Chapter Three: Incoming
Dear Diary,
The thought of never seeing Tommy again was my happiest thought. Then I remembered Sadie. When Sadie shows up, Tommy shows up. And when that happens… my lie will be brought to the ultimate test. The battle will begin…
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Jude lived in her own peaceful world for the past five months. She told Georgia, EJ, Kwest, and Darius what happened; at least the safe version of the story. Victoria stayed at Jude's side through it all, even when they had to tell Stuart. He was shocked but tried to be supportive. They all believed her lie, or so she thought. Silently Kwest doubted Jude's story. He knew sooner or later it would come out and he'd be the one sitting front row to witness it.
After awhile Jude couldn't write any longer considering she couldn't hold the guitar. Despite Jude's growing stomach though, she wouldn't stop arriving at G-Major. She told Georgia she had to do work, had to do something or she'd go insane. So, Kwest took Jude under his wing and taught her what he knew about producing and the equipment. Only, Jude had the worst attention span to actually learn it all.
"Am I ever going to have this thing?" Jude asked frustrated as she walked into the studio where Kwest was working.
Kwest looked up and laughed, "Well, I sure hope so, get any bigger and you're not going to be able to walk through the doors."
"Thanks Kwest, just the way to boost a fat girls self-esteem," Jude remarked as she fell into one of the chairs.
"That's what I'm here for." Kwest said getting back to his work.
Ten minutes of silence passed by, Kwest was labeling things, tweaking this and that when Jude suddenly blurted out, "I'm hungry."
"Jude, you ate like half an hour ago." Kwest said to the mixing board turning a few knobs.
"I know, but I'm hungry again. I think I am going to get something to eat. Want anything?" Jude announced as she fought her way out of the chair.
"No, not really." Kwest responded, and then stopped her, "Jude?"
"Yes?" Jude stopped at the door.
"You should just go home, its getting late and you're not even doing any work." Kwest said as he turned to face her.
Smiling Jude nodded, "You're right. I'm sorry Kwest that I can't seem to think of much. But as soon as this baby is free from my body, work will become my middle name!"
"Sure thing, see ya Jude, get some rest," Kwest told her getting back to work.
"Bye, Kwest." Jude said as she left Studio A.
Jude walked through the lobby and told EJ to tell Georgia she's going home. Driving home, Jude softly sung one of the songs she wrote while in New York.
"..Hey little girl take me by the hand… walk me down this boardwalk… one last time again…"
She got home and was still singing to herself as she walked into the house.
"… I gotta get out while I still can… I'm going to New York city… with this guitar in my hand…"
Jude shut the door and walked straight to the kitchen on a mission to the fridge, belching out notes as she walked.
"… I'm going to New York city… gotta find where I stand… And I'll be walking down broadway… with this guitar in my hand…"
Jude grabbed the ice cream from the freezer, singing as she got a spoon out of a drawer.
"…Well I sing for the tourists… 'bout a dream life on the water… but when the dream gets broken… this life gets harder and harder…"
Turning, she closed her eyes starting to sing the last verse.
"…I'm going to New York city… Gotta find out where I stand…"
"Great song, Jude, is that you're next hit?"
Jude screamed and jumped backwards hitting the counter as she opened her eyes wide.
"Calm down it's only us."
"What is wrong with you people and scaring me half to death! Don't you people know not to scare a person!" Jude yelled as she slumped against the counter.
"Jude! Stop yelling." Victoria told Jude.
"I'm sorry but, you guys scared me. I didn't expect anyone to be home." Jude said as she walked around the table. "Sadie, I can't believe you're here."
Sadie got up from the table and hugged Jude, or tried to the best she could.
"And I didn't expect my little sister to be pregnant at eighteen," Sadie said pulling away, "But life is full of surprises."
"Please lay off the sneaking up on me surprises, I can do with out." Jude told Sadie dryly.
"I think I learned my lesson." Sadie responded just as dryly. "I think my ear drum burst."
Jude and Sadie laughed. "That's the least of what you deserve."
