Nathan and Haley once again leaned their backs against the brick wall, both willing the other to talk. Neither did for minutes on end. Long, painful, agonizing minutes.
"What did that mean, Nathan?" Haley whispered
"I don't know." He spoke just as low, because he knew exactly what it meant. Nathan Scott was falling for Haley James.
"What did you feel?"
"I don't know Haley." Nathan said just a little more forceful this time.
"Fine." Haley said with a defeated sigh. Nathan watched as he form retreated, he needed to stop her. He wouldn't let Haley leave without knowing how he felt.
"Haley!" Nathan called after her. "Haley, stop!" she did as told but, never turning around to face him. Once Nathan caught up with her, his arms ached to touch her to feel her skin against his. But he never did reach out to her. "I'm sorry." Nathan whispered so low that he wondered if she
heard.
"For what! Lying to my face? Or for being a coward?" Haley demanded, the affects of alcohol rapidly depleting, and anger setting in.
"What are you talking about? I never once lied to you." Yes I did.
"Well Scott, that's two in a row. You really are on a roll huh?" she took a step back, afraid that if he talked again she would slap him.
"You want to know how I felt Haley? I felt like I was floating, like no one could touch me, like everything just stopped and it was you and me. I don't want any guy ever touching you like just did! I felt like I want to be able to kiss you like that every time I see you! I felt like I wanted you to be mine!" Nathan's voice boomed, although he became calmer when he saw the look of utter shock on Haley's face. "But I can't Haley, I can't call you mine. You can never be mine."
"I um-I…wow." Haley stumbled. Haley spoke again after several moments. "Why? Why can't we be together if we both fell the same way?"
"Damn it! It's illegal Haley!" Nathan threw his hands in the air and then ran his fingers through his raven black hair out of frustration. Haley nodded; she slowly walked over to him, lend into his lips and gave him one last kiss.
"Good-bye Nathan." She whispered into his ear. Nathan watched as the girl he was falling for walk out of the glow of the street light and just like that she was gone.
He stood in shop on the corner of the street looking out the window, he watched as she tended to customers in the little café with a frown firmly planted on her face. He watched her walk back and forth with her brown plastic tray and hunter green apron. He watched as her hips swayed back and forth as she walked.
He had come every day since that night at the party a month ago. He came to the little shop on Hunt Street across from the café. Nathan couldn't take it anymore, he needed to talk to her he needed to feel her lips against his.
Nathan hesitantly walked out of the little shop and crossed the street, he walked up the old concrete steps of the little café. As Nathan put a firm grasp on to the cold door handle he could already hear the familiar sound of the overhead bells begin to ring. Now or never.
The little coffee shop was empty so Nathan knew that he would be able to talk to her in peace, and she wouldn't be able to use it as an excuse.
"Nathan? Nathan what are you doing here?" Haley said absolutely perplexed by his presence.
"I missed you." He stated as if it was the simplest thing on the world.
"Well it's not that simple! You can't just waltz back in here and think that everything is going to be okay again! That we're going to be friends again!" she screamed flailing her arms in the air. The only people in the shop, a regular elderly couple, were now staring intently, listing to the
conversation word for word.
"I don't want to be friends. After…everything, I can't deal with it anymore. I'm always thinking about you. I started listing to that crappy music you recommended. God I even memorized a song because I thought that it was speaking to me. That they knew how I was feeling in that moment. And I know I sound like such a loser sap right now but it's true. All of it." Nathan finished. Haley looked up at him, tears brimming the edges of her lashes.
"What song?" Those two words were the only ones Haley could form. But Nathan knew that those words meant more that the surface meaning. Haley used to talk to him about music, how it was the only thing that got her through the day. Because the words spoke to her, and they made her fell like she wasn't alone anymore.
"Sad Song, the cure." A wide grin formed on her lips. Haley closed her eyes and faced her head to the ceiling, as if she were reciting the words in her head.
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
"It doesn't matter, Nathan. None, none of it matters." Haley said as she turned around on the balls of feet to stride away. Nathan would have none of that.
"I does matter!"
"You said your self that it's illegal"
"We can still be together and not have sex Haley." Nathan said looking down at his feet. He was so confused, everything had been so wrong before Haley. Then when he met her in the little café that fateful day his entire world was turned upside down, although it was the most amazing upside down he had ever felt. He could talk to Haley. I just have that effect on people! that's what she had said to him.
"what do you want me to say?" Haley whispered, on the verge of tears
"Tell me you love me." Haley looked away hugging her small torso.
"No." She whispered.
"I don't think could live with out this, with out you." Nathan he cried to her. "Please, just give us a chance!"
"I won't Nathan. I can't do that to my self. I'm sorry."
"Do what?" Nathan begged. He knew that in a way he was being childish- begging for her companionship. However Nathan felt like when Haley was next to him every thing was just right…with everything everywhere. Strangely enough all the occupants in the café had mysteriously disappeared.
"I- please just leave." Haley sighed and turned around- she couldn't let him see the tears streak down her blushed cheeks.
"Haley-" He attempted to reason with her.
"GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE DAMIT!"