CHAPTER 5

While all of this was happening Peter was eating with other teachers and counselors when his eyes met the cliffhangers' table. He noticed right away that someone was missing… Juliette wasn't sitting with them. He stood up and went to them.

"Where's Juliette ?" He asked them.

"Well, apparently not here" David said making fun of Peter who in response gave him a stern look.

"I saw her in our dorm before I got here" Kat said feeling bad about not telling everything.

"Okay, thanks Kat"

"You're welcome Peter".

"Did she say anything ?" he asked her, "Did she seem strange or anything ?"

Kat knew she couldn't tell the truth, she had allowed Juliette to take a few days to come to him herself. She hated lying, she really did ! But she had no choice !

"You know, Peter, honestly I didn't really pay attention, I…"

"It's ok Kat you don't need to explain" Peter said as he walked away towards the girls' dorm.

As Juliette heard some noise from someone approaching she shut her eyes faking being asleep hoping that then nobody would bother her.

It worked ! Peter stopped at the door and saw Juliette lying on her bed; eyes shut and decided to not wake her up. After staying there for a few seconds he finally left.

She opened her eyes and started thinking about the essay and poem she had to write. She didn't want to do that but she knew she didn't have a choice. She didn't want to write down her feelings about what she was doing, how she was cutting herself, and how she was feeling about that and life in general. Nobody would understand anyway.

The others were done with their lunch and Auggie was looking for Juliette. When he couldn't find her outside he thought that she might be in the dorm. Once again Juliette heard some noise and shut her eyes not to be disturbed. Auggie called out her name as he arrived but then stopped making any noise as he saw her sleeping wondering whether he should wake her up or not. He so wanted to ! He wanted to talk to her, be close to her and even kiss her as there were no counselors around to not let them do that.

Of course Juliette recognized his voice but she didn't move, she didn't want him to be near her, touch her, she was too disgusting, she hated herself for what she was doing, for cutting again, and she couldn't stand having someone touch her, for fear that someone might accidentally hit a place she cut and she would scream in pain and then they would all know. And she didn't want Auggie to have a bad opinion about her. She feared he would leave her.

Auggie finally left. He went to find the others outside. They wanted to know about Juliette.

"So, where is she ?" Scott asked concerned.

"She's in the dorm, sleeping" Auggie answered.

"I wonder how come she's that tired all of a sudden" David said with a smile, "What has she been doing or with who ?" he said trying to get on Auggie's nerves like always.

"Shut the fuck up !" Auggie yelled at him !

David smiled.

"Don't listen to him, Auggie, you know he's just trying to annoy you that's all he always does, just ignore him" Scott gently said trying to make his friend feel better.

David kept talking for a while but nobody paid attention to him anymore so he was mainly talking to himself.

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