The eyes of a unwanted girl

Ok my second story! And don't worry; Change Of Life will be updated soon. Just as soon as I get my creative butt working on chap 7 and I will soon. Hopefully

But ok enjoy the new story and do not think on the title b/c it will be eventually explained. I hope.

Ok we all know how the disclaimer works, so yah I don't own HP blah blah but I own Lady Rache, and her family and I don't own any name from the Sevenwaters Trilogy (Which is an awesome book series. I suggest u read them)

Ok people

This is normal speech

This is a vision

This is a thought

This is raven speech

As for the songs on last chapter:

They were:

Papa Roach- Take Me

((Wow not many songs that chapter))

Chapter 9: Halloween week part 2 and reveling the past


((A loud bang was heard and Jamie rushed into the room wearing a large red tutu, with his hair in tight pink curls and on his feet, bright pink ballerina shoes.

" ANNE! YOU WILL PAY FOR THIS!" Jamie screamed before racing out of the room.

" Faze 1: complete. Lets move on to faze 2 shall we?" Anne said, looking up at Maggie, who grinned back.

" Oh we shall. What's faze 2?" Maggie leaned in and was astounded at the plan but agreed. She would get revenge for all the times Jamie pranked her.))


Anne was strolling along the pathway that goes to Charms and felt a sudden jolt in her arm. She looked down and saw on the bottom edge of the hallway were tiny light and running from them, tiny silver lines.

Anne chuckled and whispered, " Ah Jamie, you fool. Pranking me? Foolish indeed."

She strolled out of the trap, only to appear five minutes later, seeming now not to notice the trap.

Jamie silently chuckled and set it off and was greeted with shocked yell and the smoke cleared to find a very angry person in a rat suit.

Jamie came out to admire his work.

There was a chuckling at the end of the hallway and Jamie looked up.

Anne was leaning against the wall for support because she was laughing so hard.

" Wait, Anne…how..but..whos in the suit?" Jamie was stunned and watched as Anne raised her hand and did a quick flick of her wrist and pointed to the victim. A very angry and stunned Severus Snape stood there, rat suit and all.

Anne walked up to her father, ignoring the clearly scared Jamie.

" You know father, this works." Anne was patting Severus's suit. He glared at her then turned to Jamie.

" Remove it." He snarled.

Jamie removed the spell and was cowering in the very frightening presence of the potions master, while Anne was in a silent fit of giggles.

" Anne, curb that laughing now." Severus looked over at her.

" Yes father." Anne replied, holding down her laughs and having difficulty.

' Father, don't kill him. It was my fault, I mean I did make you look like me.'

' You did what? How?'

' Oh, something Liadan taught me. I have been waiting to test it out.' Anne had moved very far away from her father, who glared at her.

Around the corner, Finbar and Conor came walking but stopped when they saw them.

" Conor! Hello. How very nice to see you." Anne rushed over to him and hid behind him. " Hide me." She whispered.

" Do I want to know why?" he whispered back.

" Yah well lets just say that you want to be in the hallway in like five minutes." Anne was no glancing at her watch and watching the stairway behind Severus. As if on cue, Harry walked up but slowed when he saw Severus and Jamie.

Anne pulled Finbar and Conor completely out of the hallway and shouted

" MAGGIE NOW!"

A loud pop was heard and after the pink dust settled down, the three peeked around the corner and what they saw made them fall into a fit of giggles.

Standing where the three men had been, now stood three men dresses in ballerina outfits from the play Swan's Lake. Each one had a tutu with a swan's head up front and when the smoke had dissipated completely, Anne saw three angry glares as they marched towards her. But she simple raised her hand and snapped her fingers and music played and against their will, the three wanna be ballerinas danced and danced, sending the other three into a spasm of laughter. After awhile, sound was heard and Anne stood up and canceled the spell and the three men were returned to normal, but Severus was glowering at her and Anne felt a slight ping of dread. Maggie came up behind her and was laughing her head off.

" Oh, Anne that was bloody brilliant." She looked at Severus and at once stopped.

" Something tells me we should leave, caritas." Conor whispered into Anne's ear, who nodded.

Although they were retreating, Anne could not help but break out into song.

"An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think
A little too ironic...and yeah I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out"

Anne stopped and turned to Finbar.

" Hey, Fin, I need to talk to you about something."

" Ok, talk away little one." Finbar replied, stopping.

