AUTHOR: trista groulx (the dustytiger)
DISCLAIMER: kim, faith, fred, joey, bobby, jimmy, bosco, davis, sully, none of these characters are mine, i'm just borowing them to play with them for a little while, they belong to their creator and the actors and actresses who portray them, i promise i'll be gentle, don't sue
RATING: PG-13 tops currently
CONTENT: kim/faith friendship, fred/faith divorce, kim/bobby r, faith/bosco sex/ust
SPOILERS: 32 bullets and a broken heart (missing scene/continuation)
SUMMARY: Kim and Faith become friends after they share their heartaches that Valintines day.
AUTHORS NOTES: i think i've got some interseting stuff in here, just some loose ends before kim's surgery, that should be next, hope you like, pls tell me if you do hugz and kissez to all who have!
Kim was surprised when she heard a knock on the door. It had been a week since she had been off work and she was already going crazy.
The surgery was planned for two weeks later. As soon as she had been diagnosed everything fell into place very quickly, because they knew the sooner she was operated on, the less of a chance there was for the cancer to spread.
She stood up, and answered the door, and was surprised to see Jimmy standing there. Since she wasn't working she no longer knew anyone's hours. Joey was at her mother's as she hadn't been feeling well that morning, and everyone agreed she needed to just relax.
"Can I come in?" he asked.
"Sure," she replied, stepping out of the way.
He went and sat down on the couch, and she shut the door behind him.
"Can I get you something?" she offered.
"No, thanks, I just want to talk to you," he said.
"Oh all right." She sat down next to him. "What do you want to talk about?"
"Why did you tell Joey?"
"He had to know Jimmy, I couldn't keep it a secret from him."
"Why didn't you ask me to be there when you told him?"
She shrugged. "I didn't think Jimmy, I'm sorry."
"Kimmy, look." He tried to take her hand.
"I've asked you to please not call me that." She pushed his hand away.
"I'm sorry. It's just, that, Kim."
"I've moved on Jimmy, I'm happy with Bobby now."
"I know you've moved on. But that shouldn't change things with Joey."
She looked at him quizzically. "It hasn't, I don't restrict your seeing him."
"That's not what I mean, Kim. You told him about this without me. Was Bobby there?"
She nodded. "Yeah, I really didn't think about it. I mean it was my news to tell him."
"Look, I'm happy that you seem to be happy with Bobby, and if I ever saw the slightest crack I'd be right there to scoop you off your feet again."
"Jimmy-"
"Hear me out. I'm not going to do anything to screw up what you have with Bobby. I know it's good for you. But I'm still Joey's father."
"I know that."
He shook his head. "Then why didn't you tell him about what was going on with me there?"
She looked at her hands. "I'm so sorry, Jimmy. Bobby was there, and he started asking question. I didn't want to lie to him, or keep him waiting. I just needed to tell him, I didn't even think that you'd want to be here."
"Okay, I can understand that, but can you understand my point now?"
She nodded. "Yes, I can, Jimmy. And I don't want you to feel like you're taking a backseat to Bobby, just because he sees him more. I should have involved you in telling him what was going on. You are his father, and unless you tell me differently I have to involved you in as much of his life as possible. He needs us to be the ones telling him about major things in his life. Not Bobby and me."
Jimmy nodded. "I love Joey to death, and sometimes I feel like he's all I got left to remind me of you."
She smiled. "Don't talk like that."
"That's not what I mean, you just can't die Kimmy. What I mean is sometimes I feel like what I had with you was all a really great dream, and then I woke up. But then I see Joey and I know that it wasn't a dream, that it was real, and I screwed it up."
She nodded. "Did you ever."
"I never meant to hurt you. I didn't think before I was with her."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"You need to know. Look, I always loved you, I just didn't know how to show how much you meant to me."
"So you slept with my sister?"
He shook his head. "I went to her looking for ways to make you happy. You seemed so sad, and things got out of hand. I shouldn't have let it. I should have left, and I was probably the one who incited it all without even knowing it. And I'm sorry about everything."
"Are you saying this cause you think I'm going to die?" She asked, tears welling up in her eyes.
"Maybe a little, but you getting sick made me realize what you meant to me. What you shoulda meant to me. I just don't want you to move on without me, and never let me see my son again."
"Jimmy I'd never-"
"I didn't think you would, but until a little while ago, I didn't think that you'd tell our son something so important without me."
"I'm so sorry, Jimmy, it'll never happen again."
