AUTHOR: trista groulx (the dustytiger)
DISCLAIMER: kim, faith, fred, joey, bobby, jimmy, bosco, davis, sully, none of these characters are mine, i'm just borowing them to play with them for a little while, they belong to their creator and the actors and actresses who portray them, i promise i'll be gentle, don't sue
RATING: PG-13 tops currently
CONTENT: kim/faith friendship, fred/faith divorce, kim/bobby r, faith/bosco sex/ust
SPOILERS: 32 bullets and a broken heart (missing scene/continuation)
SUMMARY: Kim and Faith become friends after they share their heartaches that Valintines day.
AUTHORS NOTES: i know i know the drama it's getting to be too much, got a wee bit of a break here, i promise i really hope you are liking this i always love to to hear what ppl are thinking about what i'm writing!
Faith could still hardly believe what was going on with Kim. She needed to talk to someone, and she didn't know who to turn to. For the longest time she had had Fred, but he was gone now. Since he had left she had had Kim, but now she was sick.
There was only one other person she thought she could go to for support, and she wasn't sure if she wanted to do that again.
She knew she didn't want a repeat of the last time, but she also wasn't sure if she was strong enough to resist his charms. But she knew she needed to talk to someone about what was going on, and she figured that Bosco might be the only person who she could trust.
She picked up the phone, and dialed his number.
"Hi?" said Bosco.
"Hi, it's me," said Faith.
"Faith what's up?"
"I just need to talk to someone."
"Just talk?"
"Yeah, just talk, would you mind if I came over for a bit?"
"I wouldn't mind at all. I'll even tidy up the place."
She laughed. "Thank you, Bos, I really appreciate this."
"No problem, I'll see you in a bit?"
"Yeah, thank you so much."
XX
"Mommy, what's going on?" asked Joey, after he finished his supper.
"What do you mean?" Kim asked.
"We went for ice cream after school, and you made my favourite for supper. Something has to be going on."
She had to give it to the child, he was pretty perceptive. She wasn't sure how she was going to tell him what was going on with her. She didn't know where to start explaining cancer to someone so young.
"Yeah, there's something going on, Sweetie," she said. "I just don't know how to tell you what it is."
He nodded. "Are you gonna have a baby?"
"No, that's not it honey. I'm not going to have a baby."
"Cause my friend at school told me that when his Mom got sick all the time he got a brother."
Kim smiled. "Yeah, sometimes that's what getting sick in the morning means, but not this time, sorry."
He nodded. "Oh, okay. I still want a brother."
"I know you do. Look how about we go into the living room, all right? Go sit with Bobby, please."
"Are you and Bobby gonna get married?"
She smiled. "Yes, but there's something else too."
"Is it bad?"
She nodded. "I'm sorry, sweetie, it is bad news."
"You're not gonna die are you?"
Kim went pale, "please go into the other room, Joey."
He did as he was told, and went into the living room, and sat down on the couch next to Bobby. Joey was really worried about was going on.
"Bobby, is it true that you're gonna marry my mom?" he asked.
Bobby smiled. "Yeah, it is."
"When?"
"I don't know yet, I hope not too long from now."
"Do you think it's a sin to get married again?"
"No, I don't think so. I know that sins are really bad, and cause you to go to hell, but I don't think that getting married again is one of the sins that gets you there."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean if you just keep getting married again and again, then you'll probably go to hell, cause that's not good, and I'm sure God wouldn't like that too much."
"Then when do you think it's not a sin?"
"If you get married for the right reasons, and then something really changes like with your Mommy and Daddy, then God is okay with that, as long as you talk to him about it."
Joey nodded. "I think I get it."
"But I mean there are some sins that God could never forgive you for, like killing someone else."
"Yeah! So did you talk to God before you asked Mommy to marry you?"
Bobby smiled. "She asked me to marry her, and I'm sure she talked to God first."
"All right, good."
Kim came into the living room, and asked. "What were you boys talking about?"
"Sins and God," Joey replied. "Bobby knows a lot about that stuff."
