Her Smile Chapter 6 In Reality, an inuyasha fanfic

Author: Happy New year everyone! Let's give a warm welcome to 2006, year of the Dog - Inuyasha!

I should be hanged for lying...I'm very sorry but my vacation has make me so lazy...alas...um. (And this chapter was finished on Dec 30 but...well, they were doing a long site-maintenance thingy and school's back tomorrow and I'm getting busy...(sweatdrop)

Anyways...now that one of the huge events (yes there are more) is out of the way…let's get into the aftermaths you probably wondering why Kagome's attacked…. Well (snicker) Anyhoo those who's anxious to see Sess/Rin romance would have to wait…..those two aren't exactly going steady-fast type of people….just look at Inuyasha/Kikyo/Kagome love triangle in BOTH manga and anime…..gosh…...Well, sorry about non-action in this chappie, we get flashbacks in many perspectives...and some hints to important thingies...Well, no funny moments, I think...

Disclaimer: ………….I find this really tiring after 5 chapters…..I shall take a break from this statement XD

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Chapter 6 In Reality

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Rin knew they were heading back towards the apartment, but she could not see anything. Ayame and Bankotsu were both talking to her, but she couldn't hear anything. Both Jakotsu and Yurahad put comforting hands on her shoulders, but she couldn't feel anything.

She could only hear her friend's voice, see her dull eyes, and feel the blood tainted on her own hands.

All she could think of was one simple word: why?

Why Kagome? Why her? Why on her first mission?

But most importantly, how could she have let this happen?

The guilt is eating her insides, yet she could put up no resistance. It is her fault; she was late at meeting Sesshoumaru; she was petrified at just hearing gunshots; she caused nothing but trouble for Sesshoumaru and the result……Kagome is…Kagome is…..

Rin wanted to scream, she wanted to hit something simply to vent out her frustration, or just cry her emotions out. But she could do none of them; she just couldn't. Nothing she does could change the past.

Suikotsu's arrival brought Rin back to reality. Her blank stare came back to focus at the doctor's sweaty face, clearly fatigued. Rin then realized they are all sitting in the living room of Bankotsu's place, and that already 9 hours have already passed since the……attack. How time had passed so fast Rin couldn't figure out, but she gulps anxiously awaiting Suikotsu's verdict. Kouga looked both furious and fearful, and the rest of themare just concerned since they don't know Kagome personally.

"The girl……the girl is fine," Suikotsu pants, a tired but pleased smile on his gentle face. A collective gasp of reliefis the response, yet Rin is still troubled. There is always a 'but', and she have to face the consequences since she was the cause of all this……

"However, I know not how long it would take for the girl to recover, as I barely managed to stop her bleeding…..she had lost too much blood as the result of a few blade wounds and……claw marks," Suikotsu explains a bit hesitant about the 'claw marks'. Rin's breathing hitches Suikotsu continues solemnly, "The girl has probably seen her family attacked right in front of her eyes, it must be too much her mind to take……so expect the fact she would a bit unstable mentally...or rather distant."

Kouga slams his fist on the table, roaring, "I'LL KILL HIM! I'LL KILL WHOEVER THE BASTARD THAT HARM MY KAGOME! HOW DARE HE! HOW DARE HE? SHE WAS OF NO CONNECTION WITH US! WHY THE FU--" Ayame puts her arms around his shoulders, trying to calm him down. It hurts. She knows Kouga would never see her this way, as he has always talked about how he loves this Kagome girl……yet, she is content at just being his friend…to be with him. And as his friend, she shall comfort him and stop him from doing anything brash.

"It's my fault…….," Rin murmurs. Despite her dislike to Kouga, she could see the guy in pain in his worry for the one he loves - her best friend. Everyone all turns to stare at her, and Bankotsu starts, "Rin, it's not……"

Unable to cope with the guilt anymore, she sobs hysterically, "IT'S ALL MY FAULT! NO MATTER ANYONE SAYS I KNOW IT'S ME! IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN ME…..my parents, my adoptive parents…..and now, my best…friend……if only….if only I wasn't late….if only I'm stronger……I…I…" She no longer cares that she is crying profusely; she admits that she is weak……they must be all disgusted at her, they must be appalled and maybe they would ignore her from now on……and at least they wouldn't get hurt too……

Bankotsu reached for her hand but she jerked away. Itis the same. Those people…… they blame her for her adoptive parents' deaths……she couldn't take it. She doesn't want to face any of their blames….she doesn't want to face Sesshoumaru….. Rin stifled a gasp; what if Inuyasha-tachi knows?