"Jude, why don't you sit down with us?" Victoria asked motioning to the seat next to her.
Jude looked at Sadie and her mom, who were smiling. Then looked at the other person who couldn't meet her eyes even for a moment.
"No I think I will pass. I'm really tired. I was just going to get something to eat before I went and laid down," Jude told them, "But I think I'll just go take a nap."
"Okay, honey. I'll wake you for dinner," Victoria said.
"It's good to see you Sadie, and I'm sorry for just leaving. But I'm really worn out." Jude said looking at Sadie.
"Oh, no it's fine, you need your rest. We'll catch up when you're more awake," Sadie reassured Jude.
Jude squeezed Sadie's hand and pasted a smile on before she left the room.
Jude labored her way up the stairs and finally got to her room. She closed the door softly and went straight to her bed. Laying down facing the window, she thought to herself:
I can't believe he's back. The nerve of him not to even say hi! He couldn't even meet my eye. Am I that disgusting? Who am I kidding… I am. He has perfect little Sadie now… no need for me… or our child… 'Our' child! What am I saying, it's 'Mine'. He has nothing to do with this one. He'll never have anything to do with my baby. He's dead as far as I am concerned… But he did look really good… What am I thinking? He looked horrible! Oh who am I kidding? He looked perfect… Okay that is the last time I admit that!
While Jude slipped into her normal peaceful slumber, Tommy sat downstairs lost in his own thoughts. Sadie and Victoria were talking about some unknown topic, he didn't know, so Tommy was left alone with his own conversation.
Oh God, I never knew that if I really saw her, my heart would stop beating. I can't believe she's pregnant! I know the story Sadie told me… but it's too convenient… isn't it? I mean it's too convenient by half; it could just as easily be mine. If it is, why wouldn't she tell me? Are you kidding, she wouldn't tell you if your life depended on it! She has forgotten about you, moved on... No, I can't believe that, she loved me she won't forget me! Of course she wouldn't, after all you did break her heart after sleeping with her, then left with out saying a word to her… I have to talk to her… I would stay away if I were you… Yeah, that's the attitude that got me into this mess, first chance I get, I'll talk to her…
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"Sure, Sadie, it's fine if Tommy stays here with you."
Jude woke up to hear Victoria and Sadie talking about Tommy staying here for Christmas. She rolled herself out of bed and made her way to the door and opened it. There stood Sadie and Victoria in the hallway talking about the sleeping arrangements.
"Oh, Jude, you're finally up" Victoria said when she saw Jude standing there, "You slept right through dinner, but there are left overs in the fridge."
"Okay mom," Jude said as she passed her mom and sister, then she stopped and looked back at them, "Did you say Tommy is staying here all Christmas?"
"Yep, you don't mind do you?" Sadie asked, "You two used to be so close, I didn't think you'd mind. Who knows, maybe you two can get reacquainted."
"You don't even know how close…" Jude mumbled to herself, "I don't think I could take another acquaintance with him."
"What did you say Jude?" Sadie asked frowning.
"Huh?... Oh, uh… nothing, just that I can't wait to get reacquainted." Jude said with a forced smile.
Sadie stood frowning as she watched Jude slowly descend the stairs. Something is seriously not right here…
Jude walked to the fridge, but instead of going for the left over dinner, she went for the ice cream she never had a chance to eat earlier.
"Should you be eating that?"
Jude screamed as she turned around.
"Do you people have to keep doing that!" Jude asked annoyed with her hand above her heart. Trying to calm the beat that had no intention of calming anytime soon.
"I'm sorry," Tommy said quietly.
Jude laughed bitterly, "And what are you sorry about exactly?"
"Jude…" Tommy began.
"No. Forget I said anything." Jude said as she picked up the ice cream and grabbed a spoon. She tried to walk around Tommy, but he caught her arm, keeping her from walking away.
"I need to talk to you." Tommy stated quietly.
"Tommy there's nothing to talk about." Jude responded with a bitter note in her voice.
Tommy looked down at her stomach, and then said, "I think there is."
