so how is it so far? good goodor bad bad? Please tell me. (chibi smile) just clickie the little purple box on the bottom and tell me. I don't mind if it's flamming or not (but if it is, please try to not make me tear up T.T) Here is chapter 4 of Do You Make Me Exist!

The train that we first took was still there so we decided to take it back to Twilight Town in order to get back to the Gummi Ship. We went onto the train and took our seats, at least Donald and Goofy sat down. I stood up, leaning on the door and looking outside to the cosmos as we drove by. "What does the paper say?" Goofy asked.

I just remembered about it when he asked, so I took the paper out and opened it up. There were some strange things written there that didn't seem important but I started to read it anyway. "It has a world on it, the coordinates of it, and also how a heart is strengthened in a normal human body. Heh..." I turned the paper around to them, pointing at one line. "Love is the number one growth of the heart."

"But why did Yensid tell us how a heart grows, not how one starts? And what's with that world?" Donald hopped down from his seat and snagged the paper from my hand. I tried to grab it back but he was too short and I didn't feel like falling on him. He scanned over the paper to try to find how to create a heart but nothing was written. "It doesn't say how to start a heart, just how to grow one!"

I leaned against the door again and sighed, it seemed hopeless now. "Roxas and Axel don't even have a heart to start growing."

Goofy leaned forward in his seat and started again. "Maybe at that world we can find out how to start it. We know how to grow it, so that world might be able to help us start it."

I stood up again, he was right. Donald and I looked at each other and then yelled it out at the same time. "Yeah, let's go!" When we did I snagged the paper of information back and slipped it into my pocket. The train finally stopped at the main station in Twilight Town. We got off and prepared for the trip, it wasn't as far as we thought it would be, the coordinates were very close to our current location, and then we went into the Gummi Ship and drove off. Donald took the pilot seat again, I needed some sleep before I could drive again.

I stood back in the city of neon lights, or once not on the street where Axel called out to Roxas. I stood in a large area, a tall building was in the center and it had lots of large screens at the top. Each screen only showed static in a different color though, but looking at the fuzz of different colors I could see every last memory of Kairi and Riku. I took my eyes off of that, I felt a drop of rain fall onto my shoulder. I looked up, the sky was cloudy and the rain started to downpour onto my body. I closed my eyes but kept looking up, the cool rain felt good as it fell onto my face. "Axel!" I heard a voice yell, it sounded so much like mine that I just had to look. I looked back down and opened my eyes, I was looking right at the base of the skyscraper. There was a set of stairs and at the top stood Axel, his hood down and it looked like he was waiting for someone. A hooded figure, he looked about as tall as me, ran up the stairs but never made it all the way up. Axel met the person half way. I wanted to get closer to see what was going on but I couldn't move. I was again frozen in place and I didn't know why. Axel removed the hood of the person that ran to him, it was a blonde haired kid. I knew right away, that was Roxas. This was another one of his memories. I was watching it like a movie, a profile shot of both as they stood out in the rain. "Xenmas gave me another mission."

"Let me guess, you can bring one member with you." Axel mocked, crossing his arms as they stood in the rain.

The boy pouted, then crossed his own arms. "It's better then being stuck here to do nothing isn't it?" I chuckled a bit, Roxas did think just like me. Only goes to show even more that he is my Nobody. Axel sighed and nodded. "Then you're coming."

"Why don't you ever ask another member to go with you?" Axel asked my other half. Roxas just looked up at Axel, letting his arms fall to his sides. I figured out that this must have been before Roxas wanted to go searching for me, at least before the two started to love each other.

Axel kept looking at Roxas as the youngest member found the ground more interesting then Axel's face. "I just... want you around that's all. We are best friends aren't we?"

"Are we?" Axel asked, finally letting his arms go down to his sides as well.