She is starting to hyperventilate and feeling claustrophobic; she runs to the safety of her room and the door slam echoes in the silent room. Theyare all stunned.

"Rin……" Kouga's anger is considerably subdued, and Ayame loosenes her arms around him. His sorrowful blue eyes avert from her sincere ones. Bankotsu is about to go after Rin when an all-too-cold voice cut in, "Don't. She needs time by herself."

Sesshoumaru is gazing at the sky, its color mixed with rare yellow and red to show the first sunlight of another day. None of them questions his suggestion. They all understand; for Sesshoumaru had been through the same ordeal.

Inuyasha yawned, scratching his head and looked around the empty street. Weird. Every time he comes to pick up Kagome, the street's always bustling with life, and the traffic is loud enough without the people talking.

Yet, today, there wasnothing.

Nothing is the exact word; it was as if it had turned into a ghost town. As Inuyasha turned the corner, getting closer to the Higurashi shrine, he couldn't help but suppress a shudder down his spine. His heart quickened, not liking this creepy feeling at all; his intuition is always right…….Inuyasha swallowed hard.

He grinned inwardly when he saw the familiar figures of Sango and Miroku coming from an opposite direction. However, his relief was short-lived when he saw fear on their faces.

"Inuyasha! The traffic's blocked! They've sealed the whole section off. My father wouldn't tell me anything…….. he mentioned something about Kagome's shrine. I keep phoning her but ……" Sango was close to hysterics, and Inuyasha felt his own face drained of warmth. Whenever Sango's father goes on action, it's always something big…… The three wordlessly ran towards the long stretch of stairs, not bothering to stop to gasp for breath.

They had to stop and blink when they saw the place before them; nothing, nothing but scorched remains of the buildings were left. They were all wiped out…..and the cement was slightly darker than usual, a bit reddish……

What happened?

Sango's father saw them, and quietly went over. He, as calm as possible, explained what happened, "It was nearly morning when we were contacted; you know Bankotsu, Sango? The part of the organization he works for had come to investigate a possible attack, and for some reason the investigation was delayed. When two of their members came, it was already too late, the whole Higurashi family was in critical condition; they've all been relocated to a safe……….."

Inuyasha screamed out in fury, "I'LL KILL THEM! I'LL KILL WHOEVER THE FCKING BASTARDS THAT DID THIS! I'LL KILL THOSE LUGS TOO! I'LL KICK THEIR FRIGGIN' ASSES ...KAGOME ……" He gasped, his mind in a turmoil, confused at what he should do to lessen the building tension in his chest.

Sango was crying quietly and Miroku was patting both of them, one arm around Sango's shoulder.

Inuyasha marched up to Sango's father and yanked his collar. The man was unfazed, as he was used to such behavior – after all, he himself would've lost control if his daughter is ever hurt inany ways.

"Tell me now. Where. Is. Kagome?" Inuyasha growled long and low, and Sango's father briefly wondered if he was a canine incarnate.

He brushed the snarling teen's hands off, and answered coolly, "I know not. It is all confidential. Bankotsu's men may know……"

Without further a due, Inuyasha darted off into the forest, taking the short cut to the apartment where they had seen Bankotsu just yesterday.

Sango glanced at her father, who nodded in silent permission. With such an event happening, school seemed like a distant memory. Both Sango and Miroku ran after their enraged friend, hoping to catch up and stop him from doing anything reckless. Really, he and Kouga are so similar sometimes.

"What a weird little kid. She doesn't speak or anything .It's really creepy," a faceless woman scoffed, her hand batting away an invisible fly. A small girl with empty hazel eyes continued to stare silently.

Another faceless woman ran out of the kitchen, yelling angrily, "It's you, isn't it, Rin? What a spoiled kid! You won't even work yet you dare to sneak into the kitchen to steal food!" She picked the girl up and spanked her quite hard.

