Once I had the answer there was no turning back. The stick read positive. It was true; I was having Bradin's kid. How would I tell people? Who could I go to? Who would be there for me?
I knew this meant that I had to tell my mother, but what would she think of me for having done this. I slowly left the bathroom in a haze, there was no turning back. My brother was waiting for me, He bought some sodas for us later. I thanked him, and we drove home. During our quiet ride home, I looked out over the cliffs. The sun was setting and the water took on an orange glint. For once I was happy to be alive it was almost that gorgeous.
We arrived home, and saw my mother's car parked in the driveway. I hobbled into the house, and went straight to my room. I read my novel until my mother called me to dinner. I called her into my room, once inside I told her to close the door. I sat her down and briefly explained what had happened, and the positive pregnancy test. I told her it was with Bradin, and how we had to keep the child so that it could be the sole inheritance of Bradin if He were to pass away. She nodded curtly, but her eyes were filled with tears. I knew she was worried I had slept around, and now her beliefs were confirmed.
She held my hand as I cried after letting out all of my emotions. I kept telling her I was sorry, and how I thought Bradin was the one for me. She soothed my hair and kept telling me that I was a good girl and that I may have been mistaken at the time. She told me she would go out tomorrow to find remedies for morning sickness, because she had suffered terribly from that, and didn't want me to go through that as well. She told me she would have to discuss with my father about keeping the child, and that we should look into getting Bradin and I married.
The following g day I returned to visit Bradin, this time with my mother. My mother walked me up to bradin's room. We stopped just before the doorway, aunt Ava was sitting next to the bed talking to Bradin. My mother motioned me inside, and I moved slowly. I looked up, and Bradin saw me. He was wearing a ski cap, and it was pretty clear that He didn't have much hair underneath it. I hobbled over to Bradin, and his eyes noticed that the ring was still on my finger.
My mother was now talking quietly to Aunt Ava in a corner. I was sitting in a padded chair next to Bradin. Bradin and I exchanged kisses, and then we discussed our future. When Aunt Ava and my mother left the room, we spoke for real.
"I'm sorry this had to happen, Becky" He told me.
"Bradin, I couldn't be happier." I informed him
"Knowing that this child is yours makes it perfect." I said with emphasis.
"Becky, what do we plan on naming the child?" He asked in a most curious tone.
"What do you think we should name the child? I responded, almost like daring him to name the child something awful. He thought about it a moment, then He smiled.
"Was that a dare?" He asked in a laugh.
I pulled a little pamphlet out of my pocket. In this pamphlet I had written all the names I liked. I handed it to Bradin, and He opened it up.
He read through it, and then brought his gaze back to meet mine.
"I like these but it's missing something…" He responded after a few moments.
"We should get a baby book."
Aunt Ava and my mother returned, and stepped quietly through the door. Aunt Ava's eyes had tears in them, as she knelt next to me.
She leaned in and lightly kissed my cheek.
"How do you feel?" She whispered to me
"Fine "I replied
"That's good" She admitted. "We'll do everything to help you through this" She stated as well.
"Thank you " I said with emphasis
"You and Bradin, must get married before the child is born" my mother said.
"Yes momma" I said, I tried to conceal a long awaited smile.
I went back to discussing names with Bradin as my mother and Ava talked in the corner. Bradin and I talked of life quietly, and I told him about my dream.
"Do you think it's a girl?" He asked me.
"I don't know, it would be nice to have a girl though" I whispered
Within the hour bradin's medication made him drowsy and He fell asleep. I kissed him before we left, and hoped to return soon. Ava informed us that He was having radiation on Tuesday and that I should call or come in to see him off to it, so He didn't feel so distraught about going.
Mom and I left, and it was an agonizing 15 minutes of silence on the ride home.
Once at home I went to lie on the couch. I flicked on the T.V and watched the news. I started to doze off as my mother made dinner.