He nodded. "Also, I want you to know that if you want to go to your sister, you can, and you probably should."
"I can't."
"It wasn't her, Kimmy!"
She was crying. "Does it matter who started it? Or who finished it, what would have mattered was who stopped it! And neither of you did!"
"So you can look at me in the face again, but not her?"
"I have to look at you because of Joey."
"Joey has nothing to do with those nights that you were lonely, and you know it."
She looked up at him, sadly. "That-"
"Kim, I don't want you to be with me anymore. I would love it if we could be together again, but that's not going to happen. You're happy with Bobby, and you deserve that kind of happiness. That's what I should have given you."
"What are you trying to say?"
"Stop making it her fault, that she slept with your husband. Make it that your husband slept with your sister."
"I don't know if I can."
"If something, heaven forbid, was to happen to you when you get the surgery, I'd never be able to forgive myself if you weren't talking to your sister when it happened."
"So I'm just supposed to forget all the pain she caused me?"
"I caused you, Kim! I caused you the pain not her. I came onto her, and much stronger women have not been able to resist the Doherty charm, you for example."
She shook her head. "No, but you were my husband she should have-"
"What, Kim, you tried to say no to me, you know what I say when you say no, or that you're not feeling right about it. I talk to you until you don't know what's what, other then I want to be with you. You feel like you are the only woman in the world, and that I only have eyes for you."
She blushed remembering those times. "Jimmy-"
"See, you're almost in that place thinking about it, Kim. It's a curse, or a gift, depending on how you look at it, that I have, I can make you forget everyone and everything else, and just be in the moment with me. If I wanted to I could probably talk you into one last time for old times sake."
"Jimmy! I'm with Bobby now."
"I know you are, but if that's what I wanted, that's what I'd get. Don't you understand Kim?"
"Jimmy, I really don't know."
"It's me, it's all me. It's something that I do, and it doesn't need to make sense you just do it. You may regret it after, but in the moment it's the best thing that has ever happened to you."
"I don't know."
"I don't want to use it on you anymore, but I will to prove my point."
"Jimmy?"
"You're beautiful Kim, you know that?"
Now she wasn't sure what was going on. "Stop that."
"You are, amazing, I would hate to see you go without one last kiss."
"Jim-" She was shushed but his fingers on her lips.
"Your lips, god I remember how they taste, they're so sweet. Like no one else I've ever tasted. Do you remember what I taste like Kimmy?"
"Jimmy I-"
"Don't think about him for just a minute, Kimmy, just one quick minute. Let me just taste you one last time, just in case. I promise I'll never ask anything like this again."
"I-" She shut her eyes.
"See?" Jimmy asked.
"You?"
"I'm sorry, I had to make you realize. Sometimes I just need to get what I think I want. That's how I do it. That's how I did it with Melanie."
"I want you to leave!"
"I will. Just promise me you'll include me in everything that has to do with our son from now on?"
"Yeah, I promise."
"And Kimmy, go make up with you sister, you're gonna need her when you're fighting to stay alive for our amazing little boy."
She nodded. "All right." She then got more stern. "Now get out!"
"Gladly!"
Jimmy left the apartment, and within minutes Kim was looking for her phone book. She soon found it, and the number she was looking for. She picked up the phone and dialed.
"Hello?" said the voice on the other end.
"Hi, Mel, it's Kim," Kim replied.
"Wow, you're the last person I expected to hear from. Is something the matter?"
"I don't want to tell you over the phone."
"All right, umm, does this have to do with Jimmy?"
"No, and yes. No it has nothing to do with Jimmy. But yes, my calling you was all his idea."
"You're not together again are you?"
"Oh, god, no. I'm with somebody else now."
"Anyone I know?"
"Yeah, look I don't want to talk to you on the phone. I'd like to talk to you face to face, how about you come to my place?"
"You live at the same place?"
"Yeah, I didn't want Joey to have to move as well as everything else."
"I'll be there as soon as I can, bye."
"Bye."
Click. The phone went dead, and Kim waited for her sister. She heard the knock on the door, and she practically ran to greet her. She opened the door, and gave her sister a huge hug.
"Wow," said Melanie. "Are you all right?"
"Sit down," Kim told her sister.
Melanie made her way to the couch. "Kim where did this come from?"
"Jimmy told me the truth, and it was all him, and I'm sorry I didn't believe you before."
