whee! More! Posting two stories at the same time is uber fun. (grins) I think I'll do it more often. Here is chapter 2 of Do You Make Me Exist, I hope you enjoy! (bows)

It's been about a week sense I ran into Axel that night in Hollow Bastion. I still get that dream where he's calling me Roxas but I never get past the part where he calls out to me. Either I wake up or I just feel like I'm falling into everlasting darkness. The thing is every night it feels even MORE real. I can actually smell the scent of the dead air, the mix of the machinery oil mixing in with whatever rain what have been falling. I can also feel the gloves on my hands now and also the cloak that covers my body. Sometimes I see blonde hair going in front of my eyes, but the thing is I have brown hair and not blonde. Maybe that's why he's mistaking me for Roxas in the dream, maybe I'm thinking that I'm someone else? This is really confusing! All I know is that I have to get over it, things are moving really fast now with Donald and Goofy. We left Hollow Bastion the day after I had that dream. The Keyblade told us where to go next, this weapon sure is a strange one. Well, it led us to the next location, it turned out to be Beast's Castle. The place is really dark and depressing, it took us only a few hours to get here but we had to clean out some Heartless and even save The Beast from one of the Organization members! Once that was done Beast and Belle, she's one of the princesses of heart, got back together and offered us some rooms here to stay in to relax. As much as we would have liked to stay behind and party with them we had to leave. After that we went to a place called China and met a woman named Mulan. She was pretending to be a guy in order to take her fathers place in the Imperial Army. We had the entire army fooled for a really long time! For about three days we had them thinking that Mulan was a guy named Ping. But, in the end they found out. There was an avalanche, all thanks to Ping...err... Mulan, and then they found out that the HE was a SHE. We got kicked out of the army but in the end still saved China from the Heartless and the Hun leader. Even after all of this work and keeping busy while meeting new people... I kept thinking about Axel. I mean, I kept getting those dreams and feeling every last bit of it. Maybe the dreams are bothering me so much because I have been working like this for a week so far. I miss out on a lot of sleep and haven't had one full days rest in a long time. Maybe, who knows? Right now we're in the coliseum on Olympus. We've been here the rest of the week, about two days. Hercules was overworking himself and Hades was making sure that Hercules got really tired. Well, we stopped all of that and are now back on track! But now I feel really tired... I can't ever get good sleep because of those stupid dreams and then when I'm awake I'm working harder then I should be. I guess everyone saw it, we were walking out of the coliseum to leave the world when I started to go to the side a bit... at least I think I did. Donald and Goofy were in front of me, already down the small set of stairs, and turned around. "Sora, are you okay?" Donald asked me when I stood back up right.

I didn't want to worry them any. "I'm fine! I think I just got up too fast."

Goofy tilted his head with his finger by his mouth, I knew that he was thinking of how I've been acting this past week. "Hmm... well Sora, you look a bit tired to me. I don't think you're getting enough sleep."

As much as I didn't want to worry them, it was all true. I sat down on the step and leaned against the pillar to the side, taking in a deep breath. "Okay, I'm a bit tired. We've been doing a lot lately."

"You should get some sleep." Donald ordered me. He always acted like the leader of the group, he was like the father while Goofy was the crazy older brother. I just looked at my duck friend as he continued is his barely understandable language of duck. "We can rest a day here, Hercules can give us a place to stay or we can go to another town."

This world was good enough to rest at, but something inside of me was pulling to somewhere else. The first world we saw after we were awaken in that strange mansion. I wanted to go there, for some reason that's the only place I could feel like going to. I sat back up again, the words leaving my mouth before I could stop them. "Let's go to Twilight Town." Donald and Goofy looked at me, usually I didn't say I wanted to go somewhere special. Quickly I tried to think of something to make up but nothing came to mind. They could usually tell when I was lying anyway. "I just want to go there, it's some strange feeling that's all."

"Maybe you're hungry." Donald questioned.

How could he be like that? I might be hungry. I laughed at his wacky answer as Goofy took a shot at it. "Do you miss Hayner and the rest of them?"

