Chapter Seven: Someday I Will Be Okay
Dear Diary,
Things are going great! Can you believe I could be so happy? I can't. It's all so surreal right now. I couldn't be happier.
Do you believe me?
I don't. But hey, I tried. And someday I will be okay.
Jude set her pen down and looked at the last line she wrote 'Someday I will be okay'. It was always another day. The best thing to happen to her was giving birth to her little girl. No she never got the beautiful baby boy who looked like his father, but she did get a beautiful baby girl that looked like her father. Tommy was happy at first, but the man she knew changed. Which is precisely why their marriage was destined to fail.
I cant put it off any longer… Jude thought to herself. She picked up the folded papers and studied them for a moment.
They were the same exact papers she had her lawyer draw up, the divorce papers. She was married to Tommy for two years. It was time to let him go, it was what he wanted from the beginning. She knew he wasn't ready for a family, to settle down, but she thought maybe, just maybe… well it didn't matter any more. It was dead.
Jude grabbed a pen and held it tight. She looked at the blank line where she was to sign. Taking a deep breathe, she quickly scribbled her name.
Jude Mary-Ann Quincy.
She fought tears back; there was no point to cry. The man she knew wasn't even there any longer. A stranger took his place.
"Jude…" A voice called softly from behind her.
She turned to see Kat and Jamie standing in the open doorway. Her beautiful little girl, Angel, held in Jamie's arms. So innocent, she didn't know what was happening. But she had seen and heard too much for her whole two year existence.
"Okay." It was all she could choke out. She turned from them and put a folded piece of paper in the notebook lying on the night stand. Then, she set the divorce papers under it. A shinny silver chain slipped from her fingers and landed on the notebook. Jude looked at it for a moment. There was no hope left and no reason to keep it anymore. It was time to go.
She took one quick look around the room. She shared this room with Tommy for two years; it had happy and sad memories. She closed her eyes against it all and walked to the door. Kat's arm slipped around her. Together they descended the stairs and walked out the door. Jude looked at nothing as she left. It was just too hard. Her gut was twisting in misery, but she refused to cry. Not now, not ever. Tommy was gone, she had to think of herself and Angel.
When Jude got into Jamie's car, she looked back one last time. The house looked cold and barren. There was no love and joy left. She turned away from the house determined not to look back, ever. He made his many mistakes, this time he had made too many. She can still hear the last words she ever spoke to him.
"It never happened… right?"
But it happened, and it was never forgotten.
A/N: There is a sequel coming called "What If". It answers all the questions you have. This is the end.