Many gathered around the girl; at first they seemed quite unsure of this sudden hit, but gradually left

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Rin had curled into a fetal position, clutching her pillow like a lifeline. When memories started to leak out within the depths of her mind, she clamped her hands over her ears but it was no use.

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From that day on, whenever the food went missing, whenever anything got damaged, whenever anything happened, Rin would always be the blame. They all took every opportunity to beat her, hoping to at least get an reaction out of her but all she did was stare with those unnerving eyes.

She never knew why she came. She was so happy with Mother and Father but, as if abruptly, her memory ended and she was here, in this horrible place they called 'orphanage'. Every time she tried to think about her parents, her head would throb in pain, and she decided to let it be.

She never spoke either. She felt as if she would lose a part of herself if she did; she felt she had lost enough already. Everyone was distant, and they all ganged up on her. Yet Rin didn't complain; they all told her that she deserved it. Being just a small child, Rin decided it must be true, for it must be the reason for them to treat her thus.

Too many times she had overheard the so-called careladies whispering amongst themselves, "I heard that child has horrible karma! Anyone associated with her would definitely meet a gruesome ending! Look at her own parents, for example. How terrible…her mother was so marred that the body couldn't even be identified other than the DNA tracing from the blood, and they couldn't even find enough pieces of her father to bury! And that's not all either; the relatives had also came to visit and they were all dead as well in many different ways. The neighbors, the babysitters…all dead."

"Oh my god! What should we do! The government wouldn't let us and they would be suspicious if the kid suddenly 'goes missing'………unless, we get her to be adopted. Gosh, we're right all along – anything bad is bound to be her fault!"

Rin devoted her time to care for the flowers. There aren't any animals in the whole place, even with such beautiful gardens. None of them dared coming near the gardens, as they were 'defiled'by her. Flowers are nice; they remained pretty even though she had touched them, not 'melting away' like the other kids claimed. The flowers wouldn't beat her or holler at her either. Rin found them very comforting company indeed.

And the boy came. He quickly fit in with the notorious kids and became the leader despite being the youngest. Yet, he never harmed her physically other than just shoving her.After trying to get a reaction out of her, he was ready to destroy the flowers. Rin felt it right to speak then. She wasn't about to let her only friends being whacked by the boy's wooden sword.

She fought, or at least, tried to. The boy seemed too bored even to fight back. And she found out that he was merely curious at her silence. The boy was adopted not long after, but she was grateful to him.

After regaining the courage to speak, she felt better; she was still an outcast, but she was beaten less and they all tend to ignore that she existed.

She was adopted when she was ten. It was the best six months she ever had in her life. None of them beat her, instead they all comfort her and for the first time, Rin laughed. Carefree laugh, just simply voicing her emotion in such way. She was content.

And then, someone came. Guns. It was the first time Rin saw such object but when the first shot rang, she knew its purpose. When she woke up, the police had found her covered in blood yet her adoptive parents were nowhere in sight. They disappeared without a trace but Rin knew otherwise; they were both shot in front of her… how could she not remember?

And the gash on her stomach...she recalled standing in front of her motionless adoptive mother, and something slashed at her, rendering her unconscious. Yet, she would always remember those eyes...those hateful cobalt blue eyes. Perhaps this is the reason for Rin's instinctive dislike for Kouga, who was probably too young at that time to even be the murderer.

She knew beforehand what would happen once she went back to the orphanage. They still beat her once awhile. She did help with the labor in order to get food. She no longer cared and neither the any of them.

No one wanted to adopt her anymore, fearing what would happen. The caretakers avoided her like plague but yet still find reasons to beat her. Sometimes they give her extra rations at which Rin thought was out of pity, but she was wrong. They never give anything for free. In return, Rin had to do triple the work load and do a lot of other errands. She decided she as too gullible, yet she continued to be deceived whenever the other kids claimed to treat her with kindness; once they have her trust, they always stab her in the back in all ways possible. Rin had considered suicide on too many occasions, but her strong urge to avenge her adoptive parents had kept her going. It was only until when Rin was in grade 7 did the caretakers leave her alone.

She got a job a Renkotsu's bar secretively She sneaked out of the orphanage since they didn't really care what happened to her anyway. She had read a piece of paper that stated she needed to pay certain amounts of money in order to leave the place for good.

