Chapter 3: The Feeling of Sorrow and Worry
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Well… here's Chapter 3! We're moving along rather quickly aren't we. Again, I'm going to thank all my reviewers, keep doing what you do best…. um... reviewing and talking to me over IM, lol. Please enjoy this chapter of 'Kan Yume'.
As they gradually made their way towards Shigure-san's house, it was almost as quiet as death. The things they had witnessed on what was supposed to be one of the most memorable days of their life, had ruined the whole celebration. Of course Akito must have planned all of this, even if she said it was all merely assumption. Some how she was pulling the strings on each of them as if they were just plain, old, lifeless puppets. Kyo glanced at Tohru a couple of times but couldn't think of any words that would make her feel even remotely better. His mouth would open and nothing would decide to come out so he'd just close it again.
Yuki and Shigure were walking side by side, not even looking at each other for a second. They had gotten into some fight that Tohru and Kyo had completely no knowledge of -and at the moment- didn't exactly care. The only thing on each of their minds was, 'How will we try to continue life in the household?' None of them were able to find the answer they were desperately, and mentally searching for. It was a quiet voice that no one was allowed to hear, and therefore, couldn't recall the answer even when –or if- it was spoken to them. Nearly all of them sigh and stop as they reach the strange looking home they had resided in for such a long time, together. Kyo instantly went to the door, stepping up the little staircase that was only one step high and touches the paper door that had always been there. Slowly and delicately, he opens the door and enters into the house.
The three watched him as though he were doing something shocking. Then, after a moment of deep thoughts and slight hyperventilation by Tohru, they enter just behind him. It was just as quiet when they got inside Shigure's home. Every spot they touched became a darkening gray that consumed every inch of the area their feet or hands came in contact with, or so it felt that way.
Suddenly, Kyo jerks his arm back and throws his bag upstairs. It only had his cap and gown in and he could careless if everything in that knapsack was burned with flashing crimson flames. They each remembered the morning the moment the bag hit the floor of the second story. Tohru runs up the steps, past Kyo and goes into her room. She was acting so different, and so upset that she slammed the door of her bedroom. That was completely out of her normal character. Normally, she'd just try to act as though nothing was going on and continue with her life to make everyone else's better.
Kyo follows up the steps, also being followed by none other then Yuki. He hadn't spoken for an extremely long time. He'd gone wordless for an even more time-consuming length then the others. The both of them enter her bedroom only to find her lying in her bed, on her belly, and her face buried in her comfy pillow. They sigh slightly and Kyo goes to the left side of her bed while Yuki goes on the right. Kyo gets on his knees and Yuki copies. The both of them were trying to draw her attention away from her sullen thoughts. Though it clearly didn't seem to be working. The moment she saw Kyo's caring and thoughtful expression she bursted into rapid, lake filling tears. He gently takes hold of her hand and turns her over, sitting her up by force. Kyo looks at her and gently smiles. "You're making everything seem worse then it really is. I still have a day left ya know!" He exclaims trying to cheer her up a little. After it didn't seem to work, he sighs once more and looks her in the eyes. "Tohru…we'll do whatever you want tomorrow. Just, get a good rest. Don't think about the crap that happened today. For all we know, it was all a dream right?" He whispers trying to reassure her as well as calm her down.
Yuki groans a little and looks at the both of them. He stands up and places his hand on her forehead, pushing her down gently to get her head the pillow properly. Kissing her head she blushes slightly and looks down. "Kan yume…" he nods slightly, bows for a moment, and leaves the room slowly, closing the door gently behind him.
She touches her head and looks at Kyo. "I'll sleep Kyo-kun…" Tohru nods gently and smiles at him. He smiles even though the anger of seeing Yuki put his lips to her sweet skin was pulsing through him. Kyo pats her hand gently and leaves the room the exact same way Yuki had; by closing the door quietly as he exited. She says 'good night' to him and moments later she was fast asleep, floating around in her mind's dream world.
