When it hurts to remember

-Chapter 4-

-What hurts the most-

"Everyone has something they regret."

"I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house, that don't bother me.

I can take a few tears now and then, and just let them go

I'm not afraid to cry

Every once in a while though going on without you still upsets me

There are days

Every now and again I pretend I'm okay, but that's not what gets me."

Roy sat on the train fingering the velvet box. He was planning all the small details for that perfect night. He was going to take Ed out to a fancy dinner. Only the fanciest would do for such an occasion. Then they were going to catch an early movie. After that he'd take his love to the park, and there he'd ask the question that would bound them together for all eternity. That time never came though...

The door cracked open, dim light slipped through the crack, and a scream filled the small home. Pride stood there dumbfounded. He'd certainly hadn't expected this.

A huge tin can looking suit of armor came to the door after the blond girl took off running back into the house.

Roy stood far off, from any of their sight. He couldn't believe this. What kind of trick was this? He pinched himself again to make sure he wasn't dreaming.

"What hurts the most, was being so close and having so much to say.

And watching you walk away

Never knowing what might have been

And never seeing that love in you

Is what I was trying to do."

A phone call was made that day. A phone call that would change everything. Tears fell from a broken man's eyes as he stared at the ring in the box that was meant only for the one he loved. Envy...a word that would forever burn in his heart. He was envious of what happened. He envied the one that separated him from his love. Envy was what tore them apart.

"Nii-San...it worked. You're back." Pride bit back the urge to yell at the tin can. "We were so close..." a voice seemed to echo through Pride's thoughts.

The tin can pulled the shocked sin into his arms, and, what Pride thought, was trying to squeeze the life out of him. "I'm so glad you're back. We were so worried. Now we can all be happy again."

At this, Pride fought to break free. "Let me go!" the boy pleaded. What was he even doing here again? He turned to run, but was stopped by this man with jet black hair and eyes so cold they could freeze over hell.

He grabbed the confused Pride by his wrist and proceeded to pull the boy into his grasp.

"It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go,

but I'm doing it.

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still harder getting up, getting dressed, living with this regret."

"They told me you were gone." For once, in what seemed like way to long, the new General Mustang smiled.

"Let me go!" a still very confused Pride all but screamed. "No, I'm never going to let you go again." he cooed as he proceeded to pet the boy's golden mane.

Suddenly, the all but happy reunion was brought to a halt when an all too familiar palm tree let lose his laughter. "This is all too sweet, but I'm afraid it's time to end this." He pretended to wipe a fake tear from his eye.

"But I know if I could do it over I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart that I left unspoken."

The man, Pride still didn't know his name and was too scared to ask, pulled him as close as possible. If Pride was eternal he'd have thought that the man was going to kill him right then and there.

"What hurts the most, is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do."

"Would you be so kind as to get your greasy hands off of MY chibi?" Envy asked as he stalked over to where said chibi was.

Pride seen that glint in his eyes again. He looked up at the man. "You're chibi? What makes him yours?" the man asked.

"This." Envy pointed to the mark of the homuclus. "Someone was dumb enough to try to bring him back. That very person is in this very room."

"Envy..." said chibi whimpered. He didn't understand. All these pictures kept flying through his mind. Why was it that when he looked at this man these strange emotions flew though him and wailed up painfully in his chest?

"What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what i was trying to do."

"Ed, I should be back in about two days. There's food the the kitchen. I made special care to make sure it was full before I left." "I love you too." A small alchemist stated as he reached up and wrapped his arms around his older lover's neck. "I just wish that you didn't have to go."

Pride shook from the memory. Was that even his memory? "He's not yours." the two kept shouting at each other.

It was really starting to get on his nerves...something that you should never do. Envy had learned the hard way. Pride was just as bad as that fiery chibi. Let's just say that it had been a scary thing.

Pride stared as his temper rose. "Shut up, just shut up please!" Pride felt like crying, but he knew if he did Envy wouldn't let him live it down.

Dumbfounded, the man let his arms fall to his sides. This was all the incentive that Pride needed to run. "See, he's..." Envy was cut off when Pride ran right past him. The man raised an eyebrow at the look Envy was making.

It slightly resembled a gold fish that has a cat looking at in it's fish bowl...

"Not seeing that loving you
that's what I was trying to do…"

TBC... the song I used was What hurts the most, Rascal Flatt. Hope you liked it. Please review thanks to all my reviewers