"Does he?"
"Yup, he says that sometimes God is okay if you get married again, as long as you talk to him first."
Kim smiled at Bobby, then at her son. "I think Bobby's got a good point there, honey."
"Me too! So I don't think you're gonna go to hell Mommy."
"I'm glad you think that."
Kim sat down next to him on the other side. The three were now sitting on the couch with Joey between them.
"I have something really important to tell you," Kim told her son.
"Okay," he replied.
"I went to another doctor today, and he told me I was really sick."
Joey went pale. "From what?"
"It's something called cancer, and it's in my tummy."
"Can I get it?"
"No, honey, it's not that kind of sick."
"And they're sure it's not just a baby in there?"
Kim nodded. "Yeah, they're sure it's not a baby. What's in my stomach is something called a tumor."
"What's that?"
"It's really hard to explain, but it's something that they have to take out to make me feel better."
"Oh, how?"
"With an operation. You remember like your friend Becca had when you were in preschool, and she had to take a little bit of time off, and you made her that card?"
He nodded. "Is it the same thing, where your throat hurts, and you getta eat popsicles all the time?"
"Kind of, it's the same idea. What they're going to do is take the piece of my tummy that's sick."
"Oh."
"I know, it's sounds really scary, but if the doctor does everything right then I'll get better."
"And if he doesn't?"
Kim looked down. "If he doesn't, then I'll have to go heaven."
Joey started to cry. "I don't want you to go!"
"I don't want to either, and I'm going to fight to stay here with you, I promise you that."
"Can't you just promise to stay here with me and Bobby?"
"I wish I could, Joey, but I can't do that. This is a very hard surgery, and there's a pretty big change that I'll be all right, so we're gonna keep on thinking that I'm going to be fine."
He hugged his mother. "You hafta be! I don't want you to leave!"
She kissed him on the forehead. "I don't want to leave you, or Bobby, or even Daddy, but you know that God controls that."
He nodded. "Yeah, can I ask him not to?"
"Of course you can, honey."
"I'm going to prey for the same thing, and I'm going to get my whole church to do it too," Bobby explained.
"Really?" Joey asked Bobby.
"Yeah, I am."
"Then he's gotta listen!"
"He should, so you just keep praying, and I'll pray too, and then hopefully your mom will not go anywhere."
He nodded. "Okay Bobby! I'm gonna go right now!"
Joey ran into his room. Kim leaned over and kissed Bobby on the cheek. She then curled up into his arms.
"Thank you," she whispered.
"Anytime," he kissed her on the forehead.
She smiled at him. "I love you."
"I love you too."
"You're going to make it through this, Kim you just need to stay strong."
She nodded. "I know."
He kissed her forehead again. "I need you too much to let you go. And Joey needs you too."
She nodded. "I know, he'll never believe anything again if I don't make it through this. You were so good with him."
He smiled. "I try."
"Do you think Jimmy'll be mad that we told him, without him being here?"
"I don't think so, it's my news to tell."
Bobby nodded. "You're probably right."
XX
Faith had just arrived at Bosco's, part of her wanted to leave, but she knew she had to talk to someone about the news she had just received, from Kim. She really had nowhere else to go. A part of her had hoped that Fred would magically reappear just when she needed him most, thought she knew logically that would not happen.
She got out of the cab, and walked up the stoop of Bosco's building. She buzzed up, and he let her up immediately. When she got to his hallway, she noticed the his door was open. She let herself in, and shut the door behind her.
"Hello?" she called.
"I'll be out in a minute," Bosco called from that washroom.
A few minutes later Bosco emerged. She had looked around the apartment, and noticed that he had cleaned it. It looked a lot better then last time she came. Still very lived in, but there were no old take out containers anymore, and the clothes seemed to confined to one corner.
"I need to do some laundry," he chuckled.
She smiled. "It's looks a lot better in here."
"I even cleaned the toilet for you, just in case you need to use it while you're here."
"I really appreciate that."
"I thought you might, it was looking a little gross."
