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Accidental

Chapter Sixteen

Moon Kitty 2005

June 30th, 2006

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Sakura's mind repeated the three words that Syaoran had just uttered in her ear. She vaguely wondered if she was still alive. She felt like she was in a dream, like everything was surreal and any moment, she would wake up.

Syaoran held her closer, his eyes shut tight. "Sakura, don't just stand there. Say something. Reassure me or tell me that I'm a complete ass... anything."

The girl in question raised her head, her eyes shining with unshed tears. "I can't say anything back, Syaoran."

His eyes narrowed. "Why not?"

"Because there's all this complication with Tomoyo and Eriol. She still hasn't told him the truth yet and... if he ever saw us together, then he would be hurt and we would have to tell him the truth, and if that happened, then Tomoyo-"

"Why do you have to be so fucking selfless all the time? Let her deal with it! She already told you that you didn't have to help her, that she could do it on her own. She's going to have to tell him eventually. Sooner than later!"

Sakura shook her head. "I'm sorry, Syaoran..."

He looked down at her, pulled away, and put his hands in his pockets. "Me, too, Sakura. Me, too." He walked off, a pained look in his eyes.

Sakura broke down, sliding down the trunk of a tree, sobbing uncontrollably. Dammit... why is everything so confusing? I love you, Syaoran... I love you, too... but I can't tell you... I'm sorry...

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Tomoyo pulled away from the security of Eriol's arms, clapping along with the rest of the crowd as the band bowed slightly. Her amethyst eyes scanned the crowd, smiling gently as she saw Chiharu and Yamazaki kiss, then turned around to where Sakura and Syaoran had disappeared minutes ago.

She frowned, following Syaoran with her eyes as he got into his car and pulled away from the wedding. Tomoyo walked over to the clearing where the two had been talking, the only reasonable thing she could think of was that Syaoran had told her and Sakura had rejected him.

But why? her mind asked. Why would she refuse him when it's so obvious that she loves him, too?

She poked her head into the clearing, her eyes growing clouded with worry as she spotted her best friend crying into her hands, running over to pull her into her arms.

"Sakura! Sakura, what happened? Stop crying and tell me!" she soothed, cradling her head against her chest.

"S-Syaoran t-told me that he l-loved me," she stuttered, confirming Tomoyo's suspicions.

She pulled her closer, resting her head on top of Sakura's. "What did you say back?"

"I c-couldn't say anything to him, Tomoyo," she whispered, her tears coming slower. "I just couldn't."

"Why?" Tomoyo asked her, already half-knowing the reason why. I did this. I'm causing Sakura's tears, Eriol's confusion, and Syaoran's pain. When Sakura didn't answer her, she knew that she hadn't told Syaoran she loved him back because of the whole predicament with Eriol. "Don't worry, Sakura... everything will be over soon enough..."

I have to tell him... the truth.

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Authoress Notes

Kitty: OMG, Tomoyo's about to commit internet-person-dating-thingy suicide!

Moon: (raises eyebrow) Is what you just said English?

Kitty: (shakes her head) Sometimes I wish I could put a subduing spell on you like on Inuyasha...

Moon: Oh, like this? OSUWARI! (watches Kitty do a face plant)

Kitty: WHAT THE HELL?

Moon: (walks off whistling with a spell book in hand) Man, thank God I took those classes.