When Dee woke up, Lee was no longer lying next to her. She knew that he had the early CAP and could hear him talking with Kara outside as they were getting ready.

"So you told her yet?"

"About What?" Dee couldn't help but notice the annoyance in his voice.

"You know what! About what happened to your ribs. You can't tell me she didn't ask, she's not that stupid!" Kara was beginning to shout, but she was trying to keep it down so as not to wake the other pilots.

"No I didn't cause she doesn't need to know!" he whispered angrily.

"What! She doesn't need to know that you got in a fight over her!" she whispered back.

"It wasn't about her and you know it" Lee sighed.

"Yeah well everyone else seems to think it was, she'll hear about it from somewhere."

"Yeah well the rest of the ship don't seem to think that I can get in a fight about any other woman!"

"She is your girlfriend what else are they supposed to think?"

"Just cause she's my girlfriend doesn't mean that she's the only woman I care about!"

They went quiet and Dee could just imagine them staring at each other, as if having a silent conversation. Finally she heard Kara mumble something like "we're gonna be late" and the hatched closed behind the two pilots. Dee lay back staring at the ceiling, so that's what happened he got in a fight about Kara, no wonder he wouldn't tell her.

The CAP flight was uneventful and with no visit from the Cylons and Lee's ribs holding up ok, both Lee and Kara landed quite happy and looking forward to their few hours off. This feeling didn't last long though, as all of a sudden a fire broke out on one of the Raptors and one of the newest nuggets was killed in the blast. Lee had run to the nugget as soon as the blast had knocked him to the ground and had been next to him as he died. Kara on the other hand had been busy getting everyone together and putting out the flames. It wasn't until the flames had died down that she noticed Lee kneeling next to the dead nugget. She knelt down next to him and placed a soothing hand on his shoulder.

"Lee?" at the sound of her voice, he turned towards her and Kara felt her heart breaking at the pure grief and pain that she saw in his eyes.

"I couldn't save him" he whispered, and Kara felt like slapping him around the face. He felt like this with every pilot that died, most of the time he just spent sometime by himself and would eventually get over it, but this time it was different and she knew it. This time the kid had been there, right in front of him, not in a Viper where he couldn't do anything for them, and she knew that this would take longer. If it was anyone else, she would have gone with her gut feeling and slapped them, but this was Lee and she just couldn't do that to him so she just sat there next to him, until he pulled himself together and walked away. Normally she would have left him to himself, but the ghostly pale look on his face as he walked away forced her to follow him, she wasn't going to let him do anything stupid.

She caught up to him half way down he corridor leading away from the hanger deck, and they walked next to each other in silence to the pilots quarters. There were only a few other pilots inside, including the one that had annoyed Kara earlier about Lee's locker cleaning. However Lee didn't seem to notice the others, or care that they were there as he lost it completely, punching and kicking the nearest rack, until blood was pouring down his hands and dripping onto the floor. After a while he stopped and just looked at his hands as he sank to the floor.

"What was that all about?" the annoying nugget asked.

"He didn't have a locker, he died without even getting a fraking locker" Kara said tears in her eyes threatening to fall.

"Why does he care about this one, he hasn't cared about any of the others!" one of the other nuggets said. Infuriated Kara launched at the pilot and pushed him against one of the racks.

"He did fraking care, he just kept it together! You think that anyone would take orders from a CAG that broke down every time he lost a pilot!" she screamed in his face. She then turned to the first nugget and said quieter so that Lee wouldn't hear her, "that's why he cleans the lockers, cause that how he deals with it. But this one didn't have a fraking locker, he died in his arms and he didn't have a fracking locker." and at that the tears broke free and rolled down her cheeks. At this point no one had noticed Lee get up, but he moved to her side and wrapped his arms around her.

"It's ok, I'm ok, come on don't cry, not because of me" he whispered to her.

He pulled back and wiped the tears from her eyes, managing to smear blood all over her face at the same time.

"eugh, thanks a lot" Kara laughed, "look at us we look terrible."

"Yeah well that comes with not having slept properly for months"

Kara sniggered in response, "you'd better get those hands checked out."

"They'll be ok, but we'd better get that blood off your face." Lee laughed

"Come on then we can both get cleaned up" Kara said as she carefully took him by the hand and lead him towards the head. All of the other pilots heads watched them walked through the hatch in astonishment, not quite sure what they had just witnessed, had the two most senior pilots they knew just broken down in front of their eyes.