"Try not to think, Tommy, you don't do it very well." Jude said her face inches from his.
"I'm not stupid, Jude, it could be mine." Tommy said staring straight into her eyes, "Most likely is, since you wouldn't sleep with just anyone."
"Evidently I did, Tommy." Jude said coldly, "Twice."
"Are you saying I mean nothing to you?" Tommy asked angry.
"Exactly. Looks like little Tommy Q, has some intelligence in there." Jude mocked, "Too bad you don't use it much."
"Jude! Enough!" Tommy said gripping her arm tighter as he brought her face closer to his, "I want to know, is it mine?"
Jude stared at Tommy icily for a few seconds before spitting out, "No, Tom, it's not yours. Now stay the hell away from me and my baby. Got it?"
"I don't believe you…" Tommy said as he backed up a little. He looked around confused. "You wouldn't do that."
"You left me Tommy. Shattered everything I felt for you, what do you expect me to do?" Jude asked bitterly, "I needed to feel loved, even if it wasn't real."
Jude yanked her arm out of Tommy's grip and walked out of the kitchen. She stopped at the door and looked back at Tommy.
"I loved you Tommy," Jude said sadly with tears in her eyes, "and you broke me, like nobody else could."
Tommy watched as Jude walked out of the room, his eyes misty. I love you, and it's breaking me now.
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Later that night after everyone was in bed, Jude tip toed, or tried to top toe down to the kitchen. She had been lying in bed for hours and couldn't sleep. Around two in the morning she decided to get something to eat. Jude grabbed some cookies and milk and sat at the counter eating when Sadie walked in.
"Sadie, what are you still doing up?" Jude asked stuffing a cookie in her mouth.
"You woke me up when you came down here. You're really light on your feet you know," Sadie said with a smile.
Jude grinned and said, "Sorry, but its hard to get around and not be noisy. Who am I kidding; it's hard to get around."
"Are you sure you should be eating cookies?" Sadie asked fingering the bag, "It's not very healthy."
Jude lifted up her milk and stated, "I think this about evens it out, don't you?"
Sadie laughed as she sat next to Jude grabbing a cookie. They sat in silence for five minutes, neither knew what to say.
"Jude, how did this happen?" Sadie finally asked breaking the silence.
"Uh, Sadie, I think you're a little old to be taught the birds and the bees. Use your imagination; I'm sure it'll be close to the truth." Jude said lightly.
Sadie gave Jude a look while saying, "That's not what I was talking about and you know it."
"I know, but I really don't know what to tell you Sadie." Jude said soberly, "It was just a mistake… one I regret more than anything."
"Do you even know who the guy is?" Sadie asked.
"Uh… his name kinda…" Jude said quietly. Yeah, I remember, your boyfriend, the one and only little Tommy Q.
"Are you even going to try and find this guy?" Sadie asked.
"No, Sadie, I'm not. I don't need him okay? He doesn't need to know!" Jude said defensively.
"Okay, okay, Jude I'm sorry. I didn't mean to poke old wounds." Sadie said as she put her hand on Judes.
"No, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bite your head off. I just don't really want to talk about what happened." Jude told Sadie honestly.
"Okay, then we won't. So, what's going on between you and Tommy? Ever since your birthday you guys have barely looked at each other." Sadie said, trying to get some answers.
"Why don't you ask Quincy?" Jude asked not looking at her sister. Great, what am I suppose to say to her? Definitely not the truth.
"I tried but he just said it was an argument and he didn't want to talk about it." Sadie told her.
"Well, there you go." Jude said, hoping she'd drop it.
"Come on, Jude, I am your sister. Don't lie to me. What happened?" Sadie said her voice hardening,
Jude looked at her sister then looked away. "Okay, fine, you want to know?"
Sadie nodded when Jude glanced at her. Taking a deep breath, Jude tried to tell her something that resembled the truth.
"On my birthday, that morning, I came on to Tommy. But he pushed me away, he said he loved you." Jude told her bitterly, "You can hate me all you want, I deserve it. But I loved Tommy, and I thought he loved me."
