Okay, sorry about the name mis-spelling in the last few parts. XD I really thought that Xemnas was spelt Xenmas so I kept mixing up the n and m. Please pardon that little boo boo and thanks to the person that told me about it! Okay, I fixed his name in every other chapter (I think I got them all) but I didn't change the name in the other chapters and all... I might do that later. Please enjoy chapter 5 of "Do You Make Me Exist?"!
I was again sleeping in the Gummi Ship in my normal seat. My head rested against the window with me hand as the pillow. "No prob..." I murmered, then realized that I was slowly starting to wake up. I opened my eyes and sat up a bit, the ship was going at a normal speed. I looked over to Goofy to my left side, he was in his seat and playing a handheld game system. I then looked up to Donald as he was driving. "How long was I out?"
They finally realized that I had just woken up. "It's been about three hours." Goofy said, Donald nodded in agreement of the time. "You fell asleep as soon as we took off."
"You were out like a light." Donald added.
I smiled a bit, then sat back in my seat. "I had a chat with Roxas, he knows everything that is going on." They were both silent, I took that as my cue to continue. "I told him that I'ld try my best to help them." I didn't want to tell them about promising Roxas control of my body if Axel came by again, that part I decided to keep secret from them. Just like how I didn't tell them about what happened in Twilight Town. I would have continued with some fib to lead the two off track but I didn't need a white lie to change the subject, we found the world that Yensid gave us. I got out of my seat and went right up to Donald's pilot seat, using my hand to lean on the side and then move closer to take a look at the place. The world was large and dark with neon lit buildings all over it, I could feel the huge amount of darkness pouring out from it. "He led us here!" I knew the location, it was where all of Roxas' fond memories came from.
Donald gave one of his quacking yells as Goofy also stood up like I did, taking a look at the place. "But isn't this the enemy strongmold?" Goofy asked.
I nodded, I knew what he meant, but Donald got upset with the mixup again. "Stronghold!" He yelled out. I just kept looking at the world in front of us. This is where it all started, this is where Roxas was born and this is where he fell in love. This is where Roxas met Axel and left Axel. I didn't take my eyes off of the location as Donald kept arguing that it was too dangerous to go here yet, he kept the Gummi Ship in hover mode. If we couldn't find the answers here then there might not be any other place to find them after all. Donald looked up at me as I kept my eyes fixed onto the world, he knew what I wanted to do. "Get into your seats, we're going in."
I finally let my eyes leave the world and looked down to Donald. "Thanks." I went back to my seat as ordered as Goofy did the same. In a few minutes Donald found a good place to land and started the decent onto the darkness infested world.
Upon landing we got off the Gummi and started down the streets of the neon city. Goofy was constantly hiding behind his shield, he was really scared by this place, while Donald kept on his toes and would up anything that moved on fire. I just held my Keyblade as I took the lead of this city, for some reason I knew where I was going. I bet it was Roxas that really knew where to go and was just leading me down the streets. They were all empty, no cars or trucks other then the ones that were crashed into buildings or tossed to the side with their lights blinking on and off. This gave me the shivers, I guess this is what a world would be like if Heartless took over and didn't take the world with them. I kept walking down the streets, the humming and buzzing of the lights broke the silence from the three of us. Eventually we made it to a large area, there was nothing on the large amount of concrete. In front of me was the skscraper I saw in my dream, the one with all of the buzzing screens with dead fuzz in different colors. I kept looking up at the tower, I felt the rain start to fall on me as well. Goofy finally lowered his shield and held out his hand as the water started to pour down on us. Donald grunted but ended shortly when he realized that we had been wondering endlessly for hours. "So what are we looking for?" He asked me.
I kept looking at the screens, nothing was appearing out of the fuzz. "I don't really know." I said without thinking.
Goofy took his hand back and stuck out his tongue, tasting that water that fell down.
Donald went in front of me and gained my attention, I had to look down to see him eye to eye. "We need to have something to search for. There's no one to ask and this place gives me the willies."
