A/N: Okay, okay I know that took a while! But to my defense: I've got a huge anatomy-test coming up in like three days. Terrible stuff I tell you! The amount of subject matter is actually a case for amnesty international! lol
But every minute I'm not learning or working I write, so give me some credit for that, will ya?
To cut a long story short: Chapter 6! Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything! The O.C. Belong to Josh Schwartz and Fox and the song to Elton John!
Chapter 6: Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word
"Summer!" I turned on my belly trying to go on sleeping.
"Summer!" I put a pillow over my head.
"Summer!" Someone poked me into my side.
Slowly I opened one eye and looked at the clock radio next to my bed. It was half past four in the morning. What the fuck?
"Summer! Wake up!" Seth tried to pull away my blanket, which I held onto tightly. "Suuuummeeeer!"
"You suck!" I mumbled, my head still in the pillows. "Go dying!"
The mattress sank as he laid down next to me. In the bona fide, that he left me alone,finally, I relaxed and closed my eyes again. But then he started to remove the blanket of my back to kiss his way down along my spine. I felt a shiver going over my whole body.
"It's 4:30 in the morning... why don't you sleep like normal people?", I murmured, although I sighed under the touch of his lips.
"We have to leave soon if we wanna make it in time." His hand rested on my butt while he kissed my shoulders.
"In time for what?" I asked.
"An awesome sunrise out on the ocean."
"Sunrise my ass! I need my beauty sleep!"
"But Suuummeeer...!" He sounded like a little boy.
"Give it up, Cohen!"
"Summer."
"No."
"Summer!"
"Fuck you!"
"Summer... it's our last day together..."
Guilt... argh! Of course! He's Jewish.
Slowly and sighting I raised myself and crawled out of the bed. I threw Seth a death glare. He smiled at me pleased.
"You suck!" I told him before exiting to the bathroom.
"Love you too!", he yelled after me.
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One hour later I sat on a blanket on the deck of a sailing yacht. I wore nothing but a transparent wrap beach dress and a tiny bikini panty.
Seth sat down next to me and handed me my cocktail. He was also wearing nothing but boxers.
"So you gotta admit... this was totally worth the getting up so early wasn't it?"
I took a look around over the orange colored heaven and ocean. As much as I hated to admit it - he was right.
"Yeah... it's amazing", I looked over to him, he was about to say something. "If you say 'I told you so' , you're going for a swim!"
"Like you could throw me other the rail..."
"You wanna take your chances?", I lifted one eyebrow.
He rolled himself on top of me, kissing me passionated: "No I'm fine..."
"Good boy!", I mumbled into his mouth while our making out grew heavier.
"Did you think of condoms?" I asked him when he started to nibble on my neck and tried to untie my dress.
"Again: Why can't you take the pill?"
"Do you remember anything we talked about during the last two days?"
He scratched his head.
"How I get hair loss if I take it?"
His face got a little bit confused while his index finger traced over my arm: "I was a little distracted... maybe we shouldn't have talked when you were naked..."
He glanced down my body and stopped at a certain spot - or better two certain spots.
"Stop staring at my boobs, Cohen!"
"If you don't want me to stare then why are you wearing a transparent dress?"
I screwed my mouth.
Touché.
I didn't answer, instead I snuggled up against his chest enjoyed the sight over the ocean: "So you got anything else planned for today or are we gonna spend another day in bed?"
"Wait a second, Summer... are you saying you have no witty response for me?"
My elbow met his ribs in a, for him at least, very sore way: "Response enough?"
With a nod he rubbed over the hurt area: "Definitive... So I know we talked about sailing to Catalina but I thought we'd meet to many people there so...: Did you ever hear of the Pink Moment?"
"Oh my God!", I sat up straight, earning another confused glance.
"What did I say?", he sat up next to me.
"We totally forgot about Coop! And I left the door to the house bar open! This won't be pretty!"
"She's quite the boozer isn't she?", he was kissing my shoulder.
"Yeah... it began sometime in High school when everyone started drinking, just that she didn't stop..."
"Well we can check up on her when we get the car later."
I nodded my head: "Yeah. That would be great. So tell me more about this Pink Moment..."
"Well it's a natural spectacle, up in Ojai. During the sunset, for a moment, everything glows pink. I thought I take you there... I know it's kind of cheesy, but--"
I cut him off by kissing him: "It sounds amazing. But the sun just risen... what are we going in the meantime?"
"You mean apart from spending three hours in the car until we get there?"
"Yes."
"Well... you tell me...", he grin got bigger.
Kissing, we sank back onto the blanket...
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"You know... you have a great profile."
"Thank you?", I was leaned up on my elbow on the blanket, across from Seth who was brooding over a drawing.
"That was a compliment, right?"
He laughed brightly: "Yes, it was."
"What are you doing anyway?", I try to look into his sketch block.
"I try to draw you! So don't move!"
"You're drawing me? Really?", My smile got even bigger. "Can I have it when you're finished?"
"I was actually thinking about keeping it... you know... to remember... but if you... I mean...", he handed me the paper. "Here. You can have it."
I shook my head: "Finished already! Wow. You're good! Listen if you wanna--"
"I won't need some stupid drawing to remember you!", he smiled. "Besides... I can paint a thousands of that just by heart."
