yelled ecstatically unable to control himself, he was just so happy right now. Ryan felt a grin creep across his face as he pushed Emma to the back of his mind and concentrated on his brother.

"That's great man! You finally did it…Congratulations." He said injecting some happiness into his voice as he pulled Seth into a manly hug and patted him on the back. Seth pulled away still grinning maniacally and bouncing on the spot. Ryan smiled to himself suddenly reminded of how Seth was every Chrismukkah.

"I still can't believe she said yes, and when I think back to before you came in Newport when she thought my name was Stanley." He said with a smile whilst looking out the window. Ryan grinned again, even if Seth didn't know it he could always take his mind off things.

"So…are you coming downstairs for some champagne my dear friend? I think a celebration is in order." Seth said clapping his hands together. Ryan nodded.

"Yeah, is Ellie still up?" He asked. Seth paused.

"Um yeah, Marissa and Summer are with her I think…talking about dresses already." He said rolling his eyes. Seth headed over to the door closely followed by Ryan whose arm had started to throb slightly, he better take some painkillers. As Ryan reached the door the phone suddenly started to ring again causing him to jump slightly and swing around sharply. The colour drained from his face as he stared at the ringing phone, the small red light flashing where messages had been left. All by the same person no doubt. He stared at the phone his heart hammering before turning to face Seth who was watching Ryan curiously. He frowned slightly and leant against the door frame.

"Dude, aren't you gonna answer that?"

Ryan swallowed

"Um No it's okay, they can leave a message. Like you said, we need to celebrate." He said forcing a smile, Seth appeared to be satisfied and bounced through the doorway leaving Ryan to follow him out. Ryan took one last look back at the ringing phone and sighed before jogging to catch up with Seth…

Marissa took another sip of champagne and smiled serenely over the rim of her glass as the golden liquid bubbled in front of her. She watched as Seth and Summer kissed happily, mumbling to each other on the couch across the room. They looked so happy; things were finally getting going for them. They were really getting married. She sighed inwardly; she couldn't help but feel slightly jealous. She knew it was stupid but, she wanted to be the one engaged. She had been there before and she had screwed it up, would she get a second chance with Ryan? Would he ever have the courage to ask after what happened last time? She was being stupid anyway; she had only just started talking to him again about a month ago! She shouldn't expect things to move this fast, especially after everything that happened between them. She swallowed and looked across at Ryan who was staring at the fire, watching the flames crackle merrily, a vacant, sort of sad expression on his face whilst his intense, piercing blue eyes followed each leap and rise of the flames. There was definitely something up, she could tell. He was too quiet, sure Ryan was never really that talkative but he hadn't said anything in over ten minutes and was just staring into space the whole time. Something definitely wasn't right.

She set her glass down on the side and shifted on the couch slightly, leaning over towards Ryan and resting a hand on his shoulder. He turned to her slightly and the vacant expression cleared, replaced by a weary smile.

"Sorry I was miles away." He mumbled as Marissa smiled slightly.

"Are you okay?" She whispered softly her breath tickling his ear as she rubbed his arm gently.

Ryan sighed unsure of what to say, he hated lying to her but he didn't want to bring the whole thing up. It was Seth and Summer's night and he didn't want to burden her with all his past problems anyway. But then again, she had a right to know. They had said no more secrets…

"Yeah, I'm just tired that's all. I've got loads of work, guess I've just been a little stressed…Thanks for taking Ellie to bed." He said turning to her with a smile. Marissa forced one back, she knew that wasn't it. She knew there was something more but she wasn't going to press it. It wasn't the time…

Seth stood up and tapped the side of his glass, clearing his throat causing Ryan and Marissa to snap out of their conversation and turn to face Seth.

"Right well, as you know…the lovely Summer here has agreed to be my wife and we are going to be married. I want to take this opportunity to thank you guys for putting up with us for all these years, especially Ryan for letting us stay here but…as the new house is nearly finished we will be moving out soon. Yes Ryan, you'll finally get us out of your hair. I want to say thanks and if you'll agree…I want you to be my best man." He said smiling, swaying slightly from the champagne. Ryan flushed slightly and grinned shaking Seth's hand and pulling him into a hug.

