A/N This was another one shot that I wrote awhile ago but I thought it was appropriate for my current story Strong Enough.
X Chapter Three- My Favorite Mistake X
It had been another long night at Seattle Grace. Her second prom had turned out just as bad as the first one. No one ever said being a surgeon was easy, but dealing with that on top of a crumbling marriage was taking its toll on Addison. She knew that there had been a lot of mistakes on both her and Derek's parts but she just wanted to move forward with her life and stop dwelling on the past, but when Derek sprinted off after Meredith she knew the end had finally come. The whole ride home not much was said. Addison had made up her mind what her next step had to be.
I
woke up and called this morning,
the tone of your voice was a
warning
that you don't care for me anymore.
I made up
the bed we sleep in.
I looked at the clock when you creep in.
It's 6 AM and I'm alone.
Did you know when you go it's
the perfect ending,
to the bad day I was just beginning.
When
you go, all I know is you're my favorite mistake.
Derek had an early surgery so he had left before her alarm clock went off. He hadn't even made any effort to say goodbye. She missed the days before they had fell apart, when he would shower her with kisses and love before he went to work.
Your
friends act sorry for me.
They watch you pretend to adore me.
But I am no fool to this game.
Richard
had been a good friend through out all of the mess. He had offered
her enough to give her a chance to stay and attempt to salvage my
marriage. Everyone in the hospital knew that Derek still wasn't
over Meredith and though it killed her she kept the resentment to her
self. The crazy part was she actually like Meredith. She couldn't
blame the intern for falling for Derek, when she had so many times.
Now
here comes your secret lover,
she'll be unlike any other,
until
your guilt goes up in flames.
It seemed like there wouldn't be a day gone by that she wouldn't catch Derek looking at her with longing and desire and she knew it ate him up that he couldn't hold her. Many times while she lay in bed next to him did she wonder why he chose her when he wasn't over her. Maybe he felt obligation or guilt for some of the things that had happened in New York. But in one moment Derek had given up all the progress they made and went back to where his heart clearly always was.
Did you know when you go it's the perfect
ending,
to the bad day I'd gotten used to spending.
When you
go, all I know is you're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite
mistake.
Addison knew that she had to let him go. Because even though he was physically there he still wasn't emotionally there and that is what a marriage needed to survive. Maybe a clean break is what she needed to help both of them.
Well
maybe nothing lasts forever,
even when you stay together.
I
don't need forever after, but it's your laughter won't let me go
so
I'm holding on this way.
Addison packed up her things taking time to memorize everything. She knew deep down that she had a long hard road before her and it wasn't going to be easy. She left a letter on the table for Derek.
Dear
Derek,
Did
you know could you tell you were the only one
that I ever loved?
Now everything's so wrong.
Did you see me walking by, did it
ever make you cry?
Now you're my favorite mistake
Yeah you're
my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake.
Love Always Addison