One day she was so tired that she actually fainted while walking down the stairways. It was very fortunate Kohaku had caught her, and got her to the infirmary. And Rin met Kagome and Sango. After years of betrayal, Rin had already given up on friendship and ignored their frienldly offers.Sango had too many sports clubs at the time, so it was Kagome who had asked about Rin. It was the first time anyone had asked her that and Rin was shocked. The kind blue-grey eyed girl had always been curious at Rin's quiet nature.Still, it took Rin awhile to trust Kagome and Sango, carefully adjusting to the new concept of 'friendship'. The rumour that they instantly formed a trio was partially true...since Rin became different after having people she could truely open up to.

After reaching the age of fifteen, Rin finally paid off the 'debt' and……she was free. With no more constant reminder of her past, she became a genki girl, always smiling, believing that by doing so, the past would be forgotten for good.

Of course, there are Inuyasha and Miroku, and they are always there for her whenever Kagome or Sango wasn't available. Well, actually, only Kohaku keeps her company, but Rin totally understands since the two couples need quality time together too instead of fussing over her. Interestingly, Rin and Inuyasha got along at first, rather than Kagome and him. Rin likes the way Inuyasha just expresses his thoughts so bluntly, so open to the whole world without any considerations; after all, Rin had been in the company of manipulative people for too long. The others are honest as well but...well, Inuyasha speaks in Inuyasha way, and it's hard to not trust him. Miroku's groping certainly took awhile to adjust to, yet his whole persona can be felt almost as a 'saint', other than his ...'hobby', of course.

Rin had never asked them for anything; when Kagome offered to let Rin stay at her shrine, Rin refused; when Miroku offered to pay the rent off for her, or even buy her an apartment, Rin still refused. She believed in earning things through her own efforts. Anything free comes with a string attached for something in return. The concept is so deeply imprinted in her mind that her friends couldn't persuade her otherwise. She knows they aren't that kind of people, yet Rin would always feel indebted, in her conscience.

But now……Renkotsu's dead. Kagome is hurt deeply. What's next? The only true friends...the only remaining family she has left...

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Bitter whispers continued to bite at her, "It's all your fault" "You are to blame." "You shouldn't even exist and everyone would've been alive." "You killed them." "It's all because of you." "Admit it." "You already knew deep down, on the inside, don't you? What would happen if you become too attached to someone?" "Your fault." "Yours to blame."

"Stop! Stop it….onegai…….yamette……" Rin sobbed into her pillow, covering her ears in futile attempt to block the voices from her mind, "please…… no more…… stop……"

A figure watching at her shaking form from the slightly ajar door. Sesshoumaru understood too well. Yet he did nothing .

People quickly moved out of the way as a silver streak sped through the crowd, darting here and there.

The look on Inuyasha's face was pure fury...words just aren't enough to describe his feelings. He saw nothing but red - his originally soft amber eyes are on the blink of hellish red. It is a family trait, that they all have canine-like eyes that turned red if something causes the owner to snap.

Exactly the state Inuyasha is in right now.

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"Watch where you're going, bitch!" Inuyasha growled irritably, not in the best of moods. He had expected the girl to cower in fear, or at least stammer a pitiful apology...

"No, YOU watch where you're going, jerk! You made me drop all these flyers!" Kagome yelled back, gesturing at the paper on the floor. Inuyasha was shocked into silence, but he quickly recovered by smirking, "Yeah, bitch? You think I care about that? Now apologize or else, bitch!"

He got another shock when the girl slapped him across the face, "Bitch this and that...3 times!I do have a name you know! My name is Kagome, K-a-g-o-m-e, and you're the one who bumped into me...now help me pick these up!"

Numbly, Inuyasha picked at the papers, his mind blank. Had he just listened to her commands?Another girl came, "Kagome-chan! Thank you so much for the flyers, I'll handle it now, thanks again!"

Inuyasha scowled when Kagome smiled and talked with the other girl as if nothing had ever happened. How did her mood change so fast? He touched his stinging cheek, half admiring her strength. He groaned when Miroku appeared out of nowhere, "Hey dude...woah, you got slapped? Who...oh my god, would you look at that nice ass?"