I thought about it, maybe that was it? Do I miss Hayner, Pence, Olette? I just shook my head, I knew I was missing someone but I didn't know who. The closest I could get to that person I was missing was in Twilight Town, but the person I missed the most right now was Kairi. Was there something in that town that made me miss her even more?

Goofy chuckled in his odd way as he started off to the door, I stood up and followed as Donald again took the lead to make sure that I didn't drive the Gummi Ship again. We got into our seats as Donald started up the Gummi Ship. I just stared off into the large Gummi Space, wondering what could be bothering. The simple answer was Axel, but the trouble was WHY was he bothering me? He works for the Organization, he's mistaking me for someone else that looks like me, he's obsessed with me! Or... was I obsessed with him? I don't know anymore! I just want the dreams of this Roxas and Axel to stop, I want to dream about the islands again. I want to be with Kairi again, that's what I want most in this world, any world! I want to find Riku and then go back home to meet up with Kairi and stay with her. I guess the Paupu thing is true, she is a part of my destiny. I can't stop thinking about her! I've had a crush on her for a really long time, I don't even know when I started to like her like that. Oh well... I know that she is safe and that I'm going to see her again.

I was walking down a street, the cold air brushed against my face as I walked through it, the leather of my cloak was cold to the touch but I was kept warm from the nippy air. I walked down the wet street, ready to leave this horrible world, but I saw Axel from the corner of my eye. He was leaning against a building with his arms crossed and his eyes closed. I stopped my walk when Axel stood up to speak to me, the same words he said every night. "You can't just leave the organization!" He yelled out.

"No one would miss me." I tried to bite back. I could feel the remorse in my voice, my heart was hurting and telling me not to go but another part of me wanted to leave and find someone important. I felt like I wanted to find myself. I looked back to my destination and kept my eyes stern and open, I didn't want to look back to Axel again. Whenever I did I had second thoughts of leaving.

I went into the depths of the darkness, out of nowhere I could feel the longing to be talking with Axel again. I looked down to my hands, my black leather gloved hands. I just wanted these hands to bring me back to Axel, I wanted these arms to be held my his arms. "That's not true!" He yelled out to me. I knew what he meant, I knew somehow that Axel didn't want me to leave him. I turned around, only slightly, to look a Axel once more. He was staring at the ground and muttering something to himself. The distance was too big for me to understand, and looking at him made my heart fall apart. I formed a darkness portal and slowly walked inside, As the portal started to let me vanish around my body I heard his final yell. "Roxas, come back!" He screamed out. The portal vanished into the deep darkness as I tried to hold in my emotions, I already missed Axel. It was as if I wouldn't see him for the rest of my life.

I shot up from my sleep, we were staying at a hotel in Twilight Town and I was ordered to take the entire day off. The sun hadn't even risen yet, it was at least three in the morning. I had a view of the entire outside city from my bed when I sat up, my jacket was hanging off the side of a post on the bed while my shoes were off to the side. Axel, I wanted to be with Axel. Kairi, I really wanted to be with Kairi right now too. "What's wrong with me?" I questioned my emotions, the feelings that I had when Axel yelled my nam- no. The feelings I felt when he called out Roxas' name. Was Roxas really me? Was I really the Roxas that Axel was calling out for? Does this Roxas, another me, have strong feelings for Axel. I hugged my knees and hid my face, I was so lost in my emotions and didn't know what to do. While hiding my face I felt something fall down my cheeks, I was crying. Quickly I sat up right again and wiped off the tears. "I can't be crying for him. Axel is a member of the Organization, he's the enemy! I can't... there is NO way that I can be liking him! He's a GUY! I can't fall for a guy, I like Kairi!" I kept saying this to myself, Kairi is the one for me, she's the one that my heart was calling for. But these tears... I wiped another from my cheek as they finally stopped, I was crying to see Axel again. I needed answers, this would confuse me no longer. I knew that if these feelings were going to Axel then the same must have been happening to him. Goofy and Donald had different rooms and said they would only come if I called them, so I know that I won't have to worry about them bumping into anything when I was getting my answers. I slid my feet into my shoes and was putting on my jacket as I walked out into the streets.

