Thenumber is how many reviews I have from you guys! Even if you have to catch up or started late in the story I thank you for each and every review you did send!

Theblondeone07: I think Courtney is finally starting to understand that Jason does want her. But the question is does she want him enough to move back to Port Charles with him. 4

SarahEmily: I'm sorry for putting your life on hold, I have been a bit busy and being grounded off the computer doesn't help. Lucky for all yall I am a wiz at passwords. wink, wink I can't possibly be the writer of the best Journey story. blush Thank you for the great compliment though, it just made my day. First time review!

SoCalBabe: Glad your all caught up! I was wondering where you went. The last 3 chapters I was starting to wonder if you lost interest. (I wouldn't blame you honestly it is moving a tad slow, but these next chapters will throw you all into what you've been waiting for!) 4

Middiegurl08: Ok Jess I don't wanna make you do math or anything out of school but let's observe shall we?

Janine 1/4 of a brain

Jax 1/3 of a foreign brain

AJ ½ a brain (when he's not drunk of course)

Elizabeth total and udder Duh

So yeah put four idiots together you get a lot of trouble! LOL! Deep Journey? Can I write deep Journey? I'll see what I can do for you. 12

Kaleymc: I'm glad you loved it. And yeah I don't like AJ either he's defiantly not one to take home to meet the folks. I'm glad to see a new reviewer! First time reviewer!

ImJustKidding89: As promised this will be nothing but Journey! And no cheesy Journey this chapter is dedicated to their problems and such. I think their a perfect match to. Hehe glad you like my story! 4

Pureevil230: Yea Journey were talking rationally, sorta like adults do. FYI I'm not an adult so I wouldn't know, hehe, I am still entitled to whining and begging. Yea you think Court and Jase could take my example on the show. Damn you GaP (Gay and Proud, Guza and Pratt) 10

emmalee05: Yeah Journey was a little bit of angst there weren't they. When Jase apologized I couldn't help it I had to do something (I hate men at this point in time). Yes Courtney was raped. And to find out what AJ is up to I guess your just gonna have to keep reading! 8

Leanna R.: Ah my inspiration is back! FYI I am the queen of Love sorry babe you can't beat me! Hehe! Power to ya. Let me remind everyone Katie is a human being not a rag doll. Well they gots a lot of problems to get past which is what this chapter is for! Oh and to share Leanna's creativeness she kindly nicknamed our villans for us...

Janine - asshat

AJ - butthead

Jax -Jaxass

Liz- airhead

Ok this are their formal names from this point on! LOL! 8

A/N: Ok so going through everything I have figured I have 24 total reviewers. Some of you reply like you should and others don't at all! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! Now I haven't updated this story in a good 26 days, 4 WEEKS GUYS! That was plenty of time for if you didn't have time to come back and review later! Now I want we'll say 22 reviews not including the Casper fan I got once and the one other person I know for certain doesn't follow Any Reason anymore! So hop to it. Right after this chapter is the video promo that no it will not be posted. If you want it you must leave your email in your REVIEW! Take it or leave it guys. And thank you to those of you who do review, you guys won't have a problem and will be enjoying the promo as a thank you from me to you!

Chapter 13

"So why are you here?"she asked throwing her hands flamboyantly in the air and sighing over dramatically.

"Why are you trying to pick a fight with me?"

"I JUST WANT THE TRUTH" she yelled.

"YOU WANT THE GOD DAMN TRUTH?" he yelled finally voicing his frustration. "Well here it is I love you I always have and always will. No matter how hard I fight it the love is still there. I can't ignore it or pretend I don't feel it. And it scares the shit out of me that there is something that is so strong that can control my life. I came here with Katie with every intention of bringing you home with us." he stopped after realizing just how long he had been talking.

She was dumb founded at his confessions. Her tears streaming down her face. She was getting lost in his big beautiful blue eyes. As much as she wanted to believe him, she couldn't. No matter what he sad, she knew that to him all she was, was Katie's mother. And that's what he wanted was a mother for Katie. As her insecurities flooded her mind, her defenses went right back up. She wiped furiously at her tears before going at him with everything she had. "All I am to you is katie's mother. If you loved me as you claim you did, or do. Then you never would have ended it. And thanks but no thanks but both Katie and I are staying here." she said her tone daring him to object. She quickly turned her back to him not wanting him to see the love that still lingered in her eyes. Not wanting to admit that what he wanted was what she wanted as well.