He shivered when he said that, making me nod and start to look around. "We need to find out why Yensid gave us this location, what could be here to start a heart..." I turned back to Goofy, he was having a fun time in the rain. I had seen the rain so many times in my dreams that I didn't really care for it right now. "What's up? Never seen rain before?"
Goofy finally turned to me, then pointed up. "It's not rain." He kept pointing up while Donald and I were totally lost in what Goofy was trying to say. "It's salty."
"What?" I asked again, I still didn't get it. Donald finall stuck out his own tongue and quickly nodded, he agreed that it wasn't normal rain. I guess I had no choice in the matter. I held out my hand to gather some raindrops into my palm and then took a sip from my hand. Goofy was right, this wasn't normal rain at all. It tasted like tears, as if they were the tears of all of the Heartless that must have been roaming the area in my dreams. I quickly threw the rest of the water that was in my hand off to the side, I now felt really sad. It was like these tears were my real emotion at the time, I didn't know where to go and had a strong feeling that there was nothing left for me to do to help Roxas.
Goofy and Donald both tried to figure it out as well, but both then stopped and held their weapons at ready. I was facing them so I didn't know why they did that. I sure hope the rain didn't make them want to hurt me! "Behind you!" Goofy yelled.
"A Nobody!" Donald finished.
I had my Keyblade ready, I turned around ready to fight and defend everyone. There was no reason to fight, the one behind me had his hood up but I still knew who it was. I lowered my hands to my sides with the weapon still in my grip, just in case, and then looked back to Donald and Goofy a bit. "It's alright." I assured them. The two were again a bit confused with this, but I just turned back to the hooded figure to continue. "Take off your hood, it's not like you have anything to hide Axel."
"AXEL!" Donald and Goofy both yelled at the same time.
The hooded figure laughed a bit, then lowered his hood. I was right, it was Axel. Roxas could tell who it was even before I probably did, Roxas knew Axel better then anyone. He kept looking at me while I gave a cold hard stare. I wasn't going to lose this time, I needed to make sure I kept control of my heart and my body. It didn't help any that my heart was already starting to race, Roxas sure was happy to see Axel again. "What are you doing here?" He asked me. "I said that next time we met I would take Roxas back."
I knew that Donald and Goofy didn't understand any of this, I wanted to keep it secret about what happened in Twilight Town and in my dreams. "We talked to Yensid, he knows a lot of stuff. He told us that we might be able to find you existance if we looked here."
Axel actually perked up a bit, he put his hands on his waist and leaned in a bit. "A heart? You're really going to help a Nobody in getting a heart?"
I nodded, no use avoiding the topic at hand. "Yeah, we want to get a heart for you and for Roxas, so you can be together."
"Or..." Axel lowered his arms again, I didn't like how this was turning out. I knew that Roxas would keep his promise but... it sure was hard on him not to go up and just give Axel a quick hug. He was pulling at me too, if Roxas couldn't do anything he really wanted me to leave right now and just ignore Axel the rest of the time here. "Do you just want control of your body again?" I didn't expect him to say that. I could feel that Donald and Goofy both wanted answers, couldn't Axel of not said anything! It sure would make things a lot easier. He realized that he struck a nerve I guess, Axel smirked at me. "You never told them about Twilight Town did you?"
"Stop it." I said, making him stop just like I ordered. "I didn't say anything, it wasn't me! It was Roxas..." I put my free hand over my heart, he really wanted to be with Axel right now. Things were looking grim with the search for a heart and he wanted to keep the promise that we made. I had decided, I knew what was most wanted right now. I never turned back to my two friends, they must have been really worried at how I was acting right now. "Hey guys? Can you keep this secret?" I started, they again didn't understand. "I'm going to let Roxas take over for a bit, he really wants to." I finished off.
They kept silent and stood their ground, I should have told them from the beginning of what was happening. I closed my eyes and could see Roxas standing in front of me. In my mind I opened my eyes again and offered my hand that was over my heart to him. Roxas just looked down at my hand, I knew what he was thinking but he asked anyway. "So, there's no way is there?"
