So close yet so far apart

Chapter 4:

Thanks to FireanIce, Tala's grl Brooklyn's princess, IndigoTwilight, aries1391

Bob- disclaimer as usual

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Kai:

I switch on the CD player and turn up the volume until it is deafening. Not that anyone'll care, I have no neighbours for several miles. I've never had neighbours, in Russia we lived many miles away from the nearest civilisation and that civilisation was the Abbey. Greeeeeat. Feel the sarcasm. The lyrics fill my head,

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

Alone…. That's what I am. Dranzer glows in pocket, of course she's my only companion bar black. But I don't wish to think of her.

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

The only one… so familiar. Always on my own, no one ever there, no one can understand. They can try, but wouldn't succeed. Horrific scenes play over in my head while I sleep. Creating insomnia, oh great, it's back. Lack of sleep and lack of training can destroy someone like me.

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

So true…

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone

My shadow will be the only thing that walks beside me forever. I wish Tala would come and see me, if I had anymore tears to cry I would shed them. But alas they will not fall.

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And where I walk alone

We were all divided. The dead, living dead and corrupt. A shameful fact that my grandfather was corrupt and parents are dead. I am among the living dead, those who disobey end up like me. Emotionless people who have been through traumatic experiences.

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone

Home to me. Like this building I am mentally ensnared in. It plays upon my mind when I'm not here, and when I am it only brings back more memories of my upbringing. I don't ever wish to revisit the places I go in my dream world but it seems I am cursed.

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

The song ends and I sit down on the bed. I only ever bother with a few rooms. As it's me on my own I can't keep up with the amount of work to be done on this place. 90 odd rooms and one of me, point please? I only need my bedroom, kitchen, bathroom and that's it. I have no need for numerous studies or saunas. Nor fancy ballrooms. But wait. There's an idea….

Tala:

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IHAVEMYPILLSBACK! YIPEEEEEEEEEEEE! –grins- a state of delusional happiness again. What fun! Hehe prancing tis fun XD, love the prancing! Well, well, well what do we have here? A tutu! Where'd that come from? BUT what's this? VODKA! Ultimate yayness! Tutu's and vodka! What more do you want from life? Well apart from a lover… but fuck that I wont let him ruin my deluded happiness! YAY!

Kai:

What a great idea…..