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Lee on the outside to everyone else seemed to have forgiven Kara completely, but Kara knew he was still hurt by what she had done and she really needed to make it up to him. She was determined that she was going to make this right again, but first she had to get the nuggets through there first few flights. She was up in the air with them when the Cylons attacked.

"Frak it" Kara swore under her breath, then she spoke to the nuggets she was with, "Okay guys it's a bit sooner than I would have liked, but your gonna have to do it sooner or later so come on then"

Then she started off towards the Cylons, with the nuggets in tail.

"I got one" one of the nuggets said wondrously.

"Well done your doing well" Kara said encouragingly.

Some of the other nuggets managed to shoot some of them down before the back up Vipers arrived, and they managed to get most of the Cylons before being called back to Galactica for the jump.

Kara sat in her Viper to wait for the jump to end before clambering out to meet the nuggets who had been with her. There were three of them stood next to one of the Vipers, neither of them moved, they just stood there staring into space, all the color having drained from their faces.

"You guys ok?" she asked them.

All three of them nodded their head slowly but didn't say a word. Kara was about to say something when Lee walked up to them.

"Hey heard you lot had your first Cylon fight" he said coming up to stand next to Kara.

The nuggets just nodded and looked sheepish so Kara thought she would have to explain.

"They even managed to get a few" she told Lee.

"ahhh first kills," he sighed suddenly understanding, "right make sure they don't do anything stupid and bring them to the mess in about an hour, I'll talk to chef and put Ali to bed, I'll see you then"

He gave Kara a quick kiss and then walked off the flight deck to talk to the chef.

An hour later Kara walked into the mess with the three nuggets behind her, Lee was stood there waiting for them to walk in.

"Welcome to first Kill night, me and Starbuck here are your hosts and the main aim of the night is to learn to live with your first kills. So take a seat, help your self to coffee and ice cream, and we'll have a chat." he said as they stood in the doorway.

Kara ushered them in, handing them spoons and cups and pushed them towards one of the tables.

"Where did you get ice cream from?" one of the pilots asked surprised.

"There are somethings that you just have to save for when they're needed, and ice cream is essential for getting over a first kill." Kara stated simply grabbing a bowl for herself.

They sat down and none of them talked for a while until finally one of the nuggets said, "I just can't believe I killed something, I know it's just a machine but it feels so real"

"I know... it's a living machine... in a way I just killed a living thing and I didn't even care." another one added, his voice starting to crack.

"I've never killed anything before not even a snail" the last one whispered tears welling in her eyes.

"It's ok, we know it's hard... the first one always is, but it gets better I promise" Lee said gently, sipping his coffee.

"Are you sure, it doesn't feel like it" the first one said sniffing.

"We're sure, but it's hard to start with, which is why we do this, to help you out, so that you can talk about it." Kara explained.

"So... so they did this for you on your first kill" the third nuggets stammered.

"yeah," they both said, "though I didn't say much in mine" Lee added

"Me neither" Kara sighed, they both looked at each other and smiled sadly.

"So what were your first kills, I bet they weren't Cylons" one of the nuggets asked interested.

Kara sighed, "You don't want to know."

"yeah we do you never know it might help," another one said leaning forward so he could listen.

Lee put his head in his hands and Kara sighed and looked at the floor.

"Alright," Kara sighed looking back up, "mine was a fourteen year old boy"

"Your joking" another nugget exclaimed.

"No, the guy hijacked a Viper and began flying it and firing the guns, so we got told to take him down and that's what I did" she said her voice slightly cracking at the end.

Lee looked up and slipped his hand under the table so he could hold Kara's, she squeezed it and took a deep breath before smiling sadly.

"Wow, that makes killing a Cylon look easy" the second nugget said, which slightly shocked everyone, as he had said hardly anything since he walked in.

"So what was your first kill, it can't be much worse than a fourteen year old" the first nugget said turning to Lee.

Lee looked down at the floor and bit his lip, there weren't many people he had told that story too and he wasn't sure he was going to be able to keep a hold of himself if he told it again. He felt Kara hand squeeze his and looked up, Kara knew this was something he had never come to terms with, all these years he'd just pushed it down and tried to forget about it.

"That's a story you really don't want to hear" Kara said still looking at Lee.

"No come on she told us hers" the nugget continued, unaware of what effect this would have.

Lee sighed, "alright, alright," he said quietly, "It was a family" he said coarsely.

"A family?" the third nugget asked confused.

"Yeah this guy killed someone and ran off, he stole one of the Raptors and flew away, like Kara's we got told to shoot him down..." Lee paused his bottom lip quivering slightly, "... it was only afterwards that we found out that he had locked his wife and 3 year old daughter in the back"

As soon as he finished Lee looked at the floor, closing his eyes and pushing those tears back . Kara rubbed his back comfortingly and they sat in silence for a while. The nuggets were shocked, two people sat in front of them, their first kills had been terrible, yet they still flew and fought amd didn't think anything of shooting down some Cylons.

"Wow next to those first kills I think I'm glad mine was a Cylon" the first nugget finally said.

All the other nuggets agreed with him and seemed to have got some color back in their cheeks.

"So you guys ok now?" Lee asked having pulled himself together.

"Yeah thanks for all this" the second one said smiling slightly.

"That's alright, as I said we're here to help you get through it" Kara said, smiling comfortingly.

They all smiled sadly at each other and then began to get up an leave, Lee stopped the nuggets just before they left.

"Don't tell anyone anything that you heard in here" he said quietly.

The nuggets nodded and then left, leaving Lee and Kara alone.

Kara watched Lee as he stared at the hatch, his shoulders slumped. She knew that only half the pain he felt tonight was because of what he had just told those nuggets and she cursed herself for hurting him so much. After a while Lee looked up and held out his hand.

"Come on" he said as she took it.

They headed out the hatch and towards the bunk room in silence, Lee thinking about what had just happened, and Kara thinking about how she could make it up to him. It didn't take long for them to reach the bunk room and Lee let go of Kara's hand to open it. He pulled the hatch towards him and began to walk through, but he stopped just as he stepped inside. Kara saw the look on his face and got a bad feeling in her stomach.

"Lee what's wrong?" she asked urgently.