Authors Note: Sorry I haven't been updating I was busy with school and writing that other story I would like to thank the reviewers for still staying around even when I didn't update in awhile

This chapter is a Hiro/ Shuichi its still Shuichi and Yuki they may not end up together in the end you'll see when I continue this story.

Previously on The ghost of you: I looked down at his sleeping figure and stroked his hair I remembered how I had found him I was walking down the street and heard a tussle and looked to see what was going on and their lying in his own puddle of blood was Shuichi.

I had moved so fast I had picked him up gently and I placed him in my arms and I felt a tear slid down on his face and I almost cried poor Shuichi I felt my blood boil whoever did this would pay dearly. I carried him quickly to my apartment lying him gently down into the bed I saw the blood drip from his wounds and I quickly got a towel; I felt his breathing quiet down as he drifted off to sleep.

"Shuichi why were you out there alone?" I uttered stroking back his pink hair watching the way if fell over his body. I felt my body start to get sleepy and I placed myself into the bed next to him just like old times. Shuichi groaned and rolled over so he was lying on my chest and he held me gently. That night I had finally gotten a good night sleep, The next morning I felt a body stir beside me and I heard his breath quicken I opened my eyes to find a shaking Shuichi

"Yuki what am I doing in your bed?" he said quietly I moved forward and told him the story he smiled warmly he hugged me gently my member strained under the covers. I pushed him away quickly I couldn't let him see me this way I mean he was just raped as it is. That brat had no idea how much I had missed his little body and his gentle touches and the way he would tell me how much he loved me. It warmed my cold heart to the core, this little brat had really left an impact on my life.

Shuichi moved forward "thank you Yuki" he said again bowing his head I grasped his chin and tilted his head upward his swan like neck exposed "Where was Hiro when this was all happening?" He stopped breathing and didn't reply he moved away sitting at the edge of the bed closing his eyes, his breathing was quicker and more abnormal.

I reached for my cigarettes and uttered in my usual tone while puffing the cigarette in the air "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to" he moved toward me and uttered very quietly

"But I want to"

Shuichi's P.O.V

I don't know what had possessed me to tell Yuki the story he looked at me curiously as I told him my story. He looked away and said clearly "well so does Hiro know what happened tonight?" I nodded no and he sighed my eyes watered slightly and I curled up into a ball and wrapped my arms around myself. Yuki moved behind and placed his arms around me and uttered softly into my ear

"If he really loved you why would he let you go?" I shivered and started to cry harder my tears dropped faster and faster. He held me and I cried. I cried in Eiri Yuki's arms, I cried for what I had lost for what I could never have.

It felt right being in Yuki's arms again like old times he tilted my chin upwards and he placed his lips over mine I moaned softly and wrapped my arms around his neck deepening the kiss. We separated looking deeply in each others eyes, golden brown met violet and he moved away quickly

"I'm sorry I took advantage of you" I laughed and blushed and looked away "You didn't take advantage of me I liked" I covered my mouth quickly and moved away from him. I felt his body jump onto mine and he uttered again

"So you liked it did you?" he said while stroking the side of my body gently causing me to shiver in pleasure. "Yuki" I uttered in a husky tone. I moved away No remember what he did to you but I miss him so much, so much it hurt I needed a blade. He stroked my face gently trailing his fingers up and down my body.

My mind was in a conflict could I really go back to Eiri Yuki after everything? He looked at me his eyes glazed over with lust I remembered this face well. When he was drunk or if he was sober this face always managed to arouse me.

"Yuki do you miss me?" He looked at me and pulled my chin upwards "What do you think?" he uttered placing his lips over mine quickly and I felt every emotion every sin everything was placed into one kiss.

I had missed him so much I had missed his touch, his love and most of all him. The bed shifted when we moved and we both separated we blushed and looked away from each other what could I say?

"Shuichi will you give me another chance?" he said softly my eyes widened and I looked at him gently and I moved toward him the words at the tip of my tongue could I really take him back? Could I really forget everything? My body quivered as the words itched to be set free, I felt my hands become clammy and I started to break out into a cold sweat. Images of us, images of abuse everything was flooding into my mind at this one second I had to answer I had to answer Eiri Yuki.

"Yuki I"

Chapter 7: Will our happiness last?

Shuichi's P.O.V

"Yuki I think I'll take you back" I uttered his golden eyes glimmered with happiness and he pulled me forward his lips claimed mine in a heated kiss. I moaned slightly weaving my fingers in his blonde hair.

Yuki separated from me and pulled me forward so I was straddling him "Shuichi I have never being so happy to see my pink haired baka" I blushed at the pet name but something in the pit of my stomach told me something was wrong, that something was going to go wrong.

Wasn't I supposed to feel safe in his arms? Wasn't I supposed to feel love? Then why did I feel like this was all wrong? His lips were kissing my shoulder and I shuddered in disgust.

"Yuki" I uttered helplessly under my breath he looked up and smiled. I smelt something, something not right.

The air smelt of cheap perfume and I pushed him away quickly his eyes shone in surprise "what is it?" he said putting his hand on me. I pulled away in disgust and I cried softly how could I have believed him? I got up and uttered softly

"Cheating on me with some girl right Eiri?" He looked at me and dropped his head his fingers weaving through his hair and he shot his head up "I didn't mean to, it was when you were gone I was lonely" he said softly the tears prickling in his eyes.

"If you really missed me that much you wouldn't have done it "I replied looking away the tears trickling down my eyes falling on the ground my feet passing over the ground as I hurried out the door.

As the door slammed behind me I didn't hear Yuki's choked sob and his lonely

"Don't leave me alone again".

My eyes turned angry and I screamed angrily it had started to rain and my hair stuck to my face

"I can't believe I thought you changed, I can't..." my voice died as the tears fell down my eyes. I sat down in the pouring rain and I cried sobbing to the world to erase this bitter pain. I had given him my heart and yet again he had ripped it out. He had made me feel like a child all over again. He had betrayed me and I had willing fell into his trap.

As the rain started to stop I felt a warm hand touch me and I looked up and I gasped

"Hiro" I uttered his hair was clinging to his body it looked like he was tired and was exhausted. "Were you looking for me all night"? I uttered he blushed slightly and turned away and nodded.

He picked me up gently pulling me to my feet and I hugged him tightly telling him everything that happened as we headed toward his house. He held me most of the way and as we headed inside he lay me down and uttered gently

"I'm sorry Shuichi" he uttered tucking me gently into bed and I curled up in the covers. I felt his soft hands hold me and caress me and I moaned slightly.

I hugged him as I slept, I felt safe in his arms, I felt loved and most of all I felt like I was needed but as I slept I still always thought of him my blonde haired beauty. It didn't matter if Hiro made me feel loved or safe it was always him.

It just wasn't fair, Could I never find peace? Could I go on living like this? My mind whirled and I eventually fell asleep one thing on my mind.

Yuki...

Authors note: So as you can see Shuichi may not end up with Yuki but he always still thinks of him, even after everything he did to him he still thinks of him. Do you think Shuichi should end up Yuki or Hiro, Review and give me ideas.