"You're so sweet", I crawl in his direction and put a peck on his lips.
A whole punch of kisses later I lay in his arm and take a look at the drawing again.
"You know... I kind of look like Kate Winslet in Titanic... apart from the necklace of course."
"You're right. And we're on a ship/boat... should we worry!", I noticed how he smelled my hair and couldn't help but smile.
"You like Coconut?", I asked, while burying my head at his neck so he couldn't see me giggle.
I can't tell how much I loved the tangled look on his face every time I tried to tease him and he didn't get it.
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Some time later both of us sat in a rental car and driving our way along the coast of California. The warm breeze blew through my hair. I felt like I was somewhere in the middle of an old Hollywood movie.
Putting on my Gucci sun glasses I glanced over to Seth who was behind the steering wheel. Over the gear stick our hands were entangled while we shared a smile.
If I only could've stopped time then. This was all I ever imagined. I closed my eyes and leaned back on the head rest.
"I love you." Although it was barley I whisper I know he had heard it.
"I love you, too."
Our hands parted only to entwine tighter.
"I really had fun today. Just the two of us out on the ocean." I told him smiling. "Just in case I forget to tell you later."
"I really enjoyed it, too."
"Glad to here...", my head rested against his shoulder.
"It might be me.. but tomorrow hangs over our heads like the sword of Damocles, doesn't it?"
"Kind of yeah. As hard as I try I just can't seem to get it out of my head that we can't see each other anymore, tomorrow."
"You know ... I wouldn't have to leave, right away. I could stick around for a little while. We could meet. Still see each other."
"And wait till somebody sees us? Taylor gave me a lecture about adultery the moment she saw us together... should I just wait for Zach to find out and take the kids away from me?"
"Of course not. ", he shoved his sunglasses down and looked at me intensely. "It's just that I never met somebody like you before. I never loved somebody like I love you before."
"Well, we've managed to live without each other our whole life, didn't we?", I tried to joke.
"That was before I knew how it is to live with you. We shouldn't have to give that up now."
I stayed silent and looked onto the floor of the car. Studying the look of the foot mat. He pushed the glasses back to its place and focus on the road again.
"If only we met each other sooner, like in high school", I smiled sadly.
"You know, my parents once thought about moving to Newport, I was about five, when my Granny got sick. But somehow it didn't work out..."
"What happened?"
"Granny died. There was no need for us after that."
"Imagine if you guys really would've lived here. Maybe we would be married now! What are the odds?"
"Oh... you so wouldn't have talked to me in high school!", he laughed and rubbed my knee.
"Why? What were you like when you were in high school?"
"Pretty much of a geek. I liked-- actually I like comic books, video games---", he looked into my face. "You'll never sleep with me again, will you?"
I only smiled, not really getting into his comment: "Do you have any siblings?"
"I've got a adopted brother, Ryan. My father is a PD and he once brought him home... it's kind of a long story."
"We still have an two hour drive ahead of us. Tell me."
"I'm sorry Sum, but I don't know if I can do that", his voice got kind of weird.
"Do what? I'm sorry. Did I touch a sore spot? Don't you wanna talk about it?", I looked at him worried.
"No, I do... but, I don't think I can put a whole lifetime between now and tomorrow."
"Oh... so we're back at that subject, again..."
Purposeless my voice got all bitchy again. Why couldn't he just let go? We were spending a wonderful day. We were able to act like every other couple cos nobody knew us here.
"I'm sorry, but... this what we have... it's so... it just shouldn't have to end, that's all", he tried to take my hand in his again but I pulled away.
"No. It has to end. As much as I like doing this with you... it just isn't right!"
I crossed my arms in the pitiful try, to let him touch me as less as possible. Which was stupid, because I didn't need to be in physical touch to feel close to him.
"How do you know that this isn't right? Maybe your marriage isn't the right thing."
"You don't know a shit about my marriage!", I told him angrily.
"I know that it can't be so great if you slept with me after knowing me for not even two days." The look on his face told me that he regretted that sentences the second he finished it, but I ignored that fact and decided to just be pissed.
"Turn the car, right now!", I said having a hard time to hold back tears of rage and hurt.
"Summer. Listen..."
"I said: Turn. The. Car! I wanna go home right now!" I said without looking at him. The last part wasn't true. I didn't want to go home. Cos going home would mean that all of this would end now. It would be like waking up.
And it meant I would have to face Zach soon. And I didn't want to do that. Every time I would look at Zach I would just compare him to Seth. And that would me remind me how much would miss him.
It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word
But even though I couldn't forgive Seth for direct the way I fell in love with him against me.
"Summer."
He tried to to get a response from me, but this time I didn't even look at him. Stubborn I watched the landscape outside.
"Fine. Whatever." With those words he made a turn and drove back to Newport.
TBC
A/N: So what do you think? Kind of angsty at the end?
Well, prepare for some real angst in the next chapter. Oh, and I don't know if I mentioned it yet, but this story will only have 2-3 more chapter. But, I'm already planning two other story's. You could also say I want to make it an trilogy. But don't you think that "trilogy", just sounds so melodramatic?
So please review! I'll do my best to keep the updates coming as fast as possible!
Love ya all!
Christina
Next chap:
"What'll I do?"