Sadie stared at Jude like she was an alien, moving away a little.
"Sadie, please, don't hate me! Please! He chose you, Sadie, you, not me." Jude said fast trying to get Sadie to say something, trying to explain, "Everything is fine, okay? You have him, he has you. I didn't get him, just please don't hate me."
Sadie shook her head then snapped back to reality to see that Jude had tears in her eyes and that one single tear made its way down her cheek. Sadie pulled Jude into a hug as her eyes started to water.
"That's why you went to this guy, isn't Jude?" Sadie whispered into Jude's hair. "You needed someone, anyone."
Jude hesitated for a second before nodding into Sadie's shoulder.
"Oh, Jude, I'm so sorry…" Sadie whispered. They sat like that for a while before Jude finally pulled back.
Jude gave Sadie a wobbly smile as she wiped her eyes. Sadie smiled back as she did the same.
"I have some good news; at least what I hope is good news." Sadie announced.
"What's that?" Jude asked as she went back to eating her cookies.
"I'm moving back home." Sadie said happily.
Jude stopped eating and put down her cookie, "Sadie are you serious?"
Sadie nodded.
"Are you moving back here or are you and Tommy going to get your own place?" Jude asked.
"I'm moving back here, and Tommy is going to get his own place." Sadie said, "With you in the condition you're in and mom's normally working and I know you'll be at the Studio most of the day, so I thought you might need the help."
"That's great, but I don't want you to not move in with Tommy because of me." Jude told Sadie.
"We'll I do want to be back here with you and mom you know. Besides, it may just be temporary." Sadie said, "Tommy is going tomorrow to see if Georgia will give him his job back, and if she does, then that means late hours. I would rather be home with people than alone."
"This is great!" Jude said as she got up and hugged Sadie.
Their conversation then turned to babies. They ended up staying up for a couple more hours before finally going back to bed. But what they didn't know was that Tommy was standing there for most of the first part of their conversation. When the talk turned to babies, Tommy silently went back to bed.
I did that to her, even if I didn't literally get her pregnant. It's still my fault…
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For the next week Sadie and Jude spent most of their time shopping. Christmas was only a week away. Tommy went and begged Georgia for his job back, only she never told him he had to beg. Georgia was ready to give Tommy back his position, but she didn't want to seem too easy on him. Kwest gladly went back to working under Tommy. Kwest also, reluctantly gave Tommy back his viper. It was four days before Christmas when somebody knocked on Jude's door.
"I'm coming, I'm coming!" Jude yelled as she slowly made her way to the door.
Sadie ended up beating her to the door and had it open by the time she got there.
"Jamie! Kat!" Jude screamed opening her arms.
Kat was the first to embrace her, and then Jamie.
"Wow, I don't remember seeing you this big the last time I saw you," Jamie said smiling.
"It must have been those cheese balls," Jude said giving Jamie a cheeky smile.
"Yeah, I bet. By the way, you still owe me." Jamie told her.
Jamie, Jude and Kat all laughed as they went to sit in the living room. They sat talking for an hour before the door opened.
"Tommy?" Jamie asked surprised.
Tommy looked over and came into the living room, "Kat, Jamie, nice to see you."
"Uh… you too…" Kat said.
Jude looked at Jamie and Kat who were looking at her, with a question in their eyes. She shook her head a little and they both understood.
"So what are you doing here, Quincy?" Jamie asked.
"I needed a place to stay until the holiday is over," Tommy said simply as he sat down next to Jude. In reaction, Jude scooted over so there was at least two feet between her and Tommy. Tommy noticed this but gave no hint to it.
"And then what, you'll be leaving again, I hope," Jamie said sweetly.
"Gone from the house but not the city, sorry Jamie," Tommy told him.
"Well a person can hope, right?" Jamie said looking Tommy in the eye.
"Looks like you got some guts while you were gone," Tommy stated, "How surprising. But you still haven't grown up."
"You're a fine one to talk about growing up, Quincy." Jamie shot back.
"Boys, enough," Jude said trying to keep Jamie from bringing her lie into the argument.
