-1Waiting
A/N: its kind of a sequel to The One Who Makes Me Smile. Just a short fic that randomly came into mind. I know, I still need to finish chapter 3 of Absence, but I've been busy. And this is just begging to be written.
Disclaimer: I don't own these characters.
Things are getting better. We are talking a bit more. That is, when his computer decides to work properly. He finally got a new one. We went out with our other friends the other night and things were almost back to where they used to be. It was nice.
I'll admit, my heart is breaking. I found out that he has a date tonight. It is with some girl that he works with. I'm grateful to Eriol though, because my Little Wolf never would have told me. Not that I can blame him, I wouldn't tell him if I was going on a date either. That's if I were to date.
It isn't so bad. I mean, I will get over it. I wish him good luck, because I know I could never wish anything bad on a friend. That really would break my heart. I can't help but say that I wouldn't mind if it didn't work out. If it doesn't, I won't hear anything about it from him. Or from Eriol, because if it doesn't work out, Syaoran will never say a word about it. If it does work out, and they decide to date, I'll find out soon enough. Eriol will tell me. He's good about that. Eriol is by far one of my kindest friends. He's perceptive enough to know what I feel for Syaoran and kind enough to want to save me the shock if the date works out for Syaoran.
Eriol is also kind enough to give me the choice of whether or not this girl is included into our group or not. And I'm going to let her hang out with us, if they date. I will be kind to her as long as she is kind to me. But I refuse to act any different toward Syaoran. Its not like I hit on him constantly or anything like that. We flirt, but we always have. Its more like verbal sparring than flirting anyway.
So today I went out shopping. I made Tomoyo go with me, even though she'd have preferred to make my clothes herself. I told her that it is more satisfying to shop when you are upset and need to stay busy than to stand around hoping you don't get stuck with a stray pin. We shopped and I attempted to forget about what is probably going on right now, as I am writing this. It will be ok, it always is. That is all I have to hold on to.
I think both Tomoyo and Eriol are a little bit disappointed by the news of Syaoran's date. They wanted to see us together. Eriol is constantly making comments to remind us of the other. I suppose that is his way of playing match maker. Tomoyo got a great picture of us the other day though. Syaoran and I were sitting beside each other, and we both say her hand move at the same time. We followed the hand up, only to be blinded by a flash. I can't wait to see the looks on our faces…and to steal a copy for myself.
It will all be ok. Maybe if I say it again, I will feel better. It will all be ok. Well, I'm a bit heartbroken. But I've decided this, I've waited this long, I can wait a little bit longer. It won't kill me.
One day maybe I'll have the guy I am in love with. Until then I'm stuck waiting, being a friend. And that is survivable.