Authors Note: Thank you to all the reviewers from the last chapter, now on with the story. Thank god Winter break is here yet my birthday is on January 6 I'm so happy.
Last Time on the Ghost of You: I don't know where it came from but my soft voice interrupted his rage
"Hiro, why won't you let me be happy?" he dropped me on the ground with a thud and I looked up at him and his fists clenched and unclenched. He pulled me up gently. "I just don't want you to get hurt again" he said softly.
I laughed coldly my voice echoing over the room "you don't want me to be happy you just want yourself to be happy" I felt his hand backhand me quickly and I clutched my red cheek tightly and looked up at him gently my eyes tearing gently.
"Don't ever think for minute I would only want my own happiness I guess the thing is I wanted your happiness a bit too much" he said sadly moving toward the door. I felt the soft click of the door close and I closed my eyes and let the tears run free.
Hiro I don't think I'll ever understand maybe one day I will... I stared at the walls and sighed softly. All Hiro ever wanted was my happiness? Was he afraid of me getting hurt? Was I afraid of getting hurt? Did it even matter anymore? I felt the coldness overtake me and my eyes watered again. I needed to get away to escape.
The coldness of the bathroom floor hit my skin and I looked around blade, blade, and blade where are you? As I searched quickly the pain increased I needed to cut to escape. Where was it? I looked around the cabinets it wasn't their a little note lay in the corner.
Dear Shuichi if you are reading this then you are most likely looking for your blade. I hate to disappoint you but I threw it out. I know you can survive without it.
Your friend Hiroshi Nakano
I clutched my arms gently and I started to cry, Hiro even now he cared about me even when I treated him like dirt. I closed my eyes gently and felt the cold tile of the bathroom floor touch my skin.
The phone rang quickly and I moved quickly and picked up the phone the heavy breathing of person was heard.
"Shuichi it's me Tohma it's Hiro he's being in accident" I clutched the phone tightly and it clattered to the floor. My eyes glazed over slightly and I whimpered slightly.
"Hiro" I moved quickly toward the door a loud knock was heard and I opened it to see a saddened Yuki at the door.
"Shuichi I heard about Hiro" at those words I moved forward quickly embracing him and he calmly stroked my hair.
"It's ok i'll take you to the hospital" I smiled softly and he picked me up gently carrying me toward the door we walked slowly toward the car and got in.
As we arrived at the hospital I ran toward the secretary she directed me toward his room and as I walked in and looked. I saw something truly disturbing their laying on the bed was Hiro. His usual fair skin was paler than usual and his red hair was a mess of curls and knots.
I moved toward him ready to stroke the sweat off Hiro's forehead when I felt a cold hand touch mine. It was Hiro he looked at me and muttered under his breath
"What are you doing here"? The words struck me harshly and I cringed back in disgust.
"What do you mean what am I doing here you're my best friend of course I'm here" He looked at me strangly and rolled away on the bed facing away from me.
"Whatever you don't need to be here go hump Yuki it's what you do best" I cringed at his harsh words and moved forward quickly.
"Hiro don't be this way you know you're my best friend" His laugh was cold and bitter.
"Yah that's me only the best friend you can't see past anything to see as maybe I want you as more than a friend" I looked at him and stepped back and closed my eyes. I moved toward him and embraced him gently uttering gently in his ear.
"Hiro this is all I can do" I uttered I moved forward quickly placing my lips on top of his I watched him kiss back. His red hair moved around me gracefully and I stroked his hair gently and I held him gently.
Hiro looked at me and smiled and replied gently "Thank you Shuichi" he smiled softly and as we talked gently he held my hand and I smiled warmly down at him.
"Hiro, how did you get into an accident anyway?
Chapter 11:Goodbye
Shuichi's P.O.V
I heard Hiro's voice tighten and his breathing increased why was he so nervous? I touched his hand gently and he looked at me.
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to" I uttered gently releasing his hand. He grasped my hand.
"I think you should know Shuichi" he uttered stroking the cut lines visible on his right wrist.
Flashback…
Hiro's P.O.V
I remember it like it was just a few minutes ago. I had just fought with Shuichi my palms were shaking and my anger was explosive I could just. No I could never kill no matter how angry I was
Something's wrong with me,
Cause I can't even feel you now
Or know that this is real.
Am I blind to see that there's something there behind your eyes
And it's bringing me to my knees.
We had being friends since I could remember and this Eiri Yuki just gets in the way. I held the ignition and growled in anger. I got off my bike and angrily walked toward the house.