" Not here. Later, up on the astronomy tower, around midnight ok?" she said in a hush. Finbar nodded.


The day passed uneventful, because Jamie had finally given up and was now part of Anne's guard again, silently watching her and making sure there weren't any traps for him. Luckily for Anne, she didn't have potions until Monday and hopefully, Severus wouldn't seek her out.

She was walking to class when a small, gray owl appeared in front of her and it was holding a scrap of parchment in its claws.

Anne took the paper and the owl took off. She opened the letter.

' RAVEN.

Come Sunday night on top the astronomy tower.'

Anne chuckled.

" None of my business? Well, my little snake, what turned you around."?


She was leaving early from the feast because she was plain bored. Harry wasn't there and without Liadan there to give the blessing, it just wasn't a Halloween.

She had effetely avoided her father and was on her way to the astronomy tower. It may only be 10:30, but she just needed fresh air. She sang a little tune that Liadan sang every Halloween night for as far back as Anne knew her.

"Double, double, toil and trouble
Fire burn and cauldron bubble
Double, double, toil and trouble
Something wicked this way comes

Eye of newt and toe of frog
Whole of bat and tongue of dog
Adder's fork and blind worm's sting
Lizard leg and owlet's wing

Double, double, toil and trouble
Fire burn and cauldron bubble
Double, double, toil and trouble
Something wicked this way comes

In the cauldron boil and bake
Fillet of a fenny snake
Scale of dragon, tooth of wolf
Witches mummy's maul and gaulf

Double, double, toil and trouble
Fire burn and cauldron bubble

Double, double, toil and trouble
Fire burn and cauldron bubble
Double, double, toil and trouble
Something wicked this way comes"

She arrived and sat there waiting to talk to Finbar about what had happened between her and Draco.


" Anne, so you're telling that it wasn't a normal vision. That it seemed your were in his head and watching his memories?" Finbar asked, staring at Anne, who was standing up by the edge of the astronomy tower.

" It was weird. One minute he was talking to me, but I couldn't heat him the next thing I know, a green cloud surrounds us and I'm watching the memory. I knew it wasn't a vision simply because I felt no pain, none at all. I think I freaked him out. As soon as the cloud dissipated, he ran off. But I told him if he ever needed to talk about what was in the memory that I was here. Regardless of the house we were in, I told him that I would help. Then I got a letter from him. Sunday night, up here, but you guys are leaving Monday and I don't want you to think I need a guard. You and the others will need you rest."

" I will be watching, Anne. Regardless of your worries, we need to watch you. Mother's orders and our own." Finbar now stood at her side and was gazing at her mirror ring.

" Ah, mother. I should have known." Anne glanced up and noticed that Finbar's attention was on the ring.

" What is it?" She asked.

" When is the last time you meditated?"

" Two weeks ago, why?"

" Do it now. Something is telling me you should. I think it may hold answers to you're questions about Conor and maybe any other questions." Finbar's voice sounded different, almost ancient.

With that said, Anne moved to the corner edge and sat on top of the wall and was breathing deeply and she fell into herself and after five minutes of no breathing, Anne opened her eyes and they were a deep red. She was in full seer mode. She gazed down into her ring, the moon crown pulsing.


'She was standing on a pillar and standing beside her was her Conor, eyes closed. He was sleeping. Anne gently touched his features and his eyes snapped open.

" Anne, you must protect your mind. For the dark one plans on using you to hurt Harry."

" Conor, I know how to protect my mind."

" No you don't. To truly protect your mind, you must forgive the fates."

" Never. If the fates had been kind, I would not have these blasted visions and maybe my mom would be alive or even better, if the fates had let him, maybe father could have stopped grandfather from forcing the dark mark on him. Maybe mom and he could have gotten married and I wouldn't…."

" You never would have met me or Lady Liadan."

" Oh, Conor, forgive me. I love you, but you must understand that I will always wish for that fantasy. I love you Conor and I don't know what I would do with out you."

" I know you do, owl, but the future always changes."

" Liadan told me that our path is always changing. She could never tell where we would end up, like she can tell with Jamie and Maggie. I believe that why I cannot tell if the vision was true or not."

" Interesting, Jamie & Maggie? Who would have guessed. I wouldn't tell them, they want to deny their feelings."

Conor moved towards Anne who looked like she would pass out.

" Anne, no matter what I am here for you." He pulled her in a hug and them he faded.

