Author's Note: Hey thanks everyone for reviewing this. I know some parts of it were a little rushed and it may not be the best because it was one of my first fanfictions. So if you guys think I should keep going with it tell me other wise I'll probably stop. Idk though. Thanks again!

Lily groaned and rolled over in her bed. She broke into a cold sweat. She pulled the blankets closer to her and tried to wake up but to no avail. Lily was having the same nightmare that she had been having for weeks.

Her and James were sitting at the dinner table eating with their child who looked almost identical to James when the doorbell rang. James got up to get it and Lily knowing what would happen screamed at herself to stop him from answering the door but the older version of Lily didn't even seem to realize that anything was wrong. Lily watched as James was killed and as eventually she herself was killed.

Lily woke up in her bed with tears streaming down her face. "Lily are you okay?" asked Mae from the next bed over. Lily looked over and saw her friend squinting sleepily at her trying to see what the problem was.

"It's fine," said Lily wiping her tears away. "It was just a nightmare." As she said those words to her friend she was also trying to convince herself. Lily lay back down on her bed almost afraid to go to sleep. Eventually she drifted off.

Lily woke in the morning to see the bright sunlight from the window shining in their room. Lily quickly got out of bed and got dressed. She wore a sweatshirt and a pair of jeans.

She looked around to see that all the girls in their dorm were gone. Lily suspected Mae had told them not to wake her up early.

Lily walked into the Great Hall and took a seat next to Mae. "Thanks for not waking me up," she said grinning gratefully at her friend.

Mae nodded. "I guessed that you might need some extra sleep."

"Lily if you're having nightmares you could always go and see Madame Tarty about it," said Sirius. "She has a potion that can help with that."

Lily nodded. "Thanks Sirius. I might do that later today," she told him smiling.

Lily looked up and saw that the post was there. She watched as a dark brown owl flew to her and dropped a letter and flew away. Lily looked up at the owl seeing if she could recognize it but she had no idea whose owl it was.

Lily looked at the envelope and saw that it was addressed to her. She ripped it open and saw that it was something written on a fancy piece of parchment. Her eyes widened as she realized what it must be. It was the poem that her mother had made for Lily when she was little. Lily read the poem. It was titled Lost. Lily read it slowly.
Lost

When you feel like you have lost it all

Don't give up, don't fall

The sky is still the same colour blue

The only one who's changed is you

You still hear the Wolves howling to the moon

You still hear the piano that's out of tune

You didn't think you would loose me so soon

But you don't need to run away from your fears

And you don't need to hide you tears

Just let it out

Lily let the tears drop down her cheek as she smiled. Her mother had written this poem for Lily knowing that someday something like this would happen. Lily could see her friends looking at her worriedly but she smiled up at them and folded up the piece of paper and put it into her bag.

"I might be a little late for first hour," she told the others. "Don't wait up on me."

James and Remus looked a little concerned but they all nodded. Once Lily got out of the Great Hall she broke into a run tears still coming down her cheeks. She stopped once she had gotten up to her dorm. She reached under the bed and yanked out her trunk. From the very bottom she pulled out a book.

Lily pushed the trunk back under and got up onto her bed and opened the book to the 3 page and read the poem to herself. This had always been her favorite poem that her mother had written. Maybe it was because Lily liked to imagine herself as the little girl in the poem. It went like this:

There is a rush of noisy people on the street

People going to and from work or going to the many stores that were lined up along the street

Suddenly a flash of lightning streaks across the sky followed by a deep rolling sound

Everyone pauses and looks up.

A second later the water starts to pour from the sky almost as if tears were falling from the heavens

The people all rush for cover mumbling and complaining about the rain

All except one.

A little girl who sits on her porch smiling up at the sky as the rain soaks her

She blinks as little water droplets form on her eyelashes.

The rain slows down until it finally dries up leaving no trace of ever being there

Except for the black pavement of the wet street

The little girl quietly gets up and walks inside

Lily smiled and set the book down on her bed. She sat there staring around her room thinking. She jumped as she heard a great boom. She looked out the window and saw that it had begun to pour outside. She smiled and got up, grabbed her bag and headed down the stairs.

Lily kept walking until she reached main doors. She looked around half expecting someone to stop her, but seeing no one was there she pushed open one of the big doors and stepped outside into the rain. She left her bag near the door so that it wouldn't get soaking wet and stepped out into the rain.

She sat down on one of the steps that led to the Castle doors and propped herself against the wall. She shut her eyes enjoying the rain.

"Lily what are you doing out here?" asked the voice of Sirius sounding surprised. "We've all been looking for you!"

Lily looked up. "Sorry Sirius. I just needed to think. I'm feeling better now."

Sirius searched her eyes then reached down to help her up. Lily gave him her hand and stood up slowly her body sore from sitting on the wet stone for so long. Sirius helped her inside and up to the Gryffindor Common Room. From there Lily was handed off to Mae who took her up to the dorm and made her take a shower.

"Lily you missed all of your classes today!" said Mae when Lily had come out of the shower. "If you keep missing so much class time your grades are going to fall," she warned Lily. Lily nodded.

"I'm feeling better now. I will come to class tomorrow," Lily told her friend. Mae looked relieved.