It was a little nippy, but it was still summer. The cool air must have been from the humid weather suddenly going cool I walked around the town looking for Axel, but I had no idea where to start. For a busy town in the day it was really quiet at night, so now there was no one to help me out and find out where I could find him. He is a tall man, he has strange red hair, and he's all dressed in black. Yeah, would anyone help me then? I know that I wouldn't help myself. I just wondered around the town, I just wanted to see him and find out who this Roxas was. I went everywhere, to the item shops and the moogle shop and even to the train stations. Of course everything was closed at this time so it was pretty pointless to go looking there to as anyone. There was only one more place I could think of, one that made me feel safe and secure. I headed towards the usual spot, it's the place where I first met Hayner and the rest of them. This was strange, for some reason I felt like I knew them too. I couldn't explain that either, I just felt like I knew Hayner and the rest of them for a really long time.

Shaking that out of my head like a passing by thought I went into the area. Luckily the gated door was open, someone made it here before me. I walked inside and looked around, the entire place was empty. I just wanted to sit here, just to be here by myself while I thought of what was going on. I went over to a pile of boxes next to the old couch, sitting there I felt more like me. After a while of silence I sat back and crossed my arms and closed my eyes. I searched for a reason of why I could have woken up crying, and still nothing came. It was like when that tear fell at the train station when I was leaving this town, I cried then too but it wasn't really me. I think I got it then, this Roxas character... he WAS me. "So, you came back here huh?" The familiar voice came. I opened my eyes as chills came, along with a warmth in my chest at hearing it. I suddenly rose to my feet and looked at him, Axel was standing a few feet in front of me. "So then, do you understand any of this yet?"

"Roxas." I spoke softly out. Axel's eyes widened, I knew I said something that interested him. "Who is he! Who is Roxas! You keep yelling for him to come back, he was leaving the Organization and you want him to come back." I yelled out as I kept my eyes on Axel's while he tilted his head down a bit, his arms hung to his sides because he was probably depressed that I still didn't know who that was. "Tell me who he is!"

"Roxas is you!" Axel yelled back.

I stood frozen, I was right all along. Another life, another person, was me. I felt lost again, but I needed more. "How is that? I'm Sora! If Roxas is who I think it is then he even looks different then me!"

Axel again looked at me, he stared right into my own eyes. "You know, whenever Roxas is confused he would give me the exact same look." I didn't understand, I had never EVER met Axel before and my heart belonged to Kairi. Axel crossed his arms as he walked off to my side a bit, I still never took my gaze off of him. "Roxas is your Nobody, just like I'm a Nobody." I loosened up, standing up straight as Axel kept walking to the side and I kept looking at him. "When you became a Heartless in Hollow Bastion about a year ago Roxas was born, he looks a lot like you. The thing is Roxas has blonde hair, and it's shorter then yours." He turned to me again as he continued his information. "Roxas joined the Organization because I asked him too, I almost begged him to. So he joined, number thirteen. Well... we started to work together on missions, and he told me that he felt you were still there. You weren't a Heartless like the rest of our other halves. In the end Roxas left because he wanted to look for you, he just left the Organization just like that."

I listened very closely to everything but still didn't get the answer I wanted. "But, why do I feel what he felt?"

"Because HE is YOU. Got it memorized?" Axel tapped his head again to try and get me to remember, I was just getting annoyed with that line right now.

"I know he's me, but why do I feel so sad whenever I... he... whoever! Whenever we think about you? Nobodies don't have hearts, they can't feel anything!" Now I was getting desperate, my chest was hurting for Axel right now and I knew that it wasn't me. I didn't want this feeling anymore, I wanted my heart to be just for me now and not have some Nobody inside of me try to use it to his advantage.