She was again standing by herself, but soon she was standing outside of a pool of mist, inside, two younger versions of Lilly Evans and Severus Snape.

Severus was weeping and angrily throwing his books against the wall.

" Sev, what's wrong?" Lily asked, dropping her bag and rushing forward.

He looked up at her, his eyes red and his hands in fists.

" It's my father. He has heard that I am not as sullen as I used to be. He has said that if I don't hex somebody soon, he will force me to get…"

He stopped and looked away.

" Get what? Sev, tell me. I'm worried about you." Lilly now had his hands in hers and was staring into his ebony eyes.

" Make me get the dark mark. I don't want it Lilly. I would put you in risk." He cupped her cheek and kissed her.

" I know you don't." Lilly said when he pulled away. " Go ahead and hex James. He has been annoying lately anyway."

" You sure?" Severus asked.

" Totally. James and Sirius have been complete prats lately and they need a little to stop." Lilly winded her arms around him and laid her head on his chest, Severus hugging her tight.

(Several months later)

" Hey Sev, you in here?" Lilly called out, closing the door to the room that they had made their own last year. She heard angry cursing in the next room, along with a loud crashing sound and she rushed in to see several broken mirrors on the floor.

Severus was standing in the middle of the room, his knuckles bleeding. Lilly rushed forward, grabbing his left arm, only to have him shrink away in pain. At once, Lilly pulled the sleeve up and staring out at her was a fresh new dark mark.

" Oh Sev, when did it happen?" Lilly was crying and Severus looked at her through blood-shot eyes.

" Two weeks ago. My father placed me under the Imperius Curse. He took me in front of Voldemort and told him that I was ready. I don't remember much after that. I woke up and it was there. Lilly, we can't do this. I love you and I refuse to put you in any danger." Severus walked away from her and stood by the window.

" Sev…I don't understand." Lilly was on her knees and tears ran freely down her face.

" Leave, forget about me. We can't be together. I simply refuse to place you any danger." Unknown to Lilly, Severus was weeping.

" Promise me something, Sev and I will go." Lilly was now standing, the tears forgotten.

" What, Lill?" He turned to her, his face drying as well.

" Promise me that no matter what, you will stay alive." She was in front of him and grasped his hands in hers.

He nodded. " You have to promise me that you will come to me if ever you need anything. I will help as much as I can. But from now on, I have to curse, hex, and insult everyone, including you. So I apologize now."

Lilly nodded and turned to walk out. " Goodbye Severus."

" Goodbye, Lilly."

She walked out but hesitated at the door.

She softly whispered " I love you." And quickly left the room, tears again falling, but silently.

Severus fell to a heap and was weeping until he stood, the familiar mask donning his features.

Severus was seated under the trees in the shadows, not to far from all the other students. He could clearly see Lilly, James and all his friends.

A familiar pang of hurt went through him as he watched Lilly dotting smiles on everyone but him. A song rose around him, yet no one could hear, not even Severus.

"I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why she's not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of him with you
It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why she's not here?

I hate myself for losing you

And oh, I don't know what to do

Not sure that I'll pull through

I wish I knew

And oh, I don't know what to say

And I don't know anyway

Anymore

No, no

I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why she's not here?
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why she left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring her back again?

I hate myself for loving you."

Severus got up and left, leaving behind a broken heart as James noticed him and at once pranked him….'


Anne launched out of the memory and was surprised to see not Finbar standing in front of her, but Severus.

" Daddy?" Anne was less coherent than normal and almost fell over the side had it not been for her father catching her and pulling her to the ground.

" Anne, what is it?" He asked, checking to see if she was harmed in any way.

" I know why…why you and mum didn't get married. It's because grandfather forced the dark mark on you. You didn't want to risk her life, so you sent her away, even if it broke your heart." Anne was crying into her father as he pulled her closer and gently calmed her.

" How do you know that?" He whispered as Anne moved back.

" I saw it in the memory. When I meditate, the visions I get are different then visions that come at random. I see memories of whatever my mind is wondering on. For a while, I have been wondering whyyou and mum didn't marry. Now I know, and father I don't care that you have the mark. You're not evil and you don't support that madman. You kept your promise to mum and I am glad you did. I don't know what I would do if I found out my father was gone." Anne was leaning against the man and he pulled her into a hug.

They sat there for a awhile, Anne starting to fall asleep, Severus's thoughts on Lilly. Because of this and Anne and Severus bond, the emotions he was feeling passed to Anne. A song floated from her as Severus found himself humming along.