Kyo and Yuki were finally asleep in their respective beds when she began to have a strange dream
The windows shook with a gentle rumbling gust of wind. She finds herself making her way down a long, practically never ending hallway. The doors seemed just as endless and each had a different, but extremely unique design on it. Her hand reaches towards a doorknob and touches ends up touching it, taking a firm grip on the steel that it was made of. After turning the doorknob she pushes the door open and looks around. She shudders and stares in shock. One part of her felt incredibly cold, but the other side. Well, the other side felt all warm and fuzzy and gave her a calm and comfortable feeling inside. There was something about this place that was so familiar. Then it hit her. She glances at the left side of the room. It was up of black walls that were covered with sheets of metal. The window that was on one of the black steel walls had bars over it. Then, when she glanced at the other side she saw a room. It was neat, and remarkably tidy. No one was there and she found her feet forcing her to advance towards it. Her body hit the bed and only a moment passed before she realized she was in Kyo's bedroom. Nothing was touched, not in the slightest. She gazes across the room and stares at the black end. Sitting in a corner, cold and alone, was Kyo who looked beaten. His shirt had dry blood on it and his bottom lip had a recovering laceration. She hadn't seen him this badly hurt in an extremely long time. Tohru didn't ever want him to be like that again. Nothing would make her wish that upon anyone, even if it was the person she hated the most, that person being Akito.
The morning soon came. The sun illuminated the sky with its burning yellowish-orange light. Each feathery cloud floated around in the air thoughtlessly as always and they were as white as ever. She rolled out of her bed slowly, eyes gradually opening only to see Kyo standing at the frame of her bedroom door. He rested against it, one hand at his hip, clearly waiting for her to notice him. "Ky…Kyo-kun…" she whispers gently. "G-Good morning!" A sudden rush of cheerfulness flowed through her voice as she exclaimed these common words. He heard her say this every morning of every day; except for the times when he was out training with Kazuma.
"Did you…sleep well?" He asks looking at her inquisitively. She nods seeming a little blank as she does so.
Getting completely out of her bed, Tohru walks over to Kyo, stumbling a couple times. She smiles and hugs him. And, as if she had forgotten ever knowing them, Kyo transformed in an instant. A look of surprise came over her face when she saw Kyo's kitty form lying quietly in her arms. "Y-You transformed Kyo-kun…" she whispers sounding astonished. It was as if she had failed to remember the fact they were all cursed to transform into the animals of the Juunishi and the cat. Tohru sighs gently, "I suppose…it may be because I'm so tired." He nods slightly and lets out an even deeper sigh then her's. She looks at him, tilting her head to the side for a moment. "Are you okay Kyo-kun?" Tohru asks sweetly.
"I'm fine." He answers the second she asked her question. Then, he looks up at her and his cat mouth splits into a soft smile. "We'll go wherever you want today. Or, do whatever you want for that matter." He mumbles knowing that she could possibly choose the world's dumbest, and non-fun thing. Kyo leaps out of her arms and onto his clothes. A gentle poof is heard and he hurriedly puts his clothes back on right as Tohru spins around in embarrassment. Her face was flush as she turned back around to face him, now that he was fully clothed. "Sorry…" Kyo groans slightly, rubbing the back of his head feeling the same embarrassed emotion she had.
A soft giggle is heard from her, then she smiles at him. "I'm going to get changed Kyo-kun! Maybe we can go to the park. Oh… oh and we can find the other's and play around. It can be so much fun!" She exclaims happily, leaning forward slightly, her hands clasped together, eyes closed as she imagined how every thing would turn out. Her eyes open, she was still smiling which told Kyo that she hadn't even attempted to think about him being taken out of her life. He smiles back at her and pats her shoulder, nodding softly. Kyo leaves the room and goes downstairs and waits for her to come down as well.
She changes her clothes and hurries out of her bedroom, going down the steps at a quick pace. Stopping just feet from Kyo a bright, loving smile crosses her face and she grabs his hand instantly. He smiles back at her and looks at Yuki giving him a quick, yet fierce glare. Abruptly, Kyo pulls her along and out the door forcefully as if he couldn't stand seeing Yuki's face, even if it was for only a second.
Just as Kyo and Tohru stepped down off the porch they were greeted by Kisa and Hiro who had slightly hopeful expressions on their faces. "Onee-chan…" she whispers to Tohru, then trots over to her quickly, hugging her legs tightly. "Did Akito-san hurt you Onee-chan? Did she make Onee-chan sad?" Tohru gave Kisa a why-would-you-ask-that kind of look. "Akito-san was speaking badly of you last night. Hiro-chan and I were walking by and overheard her saying really awful things. We thought she harmed you and so we came here to make sure you were okay!" She responds instantly, nestling her head into Tohru's legs. After pulling away she allows Tohru to kneel down so that she can be hugged probably. "Hiro-chan was worried too! Isn't that great?" Kisa says happily, sounding very proud of Hiro. It brought a smile to Tohru's face as she heard the excitement in Kisa's tone.