"Roxas always made me feel like I had a heart." Axel spoke, he finally let his arms down and kept looking at me with those eyes of longing. "And I made him feel like he had a heart. So what if we're Nobodies, Roxas and I think we found something else." He started to walk towards me and I couldn't move at all, I felt frozen in place as he took slow steps towards me. "I didn't want him to go because then I would feel like a Nobody again, I wouldn't feel this warmth in my chest."

"The feeling of a heart." I again spoke softly, I even noticed that my voice was shaking. Axel walked right up to me and looked down into my eyes, he just stood there while I looked up to him. "But I'm not him now, so... so stop following me around." I tried to yell it, but the yell never came out. For some reason I only said it soft, Roxas was again letting his emotions take over my own. I moved to the side a bit as Axel just looked at me, then I felt the brick wall against my back. I tapped it lightly as Axel smirked, I just kept looking at him. "What's wrong with me!" I yelled out again.

Axel again started towards me, then went right up against me and put his hands against the wall, leaning in and talking right to my face. "Roxas' feelings are stronger then yours, you want someone else but he wants me even more." I wanted to object, I was me and wanted only myself to take over my own body, but I could feel Roxas wanting to be with Axel as well. "So, can I just make him happy?" I pushed against the wall again, there was no where to run. I looked around but didn't see anywhere to go. Then I felt it inside of myself, I didn't want to run. I gave in to Roxas, I gave into his feelings as Axel stood there. This red haired boy was right, Roxas' emotions were taking over my own and he himself was controlling my body. Axel moved closer as I kept looking at him, I didn't want Roxas to take over but now I had no choice. Axel kissed me lightly at first, making me feel weak to my knees and totally lose control. I had lost, Roxas had won this fight. He slowly backed off with his hand still against the wall. I was now breathing hard and still looking at him, my heart beating really fast... as if I was with Kairi. Axel let his hand down and put it under my chin, he looked deep into my eyes. "Roxas?"

I didn't want to say anything, I was actually scared. But again my mouth formed words I didn't want it to form. "Yeah... sort of." I said, but I didn't want to say it at all. Axel smiled a bit and kissed me again, I just closed my eyes and wished for it all to end, for both Roxas and Axel to just leave me alone. Axel pushed me against the wall and moved his hand from my chin to my shoulder, I just pushed against the wall and hoped that I could vanish through it. My hands were also against the wall, I didn't want to keep going at all but Roxas didn't want to stop. Axel pushed his tongue into my mouth as I was again pushed against the wall, giving a small moan of both pleasure and pain. Finally I knew what I wanted most, I wanted to be me. Sorry Roxas, but this is my body and not yours. I could feel control return as Axel backed off a bit to start over again. As soon as he did I lifted my arms and pushed him as hard as a could, pushing him away from me. Axel stumbled a bit when I pushed him back. Now he looked at me as if he were upset, I got into the middle of their moment and now he must have hated me for me. "Stay away from me!" I yelled at him, my palms were again against the wall as I leaned against it a bit. "Go away, just stay away from me and forget about Roxas!"

Axel stood up straight, finally his warm look turned into the cold hard look I expected from a member of the Organization. "Fine, I'll leave you alone, but I'll be coming back for Roxas." With that Axel left me, he went into a darkness portal and vanished into nothingness.

After he vanished I just stood there, frozen in place. My palms were sweaty and cold while my heart was racing. I slid down to my knees and covered my face with my hands, the tears now wouldn't stop at all. I was kneeling in the corner of a spot that no one really knew about and I didn't want anyone to find me. What was I crying for? I felt the fear of being used by both Axel and Roxas, I felt the urgency in my body to just run away to somewhere safe, and I also felt the hurt in my heart at the words that I yelled at Axel. It wasn't really me crying after all, the never ending tears came from Roxas. I had hurt him more then I thought I could hurt anyone. Roxas truly loved Axel and would do anything to be back with him once more. I didn't want to be with Axel, I hated Axel and I wanted to go back home Kairi. And so I sat there, crying until the sun began to rise and the shops began to open.