DISCLAIMER: alex, jimmy, kim, bobby, bosco, yokas, sully, davis, DK, walsh, lombardo, carlos, doc, ect NOT MINE don't own 'em, it's unfortunate really, i'm just borrowing 'em, letting them play a little, and then returning them (reltivly) unharmed, i'm underemployed don't sue you'll just get debt! RATING: PG-13, T, TV14, if you can handle the show you can handle this, just adult situations and language warnings, nudity but it's fic you don't see anything unless you've got a graphic imagination!
CONTENT: so far... alex/jimmy sex/ust, bobby/kim r, kim/bosco sex, bosco/jimmy feud, walsh/alex ust, jimmy/kim ust SPOILERS: anything and everything up to a rock and hard place SUMMARY: jimmy lements, need i say more AUTHORS NOTES: see it told you had more coming didn't i? DEDICATION:
He pulled up to her apartment complex. He couldn't believe he had gone there. He knew what she had said, but it might be different if he went to her in need. She always helped him when he was hurting.
He knocked on the door, and she answered it, wearing her bathrobe. His eyes fell to her neck, and downward. She wrapped the dark blue terrycloth robe around her tighter.
"Kimmy?" he asked.
"Jimmy, look you can't be here right now."
"I just want to talk to you."
"Jimmy this isn't a good time. Can't this wait till morning."
"Please?" he said, giving her the puppy eyes.
"Why do you do that. Get whatever it is out, fast."
"I love you so much, I'm sorry for everything," he started, he needed to get everything out before she could protest. "I want to be with you. I want to commit to you, wholly. I need you. You're my Daisy, Kim, I need you so much. I know I've made mistakes before, but I can be better. I promise."
She looked up at him, blinking hardly believing what he was saying. She knew she should say something but she thought she had made herself clear. She was happy now, with Bobby.
"Sweetheart, come back to bed!" he heard Bobby holler from her bedroom.
"I'll be there in a minute, Baby!" she called back. "Jimmy this isn't a good time. I told you already that I'm not interested anymore."
He nodded, dejected, knowing that she had lost her for good this time.
"Kimmy I just-" he said out of desperation.
"Daddy!" Joey exclaimed running out his bedroom.
Before he knew it Joey was hugging him. He looked up at Kim, half smiling. She looked pissed off about the whole thing. Bobby emerged from the bedroom.
"What's going on?" he asked.
"Jimmy just came over to talk," Kim muttered.
"In the middle of the night?"
Jimmy shrugged. "I just needed to talk to someone, and the only person I could think of was Kim."
Bobby rolled his eyes. "You were hoping she'd be here alone?"
"Weren't you sick today?"
"I was feeling better, and Kim wasn't feeling well, so I told her I'd come over and help her get Joey for bed."
"Always with the prince charming act."
Kim shook her head. "Jimmy it's late can't we do this later? Or at least not in front of your son?"
Joey looked at his mother, knowing that there was something wrong, but he didn't want to leave his dad. He looked at her sadly, hoping that maybe she'd give in, and let him stay.
"I'd like you to go to your room, please," she told him. "I'll make sure Daddy goes in and tucks you in before he leaves all right?"
"Okay," he said, as Jimmy put him down.
Joey went into his room and shut the door, thinking that his parents were gonna start fighting again. He hated it when they fought.
"Jimmy, please, will you just go tuck him in and leave?" Kim asked.
"I just need to- I just needed to see you Kimmy,' he told her.
"Why?"
"I told you already, you're my Daisy."
"Whatever Jimmy, I don't care!" she snapped. "I just want to get some sleep I'm not feeling well."
"You're not in Alex's boat are you?"
"No, you moron, I am not, Bobby was sick today, I'm sleeping with him, so I caught what he had."
Jimmy shook his head. "Whatever. I just need to talk to."
"You've mentioned that, and I don't wanna talk about that."
"That's not it Kimmy."
She rolled her eyes. "What else Jimmy?"
"It's Alex, you gotta talk to her."
"Are we in high school again?"
"No, but Kimmy she doesn't wanna have anything to do with me. She says she's happy just have her baby and raise it on her own."
"She doesn't want you involved at all?"
"She says she wants me to know the kid, but she doesn't want to have anything to do with me."