She laughed a little. "Yeah, I guess a clean toilet isn't such a big thing for a guy."
"Not exactly. Faith, please have a seat, you're making me nervous."
She sat down on the couch. "Better?"
"Yeah, so what's up?"
Faith looked at the floor. "It's Kim."
"What about her?"
"Bos, she's got stomach cancer."
"Oh my god!"
Faith nodded. "Yeah, she told me earlier today. I couldn't believe it. She needs to get a part of her stomach removed."
"You know some people pay good money to get their stomachs made smaller."
"Kim is hardly a candidate for that."
Bosco nodded. "Yeah, she's a really skinny, and looks so much skinnier of late."
Faith nodded. "She probably is, since she's got a tumor growing inside her."
"Yeah, wow, what are her chances?"
Faith again looked at the floor. "She said it's got a sixty five percent survival rate."
"It could be worse."
"It could better."
"Was it cause they caught it late?"
She shook her head. "Kim said it was actually high cause they caught it so early."
"I wonder what low is."
"Yeah, I know. Scary huh?"
"Very scary. I couldn't can't even imagine what she's going through."
Faith nodded. "Yeah, I know, I'd be terrified."
"Doesn't she have a son?"
"She does, it doesn't seem right does it?"
"No, but they say the lord works in mysterious ways."
"Yeah."
Bosco had been sitting on a chair opposite her, came and sat next to her on the couch. He then took her hand in his.
"I'm sure she'll make it though."
Faith nodded. "I hope you're right."
He squeezed her hand tighter. "Try to be positive."
She pulled her hand away. "I'm trying." He went to take her hand. "Bos, please."
"What?"
"I don't want a repeat of what happened last time."
He nodded, and felt dejected. "All right."
"It's not that I don't' think you're amazing, it's just that I'm not ready for that just yet."
"For what?"
"For being with you, or with anyone for that matter. I'm still not over everything that happened with Fred."
Bosco nodded. "I understand that, but if you're ever ready I'll be here."
She smiled. "I'll remember to call first."
He laughed. "That not be your safest option, you know what I'm like. But I do really care about you, don't forget that all right?"
"Thank you."
"It's the truth. I know you're not ready for anything right now, and the fact that I respect that has to tell you something."
She smiled. "That you don't find me attractive?"
He shook his head. "I would have never been with you if I didn't find you attractive. You're amazing, I've told you that already."
She smiled. "You know I'm not sure if I like this Boscorelli charm thing."
"Why not?"
She shrugged. "I just, I don't know. A lot of it is because I know your reputation. I know your track record, and that would make anyone a little weary."
"You're not like the girls I just like to mess around with, Faith. You're different."
"Bos-"
"No, I mean it. You mean a lot more to me. You're my partner, and a good friend. I wouldn't want to anything to screw up what we already have."
"We're lucky we didn't the last time I was here."
He nodded. "Yeah, I know. I just saw you hurting, and feeling rejected. The only thing I could think of to help you was to show you that I was attracted to you, and make you notice that I had been for a long time."
"I don't think that was what I was thinking."
"What were you thinking?"
"For the most part was wondering what the hell I was doing with you."
"It's called sex, Faith, if you don't' know that, you shouldn't have kids!"
She laughed. "You know what I mean! I was surprised that I was doing it with you. Or more along the lines of, why in the world is Bosco with me?"
"Why?"
"For one thing I was married at the time."
"Well, that was going down the crapper pretty fast."
She smiled. "For another thing I wasn't some blonde bimbo."
"They're fun to play with, but not keep."
She smiled. "Bos, please."
"It's true. If was going to settle down with any kind of woman, it would be one like you. One who already has her stuff in order."
She smiled. "I'm sure you don't want one who comes with an automatic family."
"I actually really like your kids, they're great."
She nodded. "I love them, but I never thought of you as the type to want to be an instant father."
He shrugged. "I always thought I'd have kids one day, not soon, but one day. If I was with you I'd take on the role, cause they need a father."
She smiled. "Don't I know it."