"Of course I'll agree, now I get to plan YOU a bachelor party and thank god I'll finally have the house to myself." He said laughing slightly

Marissa watched as Ryan talked to Seth about bachelor parties and frowned, she would find out what was going on. Something was up and he wasn't telling her what it was…

Marissa shuffled through the papers on Ryan's desk with a frustrated sigh, where was her passport? She needed it now or she would miss her flight. She had a three day shoot in Paris and her plan left in an hour! She tried not to panic as she pulled each drawer open, each time having no luck. This was a disaster. As she pulled open the last drawer she let out a long whistle of relief when she saw the small wallet with the words passport stamped across the front. Thank God for that, if she missed this shoot that was it…she would be dropped from her agency. She slid the passport safely into her pocket and straightened up, pushing the hair from her eyes and tucking it behind her ears. She hated to leave Ryan and Ellie, especially when he was acting so weird, but she couldn't avoid this. It was a big shoot with Louis Vuitton.

She piled the papers that she had moved and straightened things up when the blinking light on the phone caught her eye, she looked at the small screen and did a double take when she saw that Ryan had 23 messages…23? That was a lot of messages. She frowned and stared down at the machine her heart hammering, should she? Just listening to one, just to see what it was wouldn't hurt would it? It would only be from work right? She sighed and withdrew her hand, she couldn't do that to Ryan…it would look like she didn't trust him. She did trust him but…he was just acting so strangely and…She swallowed and pressed the button her frame shaking as the robotic voice echoed. "Message One"

"Hey Ryan it's um…it's me again…" a soft feminine voice said

Marissa swallowed hard, it was a woman…it was just his secretary or someone at work. Why was she being like this? She trusted him, she knew he would never do anything like that, why was she jumping to conclusions?

"I know I keep calling but I just need to talk to you. You can't keep ignoring me, I'm a part of your life whether you want me to be or not. Just please, answer my calls. Let me explain…please. I Love you." The voice whispered tearfully.

Marissa let the machine beep as a lump rose in her throat, her heart pounded and her head spun as tears sprung to her eyes…she didn't understand…who…w…he couldn't be…whoever it was, she loved Ryan and she had called before…She let warm tears roll down her cheek as she sank into the chair. Come on…she was overreacting. He wouldn't cheat on her…he wouldn't.

Would he?

Marissa hurried down the stairs with her bags, sniffing and making sure that Ryan couldn't tell she had been crying. He was waiting at the bottom of the stairs, when he caught sight of her he smiled.

"Did you find it?" He asked hopefully, she swallowed ignoring the urge to burst into tears and nodded with a smile, holding up her passport.

"Yeah you were right it was in your office. You ready?" She asked her voice wavering slightly…come on marissa, pull yourself together. There is nothing going on. She told herself firmly

Then why is there a woman saying she loves him on his answering machine?

Echoed a small voice in the back of her mind, she sniffed and straightened up as Ryan took her bags with a smile and headed out the door…

The car journey was mostly silent as Ryan drummed his fingers against the steering wheel whilst humming slightly, his stomach churned nervously. Emma hadn't called again, maybe she had given up? He thought hopefully. God, he should tell Marissa, he hated keeping things from her…maybe she could help him? He looked across at her, she was staring out of the window one hand resting on her cheek. He loved her so much, he should just trust her…she would help him, he should give her a chance

Marissa watched the building whip past as the sped along the roads, she hated the silence. She couldn't stand not knowing, not knowing who that woman was and why she had called, why she loved her boyfriend….why Ryan hadn't told her or said anything. She sighed and swallowed, she was going away…she wouldn't leave things like this, she had to ask him…she couldn't let things happen the way they had with Jake. Not again. She took a deep breath and turned to Ryan, trying to control her shaking hands.

"R…Ryan?" She ventured shakily.

"Hmm." He said keeping his eyes on the road but his attention was on Marissa. She swallowed again and gripped the car door tightly for support.

"Um…I was in your office and there were a few messages left…I…I guess I wanted to get rid of a few for you so I was going to write some down and…I listened to the first one. It was a woman Ryan and, she said that she loved you…and that she had called you before…you want to tell me what is going on?" She said her voice trembling, she wasn't aware of the fact that there were tears in her eyes or that she was now gripping the car door so tightly that her knuckles had turned white. Her heart was hammering hard and pumping in her ears as she watched Ryan's expression change, his lips tightened and he sighed deeply. He gripped the steering wheel, he knew this was going to happen…but, she had looked through his messages?

"Marissa I…why were you looking through my messages? Don't you trust me?" He asked slightly hurt…she actually thought he would cheat on her…Marissa swallowed trying to blink back tears…he was avoiding her questions.

"If I hadn't I wouldn't even have known some girl was calling you saying she loves you. It's just as well I did…are you having an affair? Please, just tell me know if you are. Just don't lead me on and lie to me, please Ryan…just tell me." She pleaded tears rolling softly down her cheeks as Ryan's jaw tightened, he kept his eyes firmly on the road. He couldn't believe he was hearing this, she actually thought he would do that to her, she didn't trust him at all. And to think he thought he could tell her about Emma?

