DISCLAIMER: alex, jimmy, kim, bobby, bosco, yokas, sully, davis, DK, walsh, lombardo, carlos, doc, ect NOT MINE don't own 'em, it's unfortunate really, i'm just borrowing 'em, letting them play a little, and then returning them (reltivly) unharmed, i'm underemployed don't sue you'll just get debt!
RATING: PG-13, T, TV14, if you can handle the show you can handle this, just adult situations and language warnings, nudity but it's fic you don't see anything unless you've got a graphic imagination!
CONTENT: so far... alex/jimmy sex/ust, bobby/kim r, kim/bosco sex, bosco/jimmy feud, walsh/alex ust, jimmy/kim ust SPOILERS: anything and everything up to a rock and hard place
SUMMARY: kim is seeing red, and for once it's a good thing!
AUTHORS NOTES: my rabbid rabbit of doom died sadly, i tried to revive him but then the muse went on vacation... then my life got hectic since my last update... i've become employed, have become an aunt to a niece (katasha) and nephew (chase) within two months of each other and was forced to give my cats to the humane socity... but that is no excuse for taking THIS LONG for an update, but i promise more ARE coming i have some more stuff written, and if i have to i can end it once i get that out... please forgive me though i don't deserve it!
DEDICATION: to my muse for coming back from vaction and to anyone still reading
Kim had spent her entire day stressing about the fact that she might be pregnant. It wasn't that she was pregnant the bugged her so much as the timing. If it were to happen in a few months, once her and Bobby settled a little, it would better.
But the timing could not be worse. She had finally admitted to loving him, and she did with all of her heart, but knowing her luck the baby would end up being Bosco's and she was not sure how either man would react to that.
She was not going to lie to Bobby if she was pregnant, and just pretend like it was his. She would never hurt him like that. It would be cruel to pretend that the child was him, and then years down the road have him learn that he was not in fact the child's father.
At least if she was honest through the whole thing, hopefully Bobby would stick by her, no matter what the outcome. He was amazing that way, but she wondered if she was really that lucky.
"How are you feeling?" Alex asked, seeing that Kim didn't seem to be on the same planet.
"I'm actually not feeling to bad, of course I haven't had anything to eat today, so that might have something to do with it," Kim explained.
"You should really try and eat something, you know."
"I know, I just don't want anyone to get suspicious, as everyone like to say the wall around here have ears."
Alex laughed. "Isn't that the truth."
"And eyes too," Jimmy added, coming up behind them. "What's up Kimmy?"
"Nothing to worry about I'm sure," she told him.
"All right, be that way. I know that there's something bothering you."
"Which is none of your damn business even if I did feel like sharing."
"If you actually tried talking to me you might find that I can help."
"What? Help make it worse?" she muttered.
"Now that hurt. Just cause we're not together anymore doesn't mean that we can't be friends."
"Friends? Is that what you call what you did and said in the parking lot the other day? Cause the last time I checked friends don't do that."
"Kimmy, I'm sorry about that. I didn't know that you were with Bobby. I wouldn't of done if I had known."
She shook her head. "I somehow don't believe you. The only reason you're in my life right now is cause my son needs his father."
"Now that hurts. Can't we just talk and figure it out?"
"Not now. Jimmy, I'm not feeling well, I think I caught a cold, and I just want to go home. I can't deal with this from you right now."
"Kimmy, please?" he asked.
"Jimmy!" she snapped. "I can't do this right now! I have a million things to do. I have to go the pharmacy to get some cold medication. I have pick up Joey from my mother's before it gets too late. I want to call Bobby see how he's feeling. I can't DEAL with this right now all right? Get out of my way!"
Kim pushed herself past him, hoping that he would not follow her. She really couldn't deal with Jimmy's bullshit at that moment. Jimmy stood there looking confused as he watched her leave.
"What the hell was that about?" Jimmy mumbled to himself.
"It could have something to do with the fact that you have two kids on the way, and the only person you seem to be looking at is her," Alex suggested.
"So?"
"Maybe you should show her that you can be responsible, then who knows."
Jimmy shrugged. "Maybe you're right. So, uh how are you feeling anyway?"
"I'm doing pretty good. Kim was telling me today that when she was pregnant with Joey how she was sick all the time."
"Yeah," Jimmy replied remembering back. "There were times that she'd get sick from just water. So you're not sick then?"
"Not really. Nothing to really complain about either. After Kim's story I'm certainly not going to complain."
"If you weren't getting morning sickness. How did you know then?"
Alex shrugged. "Something didn't feel right."
"Sweet Mary mother of God halleluiah!" they heard Kim reply from somewhere in the building.
"What the hell is THAT about?" Jimmy asked.
"Not a clue," Alex lied.
She knew very well that the reason Kim was probably dancing in the washroom was because she had just gotten her period, and was not pregnant.
"Look, Alex I was just hoping that we could talk about your baby," Jimmy said. "I know I've been avoiding you, and the subject, but I think we need to talk about it."
Alex shrugged. "What is there to talk about, Jimmy? I am going to keep it. I don't want you to make an honest woman out of me. Honestly I couldn't care less if you were in this baby's life."
"Come on you've never wondered what it would be like to be married to me?"
She shook her head. "I did for all of a minute, then I started talking to Kim."
"Ouch, now that hurt."
She shrugged. "It's the truth Jimmy."
"I just want to make things right."
"Then be there when this baby is born, that's all I need from you."
"Come on Alex."
