Forever, That Day
Emma is remembering that day before 7th grade, looking back from the 5th season
Sitting there in the playground that day, we never knew what the next years would hold. The summer air felt brisk, not yet autumn. The mood felt lazily, happy, and you could taste forever.
Before the words sneaking out, drugs, diets, piercings, scars, stealing, p.t.'s
death, and disease meant anything. They couldn't mean anything, 'cuz we didn't know what they were- not really. We had never experienced them.
We weren't naieve, some horror we had. It floated in the back of our minds. We didn't need an outlet, cuz we didn't- couldn't really understand, and come to terms with it. We, accepted the half-truths hat we were told.
The world, seemed big, we'd never seem anyone's world, but our own. But, our worlds weren't so big, that we couldn't control them.
We had control, or at least, our parents had control of us. They could control us, and our feelings. They could fix the pain.
That day, we never knew the word popular. Popular, was used to describe the cute guy that we were crushing on.
We, would have never guessed, about my best friend, and that guy. About, the video, and getting kicked out. No way could we have guessed, about her turning "hot".
We would have never guessed about him. Him, dating the bully's sister, about him, befriending him. He who changed Degrassi forever. We would have never guessed, that he would almost have an eating disorder.
I'd never in a million years guess about him, and her hooking up; with either of the girls. Sure, those pranks were bound to happen, but sometimes they went too far. His clowning around, won't get him out of bad situations anymore.
Who'd of guessed that she'd have a "not" affair with the teacher/ coach. Go crazy, cuz she didn't make the team. Who'd of guess she hook up with him, who she had a rivalry with. No one could ever guess what happened next. No one.
But, out of all of them, I think I was the least predictable. I dated a bad boy, got a social disease, from another. I found my mental birth- dad, I almost got shot, by another mental. I even TP'd a house. No one, would have guessed that I'd do those things- me, greenpeace, good girl.
When we were good.
Funny, how no one knew those things that day. No one, could know who they were then, was only a fragment of who they would be now. Same name, same face, improved them.
But, that day was different. For a moment, it was forever. Forever, we would not grow up, mess up, and see that. But, forever, for that time, we could be kids. We knew what they needed to know, and change wouldn't come to us without some knowledge, and notice. 'Cuz, that's forever- forever, you'll know your past.