Hey people! Decided to do this songfic. Guess what? The song is "Jesus, Take the Wheel" by Carrie Underwood. Yep. This song kind of relates to me. So yeah. Hope you enjoy. ;)
As I go through the hallways of my memories...I reflect upon how my life has changed and progressed...
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snowy white Christmas Eve
I see myself as a child loved by my family, cared for and oblivious to the troubles of the world. I got what I wanted and I was happy... or so I thought...
Going' home to see her Mama & her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Yet as I grow through my life... I see the constant conflicts... The quarrels... The fights... The Stiffness... the Anger... The hatred... where was the love I saw and felt as a child? Where was the love I was entitled to? How could I ever trust my family ever again?
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
I was ostracized by the other students... Laughed at... But did you care? Oh mum and dad... Did you care? All you did was quarrel... You did not even care to resolve your problems... You just quarreled and fought in front of me... Burdening me with your problems... Did you take time to find out about me? I tried to come close to you... But you shunned me... Where was that love I was entitled to?
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
As life went by... This burden grew heavier till one day...I could not take it anymore... The pain... The loneliness... The oppression of those around... Suicide was the only option... That's what I had thought.
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
Yet something held me back... Was it simply just the will to live? Was it just my friend trying to pull me down...? Or was there something more? Life was flashing by... To jump or not to jump? Did I have the courage to do so?
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
Then all went away... My fears, my pains, my sadness... Yet so did my hope... As I spiraled down the darkness... Someone grabbed my hand, pulling me out of the darkness...
She threw her hands up in the air
Who was this person? Who was this person who could take my pains and hurts and restore my hope...? Who was He?
Jesus, take the wheel
Then again... My life span out of control...I could not control anything... people hated me... people ostracized me... I fell back to depression...
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I was in great need of help... In great need of salvation... Then... He sent me someone to help me through my darkest hours...
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Through this, without knowing it... I was growing closer to finding Him... That mysterious person...
Jesus, take the wheel
Years passed by and I came to faith... Yet why was there that emptiness? That hole which needed to be filled?
It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
Then, I fell... Pornography, hatred, self-hatred, homosexuality... I was unable to stand again... With each time I picked myself up...I fell again... Where was that support I needed? Why was I so dry? I fell to my knees and died...
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
Then, Jesus came and gave me life... Just enough to pray... I bowed my head to pray...
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
God... Deliver me from the darkness... Save me... Fill me... Protect me... Heal me... I'm sorry for having left You... Please save me Lord... Guide me Lord...
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
Lord... use me Lord... Let me be a vessel You work through... Oh... Lord... Oh... Take the wheel of my life... Steer me the right way...
So for now on tonight
Jesus, take the wheel
Lord, I'm leaving all to You. Please deliver me from all my wrongs... Save me from myself... Take it from me Lord... I need someone to be there to pick me up and hold me up...
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
Lord... I'm leaving it all to You. Let me glorify You through my actions... Let me find rest in Your presence... Amen.
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
As I go through my life... A life of a Child of God... I face struggles... I face disappointments... I face temptation...
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus, take the wheel
Yet whenever I let it go and leave it to God, it all seems to turn out all right...
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Sometimes I might fall... Sure, I might even fail... But guess what? At the end of this road. This road of my life...
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
I will know that Jesus had loved me enough to die for me and loves me enough to continuously pick me up and hold me... Now what do I have to fear of the ones of this world, when I have the favor of the Mightiest Being of any time, any universe, and dimension or anything?
Jesus, take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh
Yep. I'm done with this songfic. Yes. I used to be a homo... I think... Though it's more of just wanting male affection cuz I didn't receive any love from my father. I received love only from my mum...But anyway, the thing is, and I hope you people are blessed by this fiction and well, yeah. Just remember that no matter how young or old you are how ugly or beautiful you are, God will always love you and be there for you.
God Bless! Azarethian Titan