She shook her head. "No Jimmy, you're not going to whisper sweet nothings into my ear and make me believe you'll do the right thing with me. I know you don't want to be settled down, and I'm fine with that, really."
"But-"
"I wasn't done yet. I don't want to be settled down with someone right now, either. If I was ready I wouldn't be looking at you. I have a baby on the way, and I can take care myself and it."
"But, I can-"
"Change? I doubt that very much. You couldn't change for Kim and you were in love with her, and I think you still are. So I know there's no way you're going to settle down with me and this baby. I'm going to do it myself. I'm not gonna be one of those women. I love Kim as my friend, but I don't wanna go through what she went through."
Alex was
very serious about not wanting his help. She'd want the child to know
it's father, but if he didn't want to she'd just like and say she
wasn't sure who the father was. She didn't need Jimmy's empty promises.
She was just happy to be having a baby, and she would deal with
everything as it came up, just like she always did. She was not the
kind of person who needed to feel loved by a man to complete her.
She
wasn't going to get married just for the sake of getting married. When
she did get married she wanted it to last. She knew that was not going
to happen with Jimmy.
A few minutes later Kim scurried out of the firehouse, winking at Alex as she left.
"What was that about?" Jimmy asked.
"Girl stuff," Alex replied.
"Alex, I just want you to know that I do care about you."
"I don't want any lines Jimmy. I'm not going to go weak in the knees cause you tell me that you love me. It's not going to happen."
He shrugged. "I just, I don't feel right not doing something for you."
"I don't care, we're doing this my way. When I do decide to get married I don't want it to be because I'm pregnant, and the guy feels obligated. I want to get married for love."
"We could fall in love."
"I'm not basing the rest of my life on could. There's not a lot that I believe in, but I do believe that a marriage should be for the rest of two peoples lives. That's just the way that I feel. I know that you are not ready for that kind of commitment because of what happened with you last marriage."
"It could be different," he offered.
"As I just said I can't base the rest my life on could. I've seen how you last two marriages worked out, and I don't want to take a chance on being third time lucky. I know that you're going to be a good father to this baby, and that's all I want from you."
"But I-"
"Jimmy that's all I want from you all right? Get over yourself not everyone trips over herself to be with you. I'm not that kind of person, I never was and I never plan to become one."
"Come on Alex, I want to make this right."
"Things are fine the way they are. Before I'll even think about you being in my personal life again, is if you get a divorce, and get over your ex wife."
"Brooke and I are trying to get that all rolling," he told her. "I'm over her."
"I don't mean that ex-wife."
Jimmy was surprised. "I'm over Kimmy."
"She's asked you not to call her that anymore, and you can't even do that. How am I supposed to believe that you're over her?"
Jimmy shrugged. "I guess you're right. I just feel like I should do something for you."
"Believe it or not I'm actually happy about all this. It may not have been what I planned to happen, but I really am happy. I've always wanted to have a child, not this soon, but that's how it happened. I'm going to take in stride."
"What about me?"
"You'll be the child's father. I hope that you will be there somewhat financially, but more importantly emotionally for it, but I don't, personally need anything from you."
"How's that possible?"
She shrugged. "I've never really had anything to spend my money on, so I've been saving it since I started working. Which is another reason I don't want to marry you, cause then my money becomes our money to creditors, and I worked damn hard for it, and I'm not watching it all be flushed down the toilet."
"Oh," he replied, feeling a little overwhelmed, and beat up on.
"I'm not the big breasted small brained blonde, you should know that, Jimmy. I'm going to do just fine for myself, and our baby, you just watch and see."
Jimmy stood there in shock, hardly believing what she was telling him. He found it hard to believe that she actually wanted nothing to do with him.
"Fine then do it your way!" he yelled out of frustration.
"That's what I'm gong to do Jimmy. I just want you to know that I'm not going to deprive you of seeing our baby. I just want things done my way."
"I should have known you were going to be like this. I just wish you would consider letting me into your life."
"You already are, but you're not borrowing in deeper until you get a clue Jimmy. I don't want to love you right now. You're in love with Kim, and I can't hold a candle to what she is to you."
Jimmy shrugged. "Kim and I are over."
"I want to believe that, but even if I was with you, Kim would always be your Daisy."
"My Daisy? What?"
"Did you pay any attention in high school English class?"
"No, I was too busy flirting with the girls in my class."
She shook her head. "Figure out Jimmy, it's an English literature reference. I'd stay here and argue with you, but I've had a long day, and I've been told us pregnant women need lots of sleep."
"I just want to do this right this time," he told her, knowing it was futile.
"For me, Jimmy, this way is right, goodnight."
She didn't bother to wait for his reply, she just walked out and started for home, leaving Jimmy standing there, more then a little perplexed.
"And the cheese stands alone," Lombardo muttered, as he left.
Jimmy wanted to tell him off, but he knew that was a bad idea. He couldn't believe the mess he had gotten himself in with everyone. Alex was pregnant, and didn't even want to give him the time of day.
Linda was pregnant, too, He and Brooke were going to be getting a divorce, and Kimmy was with another man. hadn't even heard from her. Brooke was divorcing him. Nothing seemed right anymore.
To top things off his once best friend now had him at the top of his hit list for getting Linda pregnant. He needed to talk to someone, and there was only one person he wanted to talk to. He just hoped she'd talk to him.
tbc...
end notes: appologies seriously, the next update will not take so long i have three more parts written omg! just trying to wrap stuff up for leaving oyu all hanging... next up and it will be soon i promise is lesson 19: the cheese stands alone