"It's all right, I wouldn't have believed me either." She glanced over at one of the side tables, and saw a picture of Bobby holding Kim. "You're with Bobby now?"
Kim grinned. "Yeah, he lives here with us, actually."
"I'm so happy for you Bobby was always so perfect for you. And his eyes were never really off you."
Kim blushed. "I'm really happy with him."
Melanie laughed. "I get the feeling I'm not just here to talk about old times."
"Yeah, have you talked to Mom?"
"Yeah, but she never tells me a thing about you."
Kim looked past her sister. "Sometimes I wish Mom had a bigger mouth."
Melanie laughed. "Well, out with it, Sis."
"Mel, I've got cancer."
"What? How bad?"
"Stomach cancer, actually, and it's in the early stages, so it's operable."
"Operable?"
"Yeah, in a couple of weeks I need to get a part of my stomach removed."
"Oh god, Kimmy."
Tears began to roll down her face. "That's why Jimmy came clean. He didn't want to have you not being there on his conscience."
"What are the chances?"
"They think about sixty five percent that I'll make it."
Melanie tired to light the mood. "At least it's a pass."
Kim half smiled, remembering that they would say that when they got low grades, and thought they'd be in trouble for it. She then hugged her sister.
"I missed you," Kim whispered, starting to cry.
"I missed you, too," Melanie assured her sister, and she too began to cry.
The door squeaked open, and neither woman even looked up. Kim assumed it was Bobby who was on his lunch. Although he was riding with someone else, his new partner, never came up. He'd go to somewhere close by, and Bobby would pick him up before their break was over.
"Now that's a sight for sore eyes," Bobby laughed.
"Bobby?" asked Melanie.
"Yeah, and Kim I swear I never touched her!"
Kim smiled. "I know you didn't."
"Wow, it's been so long," Melanie said, giving Bobby a hug.
"Yeah, and to what do we owe this visit?" Bobby asked.
"Kim asked me to come over. She said that she forgives me, and she told me about the-" Melanie couldn't even say it.
"Yeah. So how have you been?"
"Great, I'm glad to have my sister back."
"I'd imagine. I only wish it was under better circumstances."
"Yeah, me too." She needed to change the subject. "How have you been treating her?"
"Like the queen that she is."
Melanie smiled, she had always liked Bobby, and thought he'd be a better match for her then Jimmy. She felt like Jimmy had only been a fling that had gone terribly wrong when she found out she was pregnant.
"So you were finally able to reel her in?" laughed Melanie.
"You know she's right here?" Kim asked.
"So what made you decide to actually see Bobby's admiring gaze?"
"I slept with him, and he told me he loved me."
Melanie laughed. "Come on really?"
"I'm serious. His brother left town, he came over. One thing led to another, and then the next morning he told me he loved me."
"And then she ran like hell," Bobby added.
"Luckily a friend of mine smacked some sense into me, and I went right back."
"The rest so they say is history," laughed Bobby.
Melanie smiled. "I'm glad that you're finally happy with someone."
Kim nodded, knowing the part that her sister didn't want to say. It hardly seemed just that she had finally found the man of her dreams, and now she was facing a surgery which could take her from him forever.
"And if she hasn't told you already, we're engaged," Bobby told Melanie.
"Really?" she asked.
Kim nodded. "I'm still waiting for a ring."
"Bobby?" Melanie asked.
"She asked me, and I haven't found anything that I think would suit her."
"In that case you're forgiven. Always the one to go after what she wants, huh, Kimmy?"
Kim smiled. "Something like that."
Melanie and Kim began to catch up on old times while Bobby made supper for everyone.
xxxx
It was about nine o'clock when the door opened, and Emily and Charlie came bounding into the apartment. They each gave their mother a hug, and they both had huge smiles plastered on their faces.
Bosco came in, a little reluctantly right after them.
"Did you have fun?" Faith asked them.
"Yeah!" the both exclaimed.
"What did you do?"
"We played laser tag," Charlie said.
"And Bosco let us kick his butt!" Emily laughed.
"I did no such thing!" Bosco said, offended.
"Yeah, right, Bosco! You hadda to of let us win, cause you're a cop, and you gotta have a good shot!" Charlie reasoned.
"He's got you there, Bos," Faith laughed.
"All right, so I didn't shoot as much as I could have, but I still tried."
Emily shook her head. "Thank you, I had a lot of fun."
"No problem, Emily."
"I missed doing stuff like that. Maybe next time Mom can come?"
"It's up to her."