"Yeah, Jamie, we should be going anyways. We haven't even told my parents we're back." Kat said as she got up and pulled Jamie along with her, "Jude we'll see you later." Kat said as she shoved Jamie out the door and looked back at Jude smiling slightly.
Tommy and Jude sat in an uncomfortable silence. Tommy shifted a little, Jude played with the end of her hair.
"Jude..." Tommy began.
"Ah… Ouch!" Jude said as she gritted her teeth and pressed her hand to her belly.
"What? What's wrong?" Tommy asked anxiously as he sat up facing Jude.
"Oh, it's nothing… the baby just kicked." Jude said smiling a bit, "It hurts sometimes."
"Can… Can I feel?" Tommy asked hesitantly.
"Uh… um… yeah I, uh, guess so," Jude said as she took his had and put it on her belly in a certain spot.
"Wait… wait…" Jude said gently waiting for the kick as she pressed his hand down, "There! Do you feel it?"
"Yeah… wow, does he do that a lot?" Tommy asked in awe as he stared at her belly where their hands pressed and the baby touched.
"Yep, it's mostly surprising, but every now and then it hurts." Jude said softly.
They fell silent again as the baby kicked a few more times. Both Tommy and Jude smiled as the baby kicked a few more times.
"Are you excited for the baby to come?" Tommy asked tenderly.
"Oh, yes. I can't wait," Jude said smiling, "For one I cant wait to be skinny and not fat and ugly. But mostly, I just want to hold him."
"Him?" Tommy asked dazed as he stared at Jude.
Jude gave him a dimply smile and said, "It's going to be a boy."
"Do you know for sure or are you hoping?" Tommy asked.
"I didn't let the doctor tell me, but I know, mothers intuition." Jude stated.
Tommy smiled back at her, and then suddenly blurted out, "You're not fat and ugly."
"What?" Jude asked taken back.
"Well… uh, I meant…nothing…" Tommy said as he looked away.
"No, Tommy, tell me, what did you say?" Jude asked seriously, "Come on, Quincy, spit it out."
"I just said you're not fat and ugly," Tommy said nervously, "I just meant that you're beautiful. I think you're more beautiful like this than when you were before. Glowing and all…"
"Tommy…"
"Tom!" Sadie said as she walked down the stairs, "Are you ready for dinner?"
"Uh, what?" Tommy said a little lost.
"What are you guys doing?" Sadie asked once she came into the room and saw Tommy's hand on Jude's stomach.
Tommy followed Sadie's gaze and then immediately removed his hand saying, "Oh it was nothing, I just wanted to feel the baby kick. That's all."
Jude stared into space while this happened. Then she got up and left smiled at Sadie and excused herself for the bathroom. Leaving Sadie and Tommy to go to dinner. Jude went to her room and when she heard the front door close went to her window and watch as Tommy and Sadie drove off in the viper.
No… please, God, no… Jude thought, I can't fall in love with him again. He loves Sadie, you can't come in-between them. For a moment, this baby was ours… ours… No, it can't be ours, its mine. He can't know, it will only ruin his life. Maybe one day, before I die or he dies, I'll tell him it's his…maybe.
Jude put her hand on her belly and said softly, "Its okay baby, we don't need him. You've got me, and I've got you. We'll be just fine."
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It was two in the morning again when Jude woke up from her blissful sleep. She looked around confused not knowing why she was awakened. Then she felt the sharp pain in her belly and groaned. She now knew. Once the pain went away, she got up from the bed and slowly stood up. Walking towards the door to her room, she stopped suddenly when a gush of water poured out of her.
Looking down Jude said to herself, "This is so sick!"
Jude turned around changed as quickly as she could then made her way out of her room and stood in the hall for a second. Do I go to Sadie's door, right next door, or mom's down the hall?... Jude looked back and forth, Sadie.
Jude knocked briskly on the door, and then opened it.
"Sadie?" Jude said loudly, "Sadie… wake up."
Suddenly Tommy and Sadie both popped their heads up.