Inuyasha rolled his eyes when his perverted friend stared at Sango's ...er, backside. Miroku grinned boyishly, "I'm gonna introduce myself, wish me luck!" He strolled casually towards Sango. Inuyasha counted quietly, "3...2...1..." A loud slap was heard and Inuyasha sighed. He sneaked a glance at K-a-g-o-m-e and shrugged, deciding that he was merely surprised, nothing more.

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"Yeah, show me what you've got, Kagome...show us that you wouldn't be defeated so easily!" Inuyasha muttered, a single tear slide down his cheek. He panted slightly when the apartment was finally in sight.

"You're not going alone, we're in this together,"Miroku gasped for breath, and Sango managed a smile. Inuyasha nodded, and pushed the door open.

Funnily, the two receptionists have the weirdest hair style, at least to Inuyasha. The white-haired one has a nametag of 'Hakkaku' and the other 'Ginta'. Wasting no time, Inuyasha slammed his fist down on the desk, making the two jump in fright, "Hey you, I want to see Bankotsu right now!"

The two frantically pressed a red bottom from many of their keyboards. Ginta whispered hoarsely into the hidden mic, "Aneki, help us! A weird dude wants to see Bankotsu!"

Hakkaku attempted to smile, "Please just wait for a moment..." Inside he was twisting with terror of this silver-haired guy.

After a few minutes, an auburn-haired girl came down, glancing at their 'guests'. Miroku looked at the girl up and down, wich earned a quick whack from Sango.

"I'm Ayame. So you want to see Ban? Come, let's talk in a more secluded place," Ayame kept a calm voice,yet she failed to figure out what to do in such situation. The people before her are Rin and Kagome's friends, according to the information. And that girl seemed to be Sango, who is with the police. Just because they all work for the government doesn't mean the police like the different Cells, since most of them composed of ex-mafia, ex-criminal etc. Ayame scowled inwardly; she would give Ban some...'talks'...later.

"Such would not be necessary. I shall handle them for now," Ayame looked up to see her saviour, who glared coldly at his 'little brother'.

Ayame shrugged and told Ginta and Hakkaku to get back to work. She quickly dashed towards the stairs and pushed a certain wolf man back into the shadow, just in time.

Inuyasha was so surprised that he could only follow Sesshoumaru silently. When they reached sme sort of conference room, inuyasha snapped out of his reverie, "What the hell are you doing here--------"

"Spare me the greetings, dear brother," Sesshoumaru growled darkly, frowning in slight disgust at his mere presence, "Meeting Bankotsu would not be possible, let alone your girlfriend..."

"What did you do to Kagome? And how do you know about Ban----"

"For once just shut up, Inuyasha! Just listen to me and don't interrupt!" Sesshoumaru bellowed, slamming his hands so hard on the table that they all heard a crack.

Inuyasha did as he was told; Sesshoumaru never lost his composure and rarely raised his voice like that, even against him. Sesshoumaru rubbed his temple and breathed hard; ever since their mission's failure, he'd been rather...irritable lately, and even more so after a certain girl locked herself away from the world and refused to come out.

Of course, he know there is no way to stop Inuyasha from seeing Kagome, but he can't know about everything either. He quickly thought up an excuse, and filled them all in.

"What's dog-crap doing here?" Kouga growled angrily, as he and Ayame walked towards Suikotsu's floor, "he better not appear again and harrass my friends!" Ayame remained quiet, and her face was red. When she had pushed Kouga, she had tripped accidentally and ended falling on top of him. Kouga took no notice of his roomate's state as they went in to see Kagome.

Ayame cringed as she saw the many layers of bandages. Just who did this? Claw wounds...that was what the doctor said. Sometimes Ayame wondered if those are way more fatal then bullet wounds.

Kouga sat down on a nearby chair instantly and wrapped his hands around Kagome's pale one.

"Kagome?" Kouga began quietly, Ayame averted her gaze from the scene. She felt horrible for feeling jealous - the girl was injured for God's sake and of course Kouga would be concerned!

"Please wake up, Kagome...no matter how much that mutt cares for you, I would always love you," Kouga continued, missing a flinch from his roomate.

Still, silence greeted him.

Kouga sighed, seeing no movement from the girl he loves so much. He got up from the chair, and Ayame followed.

Aquiet, scornful chucklewas heard and they both looked around warily, and decided it was just an imagination.

Had they both look closely, they would see a tiny camera and trackerhidden expertly and securely in Kagome's hair.