"You really think I would do that to you? You really think I could after everything that happened between us? After knowing how much it hurts to have the person you love with someone else? I can't believe that you really don't trust me that much…after everything that happened…I actually thought that I could tell you what's been going on and that you would trust me…but, now I don't know." He said his voice cracking slightly with hurt.

Marissa sniffed and stared at Ryan intensely.

"Who is she Ryan? Just tell me…" She whispered, she knew she had hurt him but he still wouldn't answer her, after everything with Jake, she couldn't handle this all over again…Ryan gripped the steering wheel tighter and looked across at Marissa angrily.

"It's Emma okay? She keeps calling and she wants Ellie back! I was going to tell you but since you don't even trust me…do you know what? Drive yourself to the airport, I'll walk back." He said angrily pulling the car over with a swerve and braking harshly, he unbuckled his seatbelt angrily and threw open the door. Marissa sat there stunned…Emma…that's why he had been acting so strange, oh god what had she done?

Ryan turned back and peered through the door, his heart hammering and tears pricking at his eyes.

"I thought you were the one person I could tell, the person I could trust…but what's the point of trusting someone who doesn't trust you?" He whispered angrily before slamming the door and storming down the road leaving Marissa sobbing in the passenger seat…

Ryan walked determinedly down the side of the main road, the icy wind biting at his face causing his cheeks to tinge pink. Small white snowflakes flurried around him, dancing on the bouncing gales and settling on his shoulders. He blinked back tears of frustration. What on earth was he doing? This wasn't Marissa's fault…if he had just told her from the beginning…He sighed and stopped looking up at the grey sky with contempt. Why did she look through his messages though? He shivered and shoved his hands into his pocket watching the cars crawl past through the heavy traffic. He loved Marissa more than anything…he should go back, this wasn't her fault. He loved her and he wasn't going to leave things like this…

Marissa sat in the passenger seat, the engine still humming and Ryan's car keys swinging in the ignition. Tears rolled steadily down her cheeks as she peered into the rear view mirror hoping to see Ryan walking back to her. Why had she been so stupid? Why did she even check his messages? Then none of this would have happened, now he thought she didn't trust him which made everything so much worse. Especially with all that happened with Emma and now having her coming back into his life…she was such an idiot, she was finally with the man she loved and they were happy and she had to go and screw everything up again. She breathed out shakily in a long sigh watching her breath come out in plumes of silvery mist. She couldn't leave things like this, she loved him.

Then what are you doing still sitting here?

A little voice in the back of her head said. She turned the engine off and grabbed the keys, sniffing and wiping her eyes as she shakily stepped out of the car, her heels sinking the settling snow on the sidewalk. Locking the car she wiped her eyes again and looked around desperately for any sign of Ryan. The icy wind made her shiver and she pulled her thin jacket around herself in a futile effort to block out the cold. She squinted through the falling snow for any sign of him…nothing. She felt tears burn in her eyes and she swallowed hard. She wasn't letting him go again…She broke into a run, stumbling on the uneven snow, her heels sinking and sliding. She looked around, her face stinging in the cold as snowflakes settled in her hair. She let the warm tears roll down her numb cheeks as she desperately searched for any sign of him…She continued running, wondering what she must look like. Running along the side of a main road in high heels. She let out a small yelp as she tripped, she thrust her hands out to break her fall causing them to sting in pain as they hit the cold snow and the hard road side. She gasped slightly as a hand fell on her shoulder, her knees and hands stinging, she looked up slowly and came face to face with…

"Ryan…" She gasped breathlessly tears in her eyes as he helped her up, his expression unreadable. She got shakily to her feet and met Ryan's intense blue eyes and she felt her hammering heart flutter. She blinked the snowflakes from her eyelashes and looked down at the floor nervously before bringing her gaze up to Ryan.

"Thanks." She whispered her voice cracking as the tears returned. Ryan smiled weakly, his heart hammering against his ribs as he gazed into her face, not knowing what to say to her…maybe he should start with sorry…

"I'm sorry…" He mumbled quickly and grinned when he realised Marissa had said it at the same time. They smiled and flushed slightly.

" I'm sorry Ryan, I…I shouldn't have looked through your messages. I don't want you to think I don't trust you because I do…I trust you more than anyone but since Jake I…I don't know, It's like I'm waiting to get hurt again. I'm so sorry Ryan, I don't want to lose you, not again." She said her voice shaking as she shivered.

