Authors Note: As usual I would like to thank the reviewers WOO! Hoo! For you guys so this chapter is kind of a mix of my ideas and amyrose's so enjoy please !
Previously on The ghost of you:
I felt my arms tighten around myself and I sat myself down on the bench and I smiled sadly this was the place, this is the place we first met how long ago has it been since I've been here, Yuki are you thinking of me now?
I heard the ground shuffle and I looked up it was Yuki he was standing their looking as gorgeous as ever his blonde hair was scattered over his face and his golden eyes seemed to gleam in the sunlight he looked at me and said softly
"Is this seat taken?" I nodded no and watched him sit down every move he made was graceful like a cat he moved toward me and I looked away from him and I asked in the other direction "So…what's up?" he laughed harshly and he grabbed my shoulder and forced me to look at him
"Am I that disgusting? That you can't even look me in the eye when you talk to me" I felt his arms tighten around me and I tried to pull away but he held me close and he said it again this time a little harsher
"Am I disgusting to you"? I looked away but he held my chin tightly "answer me "
I felt my hands go slack and I uttered softly under my breath "No… Yuki your beautiful" I blushed a bright pink and Yuki smiled and pulled me forward again and he said his eyes seemed to burn with something intense
"Are you with Hiro now?" I nodded yes and I felt his arms release me and he looked away coldly and he said in a harsh tone "Forgotten me already? Did I really mean that little to you"
I looked at him my eyes shaking softly my tears trickled down my eyes and I looked away he grabbed my face and pulled me forward
"Don't cry, I hate it when you cry" he said softly his hands caressing my face gently,
"You always speak of love but yet you forget me so easily… I guess then maybe this love you speak of all the time isn't real…" he said softly and he pulled away his hands left me quickly and I grabbed his arm and pulled him forward
"Yuki please don't…" he looked at me gently and turned around and he cupped my chin "even now… you look at me with those kind eyes" he leaned forward trapping me on the bench his body hovering over mine he breathed on my skin gently I looked up and noticed his golden eyes were staring down at me "Yuki…I can't" he looked at me a flicker of regret passed over his features he pulled away quickly.
"I'm sorry how can you want to touch me after what I did and also now you have Hiro" he said I noticed the way he sneered Hiro's name and he got up quickly "I have to go now" I noticed the way he started to walk away and I ran after him gently and I felt my body fall as I tripped on a rock and my body fell on top of his and my tears streamed down my face.
"Yuki just this once will you kiss me one last time" he looked at me and his eyes sparkled and he smiled gently and pulled me forward our mouths met in a passionate kiss and our tongues intertwined. I felt my body heat up and I moaned gently and he pulled away at that one moment everything was perfect he looked away and he gently got up
"Shuichi, I guess this is goodbye" he pulled away from me and I uttered weakly "Yuki…I'm sorry" he looked back and smiled a sad smile a few tears trickling down my face his blonde hair falling over his eyes his shoulders sagged gently and he looked me in the eyes and smiled sadly and replied
"I'm the one who's sorry Shuichi" and he walked away his feet gently fading away into the distance as he walked away I closed my eyes and I could still feel his lips on mine, I could feel the love, I could feel Yuki.
I moved out of the park and moved myself back to Hiro's apartment I moved and saw Hiro lying asleep I smiled and walked to the bathroom and I found it my trusty old razor.
I held it in my hands and I sliced I moaned softly as I felt the warm blood fall out of my hand and I started to clean it up quickly and the only thing I could say was
"Yuki" every time I slept all I see is you, when I walk I see you, when I laughed I saw you, when I make love all I see is you
I moved toward the bed and lay down gently I felt Hiro's arms hold me and I moved into his embrace and as I fell asleep I saw him I saw
Yuki…
Chapter 5: Fake
Shuichi's P.O.V
I awoke softly to find the bed empty I smiled sadly and trudged on my usual clothing a dark pair of blue jeans and a soft grey shirt with black stripes going horizontally across it, I had suddenly taken a liking to black clothing and I placed chains on my black pants. I looked at myself and brushed my bright pink hair and smiled a fake smile.
Perfect…
I walked toward the N-G building I walked toward the studio a fake grin placed on my perfect skin, as we played I sang as usual Fujaski gave me a thumbs up and Hiro smiled.