"It's not that." I smiled, Roxas looked up at my face now, it was like I was looking into a mirror. "It's just that you're pulling to be with Axel is annoying." I joked. Roxas giggled and smiled when I said this, I guess he just realized how much he was pulling at me right now. Roxas nodded but still never took my hand. "I won't give up, not yet. We can still find out how to get you two hearts, I just know it. So, make this quick and clean okay? I didn't want Donald and Goofy to know that you could take over like this."
Roxas took my hand and nodded again, our hands started to glow from the touch. "You don't want them to tell Kairi that you were doing this for me." I started to blush, but it was now too late. Everything went white while Roxas finished. "I'll be nice, don't worry about anything Sora."
I opened my eyes again as I felt the rain on my shoulders again, I could see and feel but knew that Roxas had control. I lowered my hand and looked at Axel again, he still had a cold look at me as if I was going to kill Roxas inside of me or something. "Don't frown like that. You told me to remember never to frown when we were in front of each other like this."
Axel lightened up a bit, he picked up the clues of who was who. "Roxas! He really let you take over?" He was shocked, I laughed inside while I nodded. He was a bit slow too, I did announce that I would let Roxas take over for a bit.
I could feel Roxas' emotions go into an overdrive, he said he would play nice but I had second thoughts. I dropped the Keyblade onto the ground and started to run to Axel. By the time the Keyblade vanished I hugged Axel, Donald and Goofy both yelled out my name when I did this. It's not like I had a choice in the matter, Roxas was doing everything. I hid my face in his chest while embracing him tightly. "He said he would try to help us... but I don't know how much longer we can do this..."
Axel hugged me back. Donald yelled at him to stop and let me go but again, the two of us didn't care. I just waited in the darkness of my mind while Axel didn't want me to take over my body again. "Then just take over and never give his body back. I don't see what's so wrong with that." Axel said.
I sure hope he was joking. I laughed, at least Roxas laughed through me, and then looked up at him. "Sora is yelling at you, he sure wishes you were joking."
He smirked and kept looking in my eyes, then took his right hand and put it in front of my face, pointing up his pointer finger. "When it comes to Roxas and keeping him I never joke, got it memorized?"
Roxas again laughed through me, I was yelling in my mind for his to shut up right now. Again with that line, didn't he have any other catch phrases? I leaned my head against his chest again and closed my eyes. In my mind I stopped yelling and listened, there was nothing. Roxas was leaning my ear onto his chest and I heard nothing... there was no heartbeat at all. "You know... Sora get's really annoyed with that line too." I said, I sounded like I was talking in third person the entire time. Axel didn't have anything to say this time, Roxas lost his sense of humor when I lost the sound of a heart in my ear. "I don't mind though... keep saying it whenever you want."
"Sora! What are you doing!" Goofy yelled over. I opened my eyes and looked back to him, loosening my grip on Axel a bit but never letting go. Roxas wouldn't let him go, I would have summon the Keyblade by now and smacked him across the head for all of the 'jokes' he was making about keeping my body for Roxas.
Donald started to jump up and down in a trantrum. "It's not like YOU!"
I smiled a bit, then stuck out my tongue. "This isn't Sora, it's Roxas." I still don't think they got it, they sure were slow sometimes. I would have to explain it little by little when I got control again. Was I sure hoping they wouldn't tell Riku or Kairi! Riku would crack jokes about it even after we hit the graves while Kairi would never like me ever again. I turned back to Axel and felt Roxas not wanting to go, but it was time I took control again. "I have... I have to go now..."
Axel didn't want me to take over again, I just knew it. Roxas didn't want me to take over either, but he knew that I needed to keep going in my search of finding them a heart. Axel put his right hand on my cheek, making me look up. I could feel myself blushing, Roxas I told you to be careful! "Why not just play a small joke on Sora?"