The next day after classes Lily reported to the Great Hall to help put up the Christmas decorations. Lily was hanging tinsel from one of the giant trees when she heard to girls talking about her and James. Lily paused for a minute then pretended like she was still putting tinsel on the tree while really she was listening to the two 5th year Ravenclaws.

"Yeah, it's not fair. Lily Evans is going out with James. I was going to ask him to the dance," said one of the girls to the other one sounding seriously mad.

"I think I'll ask Sirius," said the other not even seeming to care that the other one was feeling sad.

Lily almost snorted out loud. Why did the fifth year seem to think that if James weren't going out with her that he would go out with a fifth year.

The next few days passed pretty uneventfully until Saturday morning when everyone would be going to Hogsmeade to get a dress or in the boys case a tux. Many of the first and second year were complaining that they could not go.

Lily heard that McGonagall would be assigning all of the younger girls dresses as they were not allowed to go to Hogsmeade. Lily felt bad for them.

"Are you almost ready to go Haylie?" Lily asked getting impatient. Haylie didn't answer because she was too busy applying makeup to her face. When she saw that the rest of them were waiting for her she snapped her purse closed and was finally ready.

"How are we going to find each other after we're done getting our stuff for the ball?" asked James to Lily.

"Um we'll meet you guys at the Three Broomsticks in about 2 and a half hours," said Lily glancing at her watch.

"I still can't believe you need two and a half hours to get a dress," Sirius mumbled. Sirius hated going clothes shopping and he and James and Remus all had to go shopping for a tuxedo.

When they got to Diagon Alley the girls hurried to the dress shop so that they wouldn't have to wait in line behind everyone else who was there to get a dress. They stepped inside the store and saw that it was already pretty crowded. A shop assistant came up to each of them and they all went their separate ways.

"Hmm…" said the blond haired girl who was helping Lily. She looked to be in her late twenties. "I think you would look very nice in a light blueish color."

Lily nodded and the woman walked over to the section that had mostly blue dresses.

"Do you want a really long one or short?" the lady asked Lily chewing on one of her long red nails.

"I think long," said Lily unsurely. The woman nodded.

"Do you want it to stick out a lot or be thin?"

"I guess medium," said Lily thinking. The woman looked at Lily then led her over to a certain section of the dresses.

"How about this one?" she asked holding up the dress to Lily. Lily shook her head.

"Too revealing!"

The lady nodded. After twenty minutes the lady finally found the perfect dress for Lily. "Would you like to buy the make up kit that goes with this dress?" she asked Lily as she rang the dress up. Lily nodded and took out her purse to pay for the dress. "We'll just hold on to this and it will be delivered up to Hogwarts tomorrow morning," the lady told Lily who nodded and thanked her.

Lily walked out of the shop and saw that Mae and Haylie were already there waiting for her. "Sorry it took so long," said Lily.

"It's fine," said Haylie. "What's yours look like?"

"Mine is light blue and that's all I'm going to tell you," said Lily. Mae and Haylie both described their dresses to Lily then they headed over to the Three Broomsticks. They were taking their time because they were already twenty minutes late anyway.

"Why won't you two just tell me who you're going to the ball with?" Lily bugged them. "It's not fair you guys know who I'm going with and who you guys are going with. I want to know."

"I'm going with Remus," said Mae giving in.

Haylie glared at Mae. "You weren't supposed to tell her stupid," she said shaking her head. Lily stuck her tongue out at Haylie and smiled at Mae.

"That's awesome!" she said. "When did he ask you?"

"He asked me after dinner on the night that Professor Dumbledore told us about it," said Mae seeming to go off into a little dream thingie while she was walking. She was smiling about something too. Lily grinned and shook her head at her best friend.

Later that night the girls all decided to play would you rather.

"Would you rather go out with Snape or Malfoy?" Lily asked Haylie.

Haylie made a face at her. "That is so not fair," she protested. "They're both disgusting!"

Lily looked at her as if to say too bad for you!

"Fine… I guess Malfoy. At least he washed his hair every once and a while!"

"Would you rather go out with Sirius or James?" Haylie asked Mae.

Mae looked between Mae and Lily deciding who would get madder if she chose their man. "Uh. I guess Sirius," she said.

"Lily would you rather go out with James or Rick Henshaw from Hufflepuff?" Mae asked her.

Lily pretended to think about it for a minute. "Hm… That's a real hard one," she said. "Rick," she replied sarcastically.

Suddenly from under the bed James appeared. "I can't believe it Lily!" he yelled at her. "I thought you loved me but really you just wanted to go out with Henshaw! I can't believe you would do this to me," he said quieter and with pain on his face. Lily sat looking at him her mouth open wide in shock.

James ran out of their dorm. Sirius and Remus popped up from behind two of the other beds and followed him.

"James, wait!" Lily yelled after him getting up. She looked back at Mae confused. "I was being sarcastic," she said looking crushed.

Mae and Haylie hugged her. "It's okay Lily. Just give him some time to think and he'll realize how stupid that was of him," Mae advised her.

"What were they doing up here anyway?" asked Haylie angrily. "They had no right to spy on us!"

Lily wasn't listening to anything the other two were saying. She climbed into her bed and pulled the curtains shut. Only then did she let the tears stream down her face.

Author's Note: Yeah. Thank you everyone for reviewing. Some people have pointed out that chapter 8 was a little different from the other chapters. Yeah. This one probably will be too, but I hope you still like it.