Change Your Mind

A Grey's Anatomy Fanfiction

Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy or Patrick Dempsey. I want a McDreamy of my very own! Lyrics belong to Train.

Pairing: Derek/Meredith

Timeline: Picks up right after "Was it Enough" left off because my readers asked for it and I'm grateful for all the great reviews I've gotten. Thank you everyone!

"And all throughout the years,

I've never strayed from you, my dear,

You suspect I'm somewhere else,

You're feeling sorry for yourself,

And even with a broken heart,

I love you…even still,

But if I can't change your mind, then no one will."

-Train, "Change Your Mind"

Derek Shepard walked into the trailer that he now shared with his wife Addison to find it a mess. His brilliant wife with her perfect hair and flawless makeup stood in the center of the trailer throwing things into a suitcase.

Derek cleared his throat and Addison looked up at him with hurt and anger in her eyes.

"Where have you been?"

"At the hospital."

"Were you with Meredith?"

"Addie, a bomb exploded in her OR. I had to make sure she was all right."

"And what about me, Derek? Did you even stop to think that I might not be alright? I spent the night delivering Bailey's child and wondering if you were alive, and you come out and run straight to Meredith. You could have died Derek!"

"Meredith almost did, Addie! I'd never be able to forgive myself if she'd died and I hadn't gotten a chance to say goodbye."

Addison turned her head away from the closet where she was gathering what was left of her clothing.

"Well, luckily for you, she survived so now you won't have to. I signed the papers Derek. I'm going back to New York. We're obviously never going to get back to where we were so, you win."

"Addison, you know how I feel about Meredith. I was honest with you about that from the start."

"And you said we were going to work on our marriage. Derek, you haven't even tried…"

"I have tried! I gave up on the first chance I've had at a real relationship in almost a year, to try to make it work with you! And remember we wouldn't even be in this situation if you hadn't cheated."

"Derek, I've apologized for that a million times."

"And yet here we are. I'll always care about you but we're different people now. I love Meredith."

"I'm catching the red-eye back to Manhattan tonight. I hope you and Meredith are happy together."

She kissed Derek on the cheek and without another word she picked up her suitcase, got into her car and left.

Derek didn't try to stop her. It had been over between them for a long time. He just hoped it wasn't too late to salvage what he and Meredith had built together.

Meredith awoke to find herself in her own bed at the house but she couldn't remember how she'd gotten there. The last thing she remembered was the explosion at the hospital.

She thought she remembered Derek cleaning her up after the bomb went off but her mind was so muddled it could have been a dream.

It probably was just a dream. Derek has Addison now.

Meredith thought to herself as she felt a headache coming on. Her room was dark and she dizzy as she sat up.

There was a soft knock on her bedroom door and a few moments later she heard Izzy's voice.

"Mere, someone's here to see you."

Derek waited until he saw Meredith come slowly down the stairs, wearing her Dartmouth tee shirt and a pair of scrub pants. She had a small cut across her forehead.

"You almost died today."

"Yeah, I almost died today."

"I'm glad you didn't."

"Does Addison know you're here?"

"She's on a plane back to New York."

"I can't remember our last kiss."

She said as tears welled in her eyes.

Derek thought about it for a moment and then looked at Meredith with a smile.

"I was running late for surgery. You said you were going to see me later. You were wearing that Dartmouth tee-shirt and your hair smelled like some kind of flower. And you leaned to me, and put your hand on my chest, and you kissed me."

Meredith smiled as the memory came back to her.

"Lavender. My hair smelled like lavender."

"Lavender." Derek repeated as he headed toward the door.

"I love you, Meredith Grey."

"You told me, it wasn't enough."

"I changed my mind."