"I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like I'm sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel, that is the question
But I forget, you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect to bitter folks
And while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real, so much to question
And never dare make up the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(No more sad voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remembering is just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
the stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you

And it's the stars
the stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you

The stars
the stars that lie"

Severus chuckled when the song ended. His daughter never ceased to amaze him.

" I see, well as much as this little moment seems nice, you should be in your dormitory young lady." He chuckled as she curled into him, sleep over taking her.

" No, I want to stay with you daddy." She said, sleepily curling up deeper.

Severus chuckled again and carried her back to his quarters and laid her down on the couch, covering her up before heading into his own bedroom.

He stared at her for a moment.

"Lilly…"

He went into his bedroom and fell asleep.


Severus awoke with a loud banging on his door and heard a very sleepy voice from the living room.

" Coming coming. I'm coming! Hold your horse." Anne voice wafted into his room and he bolted out of bed and stopped her before she could open the door.

" Hmm. Dad?" Anne was still ¾ asleep.

" Yah it's me. Get back to the couch." He ordered, gently pushing the teen back towards the couch.

" 'K. On my way." She staggered and fell into the couch. Her eyes were only open a crack

Severus was not startled to find Jamie, Maggie, Finbar and Conor there waiting, looking ragged.

" Severus, have you seen…" Maggie stopped when she heard Anne from behind Severus.

" Morning guys. How was the Halloween feast? I miss anything after I left?" Anne was starting to wake up, but she was still only half awake.

Sorcha flew in and landed beside her.

" Mistress, where have you been? We have been worried sick, including me."

" Sorry Sorcha. I didn't mean to worry you."

She said to the raven (A/N: I love that name…oh crap, im said I wouldn't bring my love life into the stories) scratching her head.

" Anne! Is this where you were all night?" Conor moved in and sat beside her.

Anne nodded and leaned against him. " Yah. I didn't want to go back to the dormitory last night, so dad let me stay here. You want to know something weird? I like the couch more then my bed." Anne pulled him back so she could rest against him and the couch.

The others had moved in and were standing around looking very grim. At once, the leader in Anne awoke and she was sitting straight and looked Jamie straight in the eye.

" Ok, what has got you guys all worked up and tense?"

" Anne, something happened last night. Something bad. And I am beginning to rethink about you staying here alone." Jamie said, avoiding her eyes.

Anne stood up. " Quite avoiding the question and tell me." She looked and sounded powerful, despite her wrinkled robes and frizzy hair.

" Ever hear about the Chamber of Secrets?" Conor asked, pulling Anne down again.

" Yah, I read about that in 'Hogwarts, A History.'" She responded, giving him a puzzling look.

" It has been opened again and Mrs. Norris was petrified. Harry, Ron and Hermione were instantly blamed, although their only second years." Severus said coolly. " But were soon cleared. They were at Nearly- Headless Nick's Halloween Party when it happened."

The thoughts were running around in Anne's head as she started pacing the space. She looked up at her father.

" Was there a pool of water around Mrs. Norris?" She asked, stopping.

" Yes, why?"

She started up again, muttering to herself. She finally stopped in front of the fireplace.

" From what I have read in several book, it has been made somewhat clear to me about what the 'monster within' is. I….I believe the creature may be a Basilisk. I mean it makes sense, the last time the chamber was opened, a girl died and it seemed like she died of the killing curse, expect it didn't seem right. They never figured it out and left the case wide open, but Basilisks tend to kill with their stare, but it has to be direct, so say that Mrs. Norris was looking into the pool of water and the Basilisk showed up behind her and gazed at her, boom, she's petrified." Anne looked up and saw five amazed glances. She looked up at her father and saw pride shining from his eyes and a warm feeling rose withi her chest.

She heard Jamie say something to Maggie.

" Someone has been doing extra credit."

" Anne are you sure about this?" Finbar asked.

" Not 100. I can't figure out how it got around and why it attacked Mrs. Norris. So for now, lets keep this between us ok?" She had that strong presence again that no one thought to say no.

" Ok, now to plan your last 2 days here, my loving siblings…and Conor." She wicked at him ad Maggie was stifling a giggle.

They all feared what she may have up her sleeve.

(( A/N: ok that was a long chapter. So what do you ppl's think?

Ok the Latin word meaning:

Caritas- Dearness ))