Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Seed.

A/N: This chapter will be longer than the previous two chapters, I promise. Hope you will like it! Oh, and just in case of any people misunderstanding, let's just take it that in my story, Fllay live until GS, okay?

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Chapter 3: How You Hurt Me

6 years ago…

It was finally the end of the major war between Naturals and Coordinators. Cagalli and Athrun brought Kira back onto Archangel.

As they reach Archangel, Kira was told to get some rest, but Kira knew he would do so even if he isn't told to.

As he went to his room, he saw Fllay sitting on the bed, waiting for him. Kira remembered saving her before her ship was shot down. "What's up?" Kira told her as he walk to her with the door closing behind him.

Fllay looked guilty and said, "Kira?" Kira smiled at her and said gently as he sat beside her on the bed. Fllay faced Kira, and said timidly, "Have you ever loved me?" Kira nodded and said, "Fllay, I have always loved you since I first met you." Fllay looked away and said, "How about Lacus? Do you love her?"

Kira scooped up Fllay's hands and said, "Lacus and I are just friends. The person I loved is you." Fllay smiled and said, "Thank you for loving me, Kira. But I'm afraid," Fllay paused and looked down, not facing Kira and continued, "We'll have to end here."

Kira was shocked. He held Fllay's arms and said sadly, tears welling up in his eyes, "You are just kidding, right? This is all just a dream, what you said just now are untrue. Tell me it's not."

Fllay shook her head and said, "It's all too true." "Why, Fllay? I love you very much, really, I do." Kira said and held back tears. "That's the reason I want to end all of this," Fllay replied, looking straight into his eyes. "What? What do you mean?" Kira was taken aback.

Fllay smiled sadly and said, "Because you love me too much, and yet you saved me, despite all these time when I hated you and played you, it makes me feel horrible and guilty. Yes, Kira, I really love you. But I can't be forgiven, not just like that. You have Lacus Clyne, a brave and compassionate girl, she's waiting for you, and loving you every second and even as we speak. And she'll love you forever, I believe so."

Kira withdrew his hands and said to her as calmly as possible, "You said you can't be forgiven. That's not true. I can forgive you just as easily. You said Lacus is a nice girl, but so are you. You said she's waiting, but I don't care, I'm waiting for you too, Fllay. So please, let me have a second chance in loving you." Kira held Fllay's hands looked at her sadly, wishing he would be given this chance.

"Sorry, Kira," Fllay said gently as she took hands from Kira's, "But I can't." Fllay stood up and kissed Kira's forehead gently and lovingly and said, "This is my last gift to you. Take care." Then Fllay left the room, leaving Kira alone in the room.

He held back his tears until Fllay left the room, then he cried his heart out and covered his face with pillows. A while later, Lacus came into the room, "What happened? Why are you crying? Are you okay?" Lacus asked with concern.

Kira turned away from her, and answered, "Nothing. I'm okay." He doesn't like people to see his weak side, he was always putting up a strong cover, but deep inside him, he is weak, just like a child.

Lacus took Kira's head and put him on her lap, patting his head to comfort him, "Don't worry, Kira. Everything is alright, you'll still have me." Kira smiled and thanked Lacus.

In the present…

Yes, that was why he went with Lacus, and why he tried to love her but failed to do so. Lacus's words were comforting, what she said about being there for him always were true. Kira wanted to love Lacus in the real way of love, but all he felt towards her was brother-sister love, there was no chemistry between them.

Kira needed to forget Fllay, he knew he had to, but he wanted his feelings towards Fllay to stay with him forever, he didn't want them to disappear, he love her too much.

Kira knew these feelings must and need to be hidden. But he also want to spill out the whole truth to ease his pain.

Fllay, of all methods, why did you have to hurt me like this? You told me to be with Lacus when you knew the person I loved was you. How could you, Fllay? I love you too much. Kira thought sadly, not realizing that a single tear had slipped off his cheeks.

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End of chapter 3. Told you it will be longer, well, not really if you see it like this, but hey! The numbers of words are more than the previous two chapters! Hope you like it! I know that some of you out there will think this chapter is stupid, about Fllay being sorry and all, but the idea just pop into my mind! So please review and please, DON'T FLAME!