A streak of lightning shot across the room, making the target board burn and explode immediately. A figure holding a a trident whistled appreciatively, his red eyes glinting in bloodlust, "My, can't underestimate the techonology anymore, can we, Manten?"

"Nope, Aniki. So what's our next assignment?" A bulky figure holding two iron bats chuckled darkly.

"Naraku said that if we confirmed this for him, Souten would be freed," Hiten replied, a sad look replaced his sadistic expression. Manten's huge shoulders dropped and he whispered sadly, "Yea, she's so young...at last she can get a life. A normal life."

The two brothers gripped their weapons angrily in determination. It is a mission they can't fail at all costs.

The door creaked open slightly, and Suikotsu's head shot up in surprise when Rin slid in quietly, closing the door.

"Rin, what are you...I mean..."

"Can I see Kagome, please?" Her voice was monotony, and Suikotsu felt a chilly tremble down his spine from no reason.

"Yes, she's in Shippo's old room. She's still asleep," he replied, and he caught a glance at the quiet girl's eyes. He gasped.

Unlike her voice, Rin's eyes are filled with hatred, staring ahead darkly.

Sesshoumaru sighed again as he made his way up and into Suikotsu's floor. How long and difficult it was to convince his moronic brother. He could understand about wanting to see Kagome, but being so persistent about why he, Sesshoumaru, is here...Another sigh escaped his lips.

Basically, he told them he and Bankotsu both worked for the government, but he didn't elaborate much about their organization. He didn't say why Kagome's family was attacked either, since they haven't figure that much out yet themselves. Anyways, to prevent further problems, he had arranged a time for Inuyasha to visit Kagome. Of course, he would have to keep an eye on Rin.

Speaking of the girl...where is she? Rin wasn't crying or sleeping in her room when he checked their floor earlier, and after checking all other possible places, the only place would be visitng Kagome. He hadn't expected Rin to recover that fast.

He stopped outside Kagome's room, and peeped inside.

Kagome seemed to be faring better than the doctor expected, since there aren't any complicated machines around the bed. The girl is still in a lot of bandages, though. Rin sat on a chair besides the bed, she seemed to be whispering something.

Sesshoumaru felt unknown tinge of fear when he heard such anger coming from Rin.

"I sweat I would avenge for you, Kagome-chan. I swear I...will kill the one who did this to you. It is time for me to stop cowering around and listen to their blames...it is time to retaliate..., just like that time..."

He frowned when he heard a bitter chuckle from Rin. This isn't good at all. Rin had come out of her room alright, but not exactly in the state they all hoped. Not in a state that he hoped...

He fisted his hand until his knuckles turned white; he knew this feeling, the feeling to get revenge, and the hatred...after all, that's what keeps him going ever since she died...but somehow, it felt wrong for someone like Rin to be like him...

He would have to save her from the darkness.

End of Chapter 6

-Aniki/Aneki- Big brother/Big sister (sometimes not related at all, like in a gang etc.)

-onegai -please

-yamette-stop

Long chapter...and not much action either...after all, give the poor people a break. What's happening to Rin?

The part about Rin's past might be a bit too extreme, but it's similar to what happened in the anime...gosh, adults ganging on a little kid just because she took some fish...

Inuyasha and Kouga ARE alike sometimes...they swore the exact same words...almost...

I've always wanted to express the sibling relationship between the Thunder Clan(?) youkais. After all, Souten is an anime-only character and we don't get the chance to see much of what the brothers thought of her. I'd say very protective :D

And something seems fishy here...hehehe

Anyways, once again review and tell me what you think!

------Kaco out------(waves)

To Reviewers/Readers - Thanx for supporting this fic!

silentxangel - lol sorry about Sess loving Kagura first...but since he doesn't even know Rin before...and no, of course Kagome's not going to die, she's very important to this fic(just as major as Bankotsu).

Sesshoumaru's woman - Ah, Happy birthday(very late, I know) and Happy new Year ...again no fast update(dodges flying cockroaches) Yeeeek. You know, we used have rats up our ceilings at my school (the horror) And hehehe I'm a procrastinator myself too. Good luck on getting an E-mail address, I'd love to talk to you online. Wolf out. (I'm a Wolfpeople O.o lol)