I kept watching, this was one of the most vivid memories that I have ever seen from Roxas. Then again, this is the only other memory that he has allowed me to see. "No." I said. They didn't turn to me, the silence between then continued when I talked to myself. "Roxas loves you... he thinks that-"

"You make me feel like I have a heart." Roxas finished my thought out loud. He couldn't have heard one word that I said but we still thought the same. Axel just looked at Roxas, this was strange for him too I guess. "This sounds stupid, never mind." Roxas turned around to leave but Axel just grabbed onto his wrist. My heart skipped a beat when Axel did this, I was feeling what Roxas was feeling at that moment if he had a heart. "It's not possible. We don't have hearts. We can't-"

"Come on Roxas." Axel joked around, letting him go. Roxas turned back to Axel as he continued. "Just because we're Nobodies doesn't mean we can't like each other right? I mean, we can find our own way to make a heart and not have to listen to Xenmas anymore." Roxas kept looking up to Axel, he kept on talking as if to try and find an answer himself to why he felt like he had a heart. He told me himself that Roxas made him feel real, I guess the feelings were happening longer then I even thought. "I make you feel real and you make me feel real, so we're in love. Got it memorized?" I sighed with annoyance, that like really ticked me off. Roxas laughed at the line, did he actually like it whenever Axel said it? There was one difference between us, that one line just really got annoying every time I heard it. "Well then... how does a person deal with love?"

Roxas tried to think it out as well, I knew the two would take a while... but it only took a few minutes before my other half started again. "But we're both guys."

"We're also Nobodies so I guess the normal rules don't count." Axel was thinking it over as well.

I shook my head and chuckled a bit, those two didn't have a clue. It was a bit strange for two guys to fall for each other, but then love strikes it doesn't matter who the other person is. The only thing that matters is that person is your significant other. I crossed my arms and thought of the current situation I had to deal with, how would I get them hearts? My thoughts were interrupted when I heard a sudden splash I looked up and to the side to find a ton of Shadow Heartless start to appear. "Let's find out later." Roxas summoned the Keyblade that I always used while Axel called upon these two wheels of fire, chakrams I think they were called. I kept watching until they went to fight, then I felt myself falling back. I closed my eyes and fell back into the darkness of my mind, diving deep into my heart head first to find out more about these two and their connection.

I opened my eyes as I fell, slowly, and looked up to nothing but darkness. I lifted my hand up to the darkness, hoping that someone would help me stop my fall, but no hand came. Instead I lifted both arms a bit as I started to turn around, I guess it was about time to land. My feet landed gently on the dark ground, then I stood up normally and looked around at what I would be witnessing next. I took a step forward and the entire area lit up. I shielded my face and closed my eyes, it was a very bright light indeed, I always seemed to get stuck by that stuff a lot. When I felt it was safe to look again I let my arms down and looked around, it was the street that Roxas left on whenever Axel yelled for him to come back. The street was already raining but I wasn't getting wet, I was like a ghost as the rain went right through me and hit the ground. Where Axel was standing in more then one memory was now Roxas, his hood down and sitting on the ground against the wall. He looked beat, like he had just barely ran from a fight of some kind. Roxas didn't look too good at all and I was actually worried, I went to take a step to him but Axel beat me to it. He ran down the street and then slid down to Roxas' side, making the blonde boy look up. "What happened! Xenmas told me that he sent you on a solo mission but he should have sent me with you-"

"I'm fine, just got into a little fight that's all." Roxas tried to get up but he cringed and sat right back down to where he was before. Roxas was holding his right arm into his left, that one must have gotten injured more. Axel looked down at his arm, Roxas tried to hide it. "It's nothing... I ran into some guy that wanted to take me to his employer named DiZ. I wasn't going to go without a fight. I won but... well, you can see."

Axel frowned and moved Roxas' left hand away from his right. I went over to take a closer look at his arm, he really did mess it up bad. The entire thing looked like a blunt object hit it, it was fresh and red but not enough to bleed. I knelt down, wanting to help, but I was only a ghost in a memory. Axel moved Roxas' sleeve up and took off his glove, taking a closer look at the injury. "You're one lucky kid you know that?" Axel mocked. I looked up to him, why was he lucky? Roxas' arm was in real bad shape! Axel took out a bottle from his pocket and I sighed with relief, it was a Hi-Potion. He popped it open and made Roxas drink every last drop. I knew what that potion did, first it made you feel better and then rushed the healing process a lot. A healing that would take days only took minutes now. Roxas gagged when Axel moved the bottle away. "So what if it doesn't taste good? You owe me one."