"Oh, uh… um… never mind," Jude said as she walked out of the room a little dazed.
"Jude, wait!" Tommy called.
Jude walked a few feet wobbly when she bent over and screamed. Tommy came running out of Sadie's room to see Jude hunched over on the hall floor.
"Oh God, Jude!" Tommy yelled as he bent next to her. "What's wrong? Jude?"
Jude grabbed Tommy's hand when it came close to her and said between clenched teeth, "The baby…"
"Oh God…" Tommy whispered scared and not knowing what to do.
"Tom, what's wrong?" Sadie asked as she came out of her room.
Tommy looked at Sadie, frightened, "The baby is coming."
"Oh God…" Sadie said wide eyed then ran down the hall, "Mom! Wake up! Jude's in labor."
Victoria flung the door open and rushed out of the room. She took in Jude on the floor and a frightened Tommy and Sadie and announced, "We have to get her to the hospital now."
Tommy nodded then looked at Jude. When she started to straighten up, Tommy picked her up in his arms.
"Okay, I'll go get my keys. Sadie, there is a bag in Jude's closet, go get it." Victoria said as she ran to her room. Emerging a second later to lead the way down the car. Victoria drove, with Sadie sitting shot gun. Tommy sat in the back holding Jude in his arms as she groaned every once in a while.
Once they got to the hospital Tommy reluctantly put Jude in a wheel chair. He held her hand as she was wheeled up to the receptionist, up until the part where she had to leave and go with the nurse.
"Sir, you need to let go, so I can take her back," the nurse said gently, "Don't worry, everything will be fine."
Jude looked at Tommy just as frightened as he felt. He squeezed her hand and let go slowly. Victoria walked off with Jude as she was taken into a room. Tommy watched until she was completely out of eyesight. Then he walked to a chair in the waiting area and sat down with his head in his hands. Sadie called Kwest, Georgia, EJ, Jamie, Kat and last of all, her dad.
With in the hour, everyone showed up.
"How is she?" Georgia asked as she walked up.
"She's fine. The doctor said it may take a while, though." Sadie told Georgia and everyone.
While they were talking, Tommy sat in the chair staring into space. His hair was sticking up at odd ends and his eyes were wide and seemed to be vacant.
"Tommy?...Tommy!" Kwest said as he hit Tommy in the arm to get his attention.
"Huh?" Tommy said in a daze.
Kwest stared at Tommy and shook his head as he walked away to talk to Sadie and Georgia. For the rest of the night, they sat and waited. Everyone was asleep in the waiting room as Tommy still sat wide awake. Finally he got up and started walking. Before he knew it he was standing at the window of the nursery. He stared at all the new born babies thinking.
Pain, Jude's going through pain… again… she's hurting. Will she ever stop being hurt? Why Jude? Oh God, so much pain… I can still hear her scream. Why can't I forget her scream? It's echoing in my ears, her pain… Please don't die Jude… please… I still need you even if I can't be with you… So much pain… I always cause her pain. It's my fault, its all my fault. She's hurting, I did this to her…Don't die, Jude…My mom died giving birth to me, Jude is going to die… No! She can't! I won't let her. The last thing my mom thought of me was pain… the last thing Jude will think is pain… No… God, don't let her die, please…I need her…
Soundless tears fell from Tommy's face as he relived his deepest fears.
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Half an hour later Tommy walked back to the waiting room to find everyone was still asleep. He turned around to go find something to drink when he saw Victoria walking towards him. A bright smile plastered across her face. Tommy met her half way feeling suddenly giddy.
"How's Jude?" Tommy asked anxiously.
"She's doing great. A little tired but it's expected." Victoria said with a smile.
"And… the baby?" Tommy asked hesitantly.
"Doing great, I now have a healthy grandson!" Victoria answered proudly. "I was coming to tell everyone, but I see they're still sleeping."
"Yeah…" Tommy drifted off, "Can I see Jude?"
"She's very tired, probably already asleep, but I guess it won't hurt…" Victoria said eyeing Tommy for the first time since they got there, "She's in room 350, go and see her."
