Chapter 6: Lost

Lexa leaned back in her chair, that wasn't what she was expecting. She was speechless, along with everyone else, well, everyone except McKay of course. "Well, have to admit, I didn't see that one coming. Wait a minute, she can't be an Ancient, she's not attracted to Sheppard."

"Rodney…" Weir gave him the look.

Marc was too focused on Lexa, and she was overwhelmed by Beckett's discovery, so neither of them even noticed McKay's comment. The others quietly chatted amongst themselves, while Lexa was lost in her own little world, and poor Marcus was stuck in between. After a few minutes Lexa snapped herself out of it. "You guys mind if I get some time alone?"

Weir nodded "Of course," and she directed everyone out the door.

As Marc got up he put his hand on her shoulder, he just wanted to remind her that when she was ready, he was there for her. She smiled brightly, for it was her silent way of promising she wasn't going to run. As the door shut behind him she stood up and walked around. I'm the protector of Atlantis? I can't even protect my own family! Her mind flew back to when she was eleven and the day her mother never came home. And then the next few months of her father dealing with the divorce flashed through her mind. Next the images jumped to over a year ago at her father's funeral. Tears streamed down her face. "What are you nuts? I can't do this!" She leaned her back against the wall and stared at the ceiling. "I don't want to do this! I just want to marry Marc and live happily ever after, is that so much to ask?" She slid down to the floor, pulled her knees to her chest, and hid her face against them. She sat like this for about ten minutes, not wanting to deal with it, but then she caught glimpse of a bright blue light out of the corner of her eye. She looked up to see a bright swirling orb of blue light, that soon took the form of a face she thought she'd never see again, "Edana?"

"Hello Alexa. I'm here on behalf of the others." Edana greeted her.

"You did ascend, that's great." Lexa managed to muster out between tears.

"Yes, thanks to you, and Keegan and I couldn't be happier. There is nothing I could do to ever repay you, buy I can try."

Lexa tried to calm herself. "What do you mean?"

"I know all about your wonderful relationship with Marcus, and I also know about your birth right as the Protector. You have such a great destiny, you have to embrace it, and I promise you'll have everything you're wishing for." Edana explained.

"I'll never have a normal life and I'll probably end up getting Marc killed. How is that everything I'm wishing for?"

Edana made her an offer. "I can show you. I can give you a glimpse at your future, or, I can take away your powers. But it's one or the other, I can not do both."

"You're kidding?" Lexa finally stood up and debated her offer. "You couldn't bend the rules a bit for me, could ya?" Edana shook her head. "Didn't think so, I know they're really strict up there. Can you show me a specific event or year if I asked?" Edana nodded slowly, she understood Lexa completely. Lexa contemplated her options. Giving up her powers would be so easy, but would it really change what fate has already layed out for her? And then, if she took the vision, what if it was something she didn't like, what then? "Embrace my destiny huh? Pretty powerful words from someone who's ascended. I think I'll pass, on both actually."

"Are you sure?" Edana had a feeling Lexa would choose door number three, but she just wanted to make sure.

Lexa nodded. "But before you go, can you tell me one thing? Will we at least make it to the wedding?"

Edana stepped up to her and kissed her forehead. Visions of a most picturesque wedding flashed through her mind, and ended with the kiss. Edana's form began to fade back into an orb of light. "Good luck, and be safe," and with that she was gone.

Lexa bit her lip as tears once again fell down her cheeks. She took a moment to process what had just happened, convince herself it wasn't a dream. She took a deep breath, left the conference room, and went to find Marc. She walked into their room and looked around, but he wasn't there. She knew that something important had to be going on for him not to be there, so she walked out onto the balcony, leaned on the railing and waited.

After he left the Conference room Marc walked with Beckett back down to the Infirmary. He had a few questions he wanted to ask, but his biggest concern was her powers. "Do you think they'll overcome her again?"

"I'm almost certain that they will. She has immense power within her, and until she learns how to control it, it will control her. All we can do is try and keep her calm, so she can find how to manage it," Beckett tried his best to ease the Major's concerns.

"Yeah, I guess you're right. Thanks Doc." He parted ways with Carson as they reached the Infirmary door, and he headed back to their room. When he walked in he noticed the balcony door was open so he walked out to find Lexa. She had heard the door swish, and as he stepped out onto the balcony she turned her head to him. She still had a few tears that wouldn't stop, and neither said a word, Marc just came over and tightly wrapped his arms around her. The sky was filled with pinks and purples as it was just getting to sunset, and they both looked out over the ocean. Lexa still didn't know what to say to him, and she finally turned to face him. Still neither one said a word, as he wiped the tears from her face. She looked into his brilliant blue eyes and knew what he was thinking. She slid her arms around him and put her head on her shoulder. "Just hold me," she whispered. He kissed her forehead, and tightened his embrace.