Chapter 3

A week after Remus found out the news of his pregnancy and two weeks after the full moon, Remus was sitting up in bed, his head resting against his pillow and Sirius was talking to his stomach. At three months a bump was quite clear on Remus's stomach

"So, Sirius, after you have finished you convocation with are child, and by the sound of it he, or she, is so board they fell asleep and I don't blame them" he giggled and found his lovers pillow in his mouth. "Fwot fia cellf" he mumbled and removed the pillow.

Sirius couldn't hold back a grin. "So what were you saying?"

Remus glared at the other man. "I was saying that if you have finished taking to the baby would you talk to me?" He said putting on a neglected voice and pouting face.

Sirius kissed his lovers stomach, for the millionth time, and snuggled up under the covers against Remus's body. "So what do you want to talk about?" he said in a seductive voice and rubbed Remus's stomach.

"Ok, OK! That's enough" Remus managed to say laughing so much his sides hurt. He was extremely ticklish. He managed to stop Sirius's hand from moving by lacing his fingers with his lovers.

"I've been wondering…" Remus said and trailed off.

"What?" Sirius urged his lover on.

"Well… I forgot to ask the nurse some questions because I was still shocked. They've been killing my head for the past week! I know you've been REALY worried because I've been or quid lately but this is the reason why. I'm sorry I've been difficult but I've had lots on my mind" a tear trickled down his cheek.

"Oh love, please don't cry. If only you told me, I might have been able to help you carry the burden"

"They've been haunting me Sirius, haunting me!" Remus sobbed in to his lovers shoulder; letting his emotions get the better of him. Sirius muttered calming spells under his breath to sooth Remus, which he seemed to do more and more often now. "I mean what if I forget to take, or run out of, my potion! What would happen then? I mean I don't know what I would do. It's just everything is just ganging up on me, all the consequences of what could happen" he burst into tears again.

"Shhhhh love. On your next appointment you can get all the answers you need. I have know idea on what your going through, being pregnant and all, but I want to help you through it every step of the way. I don't want you to feel alone, that's the last thing I want you to feel, I want you to trust me so I can try to help you, so this type of thing doesn't happen again" Sirius said in to Remus's hair, clutching the smaller man to him.

Remus clung onto Sirius and said in to his lovers shoulder "I know, its just frustrating having so many questions and getting no answers, but, as you said, I'll live till my next appointment. It's just… I want everything to be right again, no more 'dark lord', no more having to hid away no more ordeals, and, most of all, for you to be free. I don't want our baby girl to come in to this world full of violence and fear" he started to rub Remus's back, one of the only places where he wasn't ticklish. He felt Remus smile against his shoulder. "Anyway, as for questions I've got some".

"Ok, shoot." Remus muttered.

"Ok… what names have you come up with so far for her? Where you thinking of godparents? Will you marry me? What colour where you thinking of for her room?"

Remus smiled, he wasn't surprised by the 'disguised' question. He decided to ignore it and see what would be Sirius's reaction. He though the answer was so obvious that he didn't really need to answer it anyway.

"Well…erm…ok. I'm thinking of Willow, Faith or Charity I'm not sure, erm… Harry for one maybe Ginny but who knows and I'm thinking pale yellow or baby green once again I'm not sure", he smiled at his lover, he enjoyed seeing the look of confusion on Sirius's face.

"There great… but you forgot one of my other questions," he stared at his lover until Remus couldn't hold back a laugh.

"YES!" Remus exclaimed, throwing him self on to Sirius. "I thought the answer was so obvious that I didn't need to say!" he planted his lips softy on Sirius's. Sirius returned the kiss adding his warmth to the mix. The kisses started slow, like reminding themselves, but after a while they felt like they where whole, just one being, and the thing they where afraid of most was being separated for fear they might loose something. Remus, loving every moment of the connection with Sirius, forgot about the growing child within him until he felt his baby kick in his growing stomach. It was very faint but that wasn't the point, he felt his baby move within him. His child, a symbol of his and Sirius's love for each other, was alive and was moving and he knew it!

Remus pulled back, too much of Sirius's disappointment. Sirius held the love of his life close to his body, still scared of losing the connection between them. He saw the look of surprised and bewilderment on Remus's face. "What's the matter love?" he asked Remus, not under standing what Remus was so shocked about.

"Our baby moved" Remus's voice was but a whisper, he still couldn't believe it him self. "Darling, our baby moved! I felt it! I can't believe it!" Remus clung on to Sirius until he felt their child kick again. "Oh my god! And again, here, feel it" he lifted Sirius's hand and placed it on to his stomach.

Sirius felt a light tap against his hand. His eyes widened and a huge beaming smile appeared on his face. His baby, a living part of him and his lover, was alive and moving and he also knew it!

Keeping one hand on Remus's stomach he got his other hand and cupped his Lovers cheek in it and kissed him passionately.

To be continued…………