Paris walks into her dorm early in the morning to see Rory sitting on the couch, her legs tucked under her and a cup of coffee in her hands, staring into space.
"Hey."
Rory snaps out of her trance and looks at Paris, "Hey".
"Where's Logan?"
"Asleep."
"Wore him out, huh." Rory gives Paris a look. "So, what? Are you two back together?"
Rory sighs and shrugs, "I don't know".
"So? What was last night?"
Rory slightly shakes her head lightly. "You should have seen him," Rory says feeling sorry for Logan. "He looked so alone and vulnerable, so scared. He just wanted to be comforted, I guess."
"So, Mitchum Huntzberger is really gone, huh?"
"Yeah. I feel horrible. I wasn't exactly the nicest person to him the last time I saw him."
"He was a jerk to you. Don't beat yourself up."
Rory stares into space. "He was in the hospital for almost two months and not once did I go see him. He wanted to apologize too. But was too proud."
"It's ok."
"I just feel awful. And Logan," Rory sighs. "Oh God Logan. He's so depressed. I don't know what to do to make him feel better."
"Just be there for him. You're good at that. Go check on him. I'll go to the newsroom, give you guys privacy. Bye." Paris walks back out of the dorm.
Rory gets up and walks to her room. She sets her coffee on her desk and gently climbs into bed next to Logan. Logan stirs and opens his eyes. "Hi."
"Hi" Logan says groggily.
"How you feeling?"
"Not so good."
"I am so sorry."
"Me too" Rory caresses Logan's cheek. "Thank you……for last night."
"Of course."
"It helped a lot. I don't know what I would have done."
"I'm glad you came."
"So am I."
"Is there anything I can do? Do you want coffee, breakfast? Anything?" Rory starts to get up.
"Wait-" She waits. "Can you just stay here next to me, please?"
"Yeah, sure." Rory lays back down next to Logan and places her head on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry, for what I did…..to us."
"It's ok."
"No, it's not. You have always been there for me, always, even when I was an ass. All I did was push you away. I've never really been comforted. Bad parenting, I guess. I'm sorry."
"I get it."
"I'm just so lost right now."
"It's gonna be ok. I promise you."
Logan cuddles up to Rory. "I love you." Silence. "Rory?"
Rory clears her throat and sits up. "Maybe you should go." Rory gets out of bed.
"Rory-"
"You don't get to come here and say that to me, not after what we went through."
Logan sits up. "You weren't complaining about it last night."
"You were depressed. What was I supposed to do? Send you away?"
"If I remember, you were instigating a lot of it."
"Because you looked so sad and lonely."
"So you make love to me because you felt sorry for me?"
"Logan-" Rory runs her hand through her hair "I hated seeing you so sad."
"You did. Imagine my surprise." Logan gets off the bed and begins to get dressed. "I came here last night because I needed you, because I love you. And for some reason, I thought you felt the same way." Logan buttons his pants. "I could have gone anywhere else. But I didn't want to go anywhere else. I wanted you…..I want you. I made you that promise."
"You backed out of that promise, remember?"
"You were the one who gave the ring back!"
"Because you broke up with me! Or do you not remember, because I do! I am reminded everyday!"
"Of course I remember and I told you I was sorry about that!"
"Sorry doesn't put back together the heart you shattered! Sorry doesn't take back the fact that I cried myself to sleep for weeks, hell, a month!"
"I'm sorry! I was going-"
"Through a lot, I know." Rory finishes Logan's sentence. "But if you truly believed that promise you made me then you would have trusted me to be there for you."
"That's all beside the point!"
"It's the entire point!"
"Can you honestly tell me that you don't love me?"
"No I can't but I can tell you that maybe we shouldn't be together. Maybe it'll save us a lot of heart break if we just end it once and for all." Rory wipes the tears that escaped from the shield she put up. Rory scoffs. "And we thought getting together was hard. Now it seems as if staying together is the impossible." Rory sees Logan's face fall. "Now I am truly sorry about your dad, but we can't do this. Not now…….maybe not at all."
Logan puts on his shirt and slips on his shoes. He looks at Rory sadly, "I meant what I promised. I always have. I'll see you." Logan storms out of Rory's room. When Logan opens the door out of the dorm he nearly runs into someone. Logan puts his head down. "Hey Lorelai."
"Hey Logan, it's good to see you." She says sympathetically, but Logan leaves before she's finished. Lorelai walks into the dorm and into Rory's room to see Rory standing sadly in the same spot on the verge of sobbing. "So judging from Logan's stampede, I'm guessing you heard the news."
Rory turns to Lorelai, "You know?"
"It's all over the paper, sweetie. He was a big guy. How is Logan taking it?"
"Not so good."
"Why the sprint out of here?"
"Logan came over last night, when it happened. He was sad. He needed some comfort, so we….." Rory trails off.
"Oh." Lorelai says as she gets it.
"Yeah."
"But, as I recall your sleepless nights, didn't you guys break up?"
"Yeah. I sort of reminded him of that."
"So that was the reason for Logan's mad dash."
"I guess."
"So….anything else on your mind?"
"Not really."
"You love him." Lorelai says matter-of-factly.
"That's never been a question."
"Then, what's the problem?"
"The problem is……you remember how hard it was for me after we broke up."
"His father was sick."
"I know that. All I wanted to do was be there for him……but he wouldn't let me."
"He needs you now."
"Logan doesn't need anything."
"His father just died."
"I'm aware of that and I feel horrible about it, but when someone breaks your heart…….something just, I don't know…..shuts off, I guess."
"Sweetie, he needs you now, more than ever. Go to him; help him."
"I did." Rory looks down. "If I get involved all over again and he pushes me away again…….I don't know if my heart can take another break."
"Don't second guess love." Rory looks up at Lorelai. "Go to him" Lorelai smirks. "I want my son in law back."
"Selfish."
"You want him back too."
Rory reflects about the situation. "I have to see someone first."
"Do what you gotta do. I just wanted to see how you were doing and I needed to get a little shopping done."
"I'm fine."
"Well….good luck. I'll see you later." Lorelai kisses her daughter on the cheek and leaves. After Lorelai leaves, Rory contemplates on whether she should go or not. She makes her decision. She grabs her keys and purse, and walks out the doors.