Author Notes: Well in the last chapter our dear friend Hiro died but don't worry Shuichi will make amends with Hiro in a sense. Did I mention I'm dressing up as Shuichi for anime north because all my friends say I'm like him? Sweat drop
Previously on the Ghost Of you: Hiro's P.O.V
I remember it like it was just a few minutes ago. I had just fought with Shuichi my palms were shaking and my anger was explosive I could just. No I could never kill no matter how angry I was
Something's
wrong with me,
Cause I can't even feel you now
Or know that
this is real.
Am
I blind to see that there's something there behind your eyes
And
it's bringing me to my knees.
We had being friends since I could remember and this Eiri Yuki just gets in the way. I held the ignition and growled in anger. I got off my bike and angrily walked toward the house.
Why did I bother? Was he really worth all this trouble? I walked to the bathroom and looked at Shuichi's blade. Could I really do this? I felt like crap and I just wanted to die. So maybe I sound a little emotional or emo as we call it know. All because of you I would do this and all you see is him.
All
I want is you and I don't care
All I want is you and I don't
care
Cause all I do is wait in, wondering and hoping, that we'll
survive it.
I know that all this is true.
All because of you.
Cut, slice, blood wound, that's all I saw every stab I made I just saw red. It didn't matter anymore. All that mattered was Eiri Yuki novelist extraordinary a man that could do no wrong and there I was everything I do is wrong.
Something's
wrong with you,
The walls you build around you now,
Seem to fit
you like a glove.
Something's wrong with you,
All these walls you build do you know how you hurt me? Do you even care? I felt the blood loss and smiled, finally another step closer to perfection. I heard the scream of a woman and I smiled and licked my lips and raised the blood and licked it slowly off the blade like a pockey stick. Was that Ayaka did it matter? I felt my body slowly hit the ground and I smiled.
Stars danced around me and a soft voice held me and soothed me. It stroked my hair and I smiled melting into his embrace. All I saw was pink and beautiful violet eyes.
Cause
stars cannot be found in clouds that cover up their love.
Cause
all I do is wait in, wondering and hoping, that we'll survive it.
I
know that all this is true.
All because of you.
I remember the hospital officials and I remember the bed and I remembered you.
End flashback…
Shuichi's P.O.V
I stared at Hiro and moved forward holding his gently and I stroked his hair gently. He moved my face up so his fingers were lightly dancing on my skin.
All
I ever wanted
was to be at your service
but now I'm alone
cause
you were here and you're gone
"Shuichi be happy just let me be happy" I felt his warm hand go cold and I looked up and gasped around him lay a pool, a pool of blood. I guess as he was telling me that story he was slowly dying. My eyes shook and I screamed the nurses ran and she gasped and Yuki walked in and covered his mouth in shock. I lay there in Hiro's blood it dribbled off my skin landing on the floor. I felt the nurses start to pull me away and I screamed moving forward
And
all I ever wanted
was to feel I had a purpose
but now that's
all gone
"No don't take me away, please don't take me away from him" the desperation in my voice was so sad, so lonely. How could he have died? His arm was all stitched up. I heard a doctor murmur under his breath in the corner.
"That kid undid his stitches did he want to die or something?"
I clutched the floor and I fell. I had no one I was alone, no one to hold me when I was sad, and No one to make me feel loved. I saw his blood fall onto the ground from his dead corpse his beautiful long red hair danced around him. He was beautiful even in death and he was all mine.
But
if you could give me
just one love
just one life
just one
chance to believe in mine
just one love
just one life
you'd
bleed for me
and I didn't dare to notice you
now I'm stuck
out
on a line.
Bleed for me
I didn't care to be with you
now
you're stuck in my mind
How could I have ignored Hiro's love? How could I be so heartless? Hiro come back. Say it isn't so? Say you aren't really dead? Say you'll be here to tomorrow say your mine again.
I lay their quietly sitting on the floor looking at the walls gently rubbing my eyes quietly. I remembered every look, every smile. Hiro was he was my lover and my best friend.
All
I ever wanted
was to be what you needed
cause something so
strong
it could never be wrong.
And all I can promise
is to
say what I'm feeling
We've made it so long
Yuki sat beside me and I moved away I couldn't stand him right now. I just wanted to be alone. He moved to hold me and I slapped his hand away.
"Just leave me alone" Yuki moved toward me and he gently held me and I cried out and pushed him away.
"Stop it" I screamed I just wanted Hiro I just wanted everything to be the way it was supposed to be.
I pushed him away again and punched him he caught my wrist easily.
"Do you think Hiro would want you to be this way?" I felt the hot tears slid down my face and onto the floor.
But
if you could give me
just one love
just one life
just one
chance to believe in mine
just one love
just one life
you'd
bleed for me
and I didn't dare to notice you
now I'm stuck
out
on a line.
You'd bleed for me
I didn't care to be with you
now
you're stuck in my mind
"How could you ever understand what Hiro wanted he hated you?" Yuki moved forward gently and he held me in his arms.
"I understood one thing we both wanted you to be happy"
Just
one love in my life...
You'd bleed for me
and I didn't dare to
notice you
now I'm stuck
out on a line.
Bleed for me
I
didn't care to be with you
now you're stuck in my mind
As Yuki held me I felt my body become sleepy and I fell into his arms he smiled gently removing the hair from my face and I closed my eyes.
