Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto.
This story is in Naruto's POV
Rest in peace
Flowers and speeches, beautiful coffin and people in beautiful dresses. It is almost like we want to make the death beautiful. In a way it already is, I guess. I mean, you are free and you don't have to feel the pain you had when you were alive. Perhaps the pressure is sometimes too much and you can't handle it anymore. And then you just lose yourself and your will to live. Perhaps death can give you the comfort you didn't feel when you were alive. Perhaps you can rest in peace the rest of eternity. I admit death is beautiful in its own dark way.
But even if I realise the death's beauty and hardness of life it doesn't ease my pain when I stand here in front of your grave and cry for my loneliness. I can still feel the coldness of your body when I found you. I can still see your lifeless eyes that blame me for not being enough to make you forget the memories you didn't want to remember. You chose the easy way to lose your pain; it was quick and almost painless. You wanted to forget your pain so much you couldn't see anything else anymore. But in a way it was already too late when I came to your live. Wounds were already made and tears shed and there was nothing I could do about it. I could just watch your fading away.
You were afraid of being hurt again. And so was I. But now you are gone and only I am here to remember memories you wanted to crush. Because I don't believe there is any kind of memory that is alright to forget. Memories hurt you but perhaps some day you would have been strong enough to carry them. But now you don't have that hope anymore. You are gone but I promise to you that no matter how much the memory of you hurt me, I won't forget you. I will be strong enough to carry the pain in my heart and the wounds your suicide caused.
So here in front of your gravestone I promise I will continue my life. I won't do the foolish mistake you made. The hands of death are cold and they cannot give you the warmth you want. I will live and remember. So please forgive me that I couldn't help you. Forgive me my foolishness and rest in peace Sasuke.