When I was younger, I used to say that I never wanted to grow up…Still…some part of me never let go of that truth. And yet…another part of me went and betrayed that one wish of mine. Hmph…when I look back on that thought now…I wonder how much I have changed. My recklessness as a kid never left me but I'm still a man in more ways than one… I think…I think…that all began when I first met Vicious and fell in love with Julia…
Someone once asked me if I could freeze time, would I do it…I smiled and said never… However there was an exception to my never, I wanted to slow it down. Make it go by so slowly that it contradicts itself into believing forever… More than likely a psychological thing, is all time is… When we stop measuring it and live, we see no beginning and no end. I once figured a way to get my wish and it worked for some time, but then…then… I fell for a man…and I couldn't get a grasp on time… me…Vicious…I, Grencia Mars Elijah Guo Eckener, could no longer slow it down…
I dreamed once that I could fly… Yeah, everyone gets one of those at some point in their life but mine… I assure you mine was different. I didn't sprout wings, or have supernatural abilities…It was more or less about every person that I encountered… Gren… Spike… Julia… Faye… when I left them it was an eerie sort of light… like I unloaded all my shit unto their backs and kept it moving without a second glance…no regrets…but I do regret… in leaving everything behind…I was so sure it would all be there when I came back… change..? Change is inevitable…I know that well… I am a horrible person and I know that…They…no…I…I didn't deserve them…I still don't deserve them…But that never meant I didn't cherish them... especially Gren and Spike.