"Why are you pushing me away?" he asked his voice a soft whisper. "I know that your lying to me Court, I can see it in your eyes. You don't want me to leave anymore than I want to." he sighed not intending to give up. He softly placed his hands on her shoulders. "Court talk to me...stop hiding behind Katie and tell me why you are pushing me away." when he got no reply he gently turned her to face him. Sh looked like a child who had just been scorned. Her eyes were bloodshot, and her body shook from her sobs. She silently shook her head, as he pulled her into a tight hug and held her while she completely broke down, leaning against him for support.

"I can't Jase, I can't do this" she cried pulling away just enough to look him in the eye. "I'm sorry Jase, I just can't"

"Yea you can...Court I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere. You can tell me anything. I promise you that I'll listen. Let me help you...as a friend...as the father of your child...as someone who is head over heels in love with you." she laughed through her tears. God how he loved her smile, it made his day that much brighter.

She loved it. She was crying her eyes out and he was making her laugh. But her brief moment of joy was short lived as she began "when... when I left...I pretty much got in my car and drove to anywhere that wasn't Port Charles. I was just so hurt...I mean my father wasn't around when I was growing up, my mother could never of cared less, and Aj just used me. I just you were it... to me you and I were soul mates..."

"We are soulmate." he corrected taking her hands in his and giving them a gentle squeeze of support and encouragement to continue.

"I ended up in Bakersfield, Philadelphia...pleasant little town...or so it seemed." she started sniffling back the tears. "There I was all alone, pregnant, no one helping me." she laughed bitterly. "Ironic I always said I would never become my mother and look at me..."

"You not like your mother"

"But I am. I was pregnant, on my own, I was alone, and at the time I was os desperate for a job, for a stable life for me and our child." she sighed "You know when I was younger my biggest fear about having sex before I was married was being left as a single parent and my child not knowing his or her father." she sighed "that's when I met Jax. He was arrogant, self-centered, a jerk, cocky, and oh so desperate. But he had money and needed a hostess for his club."

As he sat there listening he was shocked. This bastard had sexually harassed Courtney to no end. But what amazed him and made him fall even more in love with her was the fact that she put up with it so she could bring their child into a stable home. As much as he wanted to kill the Son of the bitch for the hell he put Courtney through, it showed him that just how much she would do for their child.

Now came the hard part, actually literally telling Jason about the rape. She knew eventually she would have to, but in her opinion that time came way to soon. When he squeezed her hand she finally gathered up enough strength to continue. "When I was 33 weeks pregnant...I had to take my maternity leave because my doctor said it wasn't good to still be under that stress. So I called Jax and told him I needed the time off. He said it wasn't a problem. I asked him when I could pick up my check. He said that he was at his house in Port Charles and that if I wanted it before Monday that I'd have to drive up and get it. I figured you know it was the weekend and I had bills to pay so I decided what's the harm. I was planning on quickly dropping in getting it saying hi to my father and leaving. Yea that didn't go as planned." she sighed trying to calm her nerves before getting to the "good" part of the story.

He sat quietly observing her actions. Not wanting to interrupt her but at the same time let her know he was still there and that she could continue. So he just sat back and decided to let her go on as she wished.

Checking on Katie quickly she gently eased herself back onto the bed a little more so she was sitting right next to him. She grabbed his hand as she leaned back against the head board. "I got there and he invited me in...it was raining so I figured it was only for a second. Yeah right! He offered me a drink I told him no and he then he induced a polite conversation about the baby. He was real sweet not anything to awkward things like names and like what I was doing the nursery as...very general conversation." she sighed. "About ten minutes or so later I asked him for my check becaus ei really needed to get back to Philly. That's when... he grabbed... my arm and... pulled me...me... against him."she stuttered trying so hard to be strong and hold it together but failing miserably.