Nodding Tommy walked off briskly. He followed the doors until he came to Jude's room and he stopped. Taking a deep breath, he walked in. Jude was sleeping peacefully when walked in, so he quietly shut the door and walked over to stand next to her. For five minutes he just stood there staring at her. Gently he pushed a piece of hair from her face.
"Thank God you're alive…" Tommy whispered as he gently kissed her forehead.
When Tommy pulled away, Jude started waking up and opened her eyes.
"Tommy…?" Jude whispered confused.
"Right here," Tommy said as he took her hand smiling.
Jude looked at him and smiled tiredly.
"How are you doin', girl?" Tommy asked quietly as he rubbed her hand.
"Okay I think…" Jude said lightly, "Just really sleepy. Have you seen him?"
"Nope, not yet" Tommy said as he shook his head.
"Oh…" Jude said disappointed, "I want to see him."
Just as she said that Victoria came in with a nurse carrying a little bundle.
"Somebody wanted to meet you," The nurse said as she walked over to Jude, handing her the baby.
Jude took the baby very gently; afraid he might break at one wrong movement. She gazed down at the little face, moving the blanket hiding him from her vision. She smiled at the little bundle as she touched his cheek gently. He had bright blue eyes and dark hair.
You look too much like your father Jude thought to herself.
Glancing up Jude saw Tommy watching her with the baby. She smiled as looked into his eyes and then down at the baby.
Even if he may not know it, I think I should let him hold his son Jude thought to herself.
"Tommy, do you want to hold him?" Jude asked as she looked back up.
"No… no… I couldn't, no, its fine… I don't need to…" Tommy rambled nervously, "He's too small, he's fine with you… I can see him, its fine."
"Tommy," Jude said giving him a look, "Take the baby."
Tommy nodded dumbly as he moved close to take the bundle. Jude saw his hands shaking as she carefully handed her baby to the father he may never know. Tommy stood up looking down at the little face, frowning slightly.
Those blue eyes look very familiar…
Tommy looked at Jude questionably. Jude glanced away knowing what he was thinking. Tommy looked back down at the face the look eerily like him. Suddenly the baby started crying and Tommy looked around a little frightened.
"Oh poor baby, little thing wants to be fed," The nurse announced as she took the baby from Tommy and turned to Jude, "You ready to feed the little tyke?"
Jude nodded as Tommy turned around and left. He walked back to the waiting room to find everyone awake and smiling.
"Tommy! Did you see the baby?" Sadie asked running towards Tommy excitedly.
Tommy looked at Sadie then mentally shook himself, "Uh, yeah. Blued eyed, dark haired angel."
"Awe, what did she name him?" Sadie asked even giddier.
"I don't think she has yet, she was getting ready to nurse when I left." Tommy told Sadie.
"What's going on?" Jamie asked as he and everyone else walked up.
Sadie turned around to tell them what Tommy said. Tommy stood in silence not knowing what to think. Should he believe Jude or should he believe his gut feeling?
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When Jude was done nursing, the mob of people taking over the waiting room came to crowd her room. Everyone was there, except Tommy. While everyone was ooo-ing and ahh-ing, Tommy left the hospital. It took a few hours for everyone to finally get sick of the hospital enough to clear out with one excuse and another. Jude convinced her mom and Sadie that she would be fine alone for the night. So, Victoria and Sadie left when it was getting dark outside. Jude barely noticed their absence she was too tired to notice much of anything. The baby was taken down to the nursery for the night so they could keep an eye on him.
Jude was sleeping deeply when Tommy walked into the room. Everyone at the hospital thought Tommy was the father so they didn't stop him from entering after visiting hours. He sat down in the chair next to Jude's bed setting a small teddy bear on the table by Jude. He left earlier to think, but found himself at a baby store. He saw the small light blue teddy bear, last one left, and bought it.
An hour later, Jude started to wake up. She opened her eyes to find Tommy staring at her. For a second it scared her to be stared at so intently, but she was used to it.