"Even know, I'll take Charlie and teach him man stuff once a week or something. Maybe on one of my days off every week."
Faith laughed. "Man stuff?"
"You know, about women, and guns, and stuff." He laughed.
"I don't know if I like that idea."
"Aww, come on, just man stuff. Male bonding. Maybe not guns and women just yet. But maybe take him to laser tag, and rock climbing those kinds of things."
"I think he'd actually like that."
"Good then I'll take him on one of my days off in the evening, after school for a few hours. Do something with him, then take him for supper, and get him back in time for bed. Every once in a while Em can come along so she doesn't feel like she's missing out on anything."
Faith smiled. "You really don't have to do that."
"I want to, Faith. Those kids need to see that not all guys are jerks."
"Then are you really the best candidate?"
"I can be a good guy sometimes! Sure I'm not their father, but at least it'll teach 'em that some people, men especially, do care about them."
"Yeah, Lyn's been saying they need that."
"Then ask her the next time if she thinks it's a good idea if you let your partner take 'em and do the male bonding thing. It's not like they don't know me already, either, so that'll make it easier."
"I will, thank you, Bos."
He kissed her on the cheek. "No problem, and don't hesitate to come to me when you need something. Especially now that Kim is sick."
She nodded. "She told me she'd still give me advise, but I'd feel like shit going to about everything cause she's going to have so much stuff to deal with."
"If you can't handle it, and you don't' think she could, I'm always here for you."
"You're an amazing guy."
"Don't let that get around," he chuckled.
"I'll keep it under wraps, don't worry."
"Good, cause I really don't want everyone know that I'm actually a good guy."
She laughed. "What's wrong with that?"
"I have a reputation to uphold. Officer Maurice Boscorelli, womanizer."
"And screw up?"
"We can leave that one out, just something about liking only hot single, childless women."
She shook her head. "If that's what tickles your pickle!"
His jaw dropped. "Faith! I can't believe you just said that!"
She smiled. "What?"
"You know what! That's so not like you."
She shrugged. "Maybe you don't know me as well as you think you do?"
He nodded. "Apparently. Hey do you wanna talk?"
"We are talking."
"No I mean really talk."
"We talk all the time."
"I know, but I've been going on a lot about me of late."
"Not really."
He shrugged. "I don't know, I just get the feeling like. I don't know you need to talk to someone who is past puberty and understand every word you use."
She smiled, "that would be nice."
"Come here," he said pulling her into his arms.
"Bos."
"I'm not going to do anything, just enjoy having close human contact."
She smiled. "All right, you're nuts you know that?"
He shrugged, and she soon eased into the friendly embrace. As soon as she relaxed she felt different from the last time. She was also glad to have close contact with someone other then her children. She felt really good being held again.
"Just enjoy it all right, Faith?"
"All right."
"So tell me about anything you'd like."
She got comfortable in his arms, and began talking about her kids, and her au pair, and anything else that popped into her head.
She had to admit he had had a great idea. She was actually feeling relaxed, and was just glad to have someone listening to her again, if even for a few hours.
He just held her and listen. She was so relaxed in his arms, she didn't even realize herself drowsing off to sleep, as he told her about what he felt when he first saw her kids.
"So yeah, I you know I kinda love your kids like they're my niece and nephew, or maybe even like my little sister and brother," he concluded, He was very surprised when she didn't respond. "Faith?"
She still didn't respond, and he realized that she had fallen asleep. He carefully moved, and she didn't stir. He found a clean blanket, and put it on her. He then kissed her forehead, and made his way to his own room.
It was strange having a woman in his apartment, and not having her in his bed, but he knew that was not what she needed. He curled up, alone, in his bed, and his mind and dreams were soon filled with thoughts and images of her.
tbc...
end notes: so i told you'd i'd have more faith bosco stuff, hpe you like it, it wasn't much, got some more coming up hehe, not really sure where i wanna take it at this point, i have an idea i'd like to do... you'll see, you'll see...anywho hope you like it... reveiws are always nice