Miranda's Life

I don't own anything from As Told By Ginger. I do own this plot.

Live, Learn, Crash, and Burn are a literal summary of my life. How sad that most of us have to learn the hard way.

Chapter 9 Talking Part I

My drug induced sleep was almost relaxing…and I do mean almost. I open one of my eyes. Much to my surprise and slight disappointment my dad was still there half asleep. His pale face was proof enough he had been here all night and not slipped away to his buddies. There's more than likely a part of me that won't forgive him completely but maybe I can find my way out of the fog. Who knows maybe I might get a lesson that I have needed in a long time. I see my father dearest waking up and here comes the fun part actually getting conversation. Kids don't try this without a special mental permit, or at least someone to help you start with out causal talk. We just stare at each other for at least an hour; you know what's bad I'd rather be dealing with Fautley right now.

I shift my weight and dad clears his throat. I guess I might as well speak there's no way he'd be the first to take the fall. I ask, "Did you sleep well Sir?"

He responds, "Private I've been thinking a lot about your mom. Also the day we both lost her."

I feel tears slowly begin to fall and ask, "What did you find out?"

He lets out a shakey breath and says, "I haven't been much of a father these past years. You're also angry with me so go ahead and have your say. Don't hold back pri…Miranda."

That really shocked so much out of me, not only was he willing to face my fury but he actually called me by my first name and not private. So I let him have it.

"DAD I ONLY HATE THAT YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BE ANGRY! NOT TO MENTION NEVER SHOWING YOU CARE! CAUSING ME TO HAVE TO GIVE UP A LOT TO TRY TO KEEP THE HOUSE AND YOUR MEANINGLESS COLLECTION OF GUNS! I HAVE BEEN ROBBED A CHILDHOOD AND MOST OF MY TEEN YEARS WITH NOTHING BUT SPITE! I AM TURNING OUT TO BE AS EMOTIONLESS AS YOU! IT REALLY CUTS TO KNOW I HAVE NOTHING REALLY TO HOLD ON TO, MY FRIENDS HAVE MOVED ON, I BARELY HAVE A FAMILY WORTH LIVING FOR PLEASE TELL ME WHAT ELSE DO I HAVE?"

He just looks at me and walks over to me. The next thing he does surprises me, he hugs me which is something he hasn't done in years. He says, "You have me, and that girl Courtney, maybe that Ginger girl you got into trouble once before. I'm sorry pr…Miranda I lost my heart and taught you how to be strong maybe too strong. Maybe now we can start over but I don't expect you to forgive me either just start with talking to me a little more."

"Yeah right sir why would those two want to still be my friends?"

Suddenly I see Courtney, Fautley, Chad, Mipsy, and Fautley's pose. I wouldn't have believed it unless I saw it with my own two eyes but here they are. I ask, "What are you all doing here? Especially you FAUTLEY and your do good gang last time I checked we weren't on the best of terms."

She says, "We were all worried about you and yes including me. I know Miranda but you're still a person maybe someday we could be friends. If you want to still be my enemy then that's fine with me just so you know you do have friends."

They all nod and Dad seems to be shooing them away after they just got here. Of course in a way I'm glad dad did that I know once I get back to school there will be a lot of questions but for now I'll recover in peace. Courtney walks over and whispers "See you when you come back to school okay."

I just manage to nod not sure if I would be able to speak. I thought they would all forget and move on. My dad has that told you so smile on his face and asks, "Still think there's nothing to really live for Miranda?"

"Ok S…DAD DON'T BE GETTING SMUG YET I STILL HAVE TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND FACE A BUNCH OF QUESTIONS!"

He just laughs until the tears begin to fall. He whispers, "You have your mothers temper but you've learned how to turn people away from me." I for the first time in a very long time feel love, anger, and peace of mind all at once. I just let out a grunt of confusion not knowing what to do or say at this point. Maybe there is hope after all even if it takes a long time maybe I can start again. Thanks mom now I know what you were doing now. You were right now I can restart my life and get out of this black camouflage.

I hope dad and I can still feel you around.

For those that care here's the newest chapter. I'm going to finish this and polish this up for once I'm going to do what I set out to do. Review or just read it doesn't matter hope you enjoy it whoever cares. Thanks so much for your patience! Maybe I'll do something else with my stories who knows. Thanks for having me.