Disclaimer: I own no characters in this songfic.

A/N: My first songfic, so flame away. Honestly, I don't care. 'Tis a bit depressing, but oh well. If you don't like depressing things, DO NOT READ. There, I listed the warning. Enjoy! Or try to!

I wanted you to be with me
For so long I don't even know by now
But now that I've given up on you
Defiantly you see me

Jon, why? You hurt me, and I thought you loved me. I loved you. I used to. Now it hurts to even think about you.

You broke me, you hurt me. Why would you do that when you supposedly loved me so?

Walking away I see the pain
You put me through
Lost in your game to change the same
Forever gone, forever you

I don't ever want to see you again, though I know that I must. Soon you will be king, and as a knight, as your champion, I must answer to you. For this reason, I wonder what would have happened had I gone to the convent. I wonder what would have happened if I never met you.

There's something very wrong about this
I think you knew all along somehow

You'll only take me to change my mind
Lonely, broken, and defeated

So far away I see the truth
I see through you
Now that I know the way you play
I don't want to

I wish that things could have gone differently in the desert. I wish that you hadn't hurt me; I wish that you had never asked me to marry you, but instead you waited for when I was ready. But the past cannot be changed, so now I must work with the pain, the pain from you.

Walking away I see the pain
You put me through
Lost in your game to change the same
Forever gone, forever you

I can't stand the thought of you, Jon! But yet, somehow, I wish to see you, to kiss you, to be in your arms. I want the pain to stop, but it won't. Heartache and confusion fill my body, my soul.

So far away I see the truth
I see through you
Now that I know the way you play
I don't want to

Walking away I see the pain
You put me through
Lost in your game to change the same
Forever gone, forever you

Goodbye, Jon. I only wish to be your friend, though I will always love you the way I could no other man.