I knew this was going to end bad, I just knew it. Roxas didn't want me to gain control at this moment, but also thought the joke was funny. We shared the same mind, I could tell what he could tell. I really didn't want them to do this but heck, would the listen to me? I was the one ruining their relationship after all. "He's going to kill me." I said, and Roxas was right. If we did get him a body the first thing I'm going to do is smack both of them with the Keyblade... really really hard. Axel smiled and nodded, I went to my toes and kissed him. Geeze Roxas! I let you take over and you do this to me! I could hear total silence from Donald and Goofy... great... I really had a lot of explaining to do. Axel took me into a full embrace while Roxas tightened his grip onto Axel, they were getting serious. I don't mind if you finished Roxas, this was really wrong... I would never EVER let Roxas take control of my body ever again... like I'm going to keep that promise now? He was using me to make out with Axel already! Again Axel got his tongue into my mouth, and for some reason mine got into his. Roxas, I'm going to really beat the crap out of you! Right at that moment Roxas let me gain control of my body again, right in the middle of them making out. I let Axel go and pushed him off, he willingly let go and took a small stumble of a step back. I wiped my mouth as Axel started to laugh. "I'm going to really kill you two when you get bodies!" I yelled out, I was back to being me. "I don't flow like that! You two know that!"
The other two must have been really confused, this was a totally different person than the one they saw only moments ago. "It's okay, we're never going to do that again." Axel kept laughing, he had to hold his stomach it must have been hurting so much. I stood up right and just gave a cold stare. I just frenched that guy! Roxas made me french the enemy! "You make a horrible kisser, Roxas is a heck of a lot better."
"WHAT!" I yelled out. First Axel steals my first kiss, then when Roxas takes over for a round two Axel tells me I'm bad. I put my hands into fists and yelled at him full and blunt. "What does he see in you anyway!"
"I'm just me." Axel finally was able to stop laughing, but he still chuckled a bit here or there while talking. Was the joke that funny? I sure didn't think so. I could hear Roxas laughing in my mind, he thought it was really great. Yeah, okay... no more letting you take over! Axel walked up to me and I tightened up, if I had to beat him up then I wouldn't mind at all... he was really getting me ticked off. Axel walked right in front of me and stopped when we were less then a foot apart, he then put his hand on my head, which made me cringe. "Take care of him." Axel said. I was taken by this, hearing something like this from Axel didn't seem normal. "If anything happens to Roxas, or if you make him cry, I'll make sure that only he can take over the body. I'll turn you into a Heartless quicker then you changed into one last time."
I just kept looking up at him while Axel lifted his hand, then waved goodbye with that hand. A darkness portal formed behind him and Axel left through it. Again there stood the three of us, getting soaked in the rain of tears. I kept my eyes on the location where the portal was, Donald and Goofy were lost in what happened and I guess they were afraid to ask about what just went down in front of them. I was lost in my own thought, something was strange when Roxas went and kissed Axel. I didn't feel it in my own heart, maybe it was because Roxas was going to let me gain control again right after they started but... I didn't feel his emotions inside of my own heart. I felt like the normal me, I felt like being with Kairi and wanting to get away from Axel. And the rain that fell on me, not only did it give the feeling of sadness but it also gave the feeling of happiness, humor, loss, regret... it was like the tears were every emotion that created tears in a normal person. I needed to understand everything that happened, I needed to piece everything together before I said I could or couldn't find the heart. I turned around to the other two, I had never seem them so confused in all of the time that I knew them. "Let's go back back, there's nothing here right now." I said, they agreed without a second thought. This place really freaked them out and I had a lot of things to get out of my mind.
Instead of going back to Twilight Town I convinced Donald to drive us to Hollow Bastion. I felt that Leon and Merlin might have some answers to the strange area, hopefully to the explination to the rain as well. We landed in Hollow Bastion and took the rest of the day off, I was beat. After Merlin offered us beds in his house again he left us alone. I sat down on the bed I usually used while Donald and Goofy took their sweet time, they really till didn't understand anything that was going on. I sighed and explained every last bit to them about Roxas being able to take over my body. I even had to tell the two about two nights ago in Twilight Town when I first learned the secret of Roxas. It made them question me at first, then it made them think I was a freak. After a couple of hours... and a lot of explaining... they eventually gave in and believed every word I said. Even if those two were slow at least they tried and eventually understood my problems. After the not so enlightening conversation it was really late, so we decided to all go to bed and start working as soon as we woke up the next morning.