Hiro looks at the ground, kicking his shoe-covered feet against the dirt in embarrassment. "I wasn't worried about her…. she's dumb enough to have baka neko over there to worry…" He grunts out trying to overshadow his true concern and such. Tohru just smiles at him, understanding what he was trying to do. Even Kyo didn't explode when hearing the name Hiro had called him, or when he had called Tohru dumb, he actually just stood still seeming agitated at the fact that the two youngest members of the juunishi had to drop by on his last day with Tohru. Nonetheless, he sighs and allows them to continue their pointless conversation about being worried and not being worried. It was all rather boring on Kyo's standards, but he let it go on and on until their stupidity drive was all worn out.
"Look, we have to go alright?" Kyo says out of nowhere catching the three of them by surprise. Then, in complete agreement, Tohru nods. He manages a smile and allows the two children to see it so that they could know that he wasn't angered by anything they were currently doing.
As they began to walk down the path they original were thinking about going down, Kisa runs up to Tohru once more and tugs at the back of her shirt. Kyo and Tohru stop and turn around to look at Kisa whose expression was as innocent and as kind as ever. He sighs and places his hand on Kisa's head. "We're going to be back later. Just stay at the house, okay?" Kyo says quietly so that she would stop interrupting their walk.
Kisa smiles happily at Kyo and nods. "Okay Kyo-kun!" Her face was letting off one of the most cheerful lights as she smiled at them. Tohru hugs Kisa one last time and then continues on walking with Kyo.
The two children run inside and quickly find Katsuro who was ready to play as always. Finally walking once more, Tohru hugged Kyo's right arm as they made their way down the winding path in the forest. Her face was suddenly a little gloomy and it made Kyo wonder. He had only just seen her smiling moments ago, and now she was frowning a bit.
Sighing, he stops for about the sixth time already and pulls Tohru off his arm. His hands were holding on to her arms so that they were completely facing each other. She looked a little startled by this and then calmed down at once. "What's wrong Tohru? You can… tell me…" Kyo wanted to say this as softly as possible, he couldn't even think of yelling at her.
"Kyo…I'm…sad…" her voice was almost as shaky as the day before and her hands were shaking slightly.
"No crap you're sad." Kyo mutters under his breath knowing exactly why she was so upset.
She smiles at him weakly and pulls her arms out of his grasp and takes hold of his hands gently. "I tried to ignore the fact that you were leaving…" her eyes began to steadily fill with sorrowful tears. "But…I couldn't…the dream Kyo…the dream…" Her body was beginning to feel numb and she couldn't stand straight. And then she dropped, falling limp, into Kyo's arms. He wrapped his arms around her and held her weak body against his own.
"What dream Tohru!" he asks resting his head gently against her's. Kyo didn't understand what she meant when all she was saying was 'the dream'. It wasn't making any sense and he could tell that she knew she had to explain everything to him. When she didn't answer him for a couple of moments and just cried into his chest, he sighs a little and rubs the back of her head with his hand. "Tohru…please, you can tell me…"
She slowly nods and pulls her head away from his torso. Looking up at him slightly, she answers his question. "When… Yuki told me to have sweet dreams…I didn't. It was a horrible dream… and … and," more tears began to flow down her cheeks like a raging river, "you were hurt. Your shirt…was covered…in…in blood. You were in that horrible room, but across from that was your bedroom….a-at Shigure-san's house." Her voice was getting inconsistent, she couldn't keep her tone or the way she was speaking the same. One time she'd sound squeaky and soft, then another time you'd hear her slightly yelling but her throat would be raspy. The most common was the shaky voice with a gentle, sad tone.
Kyo tilts his head trying to comprehend her words. It was a little confusing because of the way her voice would shift. He'd feel as though he'd have to calm her down and when he tries doing that he misses the things she was saying or just plain old doesn't understand it. "Don't think about that stuff Tohru…please…" he sounded as if he were pleading with her. All he wanted on his last day with her was to be happy and have a lot of fun. That image was slowly drifting away as he sadness bit at it. It wasn't her fault though; she just couldn't keep her emotions under control at the moment. She loved him so much that knowing he was going to leave was heartbreaking.
I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter. I felt like I dragged it out a little, if you think so please tell me. I'd like to know if I'm doing anything wrong. And, even though Kyo is a little OOC its because of his love for Tohru and it's hard for him to say or do anything bad in front of her. -- That is a little confusing…. PLEASE R&R, lol.