Why did I bother? Was he really worth all this trouble? I walked to the bathroom and looked at Shuichi's blade. Could I really do this? I felt like crap and I just wanted to die. So maybe I sound a little emotional or emo as we call it know. All because of you I would do this and all you see is him.
All I want is you and I don't care
All I want is you and I don't care
Cause all I do is wait in, wondering and hoping, that we'll survive it.
I know that all this is true.
All because of you.
Cut, slice, blood wound, that's all I saw every stab I made I just saw red. It didn't matter anymore. All that mattered was Eiri Yuki novelist extraordinary a man that could do no wrong and there I was everything I do is wrong.
Something's wrong with you,
The walls you build around you now,
Seem to fit you like a glove.
Something's wrong with you,
All these walls you build do you know how you hurt me? Do you even care? I felt the blood loss and smiled, finally another step closer to perfection. I heard the scream of a woman and I smiled and licked my lips and raised the blood and licked it slowly off the blade like a pockey stick. Was that Ayaka did it matter? I felt my body slowly hit the ground and I smiled.
Stars danced around me and a soft voice held me and soothed me. It stroked my hair and I smiled melting into his embrace. All I saw was pink and beautiful violet eyes.
Cause stars cannot be found in clouds that cover up their love.
Cause all I do is wait in, wondering and hoping, that we'll survive it.
I know that all this is true.
All because of you.
I remember the hospital officials and I remember the bed and I remembered you.
End flashback…
Shuichi's P.O.V
I stared at Hiro and moved forward holding his gently and I stroked his hair gently. He moved my face up so his fingers were lightly dancing on my skin.
All I ever wanted
was to be at your service
but now I'm alone
cause you were here and you're gone
"Shuichi be happy just let me be happy" I felt his warm hand go cold and I looked up and gasped around him lay a pool, a pool of blood. I guess as he was telling me that story he was slowly dying. My eyes shook and I screamed the nurses ran and she gasped and Yuki walked in and covered his mouth in shock. I lay there in Hiro's blood it dribbled off my skin landing on the floor. I felt the nurses start to pull me away and I screamed moving forward
And all I ever wanted
was to feel I had a purpose
but now that's all gone
"No don't take me away, please don't take me away from him" the desperation in my voice was so sad, so lonely. How could he have died? His arm was all stitched up. I heard a doctor murmur under his breath in the corner.
"That kid undid his stitches did he want to die or something?"
I clutched the floor and I fell. I had no one I was alone, no one to hold me when I was sad, and No one to make me feel loved. I saw his blood fall onto the ground from his dead corpse his beautiful long red hair danced around him. He was beautiful even in death and he was all mine.
But if you could give me
just one love
just one life
just one chance to believe in mine
just one love
just one life
you'd bleed for me
and I didn't dare to notice you
now I'm stuck
out on a line.
Bleed for me
I didn't care to be with you
now you're stuck in my mind
How could I have ignored Hiro's love? How could I be so heartless? Hiro come back. Say it isn't so? Say you aren't really dead? Say you'll be here to tomorrow say your mine again.
I lay their quietly sitting on the floor looking at the walls gently rubbing my eyes quietly. I remembered every look, every smile. Hiro was he was my lover and my best friend.
All I ever wanted
was to be what you needed
cause something so strong
it could never be wrong.
And all I can promise
is to say what I'm feeling
We've made it so long
Yuki sat beside me and I moved away I couldn't stand him right now. I just wanted to be alone. He moved to hold me and I slapped his hand away.
"Just leave me alone" Yuki moved toward me and he gently held me and I cried out and pushed him away.
"Stop it" I screamed I just wanted Hiro I just wanted everything to be the way it was supposed to be.
I pushed him away again and punched him he caught my wrist easily.
"Do you think Hiro would want you to be this way?" I felt the hot tears slid down my face and onto the floor.
But if you could give me
just one love
just one life
just one chance to believe in mine
just one love
just one life
you'd bleed for me
and I didn't dare to notice you
now I'm stuck
out on a line.
You'd bleed for me
I didn't care to be with you
now you're stuck in my mind
"How could you ever understand what Hiro wanted he hated you?" Yuki moved forward gently and he held me in his arms.
"I understood one thing we both wanted you to be happy"
Just one love in my life...
You'd bleed for me
and I didn't dare to notice you
now I'm stuck
out on a line.
Bleed for me
I didn't care to be with you
now you're stuck in my mind
As Yuki held me I felt my body become sleepy and I fell into his arms he smiled gently removing the hair from my face and I closed my eyes.
Hiro…
Authors note: I literally cried when I wrote this chapter, the two songs I used was all because of you and bleed for me by saliva. Review and I'll update poor Hiro. I'm still crying.