Ello everyone, here's chap 3. Review just to tell meh ya like it or ya don't X3 and than thanks to those who have.

Iluvbeyblade: Thanks, and yes, you may not get the OC's, but it shouldn't affect the story too much, but if you have any questions, just tell me.

Chi no hana: 'ere ya go.

Emma and Ray sat on the bed for a while, thinking over they're own situations with they're own confused looks. Rei was thinking over his team mates. Kai was always the silent one, and in this situation, he had been the one to yell and ask questions…like one of his therapists or doctors. Emma was the positive one, encouraging him to get better and telling him things could be worse. And Teira was the one that listened…listened to his remarks and paid close attention to what he said. Rei sighed and leaned back against the bed post. Why do they bother? It wasn't like a promise guaranteed; maybe Rei couldn't get better. Another sigh, he just didn't know anymore.

Emma had a start of a conversation going in her head. Whether Rei would attempt to talk back was the question. "What were you and Kai—arguing— about?" she asked, noticing Rei clenching his fists, "just junk…stuff that happened." Emma nodded and swallowed the lump that had formed in her throat. It was time to explain something to her team mate.

"Rei…what your doing to yourself…I-it scares me." Rei shot a glance at her.

"What are you talking about?"

"I-I…never imagined one of my friends doing something like this. The reality…why would you hurt yourself—?"

Rei felt the back of his neck grow hot, sweat pricking at his palms. "…I'm not hurting myself. I don't feel the pain like its pain…It doesn't hurt like you or anybody else would expect."

"But you're destroying your body." Emma shot back. The Neko Jin turned his head downward. "Have you ever done it?"

Emma's eyes grew wide, her breath coming in sections, "w-what?"

"Have you! Have…you cut yourself?"

"No, but—"

"Than you don't get it. Nobody gets it. Sure, you think you do, but you can't feel what I feel. As much as you do or don't want to, you just can't." Emma felt her breath freeze. With much effort, she stood up.

"Rei…do you want to do it again? Do you want to risk the chance that you might die? Do you really want to hurt your friends like you did! Please, Rei…if you won't consider what you're doing to yourself…consider what you've done to us." And with a sad smile, Emma left. Rei sat back in bed, feeling like he had just got back from one of his therapist sessions with Lily…only this time, feeling guilty.

That night, Rei tossed and turned and couldn't get the image of the razor out of his mind. The medal was taunting him, covered in his blood. Who knew that one cut could result in all of this. A month out of his life had simply crashed and burned, wasting away like a plane crash. After hours of restless thinking, something in him finally came at peace and sleep found him.

Next Wednesday passed emotionlessly, and before Rei could do anything about it, he was back in Lily's office. She stretched out on her chair and clicked her pen down on her notepad. "Rei, today we're going to talk about a few different things. One of them being your friends." Rei narrowed his eyes at Lily, "and what does that have to do with me?"

"Well, they're your friends. And they were obviously affected by this in some manner. Could you tell me what you think they're reactions are?"

Rei thought this over, a bit distraught with the subject. "I honestly don't know…what they would think." The therapist nodded like she had hit gold.

"Maybe you should consider asking them. I bet you'd be surprised in what they say." The Neko Jin stayed silent. He didn't want to be on this subject at all, he didn't want his team mates involved in any of this. Lily wrote down a quick note and flipped to a different page for some reason. Rei watched her as she wrote down a heading at the top of the page.

"From what I've heard, Rei, you don't sound depressed…more along the lines of confused." Rei didn't reply but continued staring. Lily seemed almost amused. "You obviously don't want to talk about your friends, the reason why you started cutting, your life…so I don't see how I'm helping you.

"The mind is the key in all of this—I'm sure you've figure this out by now."

No reply.

"And I think you know why you started."

"…"

Without taking her eyes off of Rei, Lily stood up and placed her chair back behind her desk. She opened up the door to her office and Rei stood up to face her. "Unlike you, Rei, I have all the time in the world. This is my job and will be for a while. But you have a life beyond this closed door, beyond this place. You're just wasting it if you choose to stay silent." Rei walked through the doors and let everything seep in before Lily closed the door behind him. Wasting life away in this place…I won't let it happen.

Flashback

Without having to look up, Rei knew he was defeated by Kai. He could hear his beyblade stop spinning and could almost see that same frown of disapproval on the Russians face.

"Rei." A growl came from across the dish.

"I…I lost concentration." He replied angrily. The Neko Jin hopped into the dish and knelt down to pick up his damaged blade, feeling Kai's eyes glared down on him.

"The European tournaments are in less than three months! This is no time to loose you're concentration!" Rei's hands flinched beneath him, clenching tight onto Driger as his eyes slit with frustration.

"I know, Kai!"
Kai pulled his head back a bit, examining Rei to make sure he understood. "I'll rematch you tomorrow, hopefully then you will have regained your—concentration." And he stalked off. Rei turned away as well, storming back into the house. But before he could reach the door, golden eyes met golden eyes. Teira stared back at him, causing him to halt in front of her.

"The landing…your blade was tilted. I do it all the time." She nodded, understandingly. Rei grunted before walking past her and into the bathroom to clean his hands off. Teira sighed and walked back to the kitchen to make her lunch.

As the Neko Jin washed his hands in the sink he glared down at his beyblade, the metal attack ring was wasting away from the previous battles. His anger stormed back into his mind and automatically his palms started to sweat under the water. For some reason everything felt like it was closing in on him, the walls were dipping in a bit, the mirror surrounding him, his beyblade wilting like it was melting in a furnace. Rei quickly scurried to turn off the water and in doing this, his hand knocked up against a stray razor blade he had kept on the counter, meaning to lodge it in with the others under the sink. As the metal caught his eye, the room turned back to normal. He stared out into space for a moment, not realizing himself picking up the blade in his hands. Sharp…blood…cut …blade…the words came back into his mind. Rei rose up his sleeve, and inspected his arm for the one slice mark he had made over four years ago. There. He found it. It was just a pearly scar by now, but he could still remember what had happened. Rei hadn't cut himself in so long; he had almost forgotten the feeling. But now everything was coming back to him. Rei stared down at his arm, feeling over a smooth spot a little above his wrist. He stared from there to the razor blade and back again.

The metal slid under his touch, feeling cool and clean. "…what's stopping you…?"

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Next chapter: Ray talks with Teira and things slip out. X)

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