"And the problem?"
"She doesn't want to have anything to do with me."
Kim rolled her eyes. "That's her choice, Jimmy. If she doesn't want to have anything to do with you, that's her prerogative. You didn't want something serious with her from the start, so why would she think you wanted something now?"
He shrugged. "I just- I'm lonely."
She shook her head. "And what do you want me to do about that. We've over Jimmy I'm with Bobby now. I don't want to walk that path with you again, so please just leave. It's late and I'm not feeling well. If you really need to talk to someone talk to Bobby I'm going to bed. Just say goodnight to your son before you go."
She went into her bedroom, not wanting to deal with Jimmy anymore. Why couldn't he just see that she was happy and leave her the hell alone?
"Jimmy it's late," Bobby said. "Go in there, and say goodnight to your son, and just leave, please."
"So what do I do?" he asked.
"You walk over to his room-"
"Not about that. What do I do about Alex. She wants something real. How do I do that?"
Bobby shook his head. "I can't believe you have the gall to ask me that. I'm not giving you lessons Jimmy. You gotta figure it out for yourself."
"Come on Bobby, you gotta give me something."
"All I can say is you gotta figure out for yourself what or rather who you really want. If you want Alex all of a sudden, you gotta become the person she's looking for. Then you have you have to stop coming to Kim when you're down. I know what you would have tried if I weren't here."
"Tried? I'd of succeeded."
"You just go on living in your delusions Jimmy."
"I could say the same for you."
He shook his head. "Here's my lesson for tonight, and then you're going to leave. Trust, Jimmy. I trust Kim when she tells me that she is committed to this. I don't trust you as far as I can throw you, but I trust Kim, and that's the most important base for a relationship."
Jimmy nodded, understanding that he was not one to give people much reason to trust him.
"All right, I'm just gonna go say goodnight to my son," he said.
He went into Joey's room, he wasn't sleeping. He just looked over and smiled at his father. Jimmy gave him a hug.
"Good night, Joey," he said, smiling.
He smiled at his father. "Night Daddy," he said, he then looked him right in eyes. "Thank you for not fighting with Mommy."
"What?"
"I thought Mommy and you were gonna fight, and you didn't. Thank you for not fighting with her. I don't like it when you fight."
"I'm sorry that you've had to hear so much of it, Champ. I never really thought about it."
He nodded. "That's why I like that Bobby's here now, cause you don't come and fight with Mommy," he looked up at him a little scared. "And when you leave she doesn't cry."
Jimmy couldn't believe his ears ,he never realized that what he did effected Kim so much, and he never even thought about how it effected Joey by extension.
"I'm not gonna come around and do that stuff anymore, I promise."
Joey nodded. "Okay," he wasn't certain his father was telling the truth.
"I'll prove it to you," he told him. "But it's late, so goodnight, I'll see you later."
He hugged his son again, and then left the room. Bobby was sitting on the couch, and followed him to lock the door behind him.
Bobby then went into Kim's room, he got into the bed, and wrapped his arms around her. He kissed her forehead.
"You still have a fever," he told her.
"I don't feel that bad though," she assured him.
"I'm calling you in sick."
"You worry about me too much."
"No, I just love you."
She grinned. "Fine call. I love you, I need to get some sleep."
He got up to make the call for her, and by the time he got back she had fallen asleep.
Jimmy meanwhile got to his own apartment, it was dark and total mess. He went into his room, too off his shirt and pants, and slipped between the sheets in his boxers.
It had been a long time since he felt lonely, but with all that had happened he did feel lonely. He knew that Linda didn't want anything to do with him, except to collect child support, he'd be lucky if he even saw that kid.
Alex had made it very clear that she only wanted him in her life for their child. Which kind of upset him, since he thought he could do the right thing for one of them.
The worst part for him was that Kim was happy without him. He didn't even really think of Brooke, he had signed the papers, and knew he would never see or hear from her again.
He knew that he was alone and he'd have to make some serious changes in his life if he wanted more.
tbc...
end notes: well that was that... this story isn't going where i'd like it to anymore, sadly... so i'm afraid now that the rabbit rabbit of doom is dead it shall be ending soon... but i have three more chappies, and up next would be chapter unnumbered; time warp you'll see why that is...