Emily nodded. "You should Mom!"
"I'll think about it."
"Yeah, thank you Bosco, it was so much fun, what are we gonna do next time?"
"I don't know yet, Buddy. It's kind of late, how about you go get into your pajamas, before your Mom gets mad at me?"
The two of them laughed. "All right."
"Good night, Bosco," Emily said hugging him.
"Good night, Em, sweet dreams," said Bosco.
"Yeah, night, Bosco," said Charlie, going to hug him but changing his mind at last minute.
"Good night, sleep tight don't let the bed bugs bight!"
"And if they do, I'll get my shoe, and beat 'em till they're black and blue!"
"Night Buddy!"
Faith just stood in the living room, smiling stupidly at him. She could hardly believe what she was seeing. Not only had he brought them out, and they had a great time. But he also scooted them off to bed when he got them home a little late.
"What?" Bosco asked.
"I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't seen it," she told him.
"What?"
"That, everything, Bos, you were prefect with them."
He smiled. "I just took notes from you, all those times I was here for supper."
She smiled at him. "Where did you bring them for supper?"
"We had burgers, and fries, at some diner near the laser tag place."
"All right, what do I owe you?"
"Not a penny, I'm glad to do it."
"Bos, you shouldn't have to pay for my kids."
"I want to, Faith, I'm happy to do it."
"Thank you so much."
He nodded. "But I'm going to get out of here so you can get those two to bed. I'm pretty sure it's already past their bedtime."
"You're right." She hugged him. "Thanks again."
"My pleasure." He squeezed her tightly.
He went to kiss her on the cheek, but she moved, and they ended up kissing on the lips. Just a quick, chaste kiss, but still on the lips. They pulled away from each other afraid to touch as soon as they noticed what they had done.
"So I'll see you tomorrow?" he asked, not looking at her.
"Yeah, tomorrow," she replied, hurriedly, looking at the floor. "Unless something unexpected happens tonight,"
Bosco laughed. "All right, good night then."
"Yeah, good night."
Bosco left, and Faith shut and locked the door behind him. Katri had not been feeling well, and had spent most of the day asleep in her room. She went into the kid's room, and they were both in their beds.
"Mom?" asked Emily.
"Yeah, Sweetie?" she replied.
"Are you gonna marry Bosco?"
"What?"
Charlie laughed. "You heard her, are you gonna marry Bosco?"
Faith shook her head. "No!"
"Why not?" asked Emily.
"Cause, you have to be to date and be in love with a person before you just go off and marry them."
"Then are you gonna date him then?" asked Charlie.
"I don't really think so."
"Why not?"
"You're not supposed to date your partner, and that's not a rule that we're gonna break."
"Oh, is that all that's stopping you?"
Faith shrugged. "Not all of it, but most of it."
"Do you like him?" asked Charlie.
"I don't really know I've never really thought about it. Where is all this coming from?"
Emily shrugged. "We just had fun today, that's all."
"I understand that, but why marriage and stuff all of sudden?"
"Cause there were times when if you'd been there it woulda been like we had a family again," Charlie explained.
"Charlie, even if I did marry Bosco that doesn't mean- Look, it wouldn't be the same as with your father."
"It wasn't the same, exactly," Emily reasoned. "It was just kind of the same, and I missed feeling like that."
Faith nodded. "I'll tell you what, though, I'll go with you every once in a while. But remember that Bosco's just taking Charlie next week."
Emily nodded. "I know. Can we do something special too then?"
Faith nodded. "That's a great idea, Emily"
Emily smiled. "Mom?"
"One more thing before we got sleep."
"Shoot."
"Think about marrying Bosco."
She smiled. "I'm not promising anything, but I'll think about it."
Charlie smiled. "Good."
"All right, now enough of finding me a new husband, you two have school tomorrow."
"Good night, Mom," said Emily.
"Good night, Em, love you."
"Love you too."
"Good night, Mom," said Charlie.
"Night Charlie, love 'ya."
"Love 'ya back!"
Faith kissed them each on the forehead, and then went to her own room. As she laid there staring at the ceiling, she thought of the chaste kiss she had shared with Bosco, and what her kids had just said. She wondered if she could possibly have a future with Bosco.
tbc...
end notes: What do you think about what jimmy did? i needed to put melanie in somehow... and what do u think of the bosco faith ust? hmm... reviews are always greatafully appricated, and when you review if there's a fic i think i'll understand i'll take a peak at urs