"Yeah yeah..." Roxas leaned back against the building again, closing his eyes. I sat back as well, it looked like the worst would be over now. Axel kept looking at Roxas, I guess he was worried. Roxas finally opened his eyes and turned to his friend. "What?"

Axel started to blush, then sat back a bit and pointed at Roxas. "I saved your life so you have to remember to pay me back! You always forget! So you're going to give me something, got it memorized?"

I frowned when he said it again, is that all this Axel knew how to say? Roxas laughed and leaned forward a bit. "I got it memorized Axel."

He finally stopped pointing at Roxas and crossed his arms, but he still looked at his friend. "So... you won't leave then?"

Roxas didn't answer right away, I guess this was the part where Roxas was already telling him when he was going to leave them- the Organization. The boy kept sitting against the wall as Axel didn't move his eyes away. "I have to go, he's my other half and if I find him... I might be able to find a way to make you exist too and-" Roxas stopped when Axel uncrossed his arms and stood up. "It'll work! I know it will! Axel, if I can make us both exist then we can be together without-" He didn't want to listen anymore, Axel turned around to start heading back by foot to the castle. Roxas got up to follow, "Axel wait!" He yelled out. Even after taking that Hi-Potion, Roxas wasn't in the best of shape. I could tell, he was about to fall over. I stood up too, I was going to follow them the entire way, maybe if I finished up this dream Roxas would kick me out of it. Roxas tried to follow but tripped over his own feet. He started to fall forward but Axel turned around and caught him. I didn't move from my spot, I didn't feel that it was right to. Axel helped Roxas to a stand but all the shorter boy did was rest against Axel. "I know it'll work. If Sora thinks like I think then he'll help us, he'll help make us exist Axel."

"But what if you're wrong?" Axel questioned. Roxas looked up at him as the red haired one put his hand under Roxas' chin. "What if he won't help?" Roxas didn't know what to think about that, what if I didn't help? Then I guess that's why he wanted one night... if I didn't help he would want to say farewell to Axel. I still didn't move as I watched, me being as dry as a desert and the two of them soaked and not giving a care. "I don't want you to go away if he won't help Roxas."

Roxas didn't say anything at all, he just kept looking up at Axel as the older one kept looking at him. This time I couldn't feel what Roxas was feeling at this moment, for some reason I couldn't feel any of his emotions at all. Roxas went to his toes, elevating himself only a bit, and went to kiss Axel. I turned away, I didn't want to mess them up again. "Don't look away." Roxas told me, he was standing behind me, but in a white outfit that looked normal. He wore long pants and a white jacket that had checkered marks over the shoulders. I kept looking at this Roxas behind me, he also wasn't getting wet from the water. "This is the moment that we felt... real."

I looked down to the ground, then started to walk out. I stopped when I got right next to Roxas, he kept looking up the street to the memory while I was opposite and looking down the street. "Then I don't want to ruin it, it's probably the last real moment you can have."

We stood there, the entire surrounding melting away like the water that fell. Now the entire area was the deep black darkness once more. Roxas was again saddened. "You're trying to find us hearts aren't you?"

It wouldn't take long. Roxas was my other half. We shared the same heart, soul, and mind. Whatever I was thinking I bet he knew at the same exact moment. I nodded, but still spoke. "Yeah, we're trying to find out if we can get you and Axel a heart, to make you exist."

"And how is it going?" Roxas murmured.

"Well..." I looked over to Roxas, he was staring down at the ground again. "I'm sorry, we know how to strengthen a heart but now how to make one." He kept standing there, I guess it wasn't the answer he was looking for. "We got a location that might have some clues but... I can't promise anything." The boy was still silent, his end was set in stone. Roxas was going to end up alone and no matter how much I wanted to help I felt like I could do nothing. "Roxas, the next time we meet Axel... you can separate from me or take over or whatever you want to do." He finally looked up to me, I just now noticed that Roxas had the exact same face as me, and the same eyes as well. I kept looking at him as he started to smile a bit. "But only when Axel comes to see us again... and only if we don't have any clues!"

Roxas kept smiling at me, then nodded. "Okay, I'll follow those rules. Thanks Sora!"