The air around me grew cold and I walked outside I felt a warm hand touch my skin I turned suddenly and before I could stop myself I leaped out the first word that came to my mind
I'd give anything to give me to you
Can you forget the world that you thought you knew
If you want me,
Come and find me
Nothing's stopping you so please release me
"Yuki" the hand stopped and I turned and gasped "Hiro" I uttered he looked at me his red hair covering his face gently and he reached forward
I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you
"No matter what I do everything is Yuki, Yuki, and Yuki" he said his head moving softly his fists clenching in and out. I moved forward and grasped his face a fake smile on my face my eyes gleaming with betrayal. The trees seemed to howl when they heard this and the leafs scattered around us and it seemed a bad omen was blowing.
"Hiro you know I love you now" I said stroking his cheek his hand pushed my hand away and he grabbed me and pulled me forward
"Stop it, stop it with the fake smiles, the fake happiness, I can see right through you" I tried to move out of his grasp and he held me tighter weaving his fingers through my hair. His breath hot on my ear and I shivered lightly.
Nothing left to make me feel anymore
There's only you and everyday I need more
If you want me
Come and find me
I'll do anything you say just tell me
"Hiro stop please all I want is you" liar a voice said in my head saying it loud and clear, he grabbed me roughly again pulling me to him tighter and he said angrily staring straight into my violet eyes.
"Stop lying when you look at me you see Yuki don't you? Don't you? He said a bit louder. I moved away from his grasp and I heard his soft sobs "how could I have being so stupid to actually believe you would want me?" I moved forward grasping him tightly
I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you
"Hiro I do want you" I said smiling happily why are you such a liar? The voice repeated in an angry tone. He pushed me and I fell to the ground with a thud and I looked at him a few tears dribbling down my eyes, his voice was full of anger and betrayal
I'll believe
All your lies
Just pretend you love me
Make believe
Close your eyes
I'll be anything for you
"Get out of my sight you disgust me" I looked at him my knees wobbling; my head bowed my head shaking softly my pink hair falling over my eyes.
"Hiro, why don't you want me?" I said my voice slightly strained and saddened, he said softly with a bit of anger behind it "you don't want me all you want his him" he said his feet clicking on the ground behind him and I was left on the ground, withered and alone. I felt my body get up I needed to get home, but home to who and to where. If I returned to Hiro's would he accept me?
Anything for you
I'll become your earth and sky
Forever never die
I'll be everything you need
I sniffled slightly it was already 8 by the time I had finished walking the streets around town and I noticed I was in the bad part of town, I didn't care anymore. As I was heading toward Hiro's maybe if we talked about it, we could work it out. I felt a pair of cold hands touch me.
Enter Lemon... (This is rape so be warned I tried not to go into much detail for this )
I turned and noticed a man he was in his early twenties he had long black hair and bright blue eyes he had a semi muscular body he wore a long black trench coat and a button down shirt he moved toward and cupped my chin and said in a lazy tone
"You ,looking for a good time beautiful?" I shivered and moved away quickly he pulled me back and gripped me rougher and said it again louder and I nodded no and he laughed coldly stroking my hair and pulling it roughly
"Well you don't have a choice" he said sliding his fingers under my shirt stroking my skin lightly. I felt my tears prick up and I cried softly as his hands stroked my crotch
"Stop crying beautiful I'll make you feel good" I started to cry louder as he unzipped my pants and he placed his lips over my erection I cried and had no choice but to moan into the pleasure I felt my erection pulse and spill forth he smiled evilly and sucked it dry and I cried louder. He looked at me and smirked "You like that you little bitch" he raised his hand and slapped my ass and I cried out my tears coming faster and faster "Shut up you stupid whore"
He slapped me across the face holding me against the wall and he undid his pants and his large erection was placed at my hole he roughly shoved himself in, I cried out in pain I felt my ass ripping in pain and I had no choice but to accept it. I heard his loud grunts of pleasure and I felt his erection convulse and ejaculate I felt my body fall to the ground in a heap and he moved forward and uttered
"See you around beautiful" and he left me their feeling used and abused. My mind was spinning the tears I held back released and I cried, I cried for Hiro , I cried for this, I cried for Yuki and most of all I cried for myself I needed a razor and I needed it now but I couldn't find anything and I felt myself become sick. I needed to get out but my body just would not move and I felt my body become weak.
"Yuki" My head hit the cement and I felt two arms encircle me I remembered a figure carrying me back I remembered feelings his warm hands and his soothing voice. I remember the distant look of blonde.
Authors note: So some guy raped Shuichi? Who do you think saved him? Well it's kind of obvious anyway I hope you all liked this chapter so please Review to keep this alive!