"Hello," Jude said trying to rub the sleep from her eyes.
"Good evening, sleepy head," Tommy said fondly.
"Hey, you try having a baby and you tell me if you're tired after wards!" Jude said in mock anger.
Tommy put his hands up in defense, "I surrender, you deserve your sleep, oh great punk princess."
"I'm guessing you heard me…" Jude said quietly.
"Oh don't you know it… blue eyed prince, I don't know if that really fits me…" Tommy said thoughtfully.
"No you're absolutely right, pain in the butt is more like it." Jude said sarcastically.
Tommy gave Jude a grin, "You know you love me."
"You wish Quincy." Jude shot back.
You're right; I do Tommy thought looking at Jude.
"What's on your mind Tommy?" Jude asked seeing the conflict in his eyes.
"Jude I have to know…" Tommy began.
"No, Tommy, I told you he's not yours" Jude told Tommy looking away, "You don't have to worry. He's not your responsibility."
"Jude, he looks exactly like me, how is he not mine?" Tommy asked getting frustrated.
"Conceited at all, Quincy?" Jude asked before getting serious.
"Jude, how do you explain dark hair and blue eyes, which happen to look exactly like mine?" Tommy stated.
"Easy Quincy, his father had dark hair, and all babies are born with light blue eyes." Jude said angrily, "They will probably change to green or something."
"Right, Jude. Keep telling yourself that!" Tommy yelled.
"I will 'cause he's not yours!" Jude yelled back.
"I don't believe you! I want a test done to prove I am not the father!" Tommy said quietly, with the steel edge to his voice.
Jude stared at Tommy in shock; He wouldn't dare… would he?
Suddenly Jude said coldly, "Don't you dare go near my son. Just stay away from him and me both. Whatever you think you know, you don't. Neither of us do nor ever will need you! So stay out of our lives! If you think about coming near him or me, I swear I will bring the world down on your head. You do not want to mess with me when it comes to that baby! Got it Tommy? I can ruin your life if you try, and I dare you to try."
Tommy took a step back as Jude hissed those icy words to him. He could see the dangerous gleam in her eyes, knew she was not joking.
Great, now she hates me! Tommy thought, Maybe it is best I just leave them both alone. I mean she just had a baby and here I am, getting her all riled up. Before you know it, I'll be breaking her again. She's probably right, he's probably not mine anyways… I should just leave now before I really cause some damage.
"Okay Jude, fine. I'll leave you and him alone." Tommy said quietly as he walked to the door, deflating Jude with his words.
Tommy stopped when he had the door open and looked back at Jude watching him wide-eyed.
"What did you name him? Can I at least know that much?" Tommy said sadly.
Jude watched Tommy for a second more before saying, "Lucien. Luc for short."
"Luc." Tommy whispered to himself before nodding and turning around and leaving.
Jude stared as the door shut, did I just tell Tommy to stay out of my life? And his sons?... Oh, no… I did. It's for the best right?... right.
Something caught Jude's attention out of the corner of her eye. She looked over to find a small light blue teddy bear. Jude picked it up, and seeing that the tag was written on, turned it and read the writing, "To a Blue Eyed Angel, From a Blue Eyed Prince."
Jude smiled sadly as she read those words. A tear escaped down her cheek as regretted what she had said. Tommy… why do you do this to me? Why do you have to be the enemy one second then prince charming the next?
Jude hid her face in the pillow crying softly.
When Tommy left Jude's room, he just walked. Not knowing where he was headed or where he was going, he just walked. Down one hall, to another, by this door and that. Before he knew it he was standing at the nursery window looking at his blue eyed angel.
How could you not be mine? Tommy thought desperately, my blue eyed angel. No, not mine, Jude's and some random guys. Maybe it's my mind playing tricks on me, that's why I think there's a strong connection between you and I. I wanted that bond with Jude, I needed it. I guess its time I face the truth, I don't have a son…
Tommy took one last look at Luc, and then left the hospital to go and move his stuff from the Harrison residence and to his new apartment. Jude said to leave them alone, and he meant to do just that.