Hiro…
Chapter 12: Trials PT 1
Shuichi's P.O.V
It's being a week since you have left me in this cold room I call life. I see you everywhere everything reminds me of you. The leaves outside the cherry blossoms the way the grass seems to blow with every step you took. I sit in this room and look outside Yuki has come in many times to try to cheer me up but it's useless. All I see is you come back I didn't mean it. So many things I want to tell you but no time, I look back and regret everything. Its ok I understand I have sinned.
I hear the door open and I look at the door blankly, who's come to see my pitiful soul? It's Tohma he has a stern look on his face and his hands are folded in front of him. He sits down on the bed and I look away my pink hair covering my face gently.
"Shuichi I know what you are going through must be hard" I cut him off their and slapped him harshly causing him to look up at me in shock, his beautiful emerald eyes shimmering with anger.
"How could you ever know what I'm going through, you don't know how it feels to lose your best friend?" I dropped my hands and looked down and curled up into a ball and looked away quickly.
"Just leave I just want to be alone" Tohma sighed and left the room leaving me to my thoughts. I grabbed the blanket and wrapped it around myself closing my eyes gently.
The room around me was white and the curtains around me opened up revealing feathers and a soft light. A man seemed to be wrapped in a silk blanket his hair was darkish red and white wings surrounded his body and his skin appeared a soft pale white.
I moved forward pulling the curtain apart and gasped and covered my mouth the beautiful angel man was covered in a thin layer of blood but it made him look more beautiful. I moved forward and touched the man and he looked at me softly.
He grabbed my chin and looked into his beautiful eyes and I knew immediately it was
"Hiro" I screamed running forward grasping his body quickly he moved toward me and held me gently.
"Shuichi..I've waited for you to come see me I have a favor to ask of you though will you please forgive yourself. I recoiled in fear and backed away closing the curtains behind me. He pushed through the curtains and grasped me tightly and wretched away
"No leave me alone I won't forgive myself not EVER" He pulled me forward again his wings surrounding us creating a glow around us.
"I've forgiven you why can't you forgive yourself" he uttered gently petting my pink hair gently.
"No your not real Your just a FIGMENT of my worry" He laughed softly and nodded no and said softly
"I am Hiro Nakano's angel and I am here to help you Shuichi Shindou" I laughed hysterically
"You're a FIGMENT JUST A FUCKING FIGMENT" he moved toward quickly and placed his lips upon mine and his white wings tattered gently and feathers surrounded us.
"Can't you understand I'm trying to help you?" he screamed holding his finger in front of him causing a light circle to appear he pulled me forward pushing me into it.
"If I can't convince you I'll have to save you"
Meanwhile outside Shuichi's body..
Yuki shook Shuichi quickly crying out quickly "Shuichi Shuichi" He had started being like this since an hour ago. A doctor had come and confirmed he had fallen into a coma from stress.
I opened his eyes to find himself in front of Ng-Studio's I noticed Hiro was standing beside him his wings outstretched to the heavens. His white belly top gleamed silver in the light and his long white pants stood tall and brave.
"Shuichi were here for a reason" He said softly pointing to the Ng- building. "Go in their face your fears when you are done I will be waiting for you" He said gently pushing me into the building. Unknowns to Shuichi this was only the beginning of his journey into his mind.
I looked around what did he mean face my fears? Everything looked normal but that wouldn't last long. I heard the cry of a man and ran forward and arrived in the recording studio. It was dark and seemed deserted but as I got closer I recognized a familiar figure.
It was me well a version of me he was on his knee's crying in the darkness. He was being pelted by paper I took a closer look and noticed the paper had lyrics on it. It was Yuki his hair was thrown back he looked good but something wasn't right here.
I moved toward the scene and pushed the other Shuichi away to only see myself go through him like a ghost. Yuki was laughing his cold voice was familiar and always the same.
"You have no talent you have zero talent GIVE UP" I saw myself cry harder and I shuddered in fear. Was I really this afraid of Yuki? I moved forward touching Yuki he turned quickly and a piece of paper appeared in my hand and I gasped Yuki was smiling a cold smile his hands were clasped together and he was gently stroking me.
"Come on throw it he won't care let him cry" I gasped and I felt my hand pull back on its own. I moved my hand to stop it and heard Yuki's cold laughter "What's wrong your lyrics suck? Just finish him now he always gives up anyway its not like he cares anyway". I looked at Yuki and felt my hand push the ball forward I moved forward holding the ball
"No his lyrics don't suck why can't you ever SUPPORT ME" I screamed watching the mirror image of Yuki gasp and shatter he was a mirror. I ran toward the other me and pulled him up quickly.
"Help me destroy him do you always want to be put down by him? Do you always want him never respecting you STAND UP FOR YOURSELF" I screamed the other Shuichi looked at me and smiled a sad smile picking up a piece of paper and throwing it and as I felt my body disappear I saw him being surrounded in light and from the room I saw him utter
"Thank you"…
I didn't know what that meant or why I was hear but maybe I was here to face what I could not face. Hear to make amends hear to finally know if I was loved. Was that Yuki my Yuki? Or was that how I perceived him. I saw the familiar figure of Hiro as I appeared in front of him he looked at me and smiled sadly.
"Did you see what you wanted to see" he uttered quietly
"Yes..." I uttered gently.
The glow around us heightened and off we went in a great adventure in my mind
Authors Note: So what did you guys think? Good bad? I need reviews to continue my beautiful story. So review ,review did I mention I just saw memories of a Geisha.