"You're not going to lose me." Ryan whispered pulling Marissa close to him, she started to sob as she rested her head against his strong chest. She could hear his heart beating and she smiled through her tears as she shivered violently.

"It's my fault, I should have told you about Emma. It's just…I'm so scared that she'll come back for Ellie…that I'll lose her. I…I just thought that maybe If I ignored it, it would go away. I should have told you, I should have trusted you to understand." He said shakily as he held Marissa close, wrapping his strong arms around her. She tilted her face upwards so she was looking up into his and smiled, her teeth chattering.

"I love you and I trust you. No more secrets?" She said with a sniff. Ryan smiled and nodded, planting a kiss on her forehead. She felt his warm lips on her forehead and smiled weakly before shivering again. She was freezing.

"You cold?" Ryan asked softly

"Always." She whispered, he grinned and pulled off his coat and draped it gently around Marissa's shoulders. He smiled, but deep inside he knew this wasn't over…Emma wasn't going to give up. He wrapped his arm around her and leant his face closer to his, their lips inches apart as their noses grazed softly. Their lips crashed into one another as they kissed hungrily, sharing warmth as cars crawled past, some wolf whistling. When they pulled apart Marissa looked up and grinned embarrassedly as she noticed they were standing in front of a huge Billboard, one with her face on it. Ryan followed her gaze and grinned as he saw Marissa's beautiful smiling face looking down on him.

"Wow, I guess I have two of you…" He said as she laughed and they kissed again, Marissa stopped shivering and wrapped her arms around his waist as they headed back to the car.

Summer bounced Ellie up and down on her knee and smiled as Ellie giggled and squealed. Seth watched from the other side of the room with a small smile on his face, that could be his wife and his son in a few months. He couldn't believe he was really getting married to this amazing woman, and they were having a baby. He sighed, Ryan said their house was in the finishing stages and then it would all be so real…He caught Summer's eye and she smiled at him happily. He still needed to tell his parents…his mum would definitely be happy, she kept making subtle hints about she really wanted to go to another wedding. Things were just turning out so well for a change. No doubt a new drama would be on it's way soon enough…

Seth picked up the phone and slowly dialled in his parent's number, his finger hovered over the call button uncertainly before he pressed it and sighed deeply. It rang a few times before a click signalled someone picking up…

"Cohen residence." Sandy's gruff, cheerful voice filled Seth's ears. He sighed, thank god, he didn't think he could face his mother's squeals right now.

"Hey Dad, it's Seth." He said with a grin. Sandy smiled

"Hey son, how're things going?"

"Great actually, it's actually why I called…I err, have some news." He said nervously. There was a slight pause on the line.

"Go on…"

"Well, I uh…me…I asked Summer to marry me and he said yes." He babbled quickly, his heart hammering as he waited for a response.

"That's Great son! Congratulations, your Mother is going to be so pleased!" Sandy said grinning, he was really happy for him. He knew how much he loved Summer, he smiled remembering when he proposed to Kirsten.

"Thanks, can you uh tell Mom. I have a headache and I don't think I can deal with screaming or squeals right now." He said laughing slightly, Sandy laughed.

"Sure son, I'll call you later. Say Hi to everyone for me."

"Sure, bye Dad."

Seth put the phone down with a grin. He heard Ellie crying downstairs and sighed, Summer had gone out and he was left with Ellie until Ryan got back. He loved the kid and he did need the practise but it seems he never did anything right when he was left alone with her! He walked along the hall whistling happily to himself when something struck him sharply around the back of the head. A shooting pain shot through his head as his vision greyed, he dropped to his knees as the room span around him. He fell face-forward to the floor falling unconscious.

Ryan opened the front door and put his keys into his pocket with a sigh, Marissa was now on a plane to France. He wouldn't see her for three days. He slipped his jacket off, shivering slightly as the warmth of the house greeted him. He checked the mail that sat on the table and walked into the kitchen putting a pot of coffee on when he heard Ellie giggling. He smiled but it soon faded when he heard another voice…one that definitely didn't belong to Summer of Seth. His blood rushing in his ears he approached the playroom with trepidation, he reached the doorway and he could hear Ellie starting to cry and wail. His breath hitched in his throat as he stepped through the doorway.

What he saw in front of him made his heart stop still and his mouth go dry. A tall blonde woman stood in the middle of the room smiling and holding his daughter. He stood rooted to the spot as the blonde looked up and smiled.

"Hey Ry…"

a/n So...what did you think? I wonder who that could be? please press the ickle purple button and leave a review, it'll keep me happy:)