He gently pulled her against him, her head resting on his chest as her tears cascaded down her face of the hundred time that night. "It's ok...Shhhhh...I'm right here." he soothed rubbing her back as she clung tightly to him.

"I tried to get away...god Jase I tried." she cried. "But I couldn't...he...he was to strong...he ripped of my shirt...and I screamed and...and I begged him...but he didn't listen." she cried even harder.

As he sat there and tried to console her he swore to himself that the son of a bitch was going to die a long, long, painful death. "Shhhhh...it's alright Court baby I'm right here."

All she could do was cry. There was nothing not even Jason's voice that could soothe her. He was everywhere in her thoughts and her nightmares. Every time she closed her eyes it was like she was watching it happen all over again. "I...he ...every time I close my eyes I can see him using me over and over again."

What hurt the most was knowing that the reason Courtney was in so much pain was because he had broken her heart. He had turned her away "for her own good". Some good that did her.Now there was nothing he could do to console her, nothing he could do to make the pain go away. All he could do was sit and hold her while she broke down in his arms. The bastard was going to die slowly and painfully. "I'm so sorry baby... you should have been with me and not anywhere near that astard. This would never of happened if I hadn't been so..."

"No, no, no, no, no, no, don't you dare make this your fault." she reprimanded. Gently turning his face to her she continued "This isn't your fault Jason I was the naive one and I should have told you about Katie and...if anything you've helped me stay strong. The knowledge that I was carrying your child was enough inspiration to help me through anything."

"Don't blame yourself...you didn't as to be...it's not your fault." he sighed not able to even say the word.

"Thank you...for being there for me." she said earnestly not breaking the loving stare they had going.

"I'll always be there for you and Katie" he whispered their faces inches apart.

"I know" she breathed before their lips collided. It was the most passionate kiss either of them had ever experienced. It was a mixture of passion and need, and honesty. She had finally let her guard down and opened up to him. It was their reconnecting , their truce almost. But there was still one thing that plagued her mind. She hastily pulled out of the kiss shocking them both. "I can't do this." she stated solemnly as she climbed over him and off the bed to the opposite side of the room. Space...that's exactly what they needed...space.

"What's wrong?" he asked dumb founded by her sudden actions.

"I can't believe I just allowed myself to do it again." she shook her head. "Dammit" she muttered under her breath.

"What did you do?" he asked still trying to get a clue as to what was going on.

"You going to play dumb now. Sorry Jason but lying really isn't your best quality." she laughed bitterly as she ran her fingers through her hair frustrated by her actions.

"Courtney what am I lying about?"

"God Jason! You and Elizabeth I just crossed a line and I'm not gonna be the other woman! I get you want Katie to know me or so you say..." she started rambling not noticing him laughing as he got of the bed.

"Me and Elizabeth?" he laughed at the thought.

"Why are you laughing?" the asked. The tables were turned and now he was confusing the hell out of her.

"Where'd you get the idea of Elizabeth and I?"

"Well the day Katie was born I saw you in the hospital with her you looked pretty close at one point if I remember clearly you two were hugging. Not to mention the day after I left her with you I saw Elizabeth and you with Katie in a department store...I gotta tell you you make the cutest little family." she said bitterly.

He laughed.

"Why are you laughing? Do you cheat on Elizabeth often or something?" She asked awed by his laughter as sweet as the sound it still floored her as to why he would be laughing.

"There's nothing between Elizabeth and I. The day in the hospital she was reassuring me that Carly and the baby were going to be fine and at eh department store I was there to see Emily and you obviously didn't see Katie start crying to the point I had to practically drag Katie away from the woman." he explained.

Her eyes looked like a deer in headlights. All this time she wasted jealous of something that wasn't. "Really?" she asked her voice barley there.

"Yeah." he chuckled. She was so cute when she was jealous and then when she found out she was wrong.

She smiled running the few feet and jumping into his arms. She never thought she would be able to have him again, and by the looks of it he had been hers all along. Oh the irony! After everything that had happened she was pretty much right back to where she started at. "I love you" she whispered into his ear kissing it softly.

The biggest smile he had ever sported graced his face. "I love you too"

The night seemed like centuries long...but somehow it was just what they needed. Three people